Throwback To When I Used To Date Alot Of Men And Called A Slut But At That Same Time, I Fell In Love

the v app just shut down today #kpop

i feel so shit rn. remember the girl i had a crush on but i crushed on her man by accident but fell in love w her instead? there’s two other girls i met at lunch in december last year before christmas and she said she is bi and had an “ex girlfriend”. i told her i was attracted to girls since she asked and she went, “mmh, that’s really cute!! aww” and her and her little friend was acting so nice and sweet yesterday and then out of NOWHERE today, i literally ran to them to say hi and they ran away from me?? i waved hi and they gave me looks and walked away rudely. maybe they were in a bad mood but there’s way more. i went up to them and said “hey” and they got angry and left. i don’t know what i’ve done?? i never did anything to her and there’s this queer boy in my place who keeps being jealous and spreading rumours about me, apparently he heard i kissed a girl and literally nobody is talking to me?? no one wants to be my friend. everyone's making fun of me cause they’re assuming I am “disabled” but, then, they all kept gossiping and whispering to each other each time i walk past. i don’t know what that mf said but every time i walk past, it’s always something. I don’t know what he said yesterday but no one talks to me. like wtf??? he’s jealous extremely but... i’ve heard he’s making fun of me for having same sex attraction when he is GAY and have attraction to men aka SAME. SEX. like?? wtf bruh?? i am going to try talk to the girls on monday and if they keep ignoring me then im just gonna stfu with it.

guess who got outed when their birthday is just a few hours from now 😹

THE MARIO BROS MOVIE IS OUT TODAY LETS GOOOO

hi

trigger warning: sexual misconduct

i have started school since September and I have been badly sexually harassed and assaulted. I manged to tell my mom and my teachers about it and I got blamed and mocked gossiped talked about, lost my friends including blocked, and I have been feeling really trapped. uncomfortable and I have been hiding alot of what has been going on.

recently, it got worse and i have been hiding everything 3 months ago after i last spoke up was the end of september. i spoke up and just realised nobody really cares or listens and thinks im lying. my sister has been such a bitch recently, she hates me for no reason, and she uses my sexual harassment and assault as a way to mock and hurt me (e.g “you wouldve been the next (another sexual assault survivor name), its ur fault” etc etc

the things these boys did r horrendous and I cannot write it down cause its too much to put on here and I feel like crying if I get reminded as I write them on here.

someone mind helping me?? im really lost and my mental health been fucking up and I have been trying to restrict myself from drinking and isolating myself from everything everyone and I just feel like doing it and my suicidal thoughts got even worse and I just been thinking of doing it before the new year.

I am just so tired. anyone help??

I hate saying this but y'all i need a bit of help here (anyone who's lgbtq)

I'm gonna share my experiences a bit (not top much just a little) & worries so peacefully talk to me nicely.

I'm gonna do my labels journey separately so enjoy reading.

Again I'm not gonna show or say too much.

me trying out the lesbian label (I've tried this out for 2 weeks now?) + experiences

my journey in 2 weeks w the lesbian label !

signs of my attraction w the label 🏷 .

🦢 : when i would watch the film of lgbtq people on Netflix (a few months back) for the first ever time and I would always focus on the female characters.

And I would always think "do i like her romantically? Or in a nice way?"

🦢 : i would play this game (the new one) called splatoon 2 & 3 and I would always have a crush on the female characters. I remember when I was playing the solo mode and every time I would win, I would see her do a certain pose (I'm not trying to be sexual with the character when saying this, I'm just trying to express my feelings of her), she had her body out and I would always stare at it and feel flustered. Have a huge tightening in my chest and my heart heavy.

🦢 : i remember during the game, i would see the octo boy and think “wow he is so cute”. now when i was younger (like 2 - 3 years back), i would always think “i wish he was real. I would like be his friend” and developed feelings (NOT a sexual or a romantic one, a platonic one that's strong like as a friend). I used to have a crush on him but I dont anymore now. I'm just attracted as a friend. (Lesbians have crushes on unattainable men like fictional characters and all but mine isn't a fictional character but a game one)

🦢 : I started identifying with the lesbian label more when I had strong feelings for the female character. Every time I would go on solo mode story playing as her, I instantly stare at her body and think, “shes so cute i love her” but at the same/at the time (still now), i never had a crush on the male characters anymore nor not as much. Like I found both inkling & octos cute (male ones) but I wouldn't feel like dating them (as like any human would do with irl people)

🦢 : I would always make those sounds (like the exciting ones) when I would see her make a little face when she gets a win (her smile is so cute I cant) and I would be like “FUCK STOP BEING SO CUTE ITS KILLING ME” and instant blushing constantly.

🦢 : I remember when I would find the saiki k character cute but I didn't have anything with him. I was mainly focusing on kokomi and teruhashi.

🦢 : I think this one is the biggest lesbian sign from me is looking. at. girls. Just their body, their part (their upper) or just their ass. Like I would always walk past and when I see a pretty girl (this happened YESTERDAY when walking to a store) and I looked at her quickly since her lovely perfume walked past, and went, “huuhooo” (whistle sound ik but it was a silent one).

She noticed me smiling but God.

Her perfume.

Just why. Are you. So cute.

And a bonus: 🦢 I nearly kissed my female best friend when she liked the same things as me. I literally hugged her when crying and almost kissed her when she had to go (yesterday ofc different girl)

(Splatoon 2 & 3 is a good game so please check it out and the anime saiki k !)

so this is my journey identifying as it.

And I still do.

ok y’all, i got told to rot in hell cause i was gay, had alot of homophobia today and outed the number of times and ppl being weird about it. just people pretending to be gay when they aren’t.

yeahh..

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I WENT TO THE BOYZ CONCERT YESTERDAY AND HOLY FUCK I SANG EVERYTHING FULLY SO LOUDLY STRAINING MY LUNGS TO THE POINT THEY NOTICED THE BACK AND KEVIN SAID 'I LOVE YOU TOO' AFTER ME SCREAMING WHEN IT WENT SILENT

LAST NIGHT WAS TERRIFIC...

something happened and im really sad and also happy.

happy chinese new year to all, but YOU GOTTA READ THIS.

for more than a year (3 yrs almost), i’ve done a self diagnosis on myself with spd (sensory processing disorder) and adhd (few others too)

the man took an hour late to arrive but LOL

went to this place and told the man about how i’ve been bullied and what was going on. so i obviously didn’t say i was gay but my mom did bring up how somebody was gay and was bullying me as a gay person (smart man knew i was gay from how I went 😝✌️ along with saying the word “gay” but he didn’t make it obvious until my mom looked away and he smiled and mouthed “yes good im proud for you”).

since i get extremely uncomfortable when they kept talking about my ASD so then i felt like crying cause yk mental health issues + illnesses, etc shit being exposed and almost cried (they never knew bc i never made it obvious but my eyes watered under my hoodie), and yk I felt really really sad than my mood was today.

THEN THE BIG NEWS CAME.

since you never knew i was neurodivergent, i’m gonna let you know.

i didn’t know HALF of what he said because he spoke fast but

i managed to catch half (idk if half atp cause he got LOADS of diagnosis for me but it was too much and he spoke really really fast)

HE WAS FRIENDLY BUT

i FUCKING KNEW. that the spd was right. I WASNT SURE BUT HE SAID I HAVE IT. YESSS A REAL DIAGNOSIS.

he said im diagnosed with asd, adhd, spd (sensory processing disorder), tics (not like tourettes but he did say something WILL cause me to tic but it’s only anxiety that will cause it a few times but if it gets worse, i must tell him) + my anxiety will cause me to tic (like shivering and form different tics but its not like tourettes that people ACTUALLY have).

he also said my auditory sensory processing disorder as well (+ with sensory processing too), he said i had something sensitivity (idk what it was because he spoke REALLY fast) but i think he said sensory or sensitivity disorder (if you knew what it’s called, PLEASE lemme know).

stuttering disorder + high functioning on asd + low functioning on adhd (lemme know if functioning is out of date or not) and some other stuff.

BUT I GOT AN OFFICIAL DIAGNOSIS GUYSSSSS

i’ve tried to find the “congratulations on the neurodivergency cake” but I found this.

congratulations to me on my further neurodivergent diagnosis :))

dear potato seventeen jeonghan left for military please show me a rainbow to make sure he's okay for me and I want to see it please I hope it comes out today so I can see it

I didn't ignore it, and I got a 5% raise on my salary! And everyone in town said I was married. Don't ignore the golden potato.