onemashedbraincell
(they/them)disordered systemi don't care what you label yourself as, it's not my business. just keep the fucking discourse off this blog.
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i dont get it when people get mad at systems being happy or talking about mundane or silly parts of plurality. that doesnt discount the difficulties (and yes, it can cause difficulties even if your plurality wasnt caused by trauma) and some people just dont like talking about their issues online to a bunch of strangers. just because someone doesnt constantly talk about their suffering doesnt mean it doesnt exist.
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WAIT BECAUSE WHY DID I JUST REALIZE THAT SIMPLY PLURAL HAS THAT LOGO BECAUSE ITS AN & MEANING AND. THATS SO COOL WHAT??
trying to unlearn misinfo and beliefs brought upon us from our abusers is by far one of the hardest things that we’ve ever had to do for our recovery, but we’re progressing.
UPDATE ON THE CRUSH SITCH????
HAHAHA, yeah, still going strong. been working up the courage to confess n such, trying to still figure out if they like me back and all things. also wanting to make sure we’re both ready for a relationship because that’s super important!
trying my best to learn about them and both pros and cons will come along with them and how i can help resolve things or support them in either case! because hey, we aren’t pissed to be friends for awhile longer, getting to know them a bit more before finally coming to the conclusion whether it’s just infatuation or genuine love is always great! :)
so id say it’s going pretty well, actually. thanks for the ask!
Do you have alters that speak different languages? If so, which languages? :0
We personally don’t have any alters that speak different languages. While collectively we know a bit of Spanish, there’s no one who speaks a different language exclusively, at least not that we know of! Who knows, haha. Thank you for the ask!
tw : shooting
i feel like getting shot would feel so interesting for two seconds and then it would probably feel bad
mentions of sexual assault and grooming
nah because what is up with being confident in your memory that you were sexually assaulted (and you still are being sexually harassed and groomed btw) but the perpetrator shows basic human courtesy once and now you’re the delusional lying fuck.
Kinda wild how most people generally recognize that the "too sick to go to school, too sick to watch tv/play games" mindset our parents had was bullshit but still impose essentially the exact same rules on disabled adults and scrutinize them for enjoying low-energy hobbies while being too fatigued or in pain to work a full time job (or any job at all)
I know I posted a video on tiktok about this but more people need to hear this
Don't date someone unless you can't handle all their disorders, let me repeat Do not date someone unless you can handle ALL their disorders
Don't date someone with a personality disorder unless you can handle the episodes
Do not date someone with a trauma disorder can you can handle the flashblacks
Do not date someone with mood disorder unless you can handle the mood swings
Do not date someone with a disorder you cannot handle
Do not date someone if you're going to villainize them or their disorders
Do not date someone if you're going to romanticize their disorders
It shows you have little to no understanding of their disorders or who they are as a person, it shows you can't truly love them because you refuse to learn the basics of the disorder, and it shows just how much of a shitty person you are
system protip: if trying to keep track of your switches and fragments feels impossible and is driving you crazy, stop doing it. or at the very least dont put as much weight into making it perfect. you dont need to track every switch, you dont need every fragment logged. sometimes its easier to just exist as a system than drive yourself up the wall trying to micromanage everything about your complex disorder
🦴 - Is anyone in your system dating? If so, who is the strangest pair?
Yep! Only two as far as we’re aware, but they’re not exactly strange, especially since they were kind of in a situation ship in source.
💀 - Is there a particular source you have a lot of fictives from?
Oh, definitely. I stare at Slay the Princess in horror.
🪦 - Who has the strangest habits?
Well, we have one person, but I don’t think they’d like to share it so I’ll just go for the next weirdest one. Collecting insect corpses and random rocks.
⚰️ - Do you have any nonverbal headmates?
Yep! Involuntary and voluntarily!
🕷 - Who is the worst at masking?
The British one. Or the littles, but they mostly stay inside anyway so it’s not too big of a deal.
🕸 - How did your headmates get their names?
Depends on the alter, some find a name that feels right, some do extensive research to find something that matches them perfectly, some use a random name generator, some just come prepackaged.
☠️ - Do you have any headmates with colored hair,piercings, or tattoos?
Hm, off the top of my head, maybe two or three- but there’s probably more that I can’t think of.
🔪 - How consistent are you with logging switches?
Ooh, we’re really bad at this. We try our best, but when you can’t remember things and not all of your members are even aware you have simply plural, it gets a little tough.
🧿 - Is there anyone who spends most of their time in front complaining?
Uhh, yep. We have a few emotion holders who do that- also some persecutors, littles, it varies. Nobody in specific.
🎃 - Is there anything specific you do to help introjects feel more comfortable?
Allowing them to state clear boundaries, get things that are comforting to them that are from source, or allowing them to branch out if they prefer not to identify as their source! Whatever they need, for the most part.
👻 - How did you discover your plurality/systemhood?
We frankly do not remember very well, but one day they just. Appeared. We passed them off as imaginary friends. We were not imaginary friends.
🩸 - Is there anyone who absolutely hates their source?
No one who absolutely despises it, but there are definitely a few who don’t like to be associated with their source.
🦇 - Are there any songs that you associate with systemhood/plurality or your system as a whole?
Not really!
🐈⬛- Is there anyone who identifies as otherkin/therian?
Yep! We have a few guys in there, love those guys. They embrace themselves and don’t give a shit about what others think! They’re really great and sweet.
🔮 - How does your system determine who handles certain tasks/responsibilities?
it sort of plays out naturally- or higher ups decide, well, something like that. I’m not certain if there’s like anything specifically but generally they show up just knowing? Or they just end up settling into the role.
🧟♂️ - Who is the most outwardly intimating? Are they viewed the same way within the system?
Outwardly intimidating… probably nicole because of just how confident and blunt they are? they’re less intimidating insys but, yeah, still not the easiest to talk to.
🕯- Do your system's littles use "Baby Talk"?
It depends on the little. For the most part, no. Especially during text- any quirks are mainly voice-related when internally speaking, and those are unintentional and not too obvious.
⛓️ - Funniest quote out of context
“bros magical girl energy confuses me” - some guy in our head
⬛ - Is there anyone who has a unique/ non-traditional role?
Plenty, plenty. But you know, alters are unique to your experiences. But I suppose compared to the typical archetypes and such, definitely, yes.
🪳 - How do you visualize your headmates? (Drawing them,picrew,etc)
Typically through picrews, for Introjects fanart. Some guys want to draw, but it’s not typical.
System Ask Game #3
🦴 - Is anyone in your system dating? If so, who is the strangest pair?
💀 - Is there a particular source you have a lot of fictives from?
🪦 - Who has the strangest habits?
⚰️ - Do you have any nonverbal headmates?
🕷 - Who is the worst at masking?
🕸 - How did your headmates get their names?
☠️ - Do you have any headmates with colored hair,piercings, or tattoos?
🔪 - How consistent are you with logging switches?
🧿 - Is there anyone who spends most of their time in front complaining?
🎃 - Is there anything specific you do to help introjects feel more comfortable?
👻 - How did you discover your plurality/systemhood?
🩸 - Is there anyone who absolutely hates their source?
🦇 - Are there any songs that you associate with systemhood/plurality or your system as a whole?
🐈⬛- Is there anyone who identifies as otherkin/therian?
🔮 - How does your system determine who handles certain tasks/responsibilities?
🧟♂️ - Who is the most outwardly intimating? Are they viewed the same way within the system?
🕯- Do your system's littles use "Baby Talk"?
⛓️ - Funniest quote out of context
⬛ - Is there anyone who has a unique/ non-traditional role?
🪳 - How do you visualize your headmates? (Drawing them,picrew,etc)
Syscourse Speedrun
- Endogenic means a system formed for reasons not correlated to trauma
- Endogenic does NOT mean a complete lack of trauma in an individual
- Endogenics, Pro-Endos and adjacent fundamentally view systemhood differently and outside of solely disordered experiences
That said...
- Complex Dissociative Disorders (DID/OSDD/Etc) have well known and studied ties to trauma, with complexity rising from prolonged and severe cases.
- Trauma is not part of diagnostic criteria to include those who cannot remember their trauma due to dissociation. Not because it isn't an important or known factor.
- Integration =/= Fusion, Integration is the lessening of dissociative barriers and a systems ability to function together. Fusion is the merging of parts.
- Final fusion and functional multiplicity are both viable end goals and up to the systems desires and needs. Integration is required for both of these.
- People are allowed to be affected positively AND negatively by their disorders and life experiences.
- People are also allowed to view their disorders in whatever way they desire
- It is not your job to police people because you think what they're doing is harmful for them.
- It is also not your job to tell people they have trauma that they just don't know about.
- Dissociation is a spectrum.
- Other disorders experience dissociative parts with less elaboration like those with DID/OSDD/Etc
- Westernized Tulpamancy and Tulpas as known today are not directly related to Tibetan Buddist Nirmanakaya or Sprul-pa. Westernized Tulpamancy comes from 20th century mystic explorers, who developed these ideas mostly independently.
- Vajrayana and Mahayana Buddhism are open and inclusive religions anyway, but what Tulpamancers practice is very different.
- There is a conversation to be had about the suppression of religious freedom that has affected Tibetan Buddhism, but it's still not a closed practice.
- Something here about Theosophy in relation to Westernized Tulpamancy
- Plural is not solely synonymous with system, and not everyone who identifies as plural is a system.
- Not every system will identify as plural either.
- The term plural has ties to other non-system communities such as alterhumanity.
- Plural is an inherently inclusive term.
- People are allowed to be wrong about their origins in whatever potential way.
- Being wrong is not equivalent to faking.
- Origins are self applied labels and tell you very little about a person and their system
- Origins can and often do overlap.
- Endogenic origins does not mean a system cannot be diagnosed and meet criteria for a CDD.
- People are allowed to view and label their parts in whatever way is best for them.
- System accountability is important. You are one tangible entity and you take responsibility for the things that occur because of your system.
- Discourse stances do not make a person or space inherently safer or more dangerous.
- People's actions speak louder than labels, and anyone can be a horrible person.
- Its up to a system to determine their own boundaries and needs.
- You don't need to argue if your boundaries differ from someone else's; enforce your own.
- Block people and topics that make you uncomfortable and especially if they're potentially triggering.
- Genuinely, please just learn to be friends with the block button.
- Harassment is bad no matter who you are.
- Yes it's still bad if you disagree with someone or think they're in the wrong.
- Criticism is not harassment.
- Even if you don't intent to change your mind, facilitating genuine conversation with people instead of assuming things about them or their experiences will contribute to a better interaction for both sides.
- Ableism is bad.
- Stop using things like delusional as Insults or treating people with ficticious disorder poorly.
- Stop treating mentally ill adults as inherently incapable of functioning or dictating things for themselves.
- Sanism is Also bad.
- Fake claiming is bad.
- Stop insinuating that pro-endos (and adjacent) aren't traumatized, aren't systems or can't have CDDs.
- Yes, again, fake claiming is bad even if you don't like or disagree with someone.
- Stop saying its "so easy" to tell who fakers are.
- The psychiatric and mental health systems are full of flaws.
- Diagnosis is a privilege for some and isn't for others.
- Some people may not want or desire a diagnosis for many reasons. This does not make their problems any less than.
- Being medically recognized is just as valid as having a diagnosis.
- Yes, therapists can diagnose people with things. A title does not equal credentials.
- If a therapist cannot diagnose you due to their credentials or other factors but suspects something, they will refer you to another professional who can for evaluation.
- Some therapists will choose of their own volition not to diagnose patients for varying reasons.
- Self diagnosis and self suspecting isn't a bad thing. Research is always encouraged for accuracy of what you suspect.
- The resources people find through self diagnosis even if not the right thing to suspect can be helpful for someone's situation.
- Reiterating here again that being wrong isn't faking, and that being wrong isn't a bad thing.
- Being able to help yourself cope is a good thing.
- Recognizing your symptoms if you intend to speak to a professional is also a good thing.
People are all different, be kind.
If you have questions I'm glad to talk, if you are aggressive or just trying to start something, you will be blocked :)
Traumagenic and endogenic headmates aren't enemies by the way. Sometimes they play Minecraft together. Sometimes they hold hands. Sometimes they kiss. Sometimes they cover work shifts or school for each other. Sometimes even within the same system. This goes for disordered and nondisordered systems too btw.
🐠 who has the strangest fictional crush?
i mean, we don't really harbor fictional crushes, and those who do refuse to tell us about them.
🦀 who is the BRITISH one
ruin. hands down. ruin. when im telling you he STRUGGLES SO HARD to mask the accent
🐬 most likely to be turned into a frog by an evil witch :(
Both Nicoles, mainly because they're both assholes/aff
🦑 which pillow pet are you (current fronter) - friendly frog pillow pet
🐳 who says y’all unironically - gala
🐙 who’s the best at fronting (interpret this how you will) - uhh. in terms of keeping hold of front, our higher ups. in terms of masking, we have a bunch of just. maskers.
🪼 who has the most obscure source? who has the most well known? - Gary or Leah is probably the most obscure (both childhood introjected fictives), and without a doubt, Elsa is most known. They are all from our childhood....
🐡 who’s the most insect adjacent. either in the little guy way or the EEEAAAAGHHHTKGJF FNN KILL IT way - Bee, M., there's a few guys
🐟 who should be at the club rn - me. id like to send myself to the club.
system ask game except the questions are moderately unhinged
🐠 who has the strangest fictional crush?
🦀 who is the BRITISH one
🐬 most likely to be turned into a frog by an evil witch :(
🦑 which pillow pet are you (current fronter)
🐳 who says y’all unironically
🐙 who’s the best at fronting (interpret this how you will)
🪼 who has the most obscure source? who has the most well known?
🐡 who’s the most insect adjacent. either in the little guy way or the EEEAAAAGHHHTKGJF FNN KILL IT way
🐟 who should be at the club rn
insert funny thing here about plurality because i remember i had this really funny idea for a post in my head but now its forever lost to the void that is my subconscious
Rb if you were/are a gifted kid I wanna see how many of us ended up here
Common things in DID that no one likes to talk about
- switches that feel like you’re turning into someone else rather than them taking control (non-possessive switching)
- being unable to recognize amnesia until something requires you to remember something you forgot
- staying in the front for weeks at a time
- being unable to communicate with alters internally (this is so common why does everyone act like this is weird?)
- feeling like you don’t have any problems because you feel disconnected from them
- constant denial
- rapid identity, label, and appearance changes
- comorbidities, particularly personality disorders, anxiety disorders, and the schizophrenia spectrum
- autism (there is science pointing towards autistic people being more susceptible to trauma)
- disliking your system
- wanting final fusion
HAPPY EASTER TO MY FAVOURITE SYSTEM <3333
(you’re the only system I know so automatically my favourite)
happy Easter (and 4/20)! and to everyone else who sees this as well who celebrates! i know our younger ones have been having a lot of fun, and i hope you’ll have a good day as well!
Space themed System ask game based on common fakeclaim "criteria" because these things are valid and cool actually
🛰-Do you have a large headcount?
👾-Do any alters in your system have typing quirks?
🚀-Does your system have any Non-human alters?
☄️-Is your system neurodivergent?
🔭-Does your system use neo Pronouns?
🌠-Do any of the alters in your system have dyed hair?
🌙-Are there any nonverbal alters in your system?
🪐-Does your system have Angry or "dangerous" persecutors?
💫-Do your littles use 'little-speech?'
🌌-Does your system have little to no amnesia between switches?
🌟-Does your system have fairly clear communication?
🌘-Do you have a large or complex headspace?
🛸-Do any alters in your system have exo-memories?
👽Does your system have any tics?
☀️-is your system bad at masking?
✨️-Do any alters in your system have an accent?
🌎-Do any alters in your system speak in a different language?
☁️-Does your system use things like pluralkit and simply plural?
⭐️-are you out about being a system?
Here's your daily reminder that telling someone they're faking is a classist and ableist action as not all doctors are unbiased, and not all unbiased doctors are affordable
HELLO (jumpscare) >:)
I didn’t know you could make the text larger WHAT
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Hii I’ve recently discovered that we’re a system and was wondering what your favorite thing the person you like or your friend you mentioned has done for you!! I’m kind of scared to tell our friends but your blog gives us hope
hey! welcome to the community! one of the best things one of our friends have done to accommodate us is by doing their own research themselves! i am absolutely blessed to have them, haha. they have also made sure to respect our boundaries, including not interacting with particular alters such as littles due to our own hesitance, and other forms of assistance!
if you have supportive friends, it’s definitely great to tell them about it! we were apprehensive at first as well, but they ended up being one of our most supportive people. :) something i recommend is allowing them to ask questions and explaining the basics! and if they’ve already heard of systems before, especially from ‘cringe’ posters, make sure to re-educate them and point them to more informational places or sites to correct any misinformation.
of course, they won’t understand, at least at first, but the important thing is they are willing to learn and try and understand, even if they cannot at first.
hi guys!!!!! idk if this question is too personal (if so just delete this from your inbox) but you mentioned being in love?????? i wnated to know how that would work with all of you guys needing to agree and also what is this person (or persons) like?????
hey! i definitely agree having a crush on another person outside of the system is definitely difficult sometimes, especially due to opposing opinions. however, it's super important to note that not all alters will have to be in a romantic relationship with the person aforementioned! while it's quite complicated and things definitely have to be worked out with the other people or person, it is totally possible depending on their preferences. of course, other alters may not have the same affection towards this person or people as others may, and to that it gets complicated. depending on comforts, could be a polyamorous relationship, open relationship, or monogamous relationship- whatever is most comfortable for both groups overall. as for the person/people, they're the sweetest ever, lol! very supportive, accepting, open-minded, albeit a bit stubborn and competitive at times but we love them for that and honestly think its adorable! :D would genuinely fight whatever lord or god above is there for them and it's just asdiufhuihrh. rambly stupid stuff, i won't talk about it too much, but we appreciate them a ton!
thank you for the question! we rambled a little hard there, sorry if we overshared or anything a little, lol. hope that helps answer your question!
Headmate who insists they’re very evil and fucked up, despite being kind and caring
Headmate who (with much love in his heart) calls the others losers
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figuring out that the trauma holders weren’t lying to you when you discover physical evidence of the trauma occurring……… like bitch i thought you were saying that shit for shits and giggles?
bear like a gay guy or like the animal...?
the animal!!