I Actually Adore You Oh My Gooodnessss 💥💥💥💥💥💥💫💫💫💫💫

The urge to drop an unpopular opinion on a very criticised movie on main is gripping me by the throat right now

It’s so great to see anothe polymorph/shapeshifter who also has MaDD (I think the term for those is Xenreve if I’m not mistaken?)

May I ask about your kin experience while also having MaDD?

I don't know, maybe? To be fair I didn't know there was a term for that-

I'll look into it though, so if anyone has links-

It's a bit special, because I'm pretty sure I was a dog therian before anything else, but now it's shifted to being my main form as a shapeshifter.

I've daydreamed for as long as I can remember, and I don't mean the normal amount obviously: it's always been, and still is, a coping mechanism for me, dare I say the one I default too (art is a close second though, and I often mi the two).

As a note, my daydreaming hasn't been maladaptive for the last few years, but I still say I have madd. It's chronic the way I see it: if I'm not careful, it could become pathological again. Now i don't have to be careful all the time, but when I feel particularly bad I have to consciously use other ways to cope along with daydreaming, otherwise it still has a tendency to take over.

I like saying that until a few years back, I was fully living in my head. I had pretty much no life outside of my daydreams. And living fully in your daydreams for that long has had some interesting effects on my psyche and identity.

I've come to realise that I lived through my paraself because of multiple reasons, the main one being masking and being terrified to stop.

I mask way less now, and that's led to me feeling like my paraself, except reverse isekai'd: I barely have any memories outside of my daydreams until the years I "got out of my head", so it feels like being dropped from my world, the one I lived in 95% of the time, into this one.

Since my world is very much full of magic, there's a lot that didn't quite transfer to this body.

In source, I'm a shapeshifter. My constels and main forms are linked to this too: they're the forms I liked to take the most and the things I was and/or related to.

Now I also used to have magic. I could heal with it and create illusions. (I could also bend the elements a bit, but healing and illusions were my main ones).

I discovered earlier in childhood here witchcraft and forms of healing, and I've edged around it for a while (the healing methods, I've been practising witchcraft in this verse ever since I discovered it), but this year I've started learning to heal! It's not quite how it worked for me, but it's similar enough that it makes me really happy to be able to do so again.

For the illusion part, I've found performance arts the closest thing to it. I used to incorporate my magic into my art a lot, and I feel very connected to Everything when I'm performing, it's really euphoric.

That's all I can think about for now ahah, but I might reblog this with additions if I think of any ^^

In any case, thank you so much for the ask anon!! I love yapping and this was such an interesting and lovely question to answer <3

So, the way I'm deciding what prompts to write right now is with dice since they're numbered. And I sometimes get two choices: there's two lists, sometimes neither are written.

The choice I just got right now is either "Kal angsts for his lovers to feel safe" or Jamie starts recovering. Both are angsty af (with hints of hope, I can't do hurt/no comfort-), I- /lh

Me: tries to catch up (and get some advance on) my two main October challenges before I get busy af again

My silly ass brain: What if yandere artist bf though?

Kai-yaking through life

Episode Two

16/09/24

Traveling to the other side of the world is both a terrifying and exciting experience. I made wonderful friends from both Italy and Quebec, and saw many gorgeous plays!

We also went boating and kayaking on a beautiful lake, and discovered many new things.

It was such an inspiring experience!

I'm waiting to see the others again to know how they see the future for the troupe, but even if the adventure together continues, it'll be rare to work because well, they're nearly all at university now.

I was expecting it, and had mused about what I'd do then already.

I decided to do theatre on my own, and maybe recruit others.

First of though, I think I'll go with a solo performance, but I've not given it much more thought as I'm waiting to adjust into my new routine of aromatherapy and singing lessons.

I'll update you with some more of my ideas and adventures soon!

Until then, stay you, and read you soon 🫧

-Kai 🧭🌟

Continuation of this 🔖Questions Source (link)

🖋️ Have you ever found a writer who thinks just like you? If so, who?

I don't think you can fully think like someone, so not really.

I'll give out an author whose thoughts make me think (/vpos) instead: Virginie Despentes. SHe's raw and true, and that can be shocking to some considering what she talks about, but I find it refreshing and necessary. It's honest, it's not sugarcoated, it's real.

This has gotten away from me and now I'm just having brainrot of K getting away from a high society party to breathe and Vanya sneaking out too and them having a moment-

Picrew

ElenaA's Windswept Oc Maker

🌟 Hi! I made this for my friends to enjoy. Be sure to check out the different colors so you don't miss any options, and beware of blood! ✧(

yIPPEEEE!!! @caffeinated-eccentric-polymorph @milanesa-con-matecocido

@trashy-kitty felt like u'd like this one ^^

Picrew

Yaelokre OC maker

❗️do not cover up credits❗️ тикток и тгк: @trubadui автор оригинала:yaelokre

ARRGGHHHH yay !! @caffeinated-eccentric-polymorph @milanesa-con-matecocido @boyswillbedogz @theoneandonlypatches @so-called-human

Loved this one!!

Decided to make my paraself on a date, because I very much have daydream/selfship brain rn lol

@sillycyan @sun-uwu-kong @junk-kitten no pressure as always :3

Picrew

pixel dating sim maker

* retired project! * still ok to use, but a new version was released :) no longer working on this one and haven't been for years, s

Found a picrew and I think it’s pretty cute.

Tagging a few people, idk.

@buried-in-the-archives @catatowastaken @silly-lil-scribbles @indelible-waltz @humanteethmarksonhumanbone

I’d send my rotting body to you with the most heartfelt of letters alongside some homemade goods like brownies and cakes, apologies if they’re stale, but my organs are in tip top shape for you !!

Aw, thank you! I'll cherish the gift <3 /p