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The Disastrous Life of Saiki K: Extra Stories of Psychics, Volume 1

Light Novel Translated by: Corredor1230 – Juan Pablo Corredor

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Chapter 5: Avoid it! The Worst Ending

Warning: Angst

My name is Saiki Kusuo. I’m an esper.

I’m sure some of you are tired of me doing the same introduction every single chapter, but I’d like you to just accept it. I have to do it so you’ll be contextualized. Especially now that we have no images.

Well then, like I was saying, I can do basically anything with my powers. I’m as close as you can get to invincible.

For example, I can avoid being ran over by a car with ease, and I can just erase virus from my body before I get infected. Even in the worst case scenario where a meteorite falls on Earth, I can just stop it and throw it back to space. And in an even worse case scenario where an editor decides to take us off the Shonen Jump, I can just come back to haunt him as an after image, and give him a smack from behind the scenes.

Well, I can’t really do that last one. At least I have to publicly say that we won’t meet afterwards.

In any case, it’s almost impossible to hurt me. As long as I have clairvoyance and psychokinesis, I can pretty much react to any incident that comes my way.

To summarize, it’s a great benefit to my own health that I’m an esper. However, I have one big problem.

It will become really troublesome if it keeps going like that.

This morning, I remembered when I looked at the calendar.

I’m going to have to take a day off.

At least that’s what I’m thinking.

I try my best not to stand out in school. Which is why I try to avoid being early or late. Mostly because it attracts negative attention. However, if I’m a perfect record student that always gets there on time, that also becomes a problem.

That’s because of the perfect record award.

It’s an award given to a student that’s never late, never skips school and never leaves early. The award is given publicly. Awards like that are probably done differently depending on region and school, but at PK Academy, the award is very strictly only given to students who never miss a day of school.

Therefore, getting the award means getting noticed by a lot of people, which is the exact thing I want to avoid. Actually, I’m not even sure it would be a lot of people, but even being noticed by one single person would be annoying. Besides, the award ceremony is carried out in front of the entire school. Being called by the principal at the gym and having to reply, stand up and walk in front of everyone else sounds awful. There’s no way I’d ever do something like that. Besides, sometimes even parents show up at those ceremonies in PK Academy. Please give me a break.

My objective is to avoid being excellent or deficient.

I try to place third in five-people races. That’s my position. Coming in first is out of the question, and second is no good either. I don’t want people to cheer on me, but I also don’t want them to make fun of me. I just want to do everything without standing out and live a quiet life. Being known as a lazy student is also inconvenient, and being known as a prodigy student is troublesome as well.

This might be an exaggeration on my part, but I also try to avoid standing out for being too normal. So I’m skipping school today to avoid getting the perfect record award.

I take a quick glance at today’s schedule. I have no important homework for today, no quizzes, and I’m not on cleaning duty either.

Alright, today’s the perfect day.

The best days for me to take a break are days when nothing specially good or bad is going to happen.

Pyrokinesis: in other words, the ability to control fire. It’s a power that could even get strong enough to make flames appear from your hand. Of course, a certain Dark Wings I know would be thrilled to have it, but I’m going to use it for something different.

Using my powers, I can raise my own temperature and make it seem like I’ve caught a cold. It’s kind of hard to control, but after a while I eventually find the perfect temperature. I can’t openly admit that I’m not going to school only to avoid receiving the award. I’m sure my mom would get mad at me for that.

Being able to skip school without any consequences, I just lie in my bed, looking at the same old ceiling as always. First period has probably already started.

I’m going to stay at home all day, so that I can properly pretend that I got sick.

It’s so quiet. Quieter than when I’m walking around the city, or than when I’m at school.

I take a deep breath, and close my eyes.

The amount of thoughts that I can hear at home is a lot smaller than at school. There’s no limit to how many people’s thoughts I can hear daily with my telepathy. But at home all I can hear is the sound of cars passing by every now and then. Since I can’t turn it on or off, this is truly peaceful and perfect for taking a break.

(Agh! I stepped on some poop!)

Well, I can hear the thoughts of pedestrians outside and some of my neighbors every now and then.

(Eh?! I stepped on another one! Damn it, one with each foot!)

This guy seems to be having the worst luck ever today.

“Those damned owners! At least take the time to pick your pet’s feces! Damn it!”

I hear his actual voice coming from outside the window. Good grief… how annoying. I move my sight to the window, still half asleep, and look at the curtains being moved by the breeze.

Oh, the window was open?

I opened it to let some air flow into the house, but forgot to close it later.

I close the window and lock it, just in case. I can do all this still lying in bed, just like I can turn off the lights as well.

It’s still a big upside, even though I have to hear people think about stepping on poop and whatnot.

Thinking about that, I start dozing off.

“Heat up! Come on, do it! Burn, burn!!”

I was dreaming. For some reason I couldn’t see his face well because of the light, but Hairo was there, too. Maybe it’s because I’m feeling guilty for skipping school, but it was a strange dream where Hairo was waving a tennis racket, for some reason.

I open my eyes, feeling warm, and having some trouble breathing. For some reason the room looks brighter than usual… No, that’s not it. This is—

I jump out of the bed. One side of the room is burning.

My bookshelf has completely collapsed because of the fire, and the floor and walls are on fire as well. Even the bed is starting to get burnt. This is bad. I try running out of the room, but I can’t breathe. I can’t see anything. I try to move forward anyways, and eventually I reach the door. I gasp for air after touching the doorknob. It seems like it got hot because of the fire, and now I don’t know whether my mind has gone numb, or whether that feeling right now was pain. Did I just burn myself? This is the first time I’ve ever suffered a burn before. I somehow manage to bring the door down with my body, as it falls on the floor, which is also on fire, just like the stairs and the first floor. Everything’s on fire.

I try to keep my body as low as possible, trying not to breathe in any smoke.

I can’t breathe. I need to go outside!

I get ready to teleport myself outside, but—

I can’t use my powers?!

I’m surrounded by the floor’s smoke and fire again.

Why? Why can’t I use them now? Come to think of it, I can’t hear the thoughts of people outside anymore either. I can’t hear anyone’s thoughts. Even after trying to take out the fire with a swift movement of my hand, nothing happens. I try using my x-ray vision, or my clairvoyance, but I can’t see anything. I’m all alone in the middle of a raging fire. I can’t hear anyone’s thoughts, even though I should, and I can’t see anyone’s face no matter how hard I try. I’m struck by a terrible feeling of solitude. Almost as if I were the only person left in the entire world. I’m surrounded by the fire. I need to survive. I always thought superpowers weren’t that big of a deal. But losing them at a moment like this…

Am I going to die here?

Am I going to die without ever getting my powers back?

No, that’s not it. This is a dream.

I open my eyes, startled.

I sit on the bed and look around the room. Of course, there’s no fire anywhere. Nothing at all has changed since last time. My bookshelf’s still there, just like always, my television, and my plants, and of course cleft chin Nendo Riki and Dark Wings Kaido Shun as well…

Why are you here?!

“Eh? Finally woke up, partner? We heard that you caught a cold.”

“Are you okay, Saiki?”

For some reason the two of them are inside my room.

Nendo and Kaido… when did you get here? How did you come in? Through the ventilation ducts, through the pipelines, through the window? Was it the window? I’m sure I locked it earlier…

I’m sure I’m making a pained expression. Nendo looks at me and answers.

“If you’re confused, your mom invited us in. She told us to come to your room.”

Why did she do that?

“Also, she told us to look after you since she was going shopping.”

Why did she do that?

So basically, we’re the only ones inside this house. And I’m supposed to pretend that I’ve caught a cold and that I was sleeping. This is the worst. It’s even worse than those Mayan predictions about the world coming to an end.

I unconsciously screw my face as I feel a throbbing pain in my head.

“You should get some rest.” says Kaido, while I remember the dream I just had.

My head hurts. Did I predict the future?

Whenever I sleep and then immediately get a headache, it means that I’ve just used my clairvoyance. Just like with other powers, I can’t just turn my clairvoyance on and off. And it’s not like I can just pick any moment in the future and know what will happen. Clairvoyance suddenly comes at random and shows me events that will happen. It’s usually completely useless stuff, but this time it seems like something serious.

In my vision, I didn’t suddenly lose my powers, but I was always like that. If that were to become reality, then we might as well rename the manga to “The Disastrous Life of Powerless Saiki K”, without the ᴪ, which was just a very geeky idea by the author, that I’ve just had to learn to deal with week after week when we’re published on Shonen Jump. What a scary thought, though. I think we’d have to change the genre to psychological horror.

However, the real problem isn’t that, and neither is it the fact that I saw Hairo in my dream, but that this place is going to catch fire. There’s no doubt that a fire that size would burn the entire house to the ground.

My dream predictions are always 100% correct. This house will burn in the near future. However, I could only see what happens afterward, so I don’t know the cause. Well, I do see two potential causes right in front of me, considering Nendo is just an idiot, and Dark Wings Kaido is obsessed with things that catch on fire. Though since they obviously didn’t just come here to set things on fire, it’s still impossible to know what the cause will be. I can change the future slightly. All I have to do is find the fire while it’s still contained, and put it out before it goes out of control.

Good grief… what a bother.

“Eh? Right, we brought you something,” says Nendo as he brings out something. What?! Don’t tell me this is the cause of the fire! I carefully look at Nendo’s hands.

However, unlike what I expected, it’s just a manga volume.

“You’re free anyways, right? It’s the first volume of Shinseiki.”

“Shinseiki”? I had never heard of it.

I take it and look at its long title “Shinseiki Idol Densetsu: Kanata Seven Change”. I see. I definitely had never even heard of this manga. Well, I kind of get the feeling that someone I know bought it at some point. Also, Nendo said “first volume” but this is more like the “only volume”. Who’s the author? I see. Okay, well, I guess I’ll try reading it eventually.

In any case, this doesn’t have anything to do with the fire.

But now Kaido pulls something out of his pocket.

“Saiki, want to play a game? I’m sure you’re free, anyways, so I brought this to you!”

Kaido had a memory card in his hands.

“It’s loaded with a copy of Wonder Adventure’s Plasma Warrior. You can even enter the hidden dungeons.”

That’s a game that I’ve never heard of, but I still take his useless present. Well, I still thank him for the memory card. I might be able to use it eventually.

But this is still not it.

I closely examine the memory card time and time again. There’s nothing special about it, other than data. How will the house burn down, then? I don’t have this Wonder whatever device at home. But it also doesn’t feel like anything will explode if the three of us try to play it together. I hope not, at least.

I keep thinking about the possible cause of the fire.

“What’s wrong Saiki? Are you still sick?” Kaido asks with a grimace. This is bad, I don’t think I can examine this memory card anymore.

“That’s it! I also brought something useful. Here’s a mask, considering you caught a cold.”

Kaido looks in his bag for a while and takes the mask out.

“Here it is. The ‘Monster Destroyer’ mask that I saw at the pharmacy.”

Here’s the face mask that’s completely useless for my current situation.

I’m sure they were selling it as a party item, anyways. It’s just like those horse masks that were popular a few years ago.

Good grief, what a useless item. Who would ever wear this?

I closely look at the mask Kaido gave me. It’s the kind of product you buy only once in your life.

“Pretty cool, huh? I bought it to match mine.”

Kaido’s eyes shine with excitement as he takes out a similar but different colored mask from his bag. Seems like I found the guy that will buy more than one of these.

This is also completely unrelated to the fire.

I hold the mask as I keep thinking. My prediction will come true no matter what. And it has to happen in the near future. Most likely today. However, I really can’t see what the cause could possibly be.

“Eh? This is amazing!”

Nendo takes the mask away from me, and before I realize it, he’s already wearing it. Good grief, it really is dangerous having him around without knowing what he’s thinking.

“Hey, you bastard, I bought that for Saiki!”

Kaido extends his hand and demands that Nendo return the mask. Nendo just holds it up high so he won’t reach. Then, almost as if laughing at Kaido for being short, Nendo puts the mask on.

“Give it back! Ugh… I can’t reach!”

“Eh? It’s pretty dark and calm in here!”

Nendo is pretty buff, so he really does look like a minotaur with this horse-like monster mask on. Upon a closer look at it, the mask is actually pretty similar to Nendo’s regular face. Maybe it’s because the mask is very well crafted, or simply because Nendo’s real face already looks pretty close to a Monster Destroyer. It’s bizarrely close to his real face.

I look at him, and eventually we look at each other. Or did we? In any case, the horse-like monster face is looking at me.

“Hey, partner. Aren’t you hungry?”

Okay, seems like he’s back to this already. And now that he mentions it, I realize I am indeed hungry. Come to think of it, I haven’t eaten any proper food all day. I’ve just been sleeping.

“Alright, then wait here, partner! I’ll go prepare some good ramen for you! You can’t get better if you don’t eat!”

The bizarre creature with Nendo’s body and the Monster Destroyer head dashes out of the room. Kaido follows him.

“W-Wait! The mask… Saiki, I’ll go help Nendo. I’ll make sure he doesn’t do anything stupid, so you just rest. Sleeping is key when recovering from a cold.”

Sorry for all this trouble, Kaido.

I appreciate Kaido’s good intentions, but there’s no way I can sleep in this situation. Oh well… looks like the cause was you guys after all. I just confirmed the dream I had.

I use my x-ray vision to look at Nendo and Kaido in the kitchen.

It doesn’t mean I can’t do anything just because I’m supposed to be in bed. If I let these two do as they please, I’ll be enjoying their delicious ramen in heaven tomorrow. I need to control them somehow.

In the kitchen, they’re getting everything ready.

Kaido is taking some bowls, and Nendo takes out some prepackaged ramen from his bag.

“Alright, time to prepare some good ramen!”

Nendo is getting fired up. I can’t help but feel worried. More importantly, that mask on his face makes him look like a complete monster. No, that’s not quite right. It makes him look like a complete Monster Destroyer. However, just one look at Nendo’s huge hands makes me think that he must be awful at cooking.

Ignoring my concerns, Nendo rinses the pot with water, and then fills it up to start boiling it. Can he even see what’s in front of him with that mask on?

I look at the stove turn on, and then call it.

This must be what causes the fire. Nendo starts reading the instructions on the back of the package while the water boils. Can he even read what’s in front of him with that mask on? I’m worried.

He mutters something from inside the mask.

“I can just do this by feeling, right? Eh?”

This is bad! Nendo is definitely not suited for cooking!

Kaido, who’s much more careful and delicate than Nendo, should be the one taking care of this. Please, Kaido. Don’t let Nendo cook.

I plead for Kaido’s help. But Kaido is just making funny faces while looking at his reflection in the knife he’s holding.

This is bad! Kaido is also incompetent in his own way!

“Ha! Ha! Ha! It’s been a long time since I’ve fought some small fries like you!” he says while he flimsily holds some uncut onions in his other hand. He starts spinning the onions around, and lightly rubs his finger against the kitchen knife’s blade. The entire scene is far too dangerous, and I can’t watch.

Maybe he’s a master of the knife?

Kaido finishes cutting the onions, and just as expected, they’re a complete mess, still attached in several parts.

“You’re not cutting them, eh?”

“When you reach my mastery level, just cutting them regularly is not enough.”

What are you even talking about?

He then clumsily starts throwing the onions into the water, and Nendo complains.

“Those onions won’t work like that!”

His voice coming out of the mask. He then forcibly takes the onions from Kaido’s hand. Destroy Onion Monster… for some reason that phrase comes to mind.

“Damn it. Cut them properly…”

He starts muttering, while his mask’s expression remains completely unchanged, and then begins cutting the onions. Looking useless, Kaido also begins muttering some complaints under his breath, and looks for something else to do.

“Alright then… in that case, I’ll take care of the eggs. Eggs are nutritious and delicious. Oh… the shell… No way… The shell fell in…?! Is this what they call fate…?!”

Please, Kaido, give fate a break.

I wearily watch the shell get mixed with the egg white.

“The shell’s still there! Damn it, do it properly…”

Once again, Nendo takes the plate and the eggs from Kaido, and starts separating the egg and the shell with some chopsticks.

I take a look at the nightmarish sight of a horse-like Monster Destroyer standing in my kitchen, the mask dangling all over the place, as he starts taking care of all the cooking.

“Eh? Seems like it’s finally boiling!”

Nendo starts mixing the noodles with his chopsticks, and stirring them around the bowl, looking clearly satisfied with himself. He then throws the egg inside. Then, for some reason, he starts throwing every single condiment he can find in there, one after the other.

What are you doing, Nendo? Kaido, stop that self-proclaimed professional chef! Hey, wait! Why are you adding curry as well? What are you trying to prepare here?! Are you really preparing ramen?

After adding as many condiments as were humanly possible, Nendo takes off the mask, and wipes off the sweat. He then carelessly leaves the mask right next to the fire.

“Whew… It’s hot… Eh? I can finally see in front of me!”

So you weren’t seeing anything…

Now that you can see, at least take a look at what you dare call ramen right in front of you… Though I guess it’s too late to even call it that anymore.

“Eh? What the hell is this?! Smoke is coming from the mask!”

“You idiot! What did you do?! What’s with this smoke?! Ugh! My eyes!”

The mask Nendo took off has caught on fire. Smoke keeps towering over the mask and raising towards the ceiling. Nendo and Kaido start crying in pain, as smoke enters their eyes and surrounds them. I see, so this is how it starts.

This is the moment that my clairvoyance predicted.

Here it is. This is the cause of the fire.

I open my eyes wide. In an instant, I find myself in front of the fire that was rapidly spreading slows down and extinguish it. Now I should turn on the extraction fan. I reach the switch with my finger and turn it on. Fortunately, the two were panicking so they didn’t see me doing any of that.

Once the smoke is out of the kitchen, the two finally calm down, and pick up the mask.

“How lucky. It only burnt a little.”

“That was dangerous. Today is windy, so we have to be careful with fire.”

Though you were the one that started it in the first place.

In any case, with this, I’ve finally cleared that prediction.

I managed to change the future. It should be fine now.

I look at Kaido and Nendo getting back to cooking with my x-ray vision and predict yet another ominous scenario.

And a few moments later—

I hear a knock on the door, and my prediction becomes reality. The… ramen-like thing that Nendo and Kaido prepared is placed in front of me.

“Eat up, partner! It’s delicious!”

You at least tried it, right?

“Saiki, you might not be hungry, but you have to at least force yourself to eat something, or you won’t get better!”

Kaido… actually I am hungry. I am, but…

I take the chopsticks in my hand and take a careful look at the bowl in front of me.

It looks surprisingly normal, though. It’s served in a neat, little bowl that’s actually quite charming. However, its appearance in contrast with their displayed cooking skills just gives it an eerie feeling. I might actually fall sick if I end up eating this. That’s a consequence that even a non-esper would easily predict. They say that food will generally taste as good as it looks. But if I eat this, then I might end up dying and fulfilling the prophecy I saw in my dream.

I can’t eat this…

I look at it, and my face instinctively reacts.

Nendo and Kaido are looking at me, expectant. They tried their best. Even though they just had to prepare a simple instant ramen, the onions, the egg, and then the fire all caused them a lot of trouble.

They don’t know it, but I saw it all with my x-ray vision.

Ugh… There’s no other way…!

I brace myself and take a tiny sip.

My heart is racing as I put the spoon in my mouth, and then eat it. Nendo and Kaido look at each other relieved that I’ve started eating.

The chopsticks in my hand immediately start trembling.

“What do you think, partner? Pretty good, huh?”

“What’s wrong, Saiki? Does it taste bad?”

My entire body is shaking. And it’s not shaking because the ramen tastes bad, or because there’s some raw meat mixed in with it.

It’s just…

No way…

It actually tastes pretty average. The ramen in front of me tastes just like it looks: average.

Nendo… can you actually really cook?

I shudder as I realize the shocking truth.

I never imagined that at least Nendo’s tongue wasn’t completely stupid. I always just assumed all of him was stupid, but this is a nice surprise.

Come to think of it… the one who messed up the onions and the egg was Kaido. In comparison, Nendo was actually considerably competent.

I’m even more shocked than I was by the fire.

I think about it as I keep eating. And yet, I’m struck by a strange feeling.

Wait a minute… this is strange. For some reason I can’t calm down.

I keep drinking the soup.

I predicted the fire in my dreams.

My predictions are absolute, and we averted the crisis earlier… Then, why…? Why do I still feel uneasy? Was that really enough to fulfill the prediction? Can I just assume that Monster Destroyer mask was enough?

Maybe I haven’t reached the moment where the fire actually starts.

I look at the ramen, deep in thought.

Does this mean there’s still something else…?

“Eh, partner. There’s plenty more for seconds, so eat up.”

So there’s still some ramen left…

Seems like I was completely underestimating Nendo’s abilities. I never thought he would even prepare enough for seconds. However, if it really is true that we haven’t reached the fire yet, then I can’t let Kaido and Nendo stay here any longer.

Nendo will definitely try to carry me to safety, and probably Kaido as well, recklessly trying to save us all. It doesn’t take any clairvoyance to assume that’s how it will go down.

As for Kaido, he always forgets to stay in character in moments like that. And I’m sure that he would put my safety over his if something happened. It’s precisely because Kaido is a good guy, that situations like these are particularly dangerous.

That’s why I can’t get them involved any further.

Making them stay would be wrong.

I feel kind of bad saying it after they’ve prepared me a meal, but I need them to leave.

I leave my chopsticks to the side and get ready to tell them to go. I can deal with a fire no problem, if I’m by myself.

If only I could get them to leave before that…

But would that be okay, though? Am I really okay with that?

Ugh…

I feel another throbbing pain in my head. And then in an instant, I see countless images flash in front of my eyes.

I see, so that’s how it is. I never imagined this was the way to prevent the fire.

I take my chopsticks in my hand again and keep eating.

I may have eaten too much.

I stay in place, feeling completely stuffed. I kept eating one ramen bowl after the other, until I couldn’t even move anymore.

This is bad… I’m feeling genuinely sick.

I’m lying down in bed.

“Eh? Partner? What’s wrong?”

“I’m sure he’s just tired. We’ve helped enough. I think it’s time we go home.”

Kaido places a blanket over my motionless body and puts the mask that Nendo had been wearing until just recently over my face.

Why am I getting tortured?

“See you tomorrow at school, partner!”

“Saiki! Get well soon!”

The two say, as they shut the door slowly and leave my room.

I can hear them walking on the floor as I turn around and feel slightly relieved. I take the Monster Destroyer mask off my face and sigh quietly.

Good grief… finally some peace.

Still…

I never expected Nendo and Kaido to show up. No one from elementary school or middle school ever visited me.

I hear the front door open and then close. They went home.

Then I hear Nendo’s ridiculously loud voice coming from just outside the window.

“Eh? Did I just step on something?”

I also never expected that eating up all the ramen was the way to avert the fire.

I lie in my dark bedroom as I listen to Nendo’s conversation with kaido.

“Is that a cigarette butt? Who would throw one out in a place like this?”

“We can’t just pretend it’s not there… maybe we should look for a trash can and throw it out.”

And so, they walk away.

The cause of the fire was the cigarette butt that Nendo just stepped on all along. If Nendo hadn’t stepped on it, then my house would’ve caught on fire.

You might think that’s a stupid cause, but that’s how easy it is to change the future. By eating up all the ramen they prepared, Nendo would take a little longer to leave. And then, by chance, he’d end up stepping on the cigarette butt. A cigarette butt that, otherwise, would’ve been blown by the wind into my house and eventually create a fire. Now there won’t be any fire. I’ve avoided a terrible future.

Despite being always so unpredictable, Nendo managed to behave exactly as planned this time.

Their two voices start sounding distant, and then I hear complete silence.

I look at the empty bowl inside the room. The sound of the clock that I’m used to sounds a lot louder than usual for some reason. Maybe it’s because Nendo and Kaido were here just moments ago, but my room now seems incredibly quiet and spacious. Maybe even a little chilly.

No, wait a minute.

What’s this? Don’t tell me I’m actually feeling lonely? No, there’s no way. Absolutely no way. I’m happy that those noisy idiots finally left. In fact, I’m thrilled to finally get to have some peace and quiet. That’s how I’ve always been. When I was in elementary school and in middle school, I always preferred peace and quiet. That’s how I chose to be. On my own accord.

However, here’s a pretty interesting thought.

It might sound strange, but just the fact of letting Kaido and Nendo stay for a little longer, having them cook for me, and then go home, managed to change the entire future.

The future really does change massively even with the smallest changes. Then that must mean that just meeting Kaido and Nendo has also changed my future dramatically. And it will keep changing from now on…

If I hadn’t been placed in the same class as those two, then we would’ve never met, and they wouldn’t have visited today.

I think about it and start feeling uneasy yet again. Why am I feeling uneasy? I’m sure I managed to avert the fire, but I’m still not calm at all. What am I feeling? This is something different.

I keep coming up with different words to describe it as I lie in my dark room, but I can’t find anything convincing.

Damn it, the only one I can think of is that I feel lonely. I feel lonely.

I turn around over the bed over and over as I mull it over. But no matter how many times I turn around, I still feel uneasy.

Good grief… I know I said how not being able to turn my telepathy on and off can get annoying, but at least it does help me organize my own thoughts better.

When I think about that, I realize that I wouldn’t want anyone hearing what I’m thinking right now out of pure embarrassment. And especially if Nendo and Kaido heard this, I think I’d get so embarrassed I could die.

I’m really glad no one can hear my thoughts.

Huh? What? A reader?

Come to think of it, you’ve been reading this entire text all this time.

But that’s okay.

Even readers can’t really know what I’m thinking. I’m sure you don’t know what this uneasy feeling I’m referring to is. There’s no way for you to tell what I’m feeling, when I don’t even know what it is. There’s absolutely no way.

Those of you reading this aren’t espers, after all.

I point my finger towards the switch, and turn the light on, just in case.

I’m an esper. There’s no doubt about it. It’s going to get dark soon.

I start reading a manga in my quiet room.