What Is Your Own Definition Of: Headspace

What it feels like waking up dissociated:

–John

genuinely curious

Psst btw letting you know tagging your posts with "Syscourse DNI" puts them into the syscourse tag itself because of how tumblr's tagging system works ^^'

thank you so much for informing me about this! i was completely unaware of this. ill be sure to refrain from using it, as I don’t want to attract that kind of crowd! :)

oh, so many.

the horrible memory, little recollection of anything more than a week ago, finding things we didn’t remember doing, the huge gender and sexual fluidity & dysmorphia, going from extremely anxious or depressed to calm, the internal dialogue and arguments, the intense fictionkinning and rapidly changing opinions. we mistook two alters for our left brain and right brain. plus more probably

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question 95: do you think there were "signs" of your plurality before you officially discovered it (if that applies to you)? what were they, if you dont mind sharing?

generalized amnesia and emotional amnesia goes hard because oh yeah that extremely terrible thing happened and i don’t feel anything i felt while i was experiencing and oh this other thi- NERVOUS SYSTEM SHOWS UP

Common things in DID that no one likes to talk about

- switches that feel like you’re turning into someone else rather than them taking control (non-possessive switching)

- being unable to recognize amnesia until something requires you to remember something you forgot

- staying in the front for weeks at a time

- being unable to communicate with alters internally (this is so common why does everyone act like this is weird?)

- feeling like you don’t have any problems because you feel disconnected from them

- constant denial

- rapid identity, label, and appearance changes

- comorbidities, particularly personality disorders, anxiety disorders, and the schizophrenia spectrum

- autism (there is science pointing towards autistic people being more susceptible to trauma)

- disliking your system

- wanting final fusion

We've come out to roughly three parties about our plurality in which we were in a covert space. 1. Our immediate family. They didn't take it too well- Well, they kind of did. It's just that they didn't really understand and made several hurtful remarks and eventually straight-out claimed that we were faking. So, I think either way it probably would've turned out like this, due to the nature of my family, but to perhaps recommend more research on plurality (EVEN MORE. We still recommended them but it was less direct), might've changed that outcome. 2. One of our closer online friends-- They brushed us off. I have to admit, the one who came out about it was extremely rushed about it, and it was definitely a mistake on our part. We eventually grew apart. I believe if we had more experience in that department could explain more thoroughly, it probably could've turned out different. 3. One of our real life friends- This one was recent, as you saw us yapping about it. It went very well. We took a moment aside to explain our situation, and they asked questions and we answered them. They also said they'd do some research on their own time? (What did I do to deserve you........) Overall, for those who wish to come out to others, it's very important to be completely open to questions, suggest research in their time if they wish to learn more, explain clearly and directly about what it is (especially since a lot of people may be completely unaware of its nature other than the typical stereotypes), so making sure to knock those out of the park are very important. - blurry

question 77: if you've ever come out to anyone as plural, how did you go about it? is there anything you'd change about how you did it? do you have any advice for others looking to do the same?

What is your definition on: alter

(Google and other forms of search engines or A.I is not allowed.)

BOO……. Haha got you

the horrors.............

We’re sorry for our absence recently we just want to take a break from creating for a while, explanation under the cut

heavy tw: suicide attempt & self harm

for a while now I’ve been doing quite horribly mentally, nonetheless I like running all my blogs just the same even when I feel bad

I’ve attempted maybe three or four times within the past few weeks and one was just a few days ago, and it drained me quite badly

I’ve also been trying to quit SH completely which is a huge task, mainly I struggle with these but if thistle fronts he does too

Anyway we’ve also been doubting our system worse than ever so we wanna get away from all things that trigger spirals of negativity and end up with us in severe danger

have a wonderful day friends, and remember, you’re loved