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𐔌 . 🩳 ⋮ SWEET LIFE ֹ ₊ ꒱ what are the sweetest parts of your relationship with your s/o? all the not sugar-free, tooth-aching sweetness you two share. is your dynamic as simple as grumpiness vs sweetness or is it something more complex?

𐔌 . 🥂 ⋮ SUPER RICH KIDS ֹ ₊ ꒱ is there something in your desired realty that we would think is fantastical or unheard-of but is completely normal there? do you splurge thousands of dollars a day like you're in gossip girl? or fly around on a broomstick?

𐔌 . 🎹 ⋮ BAD RELIGION ֹ ₊ ꒱ what or who do you turn to when you need a safe space? do you turn on your favorite album and sit alone in your bedroom? do you have a friend you know will always be comforting ear? perhaps you take solo walks around your neighborhood?

IDENSHSBWBD THANK YOU!!! <3

I'm answering for my main bnha reality!! The questions come from this ask game!!

𐔌 . 🩳 ⋮ SWEET LIFE ֹ ₊ ꒱ what are the sweetest parts of your relationship with your s/o? all the not sugar-free, tooth-aching sweetness you two share. is your dynamic as simple as grumpiness vs sweetness or is it something more complex?

IDDBDHHSVSHS SPINNER!! THAT MAN IS THE DEFINITION OF PERFECTION!! "But perfection doesn't exist" HE ISN'T PERFECT, BUT HE'S PERFECT TO ME- if you get what I mean :)

Not gonna lie, I'm not 100% sure how to answer this, but fuck it we ball.

In our relationship, some of the most important things are mutual respect, equality, loyalty and love- oh, so much love. I'm obsessed with him in a healthy way and he's obsessed with me in a healthy way. Does that make sense? I don't know, but it does to me.

We love spending time together by doing whatever: chores, work- literally anything we can do in the same room we do in the same room.

And don't get me started on cuddles- It's literally the best part of my day- HE'S SO GENTLE WITH ME- AND THE WAY HE HOLDS ME?? I ASCEND TO HEAVEN EVERY TIME!! And speaking about holding, usually when I'm the one holding him he's basically a weighted blanket. I love that feeling when I'm relaxing, so having him on top of me is my favourite way to hold him- even though it doesn't really sound like holding- but he likes it, so we really don't care.

But one of the things we absolutely LOVE to do is just being nerds together. We share quite some interest and sometimes we spend entire days just talking about our favourite things. And when I say I love hearing this man yap about the things he likes, I mean I love hearing this man yap about the things he likes. Like yes!! Please tell me about the Sonic lore, I'll tell you about Earthbound afterwards!!

𐔌 . 🥂 ⋮ SUPER RICH KIDS ֹ ₊ ꒱ is there something in your desired realty that we would think is fantastical or unheard-of but is completely normal there? do you splurge thousands of dollars a day like you're in gossip girl? or fly around on a broomstick?

Well, this is a bnha reality, so the first thing that comes to mind is quirks. If we don't count those, because they're to be expected...it's difficult to think of something different actually.

If we take a look at the postwar, me and the lov will literally have infinite money (and despite this the economy won't be affected negatively), so I guess 'splurging thousands of dollars a day like you're in gossip girl' applies to my dr pretty well LMAO-

But other than that, still in the postwar, I'll have permission to go anywhere I want without needing to go through any kind of security. Not only will I need this to properly do my job (dealing with All For One's allies, which are scattered all around the world- although I'll keep others informed about my location), but also because...just because- so basically I'll be able to go anywhere, whenever and however I want. You know how we see All For One flying multiple times? Yeah, that'll basically be my main way of travelling. Does this make sense for this question? I don't know actually-

Oh yeah- and me and the lov (and maybe class 1a too, I'm still thinking about it) are literally going to be immortal...so yeah- it'll be strange at first, but then everyone is going to be super chill about it.

𐔌 . 🎹 ⋮ BAD RELIGION ֹ ₊ ꒱ what or who do you turn to when you need a safe space? do you turn on your favorite album and sit alone in your bedroom? do you have a friend you know will always be comforting ear? perhaps you take solo walks around your neighborhood?

It depends on what's bothering me and how upset I'm feeling at the moment. However, you also have to keep in mind that in this reality I'm Shigaraki, so I'm probably going to be feeling shitty most of the time over things that are completely out of my control (heroes, the system, etc.- and don't get me started on trauma), so the negative feelings are constant, I can only distract myself and hopefully make them feel less intense.

When it comes to who I can turn to, then I can always count on Kurogiri!! He's basically my big brother and I don't know where I'd be without him. We tell each other pretty much everything and he's always there for me. He knows he can count on me too, if he ever needs comfort and support, I just hope I do a decent job at least, I'm not that good with people.

And I just know that my dr self, in the present of my dr, would also turn to All For One if he was ever given the chance. It's upsetting to think about, not gonna lie.

When the league becomes a thing and we start bonding, I know I can count on all of them, really. But I'll probably stick with Kurogiri, especially because I've known him way longer than the others and he somehow always knows what to do to make me feel better. Also I don't want to bother the others too much. At least Kurogiri doesn't need an explanation on why certain things might upset me, he knows how I am. In the postwar I can count on Spinner for sure, he's going to be my boyfriend so...you know, it just makes sense.

When it comes to what I can turn to...well, there's a few things I do that usually make me feel a bit better.

So first of all: videogames. Keeping my mind occupied with something else and immersing myself in a different world (one reason why I prefer RPGs) usually does the trick. As much as I would like to call this a hobby, it's more of a form of escapism, in fact I tend to use videogame terminology in real life mostly to make myself feel in control of the situation- but yeah, also a hobby because I genuinely like videogames and I don't play them only when I feel upset.

Another thing I love to do is to go on long walks. Usually I go where there's lots of people. I guess you can say one of my hobbies is people watching. Walking helps me get some energy out (sometimes when I'm upset I find it difficult to stay still), I get to reflect on what upsets me so much and how I could deal with it and watching other people...I don't know, sometimes it makes me feel a little better. Maybe it's the illusion of being a normal member of society amongst other normal members of society that kinda makes me forget what's bothering me so much. Or maybe it's the pressure of trying not to get caught that makes me bottle everything up and 'act normal', which often results in me feeling and acting worse when I'm not in public anymore. Or it's an attempt to 'not waste time' and 'be productive', coming up with ideas and trying to find new ways to trick people into thinking I'm someone I'm not (basically observing normal citizens to understand how I could act if I'll ever find myself interacting with them- you know, to not get caught). But I don't know, I just do it anyway.

I also really enjoy music, but I tend to not listen to it when I'm particularly upset. Yeah, I get my emo, edgy and mysterious moments while listening to depressing music when I'm not feeling well, but not when I'm (close to) hyperventilating and trying my hardest to not make a mess out of my neck.

Speaking of my neck, worst case scenario I don't find a good way to deal with my emotions (which is a common occurrence), I close myself in my depression room and you see me get out of there with blood on my neck and under my fingernails. I'll just leave it at that.

Ever since I joined Shiftblr and started doing methods I've noticed a few things. These are things like feeling slightly detached from here and feeling closer to the people in my dr.

Something that particularly caught my attention was how whenever I do my method I feel extremely tired, both physically and mentally. It only seems to happen when I do my method. The day after I always find myself trying to understand where I am for a moment- I don't know, it's pretty weird, but also so interesting.

But I actually made this post to talk about something that happened yesterday.

I was listening to music while thinking about my dr, specifically my main bnha reality. Reminder that I'm Shigaraki in this dr- I feel like this is important to know or else the post doesn't really make that much sense.

I was switching between a silly game on my phone and Tumblr – I was really bored and didn't know what to do – while I was basically giggling and kicking my feet at the thought of waking up in my dr and give my big brother a big hug because OH MY GOD, KUROGIRI DESERVES ALL THE LOVE IN THE WORLD!!

Lately whenever I think about my dr I just want a big hug from the people in my dr. I mainly think about Kurogiri, who in the present of my dr I've known for about 11 years. I also think a lot about Spinner. I don't know him yet in my dr, but he'll be my s/o and I genuinely cannot wait!!

So I was just chilling in bed, listening to music and visualising while giggling and kicking my feet, thinking about how amazing it's going to be to finally be with the people I love the most, when suddenly something pops up in my mind.

I don't recall having similar thoughts pop up in my mind ever since I started to take my shifting journey more seriously, so it took me by surprise.

I literally went from childishly thinking about hugging my big brother to thinking something along the lines of "I wonder how a hug from Sensei would be like."

...

WHAT THE FUCK???

When I tell you I was shaken it's an understatement.

As soon as I realised what the fuck popped into my mind I literally felt a heavy weight on my chest- I literally had to calm myself down because I was starting to breathe a little strange.

What scared me wasn't how I was feeling, it was whatever the fuck that thought was.

In the cr I know damn well how much of a horrible being All For One is. I know the truth about what happened to me – which was all because of him – and I know everything he has done and everything he will do. In my dr, at least in the present, I don't. In the present of my dr I like him, I care about him. At first I'll view this man as my saviour, my mentor- but he never was and never will be any of that.

What the fuck do you mean you'd like a hug from All For One?

Genuinely, what. the. fuck?

I've been feeling like shit since yesterday because of it- I still feel that weight on my chest, although the intensity seems to come and go (and luckily sometimes it's not there at all- which is whenever I'm not thinking about my dr.)

This is so fucking trippy to me. Here I genuinely cannot wait for that man's death while, in the present of my dr, my dr self can't wait to...I don't know- simply see him in person, because ever since he got killed by All Might and revived by Daruma he hasn't really been able to physically be there and we haven't been able to go to him either.

The thought of wanting any kind of affection from him is absolutely disgusting for me in the cr, while in the present of my dr I would feel honoured to experience anything like that from him.

(I keep specifying 'present of my dr' because in the future I'll know the truth and I'll hate him to death. Just to be clear)

And do you want to know another fucked up thing that happened yesterday?

This time it was morning. I was on the bus, making my way to school while listening to music and, again, thinking about my dr.

I was half asleep and I was easily zoning out.

And then suddenly my random thoughts get interrupted by another thought about All For One.

The thing that worries me a little bit is that this time it was 'a scene'. But the not so pleasant thing about it is that considering what I scripted it shouldn't be possible in my dr.

Lately I've actually been considering adding an 'arc' to my script. And this scene enters perfectly in this 'arc'.

Here's a piece of information before I tell you what this scene was about:

Thinking of canon bnha, you know that place within Deku's mind- or Shigaraki's mind- in which the vestiges are stored and you can interact with them? I genuinely do not remember if it has a canon name and if there is I cannot seem to find it. Basically in my dr they're generally called 'Vestige Realms'. All For One's, a literal black hole, is called The Black Hole or Vestige Realm (generic because it's the first and original one). Deku's called 'Vestige Room' because it's supposed to resemble the room in which Yoichi was trapped by All For One. Mine is called 'Vestige World' because, aside from being relatively large and even having a whole city in it (in the middle of which there's my childhood house), it seemingly goes on forever. Basically mine seems the more realistic, the closest to a real life place. The reason why me and Deku will give these places names is because we'll be talking about them a lot together- and also because One For All and All For One (the quirk) will not disappear after the war, so we might as well get comfortable with them.

So what happens in this scene?

You know how All For One's vestige didn't go back in time like his real body did? Well, forget that, in this scene his face and hair were there- which actually make sense considering what I was considering to script.

Basically me and him were in the Vestige World, but the specific zone we were in wasn't part of the city. I remember my first thought about this was that it was a 'new area' that only generated after the war. Again, this makes sense for what I was thinking of scripting.

I remember a big garden-like place. The grass was a bright, healthy green and I could see a few white flowers scattered here and there, probably daisies- my dr self loves daisies actually, so that was nice. And yes, this still makes sense for what I wanted to script.

I was wearing what I'll last wear during the war, so basically just a ragged pair of black pants. On the other hand, All For One was wearing the white, red and black 'robe' he basically steals during the war. And yes, this still makes sense.

Do you want to know the 'best' part? The 'funny' part of all this is that I was on the ground facing upwards. All For One was kneeling on top of me while literally choking me with his right hand and keeping my right hand still with the other.

I remember he was extremely angry and was yelling something. I have no idea what he was saying, but I have a feeling it was something about how I belong to him, I have to do everything he says and that he's going to take control of my body once and for all. Which makes sense for what I was thinking of scripting.

The actual funny part is that, if I actually script the arc I wanted to, he'll fail miserably for the second time.

So you know what? Sure. I'm scripting the arc I had in mind in my dr, I want to see him fail for the second time in a row. I want to see him suffer a second time.

God, how I hate this bitch. He's been plaguing my thoughts lately and I don't like it.

Do you guys have that one song that never fails to remind you of someone in your dr? Well, I have multiple songs that remind me of multiple people, so I thought about making a little post about one of those!! (for my main bnha reality)

I'll surely make more of these posts because they give me lots of motivation. But unfortunately for you something that strangely motivates me a lot is All For One's death, so in this post I'll be talking about a song that reminds me of him. I hate this fucker so much, it's not even funny.

Unfortunately my playlist, which was started WAY before I started scripting this dr, is full of songs that remind me of him. So maybe I could do more posts about him.

Usually when I see people talking about someone from their dr it's always a s/o, a family member or a friend, but I guess I'll be talking about my worst enemy!! One of the reasons why I find myself thinking about him a lot is because in the present of my dr (thank fuck it'll change in the future) this bastard is basically a role model to me, someone could argue he's supposed to be a father figure, so... yeah- I can't wait for his death!! :D

And since I'm talking about All For One of all people, supposing you know who he is (if you're still reading this then I assume you do), then don't expect anything pretty out of this post...so warning I guess? Also reminder that in my main bnha reality I'm Shigaraki...so it's even worse!! :D

As I already said, my playlist has lots of songs that remind me of All For One. Some remind me of certain scenarios that will take place in my dr, some remind me of him in general, while some remind me of more specific things about him.

"All Eyes On Me" by Bo Burnham never fails to remind me of how self centered he is. He's a complete narcissist, his god complex is unmatched. This song reminds me of the war, specifically when he'll be literally possessing me.

I don't know how to explain this, but all I can hear when I listen to this song is a dialogue between me and him- although he's the one who ends up talking the most. So to better understand what the fuck I'm talking about, here's the lyrics of the song! The blue text is supposed to be my dr self and the red text is All For One. I suggest you keep in mind the fact that I said this reminds me of when he's possessing me, it just hits different-

BUT WAIT!

The song starts with "Get your fuckin' hands up", but if you look down here I've written 'off' instead of 'up'. I know it says 'up', but I genuinely cannot hear it, even if I think about it and try to hear it. I really can't. For me it always has been and always will be 'off'. So please play along and pretend it's 'off', because every time I listen to this song my brain thinks 'off' and goes "hehe, it makes sense for your dr!"

Also when it says "Get on out of your seats" I always hear "Get 'em out of your seats". I always interpreted this as "applaud me" like...I don't know- you're in a crowd, get your hands off of your lap and applaud someone on stage or something.

But those are not the only things I can't 'hear properly'. In fact I changed another part. It's when it says "Heads down, pray for me" and "Heads down now, pray for me". I genuinely cannot hear that, I always heard and will always hear "Hands down — Pray for me" and "Hands down, now — Pray for me". It doesn't make sense, I know, but with the context I've given (it being a dialogue between two people – me and All For One – and the fact that he's literally possessing my body) I promise it makes sense!! So please play along-

...AND YOU GUESSED IT- ANOTHER THING: "Got it? Good, now get inside" I always hear it as "Got it. Good, now get inside". So instead of "did you get it? Good..." it's like "ok I got it. Good...".

“What's the point of the post if you changed the song?” I didn't change the song. The song says 'up', it says 'on', it says 'heads down', it puts a question mark. What I'm doing is making it so you can hear what I hear. Because every time I listen to this song (like while writing this post) I hear it like this- it doesn't matter if I know that it doesn't go like this, it doesn't matter if I'm reading the lyrics, I can't hear it any other way. Which actually makes me appreciate it more to be honest- especially since I've kind of connected it with my dr.

So yeah, sorry- I'll shut up now-

Get your fuckin' hands off

Get 'em out of your seats

All eyes on me, all eyes on me

Get your fuckin' hands off

Get 'em out of your seats

All eyes on me, all eyes on me

Are you feeling nervous?

Are you having 'fun'?

It's almost over

It's just begun

Don't overthink this

Look in my eye

Don't be scared, don't be shy

Come on in, the water's fine

We're goin' to go where everybody knows

Everybody knows, everybody, oh

We're goin' to go where everybody knows

Everybody knows

Get your fuckin' hands off

Get 'em out of your seat

All eyes on me, all eyes on me

Ay, come on, get your fuckin' hands off

Get 'em out of your seat

All eyes on me, all eyes on me, yeah

Hands down — Pray for me

Hands down, now — Pray for me

Get your fuckin' hands off

Get 'em out of your seat

All eyes on me, all eyes on me

Are you feeling nervous?

Are you having 'fun'?

It's almost over

It's just begun

Don't overthink this

Look in my eye

Don't be scared, don't be shy

Come on in, the water's fine

You say “the ocean's rising” like I give a shit

You say “the whole world's ending”, honey, it already did

You're not gonna slow it, Heaven knows you tried

...Got it. Good, now get inside

We're goin' to go where everybody knows

Everybody knows, everybody knows

We're goin' to go where everybody knows

Everybody knows

Come on, get your fuckin' hands off

Get 'em out of your seat

All eyes on me, all eyes on me

Hey, come on, get your fuckin' hands off

Get 'em out of your seats

All eyes on me, all eyes on me, yeah

Hands down — Pray for me

Hands down, now — Pray for me

I said get your fuckin' hands off

...

Get up...get up

I'm talkin' to you- GET THE FUCK UP

Get your fuckin' hands off

Get 'em out of your seat

All eyes on me, all eyes on me

Ay, fuckin' get your fuckin' hands off

Get 'em out of your seat

All eyes on me, all eyes on me, yeah

Come on, hands down — Pray for me

Hands down, now — Pray for me

I said get your fuckin' hands off

Get- HAHA

All eyes on me, all eyes on me

So that was something-

Now that you read (or listened too, that would be dope) this...do you see what I see?

And have you noticed how All For One gets progressively more and more aggressive? That's exactly how he is- especially in the war.

The All For One in my dr (like in canon) constantly puts up this patient, nice and welcoming yet still villainous persona. But in my dr, under that mask, he's actually the total opposite. His patience quickly runs out and his anger issues? Don't get me started on those! He quickly loses his temper and isn't afraid to get physically violent. You can see he's getting really mad by the way he speaks- and you're gonna know when you're in deep shit when he starts using a more vulgar vocabulary and, before you know it, he's literally trying to kill you. Luckily for him (and unfortunately for literally everyone else) he's a great fucking actor and he's willing to suppress 'the real him' if it means achieving his goals. In the war, while he's possessing me, he tries to keep the fake personality to manipulate me, sees it's not working anymore and completely drops the act, revealing his true nature. I JUST KNOW HIS LAST WORDS ARE GOING TO HURT- can't wait for his death either way to be honest-

"Get 'em out of your seats", as I said earlier, reminds me of applauding someone who's on stage- and followed by "all eyes on me" is just...so All For One! I remember that in canon (but I'm not 100% sure- it definitely happens in my dr though) All For One ends up killing the Light Baby because he was jealous that people weren't paying attention to him instead...so those lyrics are EXTREMELY fitting. Because, as I said, he's extremely self centered, a complete narcissist- IT'S THE SAME GUY THAT CALLS HIMSELF THE DEMON LORD BY THE WAY!!! (I know it's because of a comic he read...but still- damn- edgy teenage dr me could never-).

"Don't be scared, don't be shy — Come on in, the water's fine" NOT HIM TRYING TO MANIPULATE ME MORE- THIS BITCH

And in the part "Got it. Good, now get inside" (and what comes a bit before it) just seems like me speaking my mind and him just not caring at all. Because what I think doesn't fucking matter to him- so he's like "ok got it- now fucking listening to me because I'm right, you're wrong and you must always listen to me."

"Hands down — Pray for me" through all of this song what myself says the most is 'hands off'. Obviously this is because he's literally possessing my body, so...yeah- but him saying "pray for me"?...GIRL GET OUT- HIS GOD COMPLEX- WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE, YOU LITTLE SHIT??

HOLY FUCK- THIS SONG IS SO HIM IT'S ACTUALLY INSANE-

HANDS OFF FOR REAL- BECAUSE WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS????😭🙏🏻

(wish me luck guys🫡)

This is kind of a rant about what the hell I'm scripting in my main bnha reality (and also a little rant about how much I love the people in my dr- but it's not the 'hehe I love them so much' kind of post, it's more like 'I'd literally die for them', so be careful I guess-). Also a little update about the post in which I talked about me and the lov becoming immortal because fuck death.

Also you know the drill: making this post helped me better organise my thoughts and all that!

So in my main bnha reality I'm literally Shigaraki, so my script MUST have safety things for trauma and things like that...BUT...

I've been feeling like absolute shit lately and that's because I feel like an horrible fucking human being specifically for scripting these safety rules. Because what do you mean that I go through horrible shit and feel fine while my friends, who also go through horrible shit, will live with it for the rest of their lives? (+ I scripted that we become immortal, so even worse).

Who do I think I am? I'm not above them, so why would I script that I get to not experience trauma and they do?

"Just script that they also don't get traumatised" alright, what are we fighting for then? If our experiences don't affect us then why are we trying this hard to change society and create a better world? For fun? No. Absolutely not.

"You don't need to be incredibly scarred to want change" true, but would we fucking sacrifice ourselves for it? No, because there's a chance of us having a 'if it doesn't affect us that much then it isn't really our problem' kind of mentality- but even if we didn't (because I can just script that doesn't happen), as I already said, I doubt we'd be willing to die for it.

"Then don't shift there" I don't wanna fucking hear it, I have my reasons to shift there.

The thing that I want you to understand is the fact that I love the people in my dr and I would do anything- ANYTHING for them. And if that means going though hell and back and risk my life then I'm gonna fucking do it. If being equal to them means scripting out some safety rules then I'm gonna fucking do it.

I feel like this is the only way for me to feel at peace because OH MY GOD- THIS HAS BEEN EATING ME ALIVE FOR A LONG TIME- I didn't want to do it, but it's the only thing that feels...'right'- I feel like it's fair to my friends and also anyone that goes through horrible shit in my dr too. Because I'm not more important than anyone, we're all in this together god damnit.

At first I thought of scripting that yes, I feel completely fine but I still act like 'canon Shigaraki' would, but I feel like such a big liar- I don't want to lie to my friends, especially about something serious like this. It'd feel like I'm making fun of them or something.

Also, reminder that where I shift and what I script doesn't affect you in any way, so I don't want to hear anything like "are you stupid or something?" or anything similar. I know that I'm stupid and that it's going to be horrible, but for me it's worth it + I'm not coming back to the cr, so if I regret this decision I can always shift to a reality in which what I experienced doesn't effect me in the slightest, so I'll be alright. Hell, I could even script I don't remember it at all if I want to!

So what am I scripting now?

Keep in mind that I'm never going to come back here. Once I shift I'm going to spend 90% of my time in my main bnha reality and the rest 10% will be spent in other realities including waiting rooms. In all of my realities (drs and wrs) I scripted that not only I can't 'bring back trauma' but my mind is 'made of steel', so even if I go through horrible shit I won't develop anything like PTSD/C-PTSD or other similar conditions. So basically I can't get traumatised.

But there is one exception and that is my main bnha reality. Obviously I didn't just erase all of my safety rules regarding trauma, but almost.

So what am I doing?

I'm still scripting this, so I apologise if it's messy.

Basically when I first shift to my dr it'll be the 4th of April 2124. For a week I'll be completely fine. After that week, in a span of about two weeks my mind will gradually 'go back to what it's supposed to be like', so the trauma will be there.

"That's not how it works" 80% of the population in my main reality has superpowers, I don't want to hear it.

The reason why I scripted this is because it'll basically help me decide if I want to stick with it or if it'd be better to go to a waiting room and modify my script.

I scripted that I forget my script while I'm in my dr and I remember it whenever I'm in a different reality. But just to be sure, I scripted that I'll never forget that I shifted and I can shift whenever I want (and every attempt is successful + I remember my other realities, especially waiting rooms, but I'll forget the 'plot' of the ones that are kind of similar to this one, just to be sure); I always remember what I scripted for safety and for the lifa app; I'll never confuse memories; I remember that I'll never die, I know that everything is going to end well no matter how fucked up the situation is and I know that what I scripted about trauma and similar things is for a good reason, it's 100% worth it in the end and I'll never regret it (+ I know that it's temporary- continue reading to understand.)

I'd also like to add that if I went through the same things that my dr self went and will go through in the cr I wouldn't last a second. But my dr self is WAY stronger, both physically and mentally. My dr self deals with these kinds of things WAY better than my cr self. So there's also that.

"But what about you guys becoming immortal?" I scripted that the immortality quirk not only grants...well, immortality- but it also puts the target in a better condition to live forever. So basically we become immortal and we say bye bye to our trauma.

This doesn't mean that we forget what happened, but those memories won't affect us the same way they did before. Maybe they're a little uncomfortable to think about, maybe they make us feel sad, angry and sometimes scared, but they definitely don't have the same effect as before. They'll be easier to deal with, to not think about, etc.

Once I decided to script this I also contemplated what I scripted for physical pain- I'LL STILL HAVE A REALLY HIGH PAIN TOLERANCE, DON'T WORRY- but if you look at canon Shigaraki... that's basically it- got shot at least 4 times in a span of two milliseconds? grunted and didn't shead a tear. Redestro destroying his hand? Made a face, grunted, didn't shead a tear. The surgery to get All For One's quirk? Screamed at the top of his lungs, still didn't shead a tear. The war? Didn't shead a single tear.

With this I don't mean that he doesn't feel pain, he definitely does, but he deals with it REALLY well. His pain tolerance is incredible. It only makes sense for me to script that (+ after the surgery my pain tolerance will skyrocket thanks to whatever quirk is stored inside All For One.)

Obviously the same thing I scripted for trauma applies here: I know I didn't script it for nothing and it's worth it in the end.

In other words I'm a crazy bitch.

ALRIGHT, MON-CHAN IS HERE!!! :)

Here's the princess!!

Figuring out how to make my microphone work for the emulator was hell, but I managed to turn it on, teach her her name and how to sit and immediately gave her food and water. Here she is in all her glory!! I didn't get any screenshots of her on the first day and I found out that closing and reopening the game makes the game think a whole day has passed, even if that's not the case. On the first day I ordered a different room style, I closed the game and immediately reopened it (to see something with the microphone) and suddenly the date changed and the room was done. So...yeah- here's Mon-chan!!

Also if you're wondering how I could immediately afford to purchase a room style...I used cheats to have infinite money- I want to spoil her rotten, ok?😭🙏🏻

And here she is on a walk!! On this walk we met a dog named Angel. They didn't become friends, but Mon-chan seems interested in them, so hopefully we'll meet them again!! On another walk she found a red checkered bow. I'm not the biggest fan of bows, but it's cute nonetheless!!

She really likes her tennis ball- me and her used to play with a tennis ball a lot in my dr, so I really enjoyed playing with it together!!

AND LOOK AT HOW SILLY SHE LOOKS HERE!! JSHSBSHBBSUSBS I LOVE HER SO MUCH!!

I've had a DS emulator on my phone for a while and I haven't used it much recently. Today I opened it and remembered I downloaded Nintendogs, I still haven't adopted my first dog.

And you can bet your ass I'm adopting a corgi and calling her Mon-chan.

MON-CHAN MIGHT NOT BE WITH ME IN MY MAIN BNHA REALITY, BUT MY BEAUTIFUL PRINCESS WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN!!!!

(I'm definitely not scripting I also play Nintendogs in my dr and have a corgi named Mon-chan after my childhood pet)

I've had a DS emulator on my phone for a while and I haven't used it much recently. Today I opened it and remembered I downloaded Nintendogs, I still haven't adopted my first dog.

And you can bet your ass I'm adopting a corgi and calling her Mon-chan.

MON-CHAN MIGHT NOT BE WITH ME IN MY MAIN BNHA REALITY, BUT MY BEAUTIFUL PRINCESS WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN!!!!

(I'm definitely not scripting I also play Nintendogs in my dr and have a corgi named Mon-chan after my childhood pet)

What’s your favorite thing (or things if you can’t pick) about your s/o? And maybe your favorite scenario with him

RAAAAHHHH I COULD TALK ABOUT SPINNER ALL DAY, EVERY DAY!!! I LOVE THAT MAN SO MUCH IT'S NOT EVEN FUNNY-

I'm still finishing up my script, so I don't have a lot of scenarios currently. But I do have some ideas!! So if we're looking at the postwar, my favourite scenario for now is me and him trying to nuzlock Pokémon Emerald Kaizo together, calcs and all!!

Well, that's my favourite one if we don't count the still non-existent scenario of us getting together because JSHEBIDBDHSHS I CAN'T WAIT TO BE WITH HIM- MIGHT ALSO SCRIPT US GETTING MARRIED BUT I DON'T KNOW IF I WANT TO SCRIPT IT OR SEE WHAT HAPPENS-

As for my favourite thing about him...picking a favourite thing about him? You're asking me to do the impossible, anon- I love everything about him!!

But something that stands out a lot to me is the fact that sure, he's a tough guy who tries to make himself look bigger than he actually is (especially to people he doesn't trust and enemies) and is probably the first one to act seriously when things get...well- serious, but he's so so so sweet to me and the LOV. He's always available and loves helping us with whatever, he's caring and loving and he can be so gentle AND HE'S SO FUCKING FUNNY- LIKE- MY BEAUTIFUL BOY HOW DO YOU DO THAT???

Also, about the gentle part: it also counts for physical touch- have you seen those beautiful claws? Well, you don't need to worry about them hurting you because OMG HE'S SO GENTLE!! I LOVE HIM SO FUCKING MUCH!!!

HIS PERSONALITY IS JUST A BIG CHEF'S KISS- I LOVE THIS MAN SO MUCH!! AND WE'RE BOTH HUGE NERDS SO YOU KNOW WE'RE YAPPING 24/7 ABOUT THE THINGS WE LOVE!!

ALSO HAVE YOU SEEN MY BEAUTIFUL BOYFRIEND??? HE'S SO FUCKING PRETTY- I COULD ADMIRE THOSE BEAUTIFUL PINK EYES ALL DAY, EVERY DAY- I JUST WANT TO MAKE LITTLE PINK BRAIDS WITH HIS PINK FLUFFY HAIR WHILE HE TEACHES ME ABOUT SWORDS AND STUFF!!!

Me and the League Of Villains reuniting after the war is over like:

Yesterday I randomly found something that really reminded me of Kurogiri from my main bnha reality. I was tired so I didn't think too much about it, but I took a screenshot anyway.

A few minutes ago I was in my gallery, thinking about my dr and all, and I saw the screenshot.

"I'm not crying, you are!" that's what I would say if I wasn't crying- I'M CRYING-

I MISS MY BIG BROTHER SO MUCH- GET ME THE FUCK OUT OF HERE!!

↑ this was the thing I saw by the way. If I don't shift tonight and I don't get to hug Kurogiri for AT LEAST an hour straight, I'm going to make it everyone's problem-