A get to know J post!
so i’ve been in this community since like 2016, but had to keep deactivating my previous blogs because my “friends” found out and were telling people. i realised i ramble a lot about j but haven’t really made a post describing what she’s like so here it is!
shes 30 years older than me and teaches classics - i have her for latin (i wanted to take the other subject she teaches but it clashed on my timetable sadly)
she was my teacher in my first year of secondary school and i’ve had her every year apart from one. this is now my last year of school.
i’d never studied latin before and she made me fall in love with the subject and i’m doing it in university next year too
shes quite tall, blonde , always wears a suit and looks kind of like cate blanchett/ gillian anderson
milf vibes even tho she doesn’t have kids
she’s …. kind of single ? we’ve talked about this she’s in a kind of long distance relationship thing but has said she’s not going to marry him and has seen him like .. twice so i dk what that means
cat person :))))))))
i have her class once or twice a week just sadly , but usually come in for a chat on a monday and we have . really good conversations that get quite personal
she likes girls (!!!!) i’m like 99% sure, we have talked about this and she gave me advice about it too
i’m pretty sure she suspects i have feelings for her bc it’s not really normal where i’m from to like go and just speak to teachers , but i haven’t told her anything and won’t until she’s not my teacher anymore
28/03
saw her for a chat today i think i disturbed her marking tho lol
how are ppl just. normally attached to ppl on a healthy level
how do u guys deal with the guilt ? sometimes i feel like i make him so uncomfortable and that’s the last thing i ever wanna do.
she asked me if i was down today like do i really look that depressed lmao?? but we had an hour long conversation and i feel like i’ve really got to know her better . she said she always looks forward to seeing me and she doesn’t really talk to many other teachers in our school (there are reasons but if i posted it here anyone who looked at this account would instantly know who i was ) and it was so cute i almost died 🥰shes started telling me more personal stuff too i really love it- me 7 years ago would never have imagined this
going to fail my latin exam tomorrow bc i can’t stop distracting myself thinking about her
stop talking to other students and kiss me
I just wanna fall asleep on the couch watching documentaries with u or something. I just wanna be with you without being in class, I’m sorry, I know it’s weird. But something’s pulling me towards the person you are underneath all the teacher shit. I want you to see the person I am underneath all the student shit.
You probably don’t feel the same, I understand, but it still hurts nonetheless. I want it so much it hurts. Walking through the hallways, sitting in class, on the bus, it hurts.
this is my last year of school. only thing getting me through it is i can tell her my feelings at the end of it
no i do this all the time 😭i feel like such a creep but i literally plan my routes round school to see her lmao
Every time i try to bump into my tc i never see him but then he bumps into me every time I'm not even remotely trying to find him
my friends and i went out the other night and i got drunk and emailed her 😭😭😭😭😭so embarrassed i just deleted the whole email app
it wasn’t even bad , but i have to go in and give books back now so going to be very awkward. also mildly afraid she’ll hate me ??