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IMAGINE AVENTURINE WHO... (cw: kakegurui au, obsessive gambling, life and death situation/predicament, aventurine's obsessed, unhealthy power dynamic/s between both sides, possessiveness, yandere behavior)

... is well known in Penacony as one of the elite gamblers. AVENTURINE doesn't take a simple bet and runs with it, but makes it clear that if you ever play a game against him, he'll take it up to 10 notches.

... is called the 'compulsive gambler of Penacony', where students shiver at the mention of his name. Often, whoever gambles with him is met with a terrible end, citing that being near him is akin to a death wish with how possessed he acts.

... only desires a challenge. He dislikes gambling for the sake of money or power— he has enough and wants to spend it all until the day he dies. All he wants is the thrill, the one that would push him to the edge, constantly seeking for more.

... is an adrenaline junkie and makes those who goes against him rot in debt, becoming housepets in his journey of finding the one, but he had no luck. A shame, as he's a skilled gambler with many tricks and lady luck constantly gazing on his shoulder— until he met you.

... found you intriguing when you played a game of Craps, and although the stakes were rigged and against you, a newbie, you swept the floor with them and exposed them for their crimes. AVENTURINE found it more amusing when you stated, plain as day, "Those house pets of yours are going to need their lives back when they realize it's been rigged from day one."

... asked the other elites and even the president himself, SUNDAY, if he's ever heard of you. To his surprise, it was like no one has, and SUNDAY comments that AVENTURINE may be up to someone that doesn't exist anywhere. Not in the records, outside, or even the entirety of the country.

... began to become the regular of your regulars; who saw you in your games with others. He saw you win on them, exposing how they have seamlessly won those games despite it being against your favor, and turning it on their heads.

..., after studying your behavior and mannerisms, approached you for a little gamble. It isn't much, as all he wants is simply see what makes you tick.

... leads you into his office and you both take your seats, two sets of cards set in front of you. He even told you that the game you two will be playing is Blackjack— a staple of Penacony, he jokes, but you two know it's a lie.

... tells you that if you win, he'll let you in to the Elites and convince SUNDAY to stop pursuing your missing records. Everyone has been itching to get you to fall from grace, and he isn't letting them get their grimy hands onto your pretty face. Not if he has a say in it. However...

... tells you that if he wins, he'll have you as his personal housepet: a trophy to signify that you have fallen for a man that's feared by many.

... watches with a smile as the cards were taken from both sides, eagerly awaiting for the final verdict between you.

... knew it was only one round. Who knew he only has one chance to finally claim what is his.

... chuckles when he sees the results, his eyes gleaming with the sense of pride— to his loss or yours, no one shall ever know.

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OH GOD SOMEONE WANT ME, SOMEONE PLEASE NEED ME. TELL ME YOU WANT ME TELL ME YOU WANT ME TELL ME YOU WANT ME SAY THAT YOU NEED ME PLEASE JUST SOMEONE SAY THEY NEED ME OH GOD GOOD LORD JUST SAY IT! TELL ME I'M LOVED, TELL ME I AM NEEDED, TELL ME ANYTHING TO SHOW THAT I AM WANTED

i wanna be a doll for you, a perfect little thing fit to be your companion. But we both know I am little more than a jester at the end of the day, something playing at class and grace. A fool who was born to be mocked and a clown who wishes to amuse you. I was born a fool and will die a fool but please let me be your fool. Every king needs a jester so please let me be yours

BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME

let me be your servant, let me pour your drink as you stroke my head. Let me feel useful to you, please I beg of you. But oh god don't just see me as just a servant and nothing more, let what I do be the labor of love that it is. That other fool couldn't see my actions for what they were, but I know you my love will see my efforts and reward them accordingly

Oh! You want me? Oh Jeez... I WILL TELL YOU MY ADDRESS AND GIVE YOU ALL OF MY SOCIAL MEDIAS AND PUT UP A CAMERA IN MY OWN HOME FOR YOU!.... I'm a darling, PLEASE I'm begging.

I crave him so much. I don't know why. I've never talked him, but im 99% sure he is ur average boy, probs even a red piller, a 'natural' misogynist who won't even see me as a person since I am a woman he most likely won't be attracted to.

But my mind can't let go of him. My brain already hurts me so much, but this is just bullying. Making me feel so much for him. I yearn to just look at him. I barely even have the chance to see him, but I wish to properly look at him for even just 2 minutes.

And again, I feel like such a freak. A creepy stalker. I would not acc go as far as stalking him, but wanting just to look at him feels so awful.

I accidentally said his name when I cut myself. It was like a call, a beg for help. I have never even talked to him, I don't know him. But my mind latched onto the idea of him. I feel quilty for feeling so much for him when he doesn't even know I exist or perceive him as someone more than a passerby.

I think my mind just needs someone to obsess over.

Not a want but a need

What if you worshipped me? What if you dedicated everything you do to my name? Would you do anything I ask? Would I still be your princess, or will I become your goddess?

Sometimes I just want a loyal follower ♡.