To be scared is a under statement,
That fear no longer dwindles in my bones ,
Tumblr has taught me ,
Friends are just ghosts , or empty egg shells.
Strangers have more empathy then the man next door,
I was just a fool ,
all along , playing to the devils own dirty tune .
Emotions that ran high ,
Words that didn’t make much sense ,
To a soul opened my eyes
By just a few tiny words.
I realise now ,
it is not, who is here to pick up the phone
It’s the ones who are in the dark
But yet take the time to pass your name in there own daily thoughts.
Yet I’ve done nothing for them, yet there speak of me so kindly.
In this world that’s distracted by so much colour,
Them bright doors don’t hold the key to this earths heavens,
It is the doors that are hid in the darkest shadows,
waiting for someone to find them, to help them flourish.
So Don’t go looking for the brightest light ,
Search for the darkest gate
that’s where we will find all things beautiful in
such a dark cold world,
that’s flourished with colour To distract us ,
from the true treasures of this world .
@trueemotions91
@tammyfeabakker
Lost in a world of emotions
Covid on my mind
Not a worry for the blind.
It’s not the strain of my eyes
from watching the tv
Or holding my phone all day
It’s the battle going on in my brain .
A pain I feel through shut eyes
The light don’t bother me no more
Used to the dark and the man made lights
With a flip of the switch .
It Seems day and night no longer disgunish
The hurt no longer exists
But neither does my happiness .
Lost in my own mind
But just a empty space .
Dying to breathe in the fresh air
To revitalise my brain .
Lost words that make no sense
Emotions I can’t figure out .
The world has gone crazy
And my brain is on the fall out .
How can my brain survive this pandemic with nothing to do , no air to breathe , no sun to see,
Just me .
@trueemotions91
“I felt like lying down by the side of the trail and remembering it all. The woods do that to you, they always look familiar, long lost, like the face of a long-dead relative, like an old dream, like a piece of forgotten song drifting across the water, most of all like golden eternities of past childhood or past manhood and all the living and the dying and the heartbreak that went on a million years ago and the clouds as they pass overhead seem to testify (by their own lonesome familiarity) to this feeling.”
― Jack Kerouac, The Dharma Bums
Love ,
or is it destruction ,
We crave for love ,
For that special touch,
Even if it means our souls get broke along the way,
But why do we allow someone to crush us,
For the sake of that hug,
Or tender touch ,
Is it love we are craving ,
Or the feeling of need ,
Like a baby seed,
Being nourished until it reaches full growth,
Is that growth ,
when we finally realise ,
We no longer need to be loved ,
Coz the only love we need,
Is self love,
To grow from the arms that wrapped us so tight,
Is it time for me to final breath,
Is it suffocation of our soul,
And we only crave because we lost the touch,
To Mother Earth.
@trueemotions91
Listen to the roar
Listen to the core
I won’t kneel again
Nor will my brain repeat again.
When life is passing
Remember to keep smiling .
I look at people every day
Walking past glaring
Eyes all blurring
From a telephone .
Cant be arsed to say hello
To a real huma soul.
not a leg ache
It’s a hand ache
A demolition to the human brain
We ain’t wired for the crown
Or silver tin foil .
We are made from earth
A thousand fucked up cells .
Your ground
When electric is running around
Straight to your brain
Don’t you realise.
You look like a clown
With a upside down
Smile
Not knowing
When your next swipe
Will be more mesmerising
To them demonised eyes
Blacked out from
That devil In a disguise.
@trueemotions91
emotions make me feel physically sick
Yet I fight that feeling everyday
Just because I’m used to feeling that way
It’s not normal
I know that now
It is my soul
Breaking inside
It’s only escape
Since I lock it deep
I’ve ignored every instinct
To fight what I know
Coz the truth be told
I just don’t care no more .
Bottled for far to long
It’s only aim is to remind me every day
What makes me feel vile
But I allready know
He will never complete my soul
Yet forever under his control .
@trueemotions91
Don’t put out the light out on me
I asked
Ever so silently .
He turned ever so slightly
With a grin upon upon his cheek
Blew the light
And I was gone within a blink .
@trueemotions91
A mess from the best
Ain’t like the rest .
She was blessed by the man
With his shoulders at rest .
A danger to the devil from the inside , out
As her emotions were made to be numbed out .
Like hitler , wanting you to be his butler ,
Hid in the darkness from the stars ,
Never knew what it was like to see past the dark .
It’s a shame , but we don’t pass the blame ,
especially when your blinded by The other game .
Now she can see , so much more clearly ,
She is starting to look a lot more pearly .
The sadness in her eyes , are replaced with the sunlight .
The breeze on her skin , awakens her inner self esteem,
Something you tried to keep locked in .
A beautiful soul, you tried to hide ,
Hid beneath your evil eye .
The man with the rainbow eyes , clearly showed up in perfect time .
Her soul was crushing , a big mistake,
Made from the man, with the holes in his skin,
Who now has nothing to sink his claws in .
@trueemotions91
Living life to the bare,
Never realising
I ain’t taking in enough air
To stoned to care
Feeling high as that airplane
In a desert island
Chillin to the beat of
Natures sound
Everyone around
Me is just
Blurring
The flowers keep turning
In amazing circles .
While the fairies are dancing
To my pretty foot sound.
The trees are sucking
From the ground .
The Bees are to busy
To see the flowers are running
Around .
The worms dig hard
But wiggle out the earth
Into it’s next survivors mouth .
The mud is moving
If I lay still enough
I’m sure I will feel it
Pretty things flying around.
@trueemotions91
A woman ,
Is her name
A mother to all,
From the ground she was born
She always stood tall ,
She braces the craziest storm
Because that’s her home,
She carries life to the full
So we can be reborn ,
She gives her body to another
With out a thought for the other ,
She knows power, love & hate
But yet you won’t see her shake ,
She has to be powerful
To raise her next generation ,
To Make sure there matter
In a world with a lot of chatter ,
She has the power to give and take
But she always chooses life
Over any other path
That may call her ,
Because that’s the gate
To her most beautiful
Creations in life,
Always In sight , but guarded
By love , because that’s what mothers do
On this crazy path called life .
@trueemotions91
I believe in fairy’s
In a galaxy far away
Because I’m allowed to.
Dreaming
Some say .
But it’s reality
To my mind
Just Because their can’t see
Them dancing
In the glistening sky
Don’t mean I’m
Dreaming
My life away.
Remember
We all see
What we want to see
Some to blinded
To see thier own
Reality .
@trueemotions91