Trans man, 19 years old, on T and post top, stealth in day to day life. This is my blog to post about trans stuff, as well as other queer stuff sometimes.
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I'm going to SCREAM why are trans people so mean towards other trans people? I could genuinely pour my heart out about how the trans healthcare system quite literally traumatized me and I'll get a bunch of people like "errrrrr that didn't happen me, you're probably just making it worse in your head, just answer honest to the doctors and everything will go to plan" WHAT
considering ripping/stabbing it apart, and using its insides to stuff up my old teddy bear again.... but would that be the right thing? Use parts of the Bad(tm) creature for the Good creature?
I'm not saying I'm mentally ill, but today I bought a new teddy bear because I had been looking at it for a couple weeks and finally caved into the temptation. Yet the moment I put it down on my bed, I felt an overwhelming urge of guilt and disgust and the need to throw it away and apologize to my old, trusty teddy. And now the new one won't stop looking at my with its devilish eyes and I actually want to get rid of it even though it's like brand-new but I also DO NOT want to touch that thing anymore.
I've thought about just donating it since I just don't want that thing near me, but I'm not sure I'd want any kid to have that creepy fuck of a bear near them either. Idk it's getting really uneasy on them and I'm going insane.
I'm not saying I'm mentally ill, but today I bought a new teddy bear because I had been looking at it for a couple weeks and finally caved into the temptation. Yet the moment I put it down on my bed, I felt an overwhelming urge of guilt and disgust and the need to throw it away and apologize to my old, trusty teddy. And now the new one won't stop looking at my with its devilish eyes and I actually want to get rid of it even though it's like brand-new but I also DO NOT want to touch that thing anymore.
I'm not saying I'm mentally ill, but today I bought a new teddy bear because I had been looking at it for a couple weeks and finally caved into the temptation. Yet the moment I put it down on my bed, I felt an overwhelming urge of guilt and disgust and the need to throw it away and apologize to my old, trusty teddy. And now the new one won't stop looking at my with its devilish eyes and I actually want to get rid of it even though it's like brand-new but I also DO NOT want to touch that thing anymore.
Looked up my new (kinda shitty) job's company and I get shit like this.... Not too surprised. Company ideology like that seeps into all branches, no matter how big or small, how high-up or "lower level employee"...
It's like nowhere in the world is it truly "safe" or good anymore.. At this point I assume that every single big company has donated to war criminals, racists, or homophobes unless very explicitely stated otherwise, which I haven't encountered yet.
I don't know how to take amabs seriously when they describe how oppressed they think they were for their sex as children and it's literally just that they weren't allowed to wear frilly clothes. Like I'm sorry but no, I don't care about the time you cried because your parents made you get a haircut you didn't like. I was taught by the world's most common religion as a child that afab people are the root of all human evil, we exist to be slaves for amab people, and our only redemption is suffering.
I can't imagine being delusional enough to describe myself as "tme" while my reproductive rights are perpetually threatened in most of the country. I am a trans man and I am tma. I am a trans person who experiences misogyny.
Looks like I'm going to have to skip avocado toast again
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This is what causes inflation, in case you're wondering.
If you tell a trans man that you don't trust him because he is a man and you think men are untrustworthy, you are directly saying you would be more comfortable around him if he stayed in the closet.
No you don’t understand me calling you afab isn’t me calling you female it’s me just referring to an event that happened in your life - where you were assigned female. Don’t question why I never call you a man only a “afab trans person”. I’m not misgendering you and if you think I am then you have internalized transphobia you need to work out.
In similar fashion: more passing advice than "just wear baggy clothes" as if that's a one size fits all solution + it honestly doesn't cover nearly aspect of passing
Trans guys will literally break their ribs chest binding and still not pass just to get told by some rando on tiktok that all trans guys need to do to pass is put on an oversized flannel
Oh my god what a disgusting thing to say. Imagine if someone said "well lucky you get to ejaculate sperm" to a transfem. That would be absolutely fucked up. Neither of these things are okay. Check your internalised transphobia.
''trans men wont suffer as much if you forcefully out them'' could you say that to an actual trans mans face though or can you only say it online? could you say any of this hateful shit if you had to actually articulate it face to face with a real person or are you only comfortable when its wrapped up in comfy internet discourse buzzwords?
“transandrophobia isn’t real” literally just this morning i walked downstairs to find on the tv a news story about “young mentally ill girls mutiliating themselves with double mastectomies” but yeah sure everyone loves and respects trans men
I need every single person to understand how horrible tumblr’s tagging system is
I go into the tag for epilepsy and its all flashing lights. We can’t use our own tag because people without epilepsy fill it up with improper warnings.
Use ‘flashing’ in place of ‘epilepsy’ in your tags. You aren’t warning people of epileptics, you’re warning us of flashing lights. Please please tag properly. Epileptics say this endlessly and constantly and it’s ignored. You are risking lives by doing this.
Here’s proof of what I mean:
I'll get lynched, but trans women most definitely have privilege over trans men when it comes to receiving trans-related medical care, and yes that has to do with amab privilege, which is also very real, even if you transition and you're "no longer a man" for lack of better words. There's an inherent privilege to being amab. Obviously being a trans woman doesn't come without downsides, but you also retain some amab privilege, especially in healthcare treatment.
Signed! Wasn't even aware this was a thing O.o I really hope it goes somewhere!
The local queer centrum asked us all to support the ban on conversion therapy in the EU initiative, so now it's My Job to do it seriously.
We still need so many signatures. Damn. So. Many. Signatures.
Come on people, we can do this!!
Really sorry to have a mildly nsfw/nsft rant on an otherwise completely sfw blog, but I had to get this out... TW: cis men's disgusting (sexual) behaviour towards trans men
I've had it happened several times now where I thought I had a normal guy friendship with a cis dude, only to find out they in some way fantasized about me as my agab, or thought about my agab parts, usually in a sexual way.
It really hurts. Cis men get to get away with all that, but people act like *I* am the bad guy when I just want to jerk off to girls in peace... As much as it pains me to say it, trans men and cis men are in no way equal, nor treated as such...
Had to have this legendary legacy post on my blog
when she says she doesn’t send nudes
I want to be supportive of women and girls getting to be their masculine self nowadays but it's really hard because I'll always be a bit resentful and salty about the fact I wasn't even allowed stuff like the Cars movies and playing with hotwheels. Telling my family I wanted to shave my head partially is probably my first gender related traumatic event.
Maybe I'm wrong for feeling that way, but I can't help but feel a lot of mixed emotions when seeing women, and especially little girls nowadays, get to be happily masculine as kids/teens or even young adults.
The tags are everything I know. I am sharing this with every single one to try and spread the word.
In a few months I'll officially not only have lost my childhood to dysphoria and knowing it'll never be quite right, but also the exact same thing will happen with the entirety of my teenage years! Two fucking decades gone nowhere, epitome of a waste of time.
Like fuck dude I know that cis men can get depressed as well, but at least you got the comfort of not having your own body and soul tormenting you. And at least you can peacefully rub one out and have a few moments of bliss. Idk. Wish I could do that.
And the fact this is exactly what my 20s will look like.. and my 30s... And basically all the time until I can finally call it quits.... I dont even know what to say, I cant put it into words.
People forget real quickly that barely 10 years ago young girls would be put on blast for wanting to cut their hair short, let alone actually go through with it
"No one cares if women / transmascs / afab people wear pants and boy clothes!!!"
On my knees begging you to talk to people who grew up in religious fundamentalist communities and high control groups / cults
Would reblog a thousand times if I could
I feel like people forget most trans guys still had to grow up as girls.
We were still forced to be mature early
We were still told to not to take up space
We were still subject to female beauty standards
Our bodies were still treated as inappropriate
We were still pitted against each other
We were still excluded from “male” activities
We were still treated as lesser the boys
Those things don’t evaporate once we transition they’re fucking internalized. I constantly have to remind myself I’m allowed to exist. We don’t stop dealing with misogyny.
the fact that trans women can talk about their specific oppression without acknowledging trans men, but trans men cant talk about our experiences without acknowledging trans women, or we will get treated like we are somehow the real oppressors.... is not great not gonna lie