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I underestimated how tiring changing rhythms was this September, but I'm going to have two lighter weeks to recuperate and possibly hopefully catch up on my art challenges!
It’s so great to see anothe polymorph/shapeshifter who also has MaDD (I think the term for those is Xenreve if I’m not mistaken?)
May I ask about your kin experience while also having MaDD?
I don't know, maybe? To be fair I didn't know there was a term for that-
I'll look into it though, so if anyone has links-
It's a bit special, because I'm pretty sure I was a dog therian before anything else, but now it's shifted to being my main form as a shapeshifter.
I've daydreamed for as long as I can remember, and I don't mean the normal amount obviously: it's always been, and still is, a coping mechanism for me, dare I say the one I default too (art is a close second though, and I often mi the two).
As a note, my daydreaming hasn't been maladaptive for the last few years, but I still say I have madd. It's chronic the way I see it: if I'm not careful, it could become pathological again. Now i don't have to be careful all the time, but when I feel particularly bad I have to consciously use other ways to cope along with daydreaming, otherwise it still has a tendency to take over.
I like saying that until a few years back, I was fully living in my head. I had pretty much no life outside of my daydreams. And living fully in your daydreams for that long has had some interesting effects on my psyche and identity.
I've come to realise that I lived through my paraself because of multiple reasons, the main one being masking and being terrified to stop.
I mask way less now, and that's led to me feeling like my paraself, except reverse isekai'd: I barely have any memories outside of my daydreams until the years I "got out of my head", so it feels like being dropped from my world, the one I lived in 95% of the time, into this one.
Since my world is very much full of magic, there's a lot that didn't quite transfer to this body.
In source, I'm a shapeshifter. My constels and main forms are linked to this too: they're the forms I liked to take the most and the things I was and/or related to.
Now I also used to have magic. I could heal with it and create illusions. (I could also bend the elements a bit, but healing and illusions were my main ones).
I discovered earlier in childhood here witchcraft and forms of healing, and I've edged around it for a while (the healing methods, I've been practising witchcraft in this verse ever since I discovered it), but this year I've started learning to heal! It's not quite how it worked for me, but it's similar enough that it makes me really happy to be able to do so again.
For the illusion part, I've found performance arts the closest thing to it. I used to incorporate my magic into my art a lot, and I feel very connected to Everything when I'm performing, it's really euphoric.
That's all I can think about for now ahah, but I might reblog this with additions if I think of any ^^
In any case, thank you so much for the ask anon!! I love yapping and this was such an interesting and lovely question to answer <3
alterhuman trick-or-treat!
as october comes to an end, the time for Spooky approaches. the creatures of the night awaken, their reflecting eyes shine in the darkness. and what better way to celebrate than a good old trick-or-treat?
inbox trick-or-treating is a beloved tradition here on tumblr, which consists in sending an ask to the blog(s) of you choice as if they were houses in your neighborhood and you were the kid politely knocking on their door. you would ask, "trick or treat?" and the asked would then choose whether to reply with a treat (picture of candy) or a trick (a joke, a poem, a haiku, a drawing...).
well... thats the normal one anyways.
i propose something a bit different this year: an alterhuman-themed trick-or-treat! what is that, youll ask? simple: the 31st of october, instead of sharing candy, we will share our 'types snacks! for example, if youre a cat therian you can share a fish-shaped treat, if youre fictionkin you can share your favorite food from your source, if youre alienkin you can share your cultures traditional dish... the possibilities are endless!
how to participate? reblog this post to let your followers know youre doing this! the 31st ill send an ask to everyone who interacted with this post so no one misses out on the fun. see you on halloween!
hello! im too scared to come off anon but i think your blog is so awesome :3
Hi! No worries no worries ^^
Thank you so much, it means a lot 🥺💕
To answer @thelost-experiment, yoga is probably there because according to some hardcore christians, anything that can be linked to any form of spirituality other than christianism is from the devil /info
Now for "Demons, gotta catch them all":
I partake in: yoga, astrology, tarot cards, palmistry, earth worship, divination, meditation, vegetarianism, astral projection, LOTR, marihuana, video games, HP (fuck JKR), D&D, Halloween, fornication, skull & bones, rock music, goth culture
I vibe with: eastern religions, cyberpunk culture, ouija boards (when used safely), wicca, voodoo, lycxanthropy (would alterhumanity be considered under this? cause if yes I'm also partaking actually-), necromancy, fire walking, levitation, vampirism, shrooms, heavy metal, Twilight, raves
But tbh if I'm to tag myself as one or two I'd be Earth Worship & Goth Culture
@trashy-kitty I have a feeling you've seen this image floating around as I have, but I also think you'll have a blast participating X)
tag urself I’m Halloween
Okay I gotta stop being distracted and type out what I wrote in my last workshop-
I need to send it in before tomorrow evening, but tomorrow's a busy day again
(It's for a really cool ecofriendly catwalk project!!)
My tiredness and my urge to write lore for my paracosms are brawling rn
GINGER!?
Not naturally, but I dye my hair every 3-5 months and when i don't go for crazy colors, I always go for ginger, I really love it ^^
Taking the offer to join in ^^
I'm pretty different from my child self, so much so I changed my name, even though fundamentally we're exactly the same, so this was interesting!
Making this made me feel full of love for myself tbh 💕
@lifenconcepts if you feel like doing it ^^
Picrew tag game!- Create yourself now vs how you looked when you were a kid
Link
I was tagged by @cutebisexualmess for this but the chain was too long so I'm restarting!
If only that little girl could see me now (she'd probably think I was cool tbh)
uhm tagging: @b3achfagz (ik you dont do tag games so u can just ignore this but i though u might find it cool) @cassiecryptic @viktheviking1 @depressedgremlinbitch @ramencat12 @inkyslimee @the-horrifying-digital-circus @patipati @cute--thing @musicalsiphonophore @tastetherainbow290 @disenchantedwarlock @bookishcatcafe and anyone else who sees this and thinks it looks cool!!
Open tag ^^
No clue what fandom this is from but !!
@caffeinated-eccentric-polymorph @milanesa-con-matecocido @thelost-experiment
@sillycyan @trashy-kitty
I’m not even kidding when I say I relived so many childhood memories with this omfg
@caffeinated-eccentric-polymorph @thelost-experiment @primalshane @milanesa-con-matecocido
@sillycyan @trashykitty
I love this one so much !!!
@thelost-experiment @primalshane @caffeinated-eccentric-polymorph @milanesa-con-matecocido
This has UniverseTraveler!Kai vibes again-
@trashy-kitty I have a feeling you'll love this one (I certainly did)
@caffeinated-eccentric-polymorph @thelost-experiment @milanesa-con-matecocido
Thanks for the tag @lifenconcepts !!
@sillycyan @trashy-kitty
cute thing im coming up with
this picrew of yourself and your current hyperfixation !!
no pressure tags @pearlzier @julesssyy @reidsfavoritegirl @whitney23317 @willowsblanket @flowercrownsandtrauma @rottenletter
Jumping in ^^
Decided to make my paraself from my Universe Traveler paracosm ^^
@sillycyan @trashy-kitty
@milanesa-con-matecocido
@sillycyan @trashy-kitty
@primalshane @thelost-experiment @caffeinated-eccentric-polymorph
Open tag <3
@thelost-experiment @caffeinated-eccentric-polymorph @milanesa-con-matecocido @primalshane
Sagittarius (sun), pan & demi rose, I drink more coffee bc it makes my thoughts clearer but I love both equally
if ur lgbt im curious: pls rb with ur sign, orientation and if ur a coffee or tea person
Hi buddy! Happy Blorbo Blursday! Which of your ocs would not survive a horror setting/ which oc would have the mentality of survivors in a horror film and what would they do?
Hi! A bit late whoops- yesterday was busy for me eheh
Probably Jamison tbh- Look, the guy's intelligent af, but he's kind of naive and very curious, so he definitely would open the creaky door, follow the weird voice, investigate, all of that.
Though if cornered he might not give up quite yet and instead try flirting. I mean, it's sth that happens in the story -he gets cornered by a monster and he just figures out he might as well try.
Hey Kai, just wanted to drop in and thank you for your Daydreamtober Prompts! This is the most we’ve written about a paracosm in years and it feels really good to create again! Thank you so much for the inspo!!
Hi!! I'm so glad they could inspire you omgssss /vpos
I hope you have fun with the rest of the prompts - it's a delight reading what you come up with!! /g
I actually adore you oh my gooodnessss 💥💥💥💥💥💥💫💫💫💫💫
I adore you too!! Always a pleasure to see you on my dash 💫💫💫💫🌀🌀🌀❣️❣️❣️❣️
To me, the boundless energy coupled with the beautiful philosophical ramblings! /vpos
New ask game:
Reblog if you want your followers to tell you what your trademark ™️ is. Like, what’s that thing that really identifies you.
Bats and some birds (crows, ravens, magpies, parrots & cockatoo)
@sillycyan @trashy-kitty
MUTUALS!!!
FAV ANIMAL. GO!!!!
Mine are crows and other corvids <3
@moonsfavoritedaughter @applesandarson @moonisagremlin @ankoku-teion @sarah-ankh @mentally-disturbed-bookworm @a-rose-by-any-other-gender @0dividedby0haha @glitchydraws
Joker 2: Folie a Deux was a good movie
Here's the unpopular opinion I talked about earlier- 'cause apparently people think this movie sucked? And I don't agree - same thing happened with the first movie.
Like, the first movie was described a lot as "an edgy movie for incels" and like...
As a person with disabilities, including mental illnesses, the first movie made me angry on Arthur's behalf. it made me hurt, and it felt great yet sad when he snapped.
Great because he was finally fighting back. Sade because well... He shouldn't have to, it should never have come to this.
The second movie, according to most, seems to be "a mockery of the people who liked the first one".
And frankly, I don't care if it was intended as such, because that's not what I saw.
What I saw, was the same man I'd come to grow attached to and care for in the first movie, dealing with the aftermath of his breakdown and struggling to keep a sliver of sanity and joy and hope in a world that never cared about him and never saw him as a person: only a monster, a freak, only things that excused abuse.
Well, except for the doctors, who saw him like a broken vase. Something fragile. But still not a person.
That last one shows a lot with the "Joker is an alter" theory they cling onto the whole time, when it's clear to the audience that it never was true. It's just Arthur, as he says in the end. it's just Arthur that couldn't take it anymore and did horrible things as a survival reflex. It shows with the way they expose Arthur in the courtroom: no regards to his dignity and privacy as a person.
The guards are only kind when you act as they see you: a criminal, under them.
The abuse depicted isn't graphic, at least it didn't seem graphic to me. But it still had an enormous impact.
The storyline with Lee I couldn't have been more happy with.
The moment she said "I wanna see the real you" while putting make up on Arthur, i knew how this was going to end. yet, I couldn't help but hope with Arthur. He seemed happy. But every time we saw lee outside of his daydreams, I couldn't be hopeful. Her demeanor screamed what was going to happen.
I loved how Arthur's daydreams portrayed this too. Not just in the obvious ways, like her shooting him. Music, in the first movie, was how you'd tell a delusion from a daydream. Arthur has music in his daydreams, he's an entertainer, he liked the scene. Lee, however liked the fame. That's the big difference I feel is subtly shown in Arthur's daydreams. He's singing because this is his world, he does whatever, and he likes singing. She's singing because she's performing, she's on a scene, sending a message.
As much as my soft heart wanted Arthur to have a happy ending, whether alone or not, I knew it wouldn't happen, and I don't dislike that.
He'd been on the brink of metaphorically dying when Ricky got killed, and he did when Lee abandoned him.
A happy ending was never an option, and at this point, I'm not sure what would've been more impactful: leaving him there, a shell of himself, or him dying for real - then again I don't think there's an objective answer to that.
I got surprised when he got stabbed. Not because it wasn't predictable: there'd been foreshadowing, it didn't come out of nowhere. No, i got surprised because, the thing with these movies, is that they suck me in.
Between the music, whether in the background or in a more musical fashion, the cinematography (lights, framing,...), along with how I relate to and feel for Arthur, it all has a mesmerizing quality that makes me travel far.
So, when Arthur got called for a visit, I got hopeful, genuinely. Because I didn't have my writer glasses on; that's not fun for a first watch. So I followed along, hoping he'd find a friend on the other side. Who? I had no idea, I just wanted him to be happy.
I was uneasy when he got stopped. I think that even if my conscious was too engrossed to realise the foreshadowing, my subconscious had gotten the message just fine. That's another reason why I felt the movie was well done.
The scene where he actually died, I think everything froze for me.
When I got out of the theater, I had to excuse myself to the bathroom for a few minutes. See, the thing with my group of friends, is that when we go see a movie, we discuss it immediately. I love that usually, but I was feeling... off. I still don't know what words I could put on what I was feeling. A sort of melancholic hopelessness, all the while knowing that it was just a story, that I wouldn't end up like this. I say this because, i think my first clear thought when i collected myself was "Is there no place for people like us?".
And obviously things aren't as bad as in fiction, but, well... i always make the joke that there's no need to read/watch dystopian stories anymore, because we're living in one. Don't get me wrong, I appreciate these stories. I just feel like we're living in one.
I'm not going to list off why, I'm sure you'll find many reasons yourself, many of which I probably wouldn't even have thought of. Isn't that sad?
I don't have a conclusion to this. There's more hope for most of us than for Arthur. But when you look at the fates of a lot of people like him -not the "power-tripping incels", as I've seen- people with disabilities, people in poverty, people who've or are being abused... Is there a world where we stop making victims?
Truth is, the real reason I wanted to put this out was to try to get rid of that feeling, the one that caught onto me as I left my cinema seat.
I thought putting it into words would help.
I don't think it did.
It still has a hold on me, although it's less overwhelming that that night, it's still there, a steady feeling for the last few days. I saw the movie last Thursday.
It's not that novel of a feeling. i remember feeling like this once, years ago. When I wasn't a kid anymore, and suddenly the world wasn't pretty.
Now I can see that the world is pretty. Humanity is wonderful. Still, it sticks to my throat like sticky honey, except it's bittersweet and it feels like rain and thunder and screams.
Have a good day/night, thank you for reading a lunatic's pointless rambles 💚
Not me not having the energy to write all day and only getting ideas and motivations now: as I'm preparing to go to my aromatherapy lesson. FFS-
It's not even as if I couldn't write during, i could, but I don't want to, i actually find it interesting!! (Unlike last time I had classes three years ago- I spent my entire school life writing during lessons-)
Might squeeze in some light writing in the break if I can, otherwise let's just pray that I'm not exhausted when i come home 💀🙏
The urge to drop an unpopular opinion on a very criticised movie on main is gripping me by the throat right now
Guys I might have infected my girlfriend with Tumblr (definitely not what I planned at aaaall)
Anyways, love you dear, have fun X) @trashy-kitty
What I'm wearing right now: soft and comfy Halloween themed pajamas (the top is orange with black sleeves and a ghost on the front with the words "I'm so faboolous"; the pants are orange withlittle ghosts with different expressions all over them) as well as black The Nightmare Before Christmas fluffy slippers
What I wish I was wearing right now: I'd just add one of those lavish kinda see-through robes with long flowy sleeves (a black one)
My situation/place right now: at home, sitting at my desk, going to write for my art challenges with a coffee by my side and a light breeze flowing through the window
Favourite style all around: I can't really pinpoint one style, I wear things to express myself, I see my style as another part of my art, yk? I'll go from punk/grunge to cutesy pastels passing by goth, steampunk, decora, that-style-the-witchy-uncle/aunt-has-in-movies, you name it.
@sillycyan @trashy-kitty no pressure bubs ^^
Open tag here also, feel free to jump in behind me <3
I’m bored let’s make a reblog chain
what are u wearing rn:
what you wish you’d be wearing (does not matter how expensive or outlandish id be):
what situation/place are you at rn:
favorite clothing style(s) all around:
I’ll begin:
wearing rn: dark green cargo pants, trekking shoes, light blue shirt and dark blue jacket
what I wish I’d be wearing: dark green cargo pants, dark green jacket with more pockets, combat boots
situation rn: traveling
fav style: mix of street ware/millitary esque (comfy and efficient don’t judge me) or dark academia + cottage core
Tagging some ppl to get this started: +OPEN TAGS (if ur tagged feel free to not do it no pressure)
@im-a-sentient-magic-carpet @daggerhobbit
@thecrazyalchemist @enochianghost @just--a--random--human--being @hadoom @uwathebestgirl @pennyroyald @hyperfixationbullshit
@wolffuwu @rp-rs @styxwaow @asters-tempo