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exactly!! he was scared of her because she could see him!! and that was such a scary thing for him because he couldn't form attachments if he was going to run by october, then by spring. but because of this understanding i can see them becoming literally the best duo. like you know when you introduce someone to one of your friends to another friend and they end up becoming better friends with each other? that's EXACTLY what happened to andrew with neil and renee.

renee being on the ball about EVERYTHING neil likes and dislikes. "not everyone dislikes bee" "that's why i make you uncomfortable" "i'm not andrew's type because im a woman" etc etc. what a queen. she's literally neil's mentor. like what didn't she tell neil. nobody else noticed these things and obviously she hasn't survived this long by being ignorant to other people's emotions, but she just reads neil so well. it's probably incredibly disconcerting for neil to be so known by a stranger.

GOD he was such a windup i LOVE HIM

most neil moments of all time collection:

calling kevin a deadweight has been and immediately running way

"whatd you do, run here?" "walked. 😐"

you know, i get it

telling bee the rest of the team is mental... baby girl look in the mirror

getting a pair of nice new boots from andrew and immediately imagining what it would be like to kick his face in

upending a glass of water on the floor and then throwing it at aaron

paying a bus boy $100 to knock him out

being told to keep his phone on and immediately turning it off after hanging up

shoving andrews hand up his shirt in front of like half a dozen people

learning andrew is afraid of heights and being like well if it makes you feel better it's more likely you'll die in a car accident than a plane crash :)

in the middle of getting kidnapped and telling lola she looks like a strung out whore

"are you stupid?" "yeah."

when the girl asks for his number and he's like what for 😐.

i have a bit of an attitude problem.

you're going to eat those words and you're going to choke on them.

"you plan on wearing the same six outfits over and over again this year?" "eight. and yes. 😑"

picking up andrews old cigarette and taking a drag while making eye contact with him on the roof from the ground and doing his two finger salute. HUGE fag moment.

FUCK THAT'S AMAZING

i think about him a normal amount

Kevin and Thea met when they were 14 and 18, respectively. How did a romance spark between them with a four year difference? I mean like... did she not just see some gross spotty kid with delusions of grandeur???

still not over how when renee said andrew wasn't into her because she's a woman, neil's first reaction was "OH so Andrew And Kevin-" bro like kandrew was so obvious even in the books like. neil you're right babe!! they were supposed to be together once upon a time! an absolutely traumatic conversation for this wee boy because!! then she hits neil with the "kevin has a girlfriend" GOD i'd die if i was him.

renee being on the ball about EVERYTHING neil likes and dislikes. "not everyone dislikes bee" "that's why i make you uncomfortable" "i'm not andrew's type because im a woman" etc etc. what a queen. she's literally neil's mentor. like what didn't she tell neil. nobody else noticed these things and obviously she hasn't survived this long by being ignorant to other people's emotions, but she just reads neil so well. it's probably incredibly disconcerting for neil to be so known by a stranger.

PLEASE I implore you to read whole "doesn't mean i wouldn't blow you" conversation to the chorus of Closer by Nine Inch Nails. That is all.

Here's your daily reminder that Neil canonically refers to the twins as "pint-sized" on Halloween

Andrew literally helped Matt because watching Matt be scared of his addiction could have hurt his brother. Because he saw Aaron in Matt's inability to fight his addiction. Because if there's one thing Andrew understands, it's helplessness. And i think it's unbelievable that Matt's trip to Eden's was revealed straight after Andrew was visited by Officer Higgins about Drake.

can we talk about how exy courts have no fucking nets. there are just squares painted on the fucking plexiglass. but the squares aren't just squares- no no my friend... THE SQUARES LIGHT UP? why are the goals just light up sketchers??? is there even walls on an exy court like in ice hockey? or is it just clear all the way down? i HATE THIS STUPID BASTARD SPORT. nora please come back from the dead ten years later just to explain the full logistics of the exy court. pls and thx

NEIL YOU SWEET SUMMER CHILD. after nicky's little info dump about he felt like erik was strong enough for nicky to lean on for hours without him breaking a sweat, neil thinks about how he feels there is no one strong enough to shoulder his problems. except andrew. andrew stood his ground instead of being horrified at the truth. AND THEN IMMEDIATELY DISREGARDS IT WITH- and i quote- "but that didnt count, because andrew was andrew" NEIL YOU'RE HAVING GAY THOUGHTS LESS THAN HALFWAY THROUGH TRK SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UPPPPP

Thinking about Nicholas Esteban Hemmick, who for some reason did improv classes. Who would literally clap back at anyone in less than a second. School mascot thrusts at him? He thrusts right back. Some fans heckling the foxes? He didn't even hesitate to heckle back. Wymack had to stop him. He was literally so unhinged. what the hell. What a little shitster.

Marketing degree? Please go to hell. Thinking about how he overcompensated his personality to be even brighter and bubblier to balance out the twins doom and gloom. Thinking about him going to conversion therapy. Thinking about his future husband saving his life. Thinking about his black hair (that everyone forgets for some reason?) Thinking about how he was an overdramatic useless gay bastard on the court. If he wasn't so flashy he would be a better player and he literally gave no fucks.

who let this man outside. I love him.

that's INSANE and i thought there were fucking NETS in this stupid fucking game

I constantly forget that exy is played on a courts the size of soccer????

Like its a hardwood court so my brain says its the size of basketball that is incorrect

"Exy was a bastard sport, an evolved sort of lacrosse on a soccer-sized court with the violence of ice hockey"

There are 10 people for soccer + goalkeeper

Exy is 5 + goalkeeper AND there are movement restrictions.

This beggs so many questions

How does anyone get cose enough to check how do they cover any ground when they only take ten steps? Even with passing its so far.

How high is the plexiglass?? How can Andrew smack the ball down the court its so far it would have to be hit like a bullet and have a high arc.

Realistically its more the size of an ice hockey rink with field hockey marks.

This doesn't even adress if the stadium is indoor or outdoor and weather there is actually like a net or goal with depth.

I need everyones thoughts

i literally DIED when that girl was trying to get his number. girllll you dodged the biggest fucking bullet. that bullet being one andrew minyard, the butcher of baltimore and the moriyama crime family

hc that one day the upperclassmen bring up neil/marissa Incident while andrew is in hearing distance. the whole story is retold, complete with reenactments and typical fox dramatics as they howl at neil’s reaction to this poor girl just trying to get his number. 

importantly, this is the first and only time the other foxes see two things from andrew: ONE (1). how close he is to laughing at the absurdity of the entire story, of marissa being so silly, of neil being obtuse as a goose (but that’s ANDREW’S obtuse goose, tyvm), and generally the concept of neil not comprehending someone’s advances and TWO (2). how close he is to expressing real regret… regret that he wasn’t there in person to witness this glorious moment, of seeing someone else suffer from neil’s utter lack of awareness that andrew thought only he had to endure, of not seeing neil’s face and hearing his voice as he told marissa ‘i wouldn’t call you’. the ONLY time the upperclassmen see andrew that close to these emotions he claims not to feel.

interrupting our irregularly posted and unnecessarily long posts with this devastating piece of news. I was listening to An Honest Mistake on spotify by The Bravery and i swear to fuck. i went to look at the lyrics and was immediately bombarded with ORANGE AND WHITE and i was like FUCKKKK AFTG EXY FOXES HGNGHHGH. and then. i actually read the fucking lyrics and its literally andrew. THE SONG IS LITERALLY ANDREW FALLING IN LOVE WITH NEIL. PLEASE LISTEN TO IT. IM SO.

i hate that it's true

Neil could be a fanfic writer, like imagine “sorry im late for this update I had an exy game, loads of homework, and my dad kidnapped me my bad!” And no one would bat an eye because that’s what HAPPENS to fanfic authors 💀

Ok i understand the i love you thing as someone who hasn't said i love you since they were eleven but for the marriage but i raise you one better- Tax benefits. They would 100% get married for tax benefits. And legal stuff in hospitals and/or different legal matters with like. the police or some shit. Anyways yeah. i feel like marriage would happen but i love you never would.

I know many people complain a lot that Neil and Andrew never say I love you or get married. But why would they ever need to? They have promises they will never break . Those promises are about keeping one another, staying, and protecting one another no matter the cost. Is that not what love and marriage is supposed to be? Why do they have to say it or prove it legally when they already know it’s true? Those are just words and a legal document, arbitrary in the wake of their past. they prove it everyday to one another how much their love means just by staying together.

why did you have to. call it an aquarium.

Never would've thought I'd be so emotionally invested in a bunch of problematicaly coded characters playing violent lacross in an aquarium.

the actual funniest shit. an ideal world where aaron wasn't homophobic

What if Andrew bans everyone from calling Neil his boyfriend & Aaron just goes overboard to spite him calling Neil his "loverboy", "groupie", "squeeze", "side piece", "exclusive boy toy" etc

One day Aaron introduces Neil as "Andrew's love muffin" and the ban is officially off. 😆

AFTG Headcannons!

i'm currently rereading the books and i thinking about the foxes and i just need some fluff in my life.

· First Andrew and his Arms TM. How much he lifts in the gym is notable enough for Neil to point it out. He could out-lift anyone on the foxes and anyone on his new team post graduation. Which is incredibly funny to think about because he's literally 5 foot. Horribly unbalanced. Neil wants to lick his biceps.

· Every one of the foxes has seen andriel making out on the roof. Aaron is scarred for life. Kevin wishes they would spend that time on the court. Nicky has to be restrained so he doesn't take a picture to send to Allison. Wymack heaves a long suffering sigh. Why did the universe set him up with these idiots?

· Neil thinks of half his comebacks in advance. the other half is adapted from his pre-existing list. He talks so much shit in his head he just starts writing it down. Neil is a planner. Andrew also knows about this list. Sometimes Neil writes them down for him to give his critiques.

· Andrew and Aaron learn to fight like normal brothers eventually. Imagining those boys bickering like siblings breaks me in half.

· Aaron has a stage where he dyes his hair brown for like a couple months. He didn't ask for twin, did he? Him and Andrew don't talk much during this little rebellion.

· The foxes actually call drunk Kevin "Kevin Night". I saw a post about Kevin Night being all about destroying his liver and safe to say that is the funniest thing i have ever seen in this fandom. It's a running gag among the foxes and you'll Never Guess who started it. (nicky)

· When Andrew and Neil both eventually quit smoking, Neil takes to drawing all over Andrew's hand to curb his cravings, and somehow it spirals into him sketching on his arms, legs and torso and months later, under his armbands. But it all comes to a head years later when Andrew wakes up with a fox paw on his ass. Neil can't show his neck in public for months.

· One morning after a particularly bad nightmare, instead of Andrew hitting out, it was Neil. Andrew has a bloody nose by the end of it and Neil has never felt worse. More proof that he's nothing, that he's not worthy of the foxes, that all he can do is hurt, because oh god He Hurt Andrew- Andrew puts a stop to it as soon as he isn't dripping blood all over the carpet. Healing isn't linear, junkie.

· Once Andrew gets to the stage where he's ok with hickeys, Neil suddenly can't leave enough of them. If the foxes didn't know better, they would tease the hell out of him but sometimes their self preservation instincts get the better of them. Often, much the Aaron's disgust, the place bets on how many bruises will be on his neck the morning after. Renee refuses to bet on principle.

· Allison teaching Neil to dress himself and taking him on their weekly shopping dates. I just love the idea of it so much. The freshmen thinking they're dating because of it. Allison dressing Neil to kill, for Andrew's sake. Almost all the clothes she buys him end up on the floor afterwards. Allison teaching Neil to do eyeliner. Neil with getting a matching helix piercing with Allison. Everyone dies a little once they see it. Matt drools a little.

· As Neil becomes more up to date with his flirting skills, he realises that "Doesn't mean I wouldn't blow you" is literally the most insane this to say during a conversation. He teases Andrew mercilessly and Andrew does that thing where he blushes with his ears and snogs the life out of Neil. He doesn't believe in regret but even he isn't immune to Neil's particular brand of wind-up.

unrelated but my dog would do this exact thing too

these have given me life, cleared my skin, improved my grades and passed my exams for me

the people deserve to know my random tma headcanons

- melanie and jon are the exact same height. it pisses both of them off. 

- daisy is the oldest archival assistant, she doesn’t tell anybody her birthday tho (except basira)

- tim has a nose ring, dont argue he just does 

- tim and sasha pretended to get engaged to get free food from restaurants more than once 

- melanie and jon have the same birthday. it pisses both of them off.

- jon steals everybody’s laundry and has worn at least one item of everybody’s clothes 

- martin’s crush didn’t start until after mag22, jon’s started after martin told him about his cv 

- jon is literally incapable of standing still

- elias made his bet with peter in ep100 

- something in my heart and in my soul is so certain that jon lied about how many statements he took during his intervention 

GAY RIGHTS ASSHOLES !!

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Joanne can suck it

The Onion’s journalism is the only journalism that matters. Holy fuck.

no.2 the fivesome??

ok i can't and won't explain why it took me so long to write another one but i'm back !!

So... the whole five way thing that the gang had was. a lot. honestly reading was fine until you realised that everyone had slept with each other at some point other than richard and he was on his was there with francis anyways. my thoughts on this are all over the place but i just. i need it in plain english.

So Richard was in love with Camilla, and attracted to Henry and Charles, and almost slept with Francis. Camilla was in love with Henry, who loved her back. Charles and Camilla slept together and Charles was an abusive dickwad to her. He was probably in love with Camilla too. Francis and charles slept together on occasion and Francis was in love with Charles. I feel like there's more but. whatever.

wow. my thoughts are why was everyone so horny. literally you could've slept with Anyone Else. but nooooo we study ancient greek we're too good for everyone else. they're not built different they're built wrong. they took groupcest to another level.

i mean like,,, they were all college students so you can't judge them too hard because they were all on mood altering substances 99% of the time, so at that point they probably didn't have many brain cells left. Honestly richard shouldve just bit the bullet and gotten with Francis or something to put them both out of their collective miseries.

i'm embarrassed for them tbh. and just to point out that Richard being bi asf is a genuine (problem?) thing that female writers do with unreliable male narrators who are supposed to be straight. which i find like. so funny because it goes totally over my head the first time i read books, because im bisexual too so it's normal to me. but then going back and realising its some cishet white guy narrating and its a little suspicious?

obvious it's usually because the author is a cishet white woman who projects her attraction to men onto her characters. another notable example of this is Harry Potter. so this isn't like an isolated incident it's a thing that happens. the same way that men can tend to write women 2-dimensional, women tend to write as men bisexual. on accident? it's all very interesting to me.

dead ass i havent even watched the movie but the inherent queer coding of todd anderson bleeds onto the page

Finally got my hands on the Dead Poets Society Novelization and like

BRO WHAT DOES THIS EVEN MEAN. MR KEATING WHAT ARE YOU??? CRAZY GAYDAR??? TOOK ONE LOOK AT THESE TWO AND WAS LIKE "HMM OKAYYY"

GAY RIGHTS !!!

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sketchy warmups of some codependent horror podcast men

arthur and john (malevolent), david ward (i am in eskew), nate and steve (the cellar letters), warren and gordon (red valley), jon and martin (the magnus archives).

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no.1: dickieboy oldman

First impressions: he's nothing like me. he's a weird narrator, unreliable and all this account take on this dreamlike take of what happened. i mean seriously, his account of everything is almost a decade after the events and it's idealised and confusing, chock full of timeskips.

But. he's an incredibly written unreliable narrator. he leaves out key details, (like the fact he was drunk off his ass half the time) (or on drugs) and just really. he lets his own bias get in the way of everything. he still loves bunny and charles (charles somewhat less because he actually hurt someone he "cared" about) because he's a white man from california in the eighties. he doesn't care that they're but abusive hateful people because their prejudices don't actively hurt him. even though they harmed his friends.

and furthermore he kind of indulges in the same prejudices. he feels violent urges towards camilla (though it was really a passing remark and he doesnt act on them as charles does) and his internalised homophobia inhibits his relationship with francis whenever he's confronted with francis' gayness all over again. (although francis was flirting with him the entire time. so that may be a moot point.) so yeah. he's definitely a narrator alright.

the way he interacts with people is interesting because he feels the urge to lie about. well. everything to do with his past. and so he doesn't really HAVE a relationship with people until they realise he's penniless. which they notice pretty quickly. (even bunny does) (ie making fun of his offbrand ties etc etc) as the people around him spend mroe time with him and realise that Richard Papen is actually poor, they start treating him like a person.

Richard has a very distinct and interesting way of interacting with his friends individually. he builds up a distinct way to build rapport with each of them. (reassuring charles that he is liked, listening to francis and taking him to the doctors etc) because not only does he have a deep seated need to be like, BUT he wants these people to stick with him for life. he wants them to want him.

but onto the reason i wrote this. hes fuckin gay. the way he describes men is just out of this world. henry is described like he's a god. francis is beautiful and untouchable. charles is an all american dream. and camilla. is constantly described as boyish and looking exactly like charles. which means he's attracted to charles by proxy. he literally kisses francis back in the kitchen. he would've got on his knees for henry had he the chance. he was literally a charles apologist. he was so repressed it hurts my heart. he just didn't like women the way he described men. he wanted to grow old with francis in the countryside. camilla was the closest he was going to get to a man.

he's toeing the line between bicon and gay bastard but god does he walk it hard. he does it for us. i love and hate his junkie ass.