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100% agree dude
I feel like after a life on the streets and as a spy, hes gotten really really really good at hiding anxiety, mh issues, panic, etc.
Like. If someone held a gun to ur head, ud panic, but Cyphers prob been in situations where panicking could end deadly. I think more fics need to portray him as dissociated as fuck, bc hiding away has been natural for him for so long, he doesn't even do it consciously anymore.
Like, its gotten to a point where even in the quiet privacy of his own room, Cypher automatically hides all signs of panic, anxiety, grief, etc. Just bc its become natural atp. I feel like hed be a bit in denial/unaware of his emotions, or would simply try to ignore them yk
i like to think that he did it before Nora and she helped him unlearn it. But after she died, it got worse than ever before, both purposefully out of fear and partially on accident bc yk trauma of ur wife dying and shit
Also! Agree on the fics point. Yall write whatever ya want, ooc fics can be great and i love to read a "Cypher has a public mental breakdown" fic from time to time, bc its fun, idc if it feels ooc! Fics r for ur own self indulgence first and foremost!
My biggest fear is falling for the fanonised version of characters that I don’t see the in depth personalities they have anymore
Cypher’s mental state is such an easy thing to get wrong it’s hard to find fics that characterise it right, or at least in my opinion
That’s not to say I think all ooc fics are bad! No! What’s the point of fanfics if you don’t make your lil guys do shit they aren’t supposed to??
But back on topic, I think Cypher’s grief is another thing that’s handled so broadly from fic to fic
Sometimes he doesn’t seem to be weighed by it at all, sometimes it causes him to fear things and drown in self loathing because of it, sometimes he’s so mentally separated from his trauma that ‘Cypher’ and ‘Amir’ are two wholly different people. It’s interesting to see how sensitive or insensitive they make Cypher himself with this
Is there a right way to portray it? Honestly hard to say, but there are fics that I read that instead of feeling right they just don’t feel wrong— Y’know what I mean???
In my analysis of him, he’s clearly still not past Nora and his family (I have thoughts about the possible world they’re alive but that’s for a different post). I know grief doesn’t go away, not his type at least, but it does get easier with time. This leads me to believe that Cypher’s wife hasn’t been dead for too many years at this point— I’ve always imagined Cypher having been part of current day protocol for a couple of years after getting himself together, so I want to say she hasn’t been dead for over 10 years yet.
I think that Cypher, or rather, Amir was a lover. Like heart and soul he loved. It’s not that uncommon of a belief that when someone dies, the person their spouse was dies with them. Is this the case with Cypher? I think he believes that.
I think Cypher believes the man Amir was is long dead. But I also think he’s wrong. I think that for as much as he is a cruel man with all he has said and done, he is still a lover. Why else would seeing Bind make him so angry? It’s because he still loves it.
Amir may be dead to him, but ‘he’s’ still alive. Which person does that ‘he’ belong to? I don’t think that matters.
Whether Cypher is (still?) depressed, or only silently grieving, or maybe even healing, he’s alive. No matter his state I believe he knows his family wants him to continue living. He can’t break a final promise to them.
My only wish is for fanfic writers to not write him like some shaken up teenager because he is in fact a grown ass man that has lived through the streets and wouldn’t break down the same way normal people would. I’d imagine he’s much more gruff than that.
Related, there’s a single action that was portrayed in a fic I saw about him that feels very not wrong. In it he’s sitting at a bar with the other agents all celebrating a well done mission. In it he is being consumed by paranoia. Does his breathing spike? Does he sweat? Does he feel like throwing up? No. Instead, he simply drums his fingers and disguises the anxiety as boredom.
Because that’s what he does.
He hides.
YESSS EXACTLY
Like. Ur telling me he HASN'T hacked everyone's device by now??? Be fr. He got access to all their shit wkdhkqhe
Godddd i wish we'd know his like thoughts and reactions to their dossiers. He knows their biggest fears!!! That's so powerful!!! Will he use it against the other's agents? Will he use it to find out even more about them?
God i hope he does reference the dossiers at some point.
Im rly curious about sth.
My opinion below:
I genuinely don't understand why ppl see Fade's blackmail incident as this horrible unforgivable thing?
All she did was blackmail them, bc she thought they had someone dear to her. Sure, she turned out to be wrong, but i dont think that affects her intentions.
Also, besides the murder and terrorism, isn't it cannon that Reyna starts the Apocalypse in another timeline just bc her sister dies??? And most of the radiant agents help her??? I feel like. That's worse. Just a little bit (its a revolution against an oppressive society so like, you go girlboss, overthrow that anti-radiant company. But like, she def still killed a bunch of innocent ppl)
However, i do think the other agents were probably pissed. Bc A. They are hypocrites and B. Its kind of a fair reaction since she purposefully exposed secrets thatd scare/piss them off lol
Lmk what u think in the tags! Im not trying to start an argument LMFAO i think anyone can think what they want and im curious to see what yall thoughts on this are.
Ive just been sitting there, staring at my phone, refreshing the Cysova ao3 tag over and over again...
Why are there so few cysova / cyberowl longfics :(
I sent my cramps to Gekko and Cypher, Chamber survives for now…
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