A Mess From The Best

Lost Balloons

(Pic is mine. Reproduce however you want)

when i look at the sky

i dont

see clouds

at least not as often as

i see feathers

from missing wings

i dont see myself

next to the stars

im in the middle

where lost balloons are found

i let one go once

it explored the sky

while i swore

it would come back

© @parasomnambulist December 15, 2020

Beautiful x

Beautiful nature..🌱

In life we all make mistakes some bigger then others

But we all make them .

Who are you to judge the person next to you ?

You ain't living with the pain, there are paying for their actions .

Some more then others.

Just coz you see them smiling 😀 don't mean inside they ain't crying .

When you look in there eyes, they may be looking back but inside they are shutting .

Trying to smile to hide the pain inside

. Trying to walk when your knees are shaking.

But you know you have to make them steps.

You don't no what that person is feeling !!!

Same as they don't you.

So next time just sit and think what you do.

Coz your actions and vocals can cause more damage to someone then your ever know . Just think

@trueemotions91

I thanked her

For my pain ,

For the pile of emotions

She left Upon my floor,

I still thanked her

For making me feel so raw,

Because she taught me

True life law,

I still thank her to this day

For all the heartache .

She taught me to self love

from The core,

You see ,

There is always a tale,

When they think

Thier have done the deed

And watch you crumbled to

Your knees,

But what she didn’t expect to see,

Was me to come back ,

Roaring an all ,

While she

Is still

Trying to find her

True Fairy tale,

When she allowed me

To find my soul

A long time ago.

@trueemotions91

If you ever feel like this my inbox is forever open ! ❤️

A gun

A quick escape

To exit this thing called life

My Brain can’t take no more

Every day I force a smile

For what?

For fuck all

My head can’t think no more

I don’t want be on this place called earth

I want be dug deep in the ground

Out of this crazy life

Where there is no escape

From my self .

It’s a mess.

I give up fighting the urge everyday

To just end this shit.

For real.

If I had trigger

I wouldn’t hestatie

To know it would be over within a blink

It’s the perfect escape .

It’s lucky I don’t owe one

Or I would be in a place I call home .

Heaven .

Away from this nightmare

I can’t escape.

Please lord give me strength not

To put a end to my own light.

I don’t know why you placed me upon this life

And have me air to breathe

Every night

I ask why ?

What is my purpose to you under this dark light

Maybe the easy way out

People will say

But there don’t know the state of my mind .

It’s hard to cooperate

When all I see around me is snakes

I’m done with life .

Even the ones who claim to love me

Can’t see what is doing to the insides of me.

Life is a joke

No one gives a flying fuck

That my brain is turning into sticky glue

With words I can’t relate to .

Just tired of the pain my mind plays daily

I would rather live in a zoo

Then play this game of 2.

Hate is a strong word

But belive me when I say I hate this earth.

It’s full of devils

Ain’t no angels here

Just a fuckin game of tug .

I ain’t got the strentgh to pull

The fucker to my side no more.

Years of fighting with my own

To now just want be put in a hole.

I’ve learnt to accept it’s the only place

Im going be at rest

With my crazy soul.

I’m close to admit

The fucker has won .

@trueemotions91

“Be very, very careful what you put into your head, because you’ll never, ever get it out.”

— homas Cardinal Wolsey (via thoughtkick)

You see

I see the scars

It’s a talent for me,

To find you at your weakest

And bring you up from your knees,

It’s scary but Please accept the journey.

I can’t make you choose

I promise I’ll show you the other shoes,

Just give me one minute

It’s all I need

I’ll show you the light

On the other side .

I want to see you smile,

I will enlighten your soul,

I promise I’ll keep Your heart undercover

Not like any other.

I won’t leave until

Your complete

I’ll take the pain

And turn it into rain

I’ll take the anger

And turn it into thunder

I’ll empty your brain

And make it my burden

Because I can carry that

If I know your out of danger.

@trueemotions91

Life one look one love , one heart one soul, one shot at this game .

Play wisely like a fool watch for the stars and fill the space .

Don’t let the clouds move that amstophre push them thoughts through quicker then a river.

Watch how it moves, watch how it trembles . It bears a lot of Weight but yet - never do it buckle .

To love, to loss ,to lose , to gain, to win , to climb.

To fly like a bird with the wind gliding your path.

You flip I flop .

You fall I climb .

@trueemotions91

Good morning ❤️

Don’t lose yourself like me

Just sat staring at the tress

Admiring the beauty

Beyond your own little lies

Believing all you see .

Don’t let the pretty things in life

Fool you

Remember a face is a blessing in a disguise

And the fool will always turn out to be you

If you truly loose your soul .

@trueemotions91