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Update: found the term, you were correct!

Here's the link to what I found (link)

It’s so great to see anothe polymorph/shapeshifter who also has MaDD (I think the term for those is Xenreve if I’m not mistaken?)

May I ask about your kin experience while also having MaDD?

I don't know, maybe? To be fair I didn't know there was a term for that-

I'll look into it though, so if anyone has links-

It's a bit special, because I'm pretty sure I was a dog therian before anything else, but now it's shifted to being my main form as a shapeshifter.

I've daydreamed for as long as I can remember, and I don't mean the normal amount obviously: it's always been, and still is, a coping mechanism for me, dare I say the one I default too (art is a close second though, and I often mi the two).

As a note, my daydreaming hasn't been maladaptive for the last few years, but I still say I have madd. It's chronic the way I see it: if I'm not careful, it could become pathological again. Now i don't have to be careful all the time, but when I feel particularly bad I have to consciously use other ways to cope along with daydreaming, otherwise it still has a tendency to take over.

I like saying that until a few years back, I was fully living in my head. I had pretty much no life outside of my daydreams. And living fully in your daydreams for that long has had some interesting effects on my psyche and identity.

I've come to realise that I lived through my paraself because of multiple reasons, the main one being masking and being terrified to stop.

I mask way less now, and that's led to me feeling like my paraself, except reverse isekai'd: I barely have any memories outside of my daydreams until the years I "got out of my head", so it feels like being dropped from my world, the one I lived in 95% of the time, into this one.

Since my world is very much full of magic, there's a lot that didn't quite transfer to this body.

In source, I'm a shapeshifter. My constels and main forms are linked to this too: they're the forms I liked to take the most and the things I was and/or related to.

Now I also used to have magic. I could heal with it and create illusions. (I could also bend the elements a bit, but healing and illusions were my main ones).

I discovered earlier in childhood here witchcraft and forms of healing, and I've edged around it for a while (the healing methods, I've been practising witchcraft in this verse ever since I discovered it), but this year I've started learning to heal! It's not quite how it worked for me, but it's similar enough that it makes me really happy to be able to do so again.

For the illusion part, I've found performance arts the closest thing to it. I used to incorporate my magic into my art a lot, and I feel very connected to Everything when I'm performing, it's really euphoric.

That's all I can think about for now ahah, but I might reblog this with additions if I think of any ^^

In any case, thank you so much for the ask anon!! I love yapping and this was such an interesting and lovely question to answer <3

Thanks for tagging me @lifenconcepts ! Took the piano lighter :3

Hi, I thought I was a pansexual trans man, turns out I'm a demirose panrose genderfluid person!

Everyone introduce yourself by what you thought your OG queer identity was and what you currently identify as

Ill go first: hi I was bisexual now I’m a pansexual aroace

Trick-or-treat ^v^

Happy Halloween!! 👻🧡

Trick!! I booped you, eheh :3

Trick-or-treat !! :D and BOOp 🐾🐾🐾

Happy Halloween!!!! 🍂🦇

As a treat to you and trick to me, here's a fun fact: a few months ago I got my very first Wattpad account back. It has one thing in common with my old notebooks: my first ever documented self-insert.

I had made myself Jack Sparrow's daughter.

The chokehold that fictional man had on 10 to 14 year-old me is wild-

I find this very heartwarming but also this feels so embarrassing to me today despite me not cringing at shit nowadays (self-insert mary-sues are cool, sue me; the only thing I cringe at are creepy street interviewers).

🍂 What I personally did for Samhain 🕯️

✪ Lit up my colored leds and fairy lights for a cosy atmosphere

✪ Cleaned up my altar

✪ Took a moment to reminisce about my passed loved ones

✪ End of year review

✪ Letter to the Universe: gratitude, what I'm leaving behind, and manifesting the the new year

✪ Renewing my money bowl offering to Lord Hades with a written prayer

I usually get too overwhelmed or straight up forget to celebrate the sabbats, so this is pretty much a first celebration outside of just my morning coffee brewing spell being adapted to the sabbat!

Trick or treat!!!

Happy Halloween! Here's a simple treat: my playlist for tonight 🎃👻🧡💀🦇

Nothing scary, just pure vibes 🍂🕯️

Now to take a nap before my Samhain celebration 🦇😴

(I'm just gonna be doing a prayer and two rituals)

I did it 🎃🧡🦇💀🎊

This is your green light to spam boop me as much as you want! /g

Little updates on my October Art Challengers!

Before deciding on this, I hadn't written in years. I immediately was able to write as much as I did before I got too exhausted to, which I was pleasantly surprised by! But that did make me get waaaay too ambitious with my goals. I don't have the energy levels nor the time to write two prompts, or even one prompt, every day. And that's not a failing on my part, that's just a fact.

So: what does it mean for the prompt lists I've started?

I'll finish writing out the prompts I have ideas and inspiration for over November. Simple as that!

From now on, I'll be testing another rhythm: having a database of prompts to pick from and trying to write one per week. If I post it: awesome! If I don't: still great! If I write more: yay me! if I don't: still good job me!

Overall less pressure for me to keep up with /pos

So, the way I'm deciding what prompts to write right now is with dice since they're numbered. And I sometimes get two choices: there's two lists, sometimes neither are written.

The choice I just got right now is either "Kal angsts for his lovers to feel safe" or Jamie starts recovering. Both are angsty af (with hints of hope, I can't do hurt/no comfort-), I- /lh

Trick or treat!

Happy Halloween!! 🧡🦇

Just did a writer one, so here's an alterhuman one!

One of my favourite snack in my verse is actually a drink!! It's a slightly alcoholic cocktail (though it's an alcohol brewed from magic fruits - aka fruits that grow on plants imbued with earth magic - and therefore affects humans less and magical creatures more, the opposite of regular alcohol).

It's a mix of sunberry liquor, starfruit syrup and some sungrape juice, topped with a bit of lemon juice! It's called a SunnySyn, but most people just call it a sunny X)

Trick or treat!! 🎃

Hi, happy Halloween bud!! 🎃

I've brainstormed all of my October prompts and will be writing & posting them all this week, so here's a few summaries (all for my ACCA paracosm)!

For daydreatober day 24, I'm planning on describing the courting rituals from the ACCA universe, so a bit of nonfiction there

For selfshiptober day 22, I planned to write the first time Kal takes off his mask around Kai 😳

For daydreamtober day 12, it'll be a blurb (or longer, depends on my energy levels), we'll be diving into Jamie's backtory!

And for daydreamtober day 19, pure sweet fluff of Kal coming home from a mission to find his two boys cuddled up in his bed.

🎃 My inbox will be open for trick or treating this Halloween! 🎃

Trick or Treating open from Monday 28th October to Friday 1st November

I'll be participating in: 🦇 Regular Trick or Treat 💀 Alterhuman Trick or Treat 👻 Writer Trick or treat

If you don't specify which one you'd like, I'll pick myself ;3

ask box trick-or-treat (fic writer edition)

Send an ask with "Trick or treat!" to the writer who reblogged this & you could receive a 3-sentence fic, drabble, headcanon, sneak-peek at a WIP, the last sentence they wrote, a new fic idea, random line from a fic, picture of their notebook, a deleted line they love, an idea for a sequel, something they're researching, behind-the-scenes info on a published fic, or something else!

happy halloween!

reblog to welcome trick-or-treaters to your inbox! 🕸️🦇

Send this to all your favourite moots and pass the pumpkin round! KEEP THE PUMPKIN TRAIN GOING 🎃🖤🎃🖤🎃

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HI! It’s your fellow polymorph madder asker (could I use 🌤️ as my mark if it’s not already taken? :D)

I also appreciate you answering my ask, I’ve never heard of a fellow Alterhuman who also has MaDD (regardless if it’s maladaptive or immersive you’re still valid) so it’s exciting to hear about new experiences like yours!

I was also wondering if your dms are open? c:

Omgs hi again!!

I don't have any anon sign-offs taken yet, so it's yours!

They're open yeah! I do appreciate when people ask first, but since you've just done that feel free to pop in! I probably won't answer until a bit later today though, I've got a photoshoot for a catwalk this morning ^^

Looking forwards to hearing from you!!

I'm so glad I could bring that to you guys omgs 🥺💕

Also I read what I'm tagged in and go through the tags and gosh you're all so talented!!! /g /vpos

Shoutout to @caffeinated-eccentric-polymorph for the daydreamtober prompt list!

This is the most fiction I've written all year!

My teacher: with time, flipping between thick and thin vocal chords will be easier, it's a muscle.

Me: singing both parts as a fun way to train:

Send this to all your favourite moots and pass the pumpkin round! KEEP THE PUMPKIN TRAIN GOING 🎃🖤🎃🖤🎃

Aw that's very kind, thank you! Will do ^^

Happy spooky season!! 🎃🦇🤍

💀 So, I tried Aethy today... 🤔

At first glance, it's quite a nice site, bit of a mix between Tumblr ^ Twitter, nice layout, quite intuitive, and the community seems nice enough.

However, there are two(ish) things that stood out to me and made me decide to not stick with it and not recommend it.

First, they allow AI art, and though it has to be labelled, there is so much that it floods the timeline. Fun fact, I don't see much AI on Tumblr apart from the bot invasions of certain tags from time to time. on the few hours I spent on Aethy, one post out of three was AI generated. That is just too much, it means a lot of users are using AI and posting that there, and as an artist that makes me feel quite unwelcomed.

Second, while I appreciate how the content warnings are implemented, something gave me pause: alterhumanity was considered a sensitive topic. Mind you, religion was too, but no other identity was. And that felt... off. Religion and beliefs can be sensitive subjects because of trauma yes, but censoring an identity that isn't spiritual in nature feels off. Then there's also the whole "all kinks, even the weirdest ones" while banning pro-para, like... Kinks are paraphilias? That makes no sense.

And I think I might have an idea why.

I wanted some opinions, so i looked it up online.

And I discovered that Aethy's mod team was deleting criticism and banning people who posted it, and answered quesries about it very rudely and with more banning. Then I discovered that mods are saying that pro-para is a label used by abusers, so everyone who uses that label must be an abuser. That makes no sense, and sounds like people who campain for censorship online saying that predators use profiction communities so the whole community grooms children.

In conclusions, the mods' rules are vague to let them moderate by personal liking rather than abiding by "safe community for adults who enjoy kink".

So yea, would not recommend it.

🐻 Bear & Breakfast 🥞

I finished playing Bear & Breakfast yesterday!

I loved the game!

Nice mix between management, decoration and adventuring! The tutorials are quite well done, the menus are intuitive, and the quests are easy to follow.

The art style is super super cute and lovely, and the options for decor are awesome!

The management aspect is really easy to understand while style being interesting.

Overall, the game isn't very difficult, but it's very relaxing and satisfying to go through!

The characters are so loveable and colorful, absolute banger!

Highly recommend it!

Trying so hard to remember that productivity isn't limited to high-spoon activities like writing or researching, but also includes self-care, more chill hobbies like gaming or coloring, things like regression, anything that makes you feel good, including resting and napping!

Thanks for the tag buddy ^^

Fave model: I'm not a big celeb being, whoops-

Fave color: Green and purple

Fave beverages: Black coffee and jasmin tea

Fave books: The Miss Peregrine series

Fave singers: Tom Cardy, Hozier (rest are bands or I just listen to a few of their songs)

Fave emojis: ™️🤡💀👽🐳🪼🍹🍇🍄🪻🍃🪹🪐🌀✨ Vs the ones I use most: 🍃🌀🪻💀👽🥰🥺💫✨💕❣️💜❤️

Fave movie: I'd have to say the first pirates of the Caribbeans, cause it's hard for me to pick favorites so I might as well just pick a comfort movie X)

Fave animal: Bat!! Crow and parrots are close though

Fave clothing brand: I know a few alt brands but I don't really have a fave tbh (and I don't really like more classic brands-)

Fave season: Fall!! I love the colors, the chilly rainy weather and Halloween/Samhain is my fave holiday!

Fave character:

@bardic-tales @trashy-kitty no pressure ^^

Thank you for the the tag @misslizzygrant1111 and @oceanblvdbabe

fav model: vlada roslyakova

fav color: baby pink

fav beverage: chai

fav book: girl interrupted

fav singer: lana del rey

fav emojis: 🪽🎀🍂🩰

fav movie: priscilla

fav animal: fawns

fav clothing brand: brandy melville

fav season: fall

fav character: chuck bass

@oceanblvdbabe @cinnamorwll @ballerinainterrupted @sparklingsonderingdeer

Continuation of this 🔖Questions Source (link)

🖋️ Have you ever found a writer who thinks just like you? If so, who?

I don't think you can fully think like someone, so not really.

I'll give out an author whose thoughts make me think (/vpos) instead: Virginie Despentes. SHe's raw and true, and that can be shocking to some considering what she talks about, but I find it refreshing and necessary. It's honest, it's not sugarcoated, it's real.

What is a para? I have seen the term a lot in madd circles and suspect is has to do with paracosms yet people use the term to refer to what seem to be like character/ ocs like an entity? What does it mean. Could u break down the common used terms in the madd community and perhaps some other kin things or give links or find where I might find information? -from someone who also has madd

Sure, with pleasure!

In short, a para is a character in your daydream. If I recall correctly, the term was created because "oc" didn't feel fitting, as madders often spend a lot of time daydreaming, and therefore most have a special bond with their characters.

As for some other madd terms, well! (in very simple terms once again)

A paracosm is a world/storyline you daydream about!

You might also find the terms immersive daydreamer and neuronarrator around. Those are terms for vivid daydreamers who's daydreams aren't maladaptive.

A parame is the "main character" of your daydream, the one you "fol.low" during.

A paraself is a version of you in your daydream.

For more about all this (more terms, resources,...), i'd like to redirect you to @acircusfullofdemons 's Ultimate Daydreamer's Guide , it's a great resource!

For kin vocab, it's quite large but I can give a few words of info ^^

Fictionkin, fictionfolk and isofic are terms for people who kin a character or pop culture creature.

Objectkin is similarly built: it is a term for people who kin objects.

Conceptkin follows the same pattern: term for people who kin concepts (like chaos, life, death, fear,...)

Otherkin is a word for the comm unity, a bit like alterhuman. It's an umbrella term.

Therians typically refers to people who kin animals existing on this Earth.

Kinsidering is a term reffering to discovering a new kin, thinking about it.

A mental shift refers to when you have a period of time during which you think like your kintype (more so than usual)

A phantom shift refers to a period of time during which you feel your phantom limbs, aka the limbs and body parts your kintype has, but your current form doesn't.

I think you’d like the musical creator Brian Jonestown massacre

Thanks fort the rec! Gave them a listen, really good vibes!!! /g

Green & purple, bat and violet

@sillycyan @trashy-kitty

A person's favorite color, favorite animal, and favorite flavor of ice cream can say a lot about them when considering the answers as a whole. Some prime examples I've heard are:

~ Silver, Artic Wolf, and Mint Chocolate Chip.

~ Pink/Yellow, Putu Bird, and Cotton Candy.

~ Light Brown, Tree Kangaroo, and Rum Raisin.

~ Green, Pig, and Cookie Dough.

Mine are:

~ Burgundy, Fox, and Moose Tracks.

Tag some friends and get a sense of who they are! :)

@notable-bumblr @persistentchaos @enterfandomreference @valerietompson @paper-crowns-and-tiaras @ironxprince @acecuddle @angst-dealer @hey-you-i-just