Ed Not Sheeren - Blog Posts

i aspire to have the vibes of dead n gone by luci4 its actual th1n$p0 motivation for me 😭

i WILL get through this 24 hour fast.

i WILL get through this 24 hour fast.

i WILL get through this 24 hour fast.

i WILL get through this 24 hour fast.

i WILL get through this 24 hour fast.

i WILL get through this 24 hour fast.

i WILL get through this 24 hour fast.

i WILL get through this 24 hour fast.

i WILL get through this 24 hour fast.

i WILL get through this 24 hour fast.

i WILL get through this 24 hour fast.

To anyone that tries to guilt people into not hurting/hating themselves because "it hurts you too" FUCK ALL THE WAY OFF!!!! You have no say in what we do or how we think about ourselves. It is our choice. Let us deal with it. Putting guilt on us is only going to make it worse. Just because you like us doesn't mean we have to like ourselves. You have no idea what we feel like. What it feels like to want to peel your own skin off because of something that happened years ago. Wanting to drive into oncoming traffic just to finally have some semblance of peace. Wanting to waste away until there is nothing left... Not even bones. Wanting to evaporate. Not even wanting to restart anymore, you just want it to end. How the fuck do you think it's ok to tell us that it would hurt you when you don't have a clue the amount of pain we are in.

FUCK YOU

Current mood = Brown clouds

I just feel so super empty and numb today. I miss surfing. I miss my parents. I miss my old friends. I miss dancing. I miss falling asleep to k-dramas and walks to grams. I miss caring. ED... Why did you do this to me? I'm locked in a cage with you and I want to escape but without you... Without you I feel like I lose myself. Maybe I just hate myself. I hate this.

Current mood = Grey clouds

Why are all my friends skinny and I'm the only whale in the room? Why can they eat so much when they want and I'm still broken and struggling? Why me?

Current mood = Purple clouds

Why does my head scream at me? I know I'm stupid for eating 3 packets of crisps instead of just eating a salad today. You don't have to scream at me during sleep hours!

Here I am

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Just a 27yr old Aussie girl 🦘🇦🇺 living in USA 🏈🇺🇲

What do I say? I'm back on Tumblr after failing so hard. It's the only place I feel accepted and understood. That's me, just a girl trying to hold everything together 😿

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My stats

I'm fat. That's my stats.

Height/165 cm

SW/106 kg

CW/106 kg

UGW/50 kg

Wishful thinking GW/0 kg I don't even want a body.