The Only Way I’ll Come Out Is When Im On My Own. - Blog Posts

lesbian asexual transgender queer community queer pride hugs demisexual aromantic lgbtqplus no cause why do i still think i’m straight like.. it’s sad how i focus on only unattainable men & fiction men to still convince myself that I like men. i can’t even have normal feelings not even good ones about men due to trauma. ik all men are not like that but i just feel like such an idiot i used to plan my wedding on having s3x w a man and maybe have kids but now i can’t cause i cannot like them. i am not bi. i would beg for male validation (looking at me staring at me kisses on the cheeks etc all of that. im actually disgusting cause i supported the community since i was little a literal teen and now im here as a fucking queer person who likes girls. can’t even stop myself from looking at womens breasts hugging her and just complementing her repeatedly etcc like.. i cannot even go near a guy w/o thinking they’re gonna beat me up or i am a sapphic who like women but i cannot go w/o male validation. i only do this cause i wanna feel connected to men again. lmfao i hate how im closeted and im being forced to out myself. the only way i’ll come out is when im on my own. “why you lookin’ at me like you’re gay?” “so you like women?” “how long have you liked women?” “*shows photo* do you like her?” “*tries to twerk in my face knowing im UNCOMFORTABLE by that when ppl do it without warning in my fucking face* oh do you like that?” me: “no” “but you’re bi though? why are you uncomfortable by it? don’t you like women?” LIKE I DO LIKE WOMEN BUT IM NOT MFING BI. I ONLY LIKE WOMEN. ONLY. YOURE JUST A MEMBER OF MT CRIB?? “*twerks in my face* im uncomfortable...”