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GENSHIN MANGA SPOILERS! but honestly if you haven’t read it by now it’s your fault alone
So why did Kaeya initially try to hurt Collei?
The obvious answer- he was trying to defend Mondstadt, Collei was a very suspicious figure at the time, and he knew that being aggressive towards her would probably draw out her hidden powers and reveal herself as the culprit of the Black Fire incident.
But there’s more to it than that.
Kaeya canonically loves, LOVES kids. He adores them- there’s lots of times in the game where he talks about how precious childhood is and how he wants to protect the purity of childhood dreams for as long as possible before kids have to grow up and face the real world (kinda similar to Childe). In 3.8, it shows how he is literally willing to do anything to protect a child- Klee, when he literally throws aside his own sibling issues in order to shield Klee from being exposed to the same thing and scolds a couple of bickering brothers for upsetting her.
Additionally, there’s his whole thing with Mika and how he’s basically a big brother figure to the entirety of Mondstadt’s population under 17. The highly implied bond between Bennett, Razor, Fischl and him, even.
Anyway this whole aspect of his character obviously stems from his own childhood and how tainted it was by his hidden identity, so like he probably doesn’t want any other kids to have to go through such hardship especially while they’re still young.
So if he loves kids so much, and wants to protect them so badly, why did he not hesitate to become a full blown villain against Collei, literally wounding an innocent 12-year old girl?
Because he sees himself in her.
Collei hates herself (or at least she used to LOL). She hates the burden (her powers) that was forced upon her from a young age, and those powers inevitably label her as a bad person, one who can harness evil powers to kill And hurt and whatever. It makes her feel like she has no real control over herself, and that she has no self-identity- she doesn’t think of herself as a regular person, instead a monster. And she hates, hates, hates herself for it, but she shoves all of it down under a mask.
Sound familiar to a certain cavalry captain?
That’s why Kaeya didnt hesitate to Go after her. He knows her too well, knows that she’s hiding her true identity under a well-crafted face, that there’s something evil and dark in her- because that’s exactly who he was as a kid.
But then this panel happens.
Collei, evidently so tired of living such a torn life, gives up and offers her life to Kaeya just so that the torment can end, which stops Kaeya in his tracks, because that’s when she reminds him off himself just a little too much.
Kaeya, so caught up in her uncontrollable evil, forgets that she’s just a child, one who never should’ve been forced to deal with such a thing, and certainly not want to die because of it.
That’s exactly what happens internally to him, as well. Over the years, Kaeya internalized being a traitor so much, that often he convinces himself that he’s truly not a good person. Yes, he acknowledges that it’s really not his fault, but that still gets lost and it shows through when Kaeya shows us how willing he is to get himself harmed- because of his self hatred, he places so little value in his own wellbeing and his own life, because he thinks that all harm that comes to him is deserved and that it’s better off if he’s dead anyway so that he doesn’t have to deal with being torn apart every day.
No I’m not making this up, it’s in how he literally covers for Diluc all the time and risks himself in the process, and how Adelinde told us about that one time Kaeya literally took Diluc’s punishment for himself when they snuck into the wine cellars. There’s lots of times, even throughout in the game where Kaeya tries to convince us he’s not a good person- he quite literally says that, at some point.
Only when Collei shows that she’s in the exact same position does Kaeya realize what he’s doing and stops himself. Only then does he remember how painful and hard it really is, and he ends up helping to save Collei and removing her powers, because that’s one burden he can help take off, unlike his own.
Idk man for me the Kaeya vs Collei fight (I like to call it the chapter where collei gave us the hottest panel of Kaeya choking ever) told a story about Kaeya’s internalizations, too, and his own-self hatred and how deep it really goes. BRB CRYING
i love them so muchhhh rarararrarrara theyre such a cute rarepair...THE POTENTIAL.....teenage pining please (i am about to knock out but all i care about is them ajdnuabivciwyvqyf)
my babies my deat dear traumatised babies LET ME SQUEEZE THEM?!!?!
also headcanon fremmie has stray long strands that escape down his neck. also dont come for me canonically fremmie is taller i just dont know by how much fremillei community dont give up!!!
keep creating rrrhhahaha
cyno is so silly i love it
“It’s getting worse again…”
i might doodle smth for this later dont quote me on that and so here is my very self divulging list of:
the batboys with who i would think would make an excellent emotional support greenbean
izuku and tim
probably the most obvious team up but it deserves to be APPRECIATED
tim would prob figure out one for all rq
after seeing the mediocre training, tim takes it upon himself to make sure izuku has a better training regime and diet
they go hero watching and take notes together
the rants they have,,, god tier
izuku sees tims self destructive night binges and is the only one able to get him to sleep without the use of drugs (izuku literally just hid his coffee stash, cuddled up to him and boy was passed out in SECONDS, new record)
dick offered to pay izuku to stay at the manor just to get tim to sleep
collei and damian
its crazy ik but hEAR ME OUT OKAY
damian is a too serious person who i can see loosening up around collei
damian, frustrated after seeing collei not read the information as quickly as him: what, are you illiterate?
collei, sheepish: i learned how to read properly just a few years ago, im sorry
damian, blushing in embarrassment and wanting to now take over her education because HOW-: *proceeds to quickly summarize the information*
after that damian lets collei take her time and even aids her by explaining certain words
collei asks genuine questions and damian answers them almost kindly
damian thought collei would be dead weight but then he saw her shoot an arrow and throw her cullei anbar and was pleased to see she could also throw a good punch
he also trains with her, obviously he has given her some help but she has even given him pointers on how to deal with certain elements and how to treat injuries in the field more efficiently and how to make certain cures and ointments from stuff found in the pantry and outdoors
idk i can just see damian adopting collei and collei just treating damian like the little brother she would dote on whenever she could
tim sees this and thinks the apocalypse is going to start, jason's here just to see how someone was able to tame the demon brat
huohuo and jason
jason and tail teach huohuo how to use a gun
huohuo is close to fainting every time she pulls the trigger and jason is sure to have tea and a spa day planned out after
huohuo texts jason often and jason reassures her whenever she gets insecure about it
huohuo is jumpy 25/8 so jasons pit rage does spook her but she's been with tail all her life, she's used to her life being in some kind of peril; after it, huohuo prob gifts him smth as an apology for the rage even tho it wasnt her fault and jason just protects the lil bean more
gon and dick
gon: so my dad left me to become a hunter so i became a hunter to find my dad :D
dick: oh thats so cute of u, mind if i tag along? i would love to talk to ur dad 😇🔪
BONUS +
zoro and damian
i would really just like to see them talk technique and spar
damian would prob be so flabberghasted at first seeing the use of 3 swords but then sets his whole regime in understanding and countering it
sumeru people
cyno's comedy act debut in fontaine
(my twitter)
i made some edits (pun intended) of my original sumeru chara edits using the comments as a guide! i hope yall like these more!
YEAH 100% YOU ARE MY FUCKING SISTER
*does what hoyoverse cant*