I Literally Hate When I Go To Talk To Her And There’s Someone In Her Room… It’s Always The Same

forever trapped in the cycle between “I want to talk to my tc because if I don’t I’ll feel like my day is ruined” and “oh fuck I feel like I’m being annoying because I talked to my tc again and he definitely knows that I like him and he thinks I’m weird”

she asked me if i was down today like do i really look that depressed lmao?? but we had an hour long conversation and i feel like i’ve really got to know her better . she said she always looks forward to seeing me and she doesn’t really talk to many other teachers in our school (there are reasons but if i posted it here anyone who looked at this account would instantly know who i was ) and it was so cute i almost died 🥰shes started telling me more personal stuff too i really love it- me 7 years ago would never have imagined this

A get to know J post!

so i’ve been in this community since like 2016, but had to keep deactivating my previous blogs because my “friends” found out and were telling people. i realised i ramble a lot about j but haven’t really made a post describing what she’s like so here it is!

shes 30 years older than me and teaches classics - i have her for latin (i wanted to take the other subject she teaches but it clashed on my timetable sadly)

she was my teacher in my first year of secondary school and i’ve had her every year apart from one. this is now my last year of school.

i’d never studied latin before and she made me fall in love with the subject and i’m doing it in university next year too

shes quite tall, blonde , always wears a suit and looks kind of like cate blanchett/ gillian anderson

milf vibes even tho she doesn’t have kids

she’s …. kind of single ? we’ve talked about this she’s in a kind of long distance relationship thing but has said she’s not going to marry him and has seen him like .. twice so i dk what that means

cat person :))))))))

i have her class once or twice a week just sadly , but usually come in for a chat on a monday and we have . really good conversations that get quite personal

she likes girls (!!!!) i’m like 99% sure, we have talked about this and she gave me advice about it too

i’m pretty sure she suspects i have feelings for her bc it’s not really normal where i’m from to like go and just speak to teachers , but i haven’t told her anything and won’t until she’s not my teacher anymore

23/3/22

spent lunch with her today and she showed me a photo of her with blue hair and her family which was super cute <3

idk when i’m next going to see her though, don’t have her class to next week and i don’t want to see her too much in case she thinks i’m weird so probably will have to wait till next monday :,)

she is the most beautiful woman ever i genuinely can’t

and not to be nsfw but it’s getting warmer and she was just wearing her usual white shirt today without the suit jacket and ohmygod mommy

translating cicero

fortasse verus vergilius est amici quos in itinere fecimus 

my friends and i went out the other night and i got drunk and emailed her 😭😭😭😭😭so embarrassed i just deleted the whole email app

it wasn’t even bad , but i have to go in and give books back now so going to be very awkward. also mildly afraid she’ll hate me ??

“I didn’t even try to love you, it just happened.”

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27/1/22

i had her class today. it was a double period and we made eye contact so many times … she probably thought i was staring at her (i was)

we did the grammar stuff she was telling me about when it was just us two talking

but she didn’t tell the class anything about it like she told me

she is so hot i can’t

i have her class tomorrow but we’re just revising.