Latest Posts by inspiredtrans - Page 3

You are well within your right to be angry about the help you didn't get and should have gotten.

You are well within your right to be angry about having your needs neglected.

You are well within your right to be angry.

Suicide isn't selfish, it's not your fault if you want to end your suffering.

Not to be a hater but I genuinely hate the fact that people get disability checks for stuff like autism when I'm here, suffering crippling depression and dysphoria, as well as a health condition that makes endurance and stamina incredibly hard, juggling college classes, a job, and general life maintenance because I live alone, relying on financial aid for college students that disappears the moment I graduate(or get kicked out), and then my minimum wage job.

Idk, it just almost feels offensive to be juggling all that, when there's people who claim disability checks because they just find it so hard to talk to people, or because they're unable to focus on anything, and then they just sit on their ass and play videogames in their childhood bedroom all day, or in the free housing apartment they got.

People will call me jealous, and, well, yeah? Of course? Like wym somebody is getting free housing, free insurance, and free income while just sitting at home all day, when I'm constantly managing all the aforementioned and I get told to "just man up"

Fuck all the way off. I'll never support neets no matter how much they claim they're "fighting the system". You're an adult baby, and it's time to grow the fuck up.

I think my most boomer take is WHY THE FUCK TO COMPANIES HAVE NO TECH SUPPORT WHATSOEVER???

This is mostly about online/tech companies, who often have no real way of contacting them, or they have a shitty contact form at most, and 99.99% of the time they "reply" with some shitty auto-reply that offers no help and basically politely tells you to go fuck yourself.

Like wtf happened to being able to give a phone company a call, and they would walk you step to step through your issue? I've had serious account issues with like discord and reddit, and most if not all of it could've been resolved if I could give them a customer support call.

Having troubles with my google account out of all things, and I can't find a real way to contact them where you actually get any help.

It fucking sucks and makes everything so much more complicated. Can tech companies please give us real customer support, and can the EU finally grow some balls and do something about it?

quick rant, cw for slight nsfw but nothing graphic or overly explicit, just mentions of nsfw stuff. but WHY THE FUCK do I keep getting people saying that they have "species dysphoria" over not getting to be a dragon or some other animal or creature, and not only that, but then EQUATE IT TO ME FEELING GENDER DYSPHORIA??? AND SOMEHOW IMPLYING WE'RE EQUALS???

Hell naw. Your ass did not cry yourself to sleep every night at 13 because you didn't have a tail, or because you had skin instead of scales. You didn't spend your entire adolescence suicidal because you have human genitals that match your agab instead of whatever fantasy cock you want to have.

I know this will come across as incredible rude, and people will feel invalidated. I'm not saying you're a bad person for wanting to be another species, or being a furry, or anything of the sorts... but don't equate it to gender dysphoria, and don't try to imply that we're equal in terms of dysphoria or feeling that your body doesn't match.

also on an ending note: why is wanting to be a dragon or a wolf or whatever with a cock the length of your torso considered "dysphoria" or something that actually causes you to suffer, but I get reprimanded for wishing I was just a cis straight dude and could fuck a girl every now and then. Like somehow I'm the bad guy for wanting that but people can say they wish they were a werewolf with a 20" inch and claim they feel the same dysphoria as I do over that.

Only clowns would pay for therapy out of pocket only to not be 100% honest with their therapist (it's me)

how do i open up to my therapist about my therapist (i don’t want to go to therapy anymore) (i don’t feel valid enough) (i just wanna end it fam 😓) (give me back my psych meds please im tired 💔) (or maybe don’t they make me dizzy ❤️)

Dear capitalism,

buying anything besides groceries makes me physically sick

beat that

I fucking hate tech corporations so fucking much. Literally not a single big tech company has reliable customer support, if they have one at all.

Like what I wouldn't give to just be able to make a phone call to some of these companies. So many problems could be solved in 10-30 minutes instead of hours, if not days searching for a solution on the internet only for it to still not work and just giving up, and just being made fun of by tech bros if you dare to ask online by making your own post, and *still* not being provided with a solution

It's insane how (some) cis men think it's completely normal and okay to have a wife that loves them unconditionally and serves them at every whim and caters her whole life to her, meanwhile I feel bad and selfish for wanting one that will sometimes fuck me and actually give a shit about my personal life and give a bit of physical affection sometimes.

Maybe female socialization is real and it's making me incredibly dysphoric. Just one of those things transition can't resolve.

society abandoned me. People don't even know I exist. People literally ignore me when I talk to them. Quite literally pretending I'm not there. It's literal torture. I'm seriously considering forcefully kicking the bucket early because of it.

Something that's severely undertalked about it the loneliness and lack of real friends that come with being disabled, both mentally and physically. I especially don't see physically mentioned a lot.

But how tf am I supposed to have close friends when I'm constantly sleep deprived? If my general physical strength and endurance are severely limited?

it reaches up to 20 degrees Celsius in October and there's still a fuckton of mosquitos around. I live in north-western Europe. so no <3

October will be full of good physical health

October will be full of good mental health

October will be full of answered prayers

October will be full of good energy

October will be full of good news

October will be full of good luck

October will be full of blessings

October will be full of peace

October will be full of light

October will be full of love

forever torn on "I need God" and my sheer inability to believe in a literal, physical God.

Mood for when some childhood staple games(that you once legitimately paid for) don't want to run anymore, and either the company doesn't feel like fixing it because it's not profitable, *or* arguably worse, they broke it on purpose so that you'll play their new games, which are more expensive, require more expensive tech to run, and sometimes even include microtransactions in a paid game??

is there a gender for "I don't give a fuck anymore so long as I get to have a cock instead of the fuckery I have now"? Asking very explicitly for myself

Forever hating how a big portion of the internet is inaccessible to me because of some stupid shit I did at 16.... like do these mega tech corps realize how long "forever" is?

I can't have reddit on my phone. When on pc, I can almost never post or comment and hope it goes through the spam filter and automod. Discord is extremely limited to me and I can't participate in any server that requires phone authentication, which are a lot of big (official) servers.

I can already hear people complain "hurr durr, you don't need reddit and discord to survive", but can we at least recognize how fucked up it is to permanently lock people out of such big parts of the internet, especially with no way to appeal? I kinda jokingly sent an appeal for a 4 year old ban recently and they still rejected me, though I doubt a human even looked at it.

On top of that, discord and reddit nowadays are huge sources of information. Yes, they both have their dark and grim sides, but also a lot of information and communication goes through there. And I can't access that ever again because of some stupid shit I did at 16. Tell me that's not censorship and tech corps going on a power trip.

Once again fell for the trap known as "assuming that someone isn't a homophobic asshole"

me: *pours my heart and soul out about how the trans healthcare system traumatized me by doing some fucked up shit, as well as talking about the general shittiness of it.*

American trans folks: "uhhh that never happened to me" "uhhh they never asked me for any of that" "oh my god, such long waitlists? I could never survive!" "they did all that to you? Sounds like you're making it worse in your head." "maybe you just had an unrelated, underlying issue that made it so bad?"

My fellow European peeps: "hah, classic, was the same here they just did x instead of z"

"it will get better"

"it will get better" they told me, aged 11, when puberty really kicked in and felt extremely dysphoric about my body, but didn't know what it was yet, and also got bullied for not being truly either gender.

"it will get better" they told 13 year old me, now aware of what dysphoria was, but still suicidal because of it, and felt terrible for not being accepted as a real boy.

"it will get better" they told 15 year me, who just got sexually assaulted for being trans, as well as missing lots of school(and social development) for being constantly in the hospital to navigate the medical gatekeeping for being trans.

"it will get better" they told 16 year me, still freshly traumatized from being sexually assaulted, and now disabled due to medical abuse and neglect from doctors, as well as failing school due to said disability.

"it will get better" they told 17 year old me, who was getting abused at home, while going to school and working my ass off at a minimum wage job, trying to save whatever I could while also trying to sustain myself.

"it will get better" they told 18 year me, still being abused and barely graduating high school, while fighting with my mom to let me attend the college I want, while still not having fully recovered from being temporarily disabled.

"it will get better" they told 19 year old me, now living on college campus, stuck doing a degree I don't truly want, but my parents won't let me chance. I'm succumbing to depression, adhd, and anxiety, but who cares. My body has most of its functions back but will never be the same. Still dysphoric and suicidal every day despite transitioning.

It will get better. When, my love, when? It's almost been a decade of being suicidal every single day, as well as being abused and to a degree, disabled. Some people's foundation for life crumbles, I didn't have one to begin with.

on top of that, a decade is a pretty long time. Would you expect a person to undergo cancer treatment for 10 years, only for it to not be solved? You'd feel sympathetic, right? Maybe even feel bad for them? You wish their suffering would just be over.. Why is this any different? Why am I suddenly "just not strong enough" or "just try harder"?

I'm genuinely convinced it'll never get better. I don't really have any (easy) method of... you know what, but I still want to "commit" every single day. I genuinely, from the bottom of my heart, believe it will never get better.

"minors can't know their (gender) identity!!11!!!1!" but they'll make you choose a college degree that'll affect the rest of your life at like 17. Sometimes earlier when high school subjects/grades are relevant + AP classes.

If you're a minor you don't know your identity. You're a he/they so you're a girl. You'll come to realize you're not actually trans in a few years and just do it for attention.

maybe stfu and leave me alone about my gender because it’s none of your business, thanks <3

hell yeah, new goals for when I finally get meta

Piss on an electric fence.

New missed childhood memory unlocked

Piss on an electric fence.

Shstegwggevr girl help me I'm thinking about the experience of being the only 'girl' in so many spaces I occupied growing up and how that makes me feel weird and alien amongst men no matter how much I pass or whatever because I still always feel like I don't belong there again

It hurts knowing you're more privileged and have more opportunities than like 80% of the world with a lot better quality of life and still have life suck so much. Like I'm well aware that just by being born in a western country, that's already better off than like 80-90% of the world. And yet everything hurts physically and mentally and I just want to die every day.

Not your boomer family getting mad at you for messing up your medication's concentration and hurting yourself ONCE as if they didn't drink margaritas for pregnancy pain and smoked cigarettes against asthma.

ppfft, I don't even need a manual, that's how much of a MAN I am. Imagine letting a piece of paper telling you what to do.

Get yourself some IKEA furniture and assemble it!

I'm 72 days on T, and 2 days ago I noticed that a single hair had grown on my chin.

I don't have plans to have a full beard, but anyway, I think it's SO adorable 🥰

excuse me, but REAL MEN only chop and saw their own wood

Get yourself some IKEA furniture and assemble it!