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Hell-reborn Au

or the “Dr. Kan proves that demons exists… kinda” au

So Chapter 4 is almost exactly the same. Watari pulls her fire trap and Hama becomes the Blackened by triggering the trap and is sent off to be executed in the Magic circle.

However, in his excitement to execute Hama, Dr. Kan does something by accident. Even after going over the execution step by step, the staff are unable to come up with a non-supernatural explanation for what went wrong. Kan later theorized that he may have accidentally activated an ancient demonic ritual somehow in his attempts to emulate one.

Because during the execution, the fire stopped hurting Hama. Then his demon arm, his head, his chest, his ear, his eyes, all started to hurt more than the fire and the IV’s. The other students, his friends, all watch him change. They watch him transform. They watch as he is reborn as a demon.

Hama eventually is able to fight through the pain, but he is 100% running on adrenaline so he doesn’t quite understand what’s going on other than everything hurts, there’s fire, and he should definitely get away from the fire. He hears his friends calling out from behind the execution glass. They’ve seen his transformation, but they don’t care, they know Hama is a good person. Wada is still trying to reach out to him. Hayashi is cheering him on.

So Hama breaks through the remaining restraints (they were much easier to break than the one around his arm). He trudges through the fire, towards his friends calling for him. And when he reaches the glass, Hama stares at his new self reflected at him. Hama doesn’t recognize himself at first, but once he realizes that it’s him he’s staring at, he freezes up. He’s a monster, he’s a demon. He- he killed Watari. He deserves this—

Then he sees past his reflection, and sees his friends again. While they all have mixed amounts of emotion on their faces, one thing’s the same. They all stare at him with horrified looks, but he knows that they are not scared of him (Maybe a little, especially Hiroaki), but they’re scared for him.

That’s what gives him the courage to break the glass.

(After everyone backed away first, he didn’t want any of them to get hurt).

(he never wanted to hurt anyone in the first place, after all)

Everyone is stunned by what happened. Some stare at Monomoko, scared that the rabbit will intervene somehow, but the execution chamber has been sealed off again and the rabbit has scurried off (to go see the staff immediately, she has no clue how to deal with this).

The group shuffle into the elevator. They want to comfort Hama, but they don’t know what to say. Hama is still shell shocked himself. He doesn’t respond until the group exits the elevator, and someone finally breaks the silence.

…. And that’s the AU! This is just a starting point so feel free to suggest some ideas!

@k3itar0-with-a-three

Konfessions

I hate you

I hate you so so so so much.

Your actions make my very skin crawl, your cruel words are my nightmares every night. You make me sick just thinking about you.

I hate what you did,

I hate what you did to them.

You hurt those four, you killed two of them and those you left alive will never be the same.

You took away their pillars of safety, and now they are scrambling for an anchor to ground themselves with.

I hate hate hate how you acted. You acted like you didn’t even care! You didn’t care about the lives you had ruined!

So I hate you. I hate you with either fiber of my being, every bone in my body, every part of me hates you.

But I don’t hate you, do I? I love you. I love you so much that it hurts. It hurts that I love you. I hate the fact I love you because I should hate you. Because my brain tells me that I should hate you but my heart screams and scrambles for an explanation, reason, excuse, anything to justify your actions. To justify loving you.

You hurt so many people for something so so childish and stupid! You killed two people. You mutilated his body just to mess with and hurt his friend so so so much when he saw his best friend missing a head.

And you did that just for some convulsed plot to kill your ‘rival’! You killed her right in front of him. You drove him to stab you! You practically tortured him just to get at her. All for the sake of your stupid delusions!

Loving you feels like a sin. A horrible horrible horrible action. You hurt so many people. So many people I see everyday and talk to and I feel so wrong because I love you and they don’t and I’m in the wrong for loving you still!

….i wish i could just hate you….

….Maybe I don’t love you for you.

Maybe I love the idea of you. The you I thought I knew. The you that you showed to me to keep me on your side. The you that was a mask, just like the one you always wore, hiding your disgusting truth underneath it. 

I hate the True you. The true you you showed everyone except me until the end. The true you who would mutilate a corpse to mess with others. Cut off someone’s head and tongues and disembowel him and oh god I’m about to throw up just remembering it. 

I love your mask, but hate the real you. The you under your mask. The you that is bloodied underneath.

I don’t know if we’re going to be 

Foxes our next lives.

You have a lot of sin to pay for after all.

Maybe I’ll join you down there. 

For the sin of loving someone so terrible.

A short analysis of the Chapter 3 culprit

I’m not going to fact check what I’m saying and this is mainly just speculation, but I noticed something’s that could make things more interesting.

spoilers for Chapter 3 of course

I think Dr. Yonekura was a neglectful mother towards her daughter Okazaki, and didn’t care about her and only worried about how Okazaki’s behavior reflected onto herself.

One thing that the video Regulation Review made clear about their relationship is that Yonekura doesn’t care about Okazaki. I think this is also shown in how Okazaki viewed her ‘rival’ Tsuno.

Okazaki stated that she wanted to kill Tsuno because Tsuno refused to acknowledge Okazaki and acted like she didn’t know her. She was dismissive and acted like she didn’t care about Okazaki until Okazaki started hurting Wada.

I think Okazaki was neglected by her mother, and now hates when people ignore her. Yonekura only cared about Okazaki when she said that Okazaki made a fool of herself.

Okazaki probably started to act out so her mother would acknowledge her and would give her attention, even if that attention was negative. When Tsuno, someone she thought she had a twisted connection with ignored Okazaki like how Yonekura did? Well Okazaki couldn’t just take this injustice.

I’m not saying this excuses Okazaki of all her actions. She’s a horrible person who doesn’t care about others unless it involves herself. But she is so interesting to me and I want to know why she acts like this. Or well, acted like that.

TLDR: Yonekura was a neglectful mother and ignored Okazaki. She would only give her daughter attention when Okazaki did something that made her look bad. Okazaki started doing bad stuff to get her mother’s attention, and then somehow got tangled up with Tsuno and got the idea that they were “rivals”. (Still don’t know about that). When Tsuno ignored Okazaki, she saw that as a personal attack and started acting out in a way that would get Tsuno’s attention, just like she did with her mother Yonekura.

Spoilers for Chapter 3 culprit

I feel so fucking autistic about this. I was fully convinced that Tamba was the one who killed Tsuno, but this, this was so much better.

Okazaki. I love you so much. During your villain monologue, I was literally kicking my feet while listening to you. You are insane. You are objectively a horrible human being. But that’s why I love you.

You went on such a long super villain rant. I love you for it. I can’t think of a better end to your story. Your ‘rivalry’ with Tsuno was an excellent reveal. I love how cleverly it was foreshadowed by you both being from the same place.

What you did was awful. I will never forgive you for killing Kazutoshi. He was one of my other favorite characters besides you. But it was worth it just because you were so entertaining.

I’m glad I was wrong about it being Tamba, because then you wouldn’t have been so entertaining.