- switches that feel like you’re turning into someone else rather than them taking control (non-possessive switching)
- being unable to recognize amnesia until something requires you to remember something you forgot
- staying in the front for weeks at a time
- being unable to communicate with alters internally (this is so common why does everyone act like this is weird?)
- feeling like you don’t have any problems because you feel disconnected from them
- constant denial
- rapid identity, label, and appearance changes
- comorbidities, particularly personality disorders, anxiety disorders, and the schizophrenia spectrum
- autism (there is science pointing towards autistic people being more susceptible to trauma)
- disliking your system
- wanting final fusion
me when!!! squeals. me when!! friend!!/dir i love sm!!!!! hugs so very tightly!!
~ cottontail 🍥
(yes. i got a tag for just this. 🩷🩷🩷🩷/soverypos/ilya)
to the few people/sys who went batshit crazy over catching a fly and got us not only extremely tired and almost made the body pass out, but also somehow shut ANYONE ELSE OUT who tried to front from sheer willpower and determination alone????? how do i eject someone from a brain
you know the switching is crazy when you go from paranoid about dying and being extremely depressed and unable to get out of your bed to being extremely restless and motivated and just. hungry.
no because where did all these fictives come from did my brain give up on making guys
We’re sorry for our absence recently we just want to take a break from creating for a while, explanation under the cut
heavy tw: suicide attempt & self harm
for a while now I’ve been doing quite horribly mentally, nonetheless I like running all my blogs just the same even when I feel bad
I’ve attempted maybe three or four times within the past few weeks and one was just a few days ago, and it drained me quite badly
I’ve also been trying to quit SH completely which is a huge task, mainly I struggle with these but if thistle fronts he does too
Anyway we’ve also been doubting our system worse than ever so we wanna get away from all things that trigger spirals of negativity and end up with us in severe danger
have a wonderful day friends, and remember, you’re loved
🌍✨ A Voice from Gaza: Fighting for Hope ❤️🩹
Hi, my name is Mosab , and I’m from Gaza. Life here has been harder than I could ever imagine, but today I’m sharing my story with hope in my heart, because your kindness has already given us so much strength.
This journey hasn’t been easy. The war has taken 25 family members from us—25 beautiful souls we loved deeply. Their laughter, their presence, their love… all of it is gone, leaving behind memories that are both precious and painful. Every day, I carry the weight of their loss, but I also carry their spirit, which gives me the strength to keep going.
Our Journey So Far
When I first reached out, I couldn’t have imagined we’d make it this far. Your support has been a light in these difficult times, and we are so deeply grateful for every single contribution.
But the road ahead is still challenging. Every day, we’re reminded of how much we’ve lost and how much we still need to rebuild.
Here’s what life in Gaza looks like for my family right now:
🏠 Safety: The uncertainty of tomorrow weighs heavily on us.
😢 Loss: The absence of the 25 family members we’ve lost is a pain we carry every moment.
💔 Dreams on Hold: The future feels so far away when survival takes all our strength.
How You Can Help Us Cross the Finish Line Even the smallest act of kindness can make a difference:
$5 may seem small, but for us, it’s a little relief, a moment of comfort, and a reminder that kindness still exists. ❤️
Can’t donate? Reblog this post to help us reach someone who can. Every share matters more than you know.
Why Your Support Matters Your kindness isn’t just about helping us meet our goal—it’s about reminding us that we’re not alone in this fight. It’s about hope. It’s about survival. And it’s about giving my family a chance to rebuild our lives, even in the face of unimaginable loss.
Thank you for helping us get this far. Your generosity and compassion have already brought us closer to a better tomorrow, and for that, I’m endlessly grateful.
With all my love and gratitude,
Mosab and Family ❤️
Hii I’ve recently discovered that we’re a system and was wondering what your favorite thing the person you like or your friend you mentioned has done for you!! I’m kind of scared to tell our friends but your blog gives us hope
hey! welcome to the community! one of the best things one of our friends have done to accommodate us is by doing their own research themselves! i am absolutely blessed to have them, haha. they have also made sure to respect our boundaries, including not interacting with particular alters such as littles due to our own hesitance, and other forms of assistance!
if you have supportive friends, it’s definitely great to tell them about it! we were apprehensive at first as well, but they ended up being one of our most supportive people. :) something i recommend is allowing them to ask questions and explaining the basics! and if they’ve already heard of systems before, especially from ‘cringe’ posters, make sure to re-educate them and point them to more informational places or sites to correct any misinformation.
of course, they won’t understand, at least at first, but the important thing is they are willing to learn and try and understand, even if they cannot at first.
Do you enjoy being plural? I’ve heard mixed answers, mostly because some anti-Endo people are hardcore insistent that you have to be suffering to be plural. We enjoy it some days and don’t others!
Hey! I'd definitely say that the *disordered* part of plurality is something I dislike and wish I didn't have, but plurality in itself we do enjoy. We do love our headmates, even though relationships with others may be a bit strained. We have a similar pattern where some days we may hyperfixate on it intensely, and other days we absolutely hate it. There's no 'one right answer'. We love our headmates because they've protected us- we bond with them because they protected us. Some may hate their headmates, some may love their headmates. Personally, we try and make the best of it, especially since for us it's a long-term process to recovery. Focusing only on the bad parts of our disorder only hurts us. It's a spectrum, and nobody has to fit into one little box in order to be considered plural. ♥
plus we had the whole 'sorry future me', followed by the internal fuck you when we did something that might've not been the smart
question 95: do you think there were "signs" of your plurality before you officially discovered it (if that applies to you)? what were they, if you dont mind sharing?
(they/them)disordered systemi don't care what you label yourself as, it's not my business. just keep the fucking discourse off this blog.
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