Ppfft, I Don't Even Need A Manual, That's How Much Of A MAN I Am. Imagine Letting A Piece Of Paper Telling

I'm going to SCREAM why are trans people so mean towards other trans people? I could genuinely pour my heart out about how the trans healthcare system quite literally traumatized me and I'll get a bunch of people like "errrrrr that didn't happen me, you're probably just making it worse in your head, just answer honest to the doctors and everything will go to plan" WHAT

i knew i wasnt supposed to live past 18

"it will get better"

"it will get better" they told me, aged 11, when puberty really kicked in and felt extremely dysphoric about my body, but didn't know what it was yet, and also got bullied for not being truly either gender.

"it will get better" they told 13 year old me, now aware of what dysphoria was, but still suicidal because of it, and felt terrible for not being accepted as a real boy.

"it will get better" they told 15 year me, who just got sexually assaulted for being trans, as well as missing lots of school(and social development) for being constantly in the hospital to navigate the medical gatekeeping for being trans.

"it will get better" they told 16 year me, still freshly traumatized from being sexually assaulted, and now disabled due to medical abuse and neglect from doctors, as well as failing school due to said disability.

"it will get better" they told 17 year old me, who was getting abused at home, while going to school and working my ass off at a minimum wage job, trying to save whatever I could while also trying to sustain myself.

"it will get better" they told 18 year me, still being abused and barely graduating high school, while fighting with my mom to let me attend the college I want, while still not having fully recovered from being temporarily disabled.

"it will get better" they told 19 year old me, now living on college campus, stuck doing a degree I don't truly want, but my parents won't let me chance. I'm succumbing to depression, adhd, and anxiety, but who cares. My body has most of its functions back but will never be the same. Still dysphoric and suicidal every day despite transitioning.

It will get better. When, my love, when? It's almost been a decade of being suicidal every single day, as well as being abused and to a degree, disabled. Some people's foundation for life crumbles, I didn't have one to begin with.

on top of that, a decade is a pretty long time. Would you expect a person to undergo cancer treatment for 10 years, only for it to not be solved? You'd feel sympathetic, right? Maybe even feel bad for them? You wish their suffering would just be over.. Why is this any different? Why am I suddenly "just not strong enough" or "just try harder"?

I'm genuinely convinced it'll never get better. I don't really have any (easy) method of... you know what, but I still want to "commit" every single day. I genuinely, from the bottom of my heart, believe it will never get better.

''trans men wont suffer as much if you forcefully out them'' could you say that to an actual trans mans face though or can you only say it online? could you say any of this hateful shit if you had to actually articulate it face to face with a real person or are you only comfortable when its wrapped up in comfy internet discourse buzzwords?

I fucking hate tech corporations so fucking much. Literally not a single big tech company has reliable customer support, if they have one at all.

Like what I wouldn't give to just be able to make a phone call to some of these companies. So many problems could be solved in 10-30 minutes instead of hours, if not days searching for a solution on the internet only for it to still not work and just giving up, and just being made fun of by tech bros if you dare to ask online by making your own post, and *still* not being provided with a solution

Dear capitalism,

buying anything besides groceries makes me physically sick

beat that

reminder that trans men also fought for your rights and refusal to acknowledge this is tantamount to denying historical fact

And people forget how recent it was that it became socially acceptable for women to be not traditionally feminine. I'd argue it has only been in the past 10 years or so(and that's stretching it majorly), it has become socially acceptable for women to be traditionally masculine, or for girls to act "boy-ish". It really wasn't that long ago

"No one cares if women / transmascs / afab people wear pants and boy clothes!!!"

On my knees begging you to talk to people who grew up in religious fundamentalist communities and high control groups / cults

love how easily people show their true face when you say women objectively have it worse than men

when women’s oppression gets brought up, i can’t stop admiring men’s unwillingness to admit that their “suffering” isn’t caused by women.

“men die at wars😞😠” and guess who’s sending them to wars! and guess who made it so that historically only men can go into the army!

“we aren’t allowed to express our emotions😢” or what? you won’t fit the standard of a strong heroic man? who made that standard?

“women are gold diggers😒why must i pay for you at the restaurant?🤨” who set up the system in which women had no income and were dependant on their husband?

bro. i’ll tell you why your hand is hurting and bruised. that’s because you keep punching women in the face.