Problems With PJ's Daycare.

No, because I'm actually pissed about this shit.

I'm (sadly) an American citizen, which means that throughout my kindergarten (and possibly first and second, but certainly not third, fourth, and all after) year, every morning, we would do the Pledge of Allegiance. This was very normal for me in my early school years, except some very odd things I just learned today.

I'm currently being online schooled, I was in my history class and the topic of religion in schools came up. From what we were told, most private school are allowed to do religious practices, such as praying, public schools are not. It then got me thinking, if public schools aren't allowed to do religious practices, why is God even mentioned in the Pledge of Allegiance?

I never even remembered the damn thing until today, and it was so random. I was curious though, so I asked my teacher. She told us that the Pledge of Allegiance never had anything to do with God up until it was added in during The Red Scare. She even said that yes, most if not all, schools do the Pledge, but they allow people to not participate, whether it was because of the God part or not...

We were never allowed to not participate in the Pledge of Allegiance.

It got me thinking deeper. How many people have to stand and do that shit who are extremely uncomfortable with it? In fact, I had a friend in kindergarten who had recently came in from China, none of us understood religion at all at the time sure, but that means none of us were aligned by a religion, unless we were forced into church by parents. Besides, this friend was Chinese, why should she have to do the Pledge, it's not her native home and she was too young to fully understand that she even moved so far from home.

What about my Native American friend? Sure, I knew her when we didn't do the Pledge, but if she was moving public schools due to doster families, she surely would have done them at some point. Why should she have had to do it? She didn't know anything of God as far as I'm aware, not to mention that she's Native American, she has no reason to respect this place, because whites took the land from the Native Americans. So, was she too forced to participate?

The mere thought of this kind of things feels unconstitutional, to be honest. After all, that's forcing a belief unto an knowing victim who's too young to even understand half the words in the Pledge and is even removing free will, because if a kid doesn't want to participate, they shouldn't have too, but my school didn't give us a choice... it just feels very, very wrong.

I hoped to never go on to social media to call out someone for abusing me in some way... but here I fucking am.

TW// grooming, toxic relationship

At the age of 10, I met someone online who I shared a common interest with. They introduced me to their friends, and one of them would become my abuser. After our little group fell apart, her and I stayed friends. Eventually, we figured out we liked each other, and we started dating by the time I was 12.

Things were fine for awhile, but during an arguement one time, I remember her calling me toxic. I didn't even know what that word meant, yet it stuck to me for years. I didn't get over that until I finally stepped into the light, left her behind, and finally started to get better.

We'd keep arguing, we'd take "breaks", but with each break we'd end up still be like "ily" and realize that we weren't truly having a break, ever.

Once we broke up, it only took me a day to decide that we couldn't even stay friends. It didn't feel right. I ghosted her, and I don't even remotely regret it. I was only 13. Things were quiet, and with my therapist, I had come to realize how much she really abused me.

6 months later, my abuser reached out to me. She snuck into my discord server, once she revealed herself, I was willing to make small talk. I was willing to forgive. I was naive.

I mentioned that I told my friends in my server about what she did. So she snooped and got upset when I called her a groomer. So, I deleted that message... but I really shouldn't have.

I'm 16 now, and I only just now realized that she abused me so much worse than I think. Everytime I realize that she did something wrong, I think "it can't get worse than this.", but it has. Most of my memories of the time I had with her is blotted out, but one thing I do remember is a BDSM list.

I was 13, maybe even 12, when she sent me the blank list, and one filled out. She told me, "You should do this and send it to me. Here's mine." I don't remember looking at hers, but I remember genuinely trying to fill it out, because I was young. I was naive. I didn't know any better.

I didn't know most of the things listed on it. I had to look half of it up, and I was so uncomfortable doing it the whole time. Not like anything could have had any truth to it because I was fucking 12/13. I had absolutely 0 experience in anything sexual. I was so uncomfortable doing it, it wasn't fair to me to do something like this and not understand any of it.

I didn't realize how damn weird it was back then. I only just realized it and it's been nearly half a decade. There are certain people out there that have used that list to groom their victims, I found it out just now, and it hit me like a fucking train to realize that I was victim to it.

Tabby, I don't fucking give a shit if I ruin your chances of college, or a job. You don't deserve a good life because you ruined mine. And even though I've learned to grow around my trauma, I cannot move on from the fact that you are the reason I struggle so much today. I don't fucking trust people, because of you and the way you treated me. But I have learned to realize that I will not tolerate people stepping all over me and I will not be treated unfairly because I have fucking worth and you don't get to act all innocent anymore.

My abuser is Tabbybat6. Bluebat, Tabbitha, whatever the fuck she goes by now. I first met her on Steam, we moved to hangouts, then Discord. She has Wattpad, Instagram, Tumblr, and on everything I could think of, I have her blocked and restricted.

Tabbitha, if somehow, you're reading this, I hope you understand the way you made me feel, someday. I hope you feel all the pain you made me feel from your abuse. And I'm praying to the god I don't believe in that justice gets fucked served.

so henlo fello sinners 

that’s it

i’ve been putting this post off the longest, because i know people have extremely strong opinions on this, and sure, maybe i’m wrong, or this really is an opinion, but i want to talk about it, because it’s so uncomfortable seeing references to it.

If you haven’t read the Karlnap “Monster Ultra” fanfic, 1. disregard this post. 2. DO NOT READ IT OR SUPPORT IT. I’ll explain why.

AGAIN: Take this with a grain of salt, because I could be wrong, this could also technically be an opinion, I’m not here to argue, but I do want to bring this to attention.

With that said, TRIGGER WARNING! This post will contain mentions of rxpe and NSFW/smut, so read with caution!!

For some context before I start (in case it’s needed), my friend was the one to read it first, and bring to my attention that she felt really uncomfortable reading it. I told her we suffer together, so she linked it. And my words, “it cant be that bad”...

This fanfiction... “Monster Ultra”, Karlnap smutshot, is not okay. There is extremely clear depictions of rxpe, at the very least, it was borderline rxpe. There are moments where Karl literally begs Sapnap to stop, but he didn’t listen and didn’t care, refusing to stop unless Karl used a safeword or the color system.

Sure, Karl never actually says the safeword or color system, but how could he? Imagine you’re being forced into something you don’t want to do (even if it’s sfw, doesnt matter), and you keep saying no, but they don’t listen unless you say something specific. You’d likely be nervous about actually saying that thing, because you’d be thinking about what that person would think about you, how they would react, especially in manipulative, toxic relationships. So, Karl probably did want to say something, but was afraid of what Sapnap would think, or even what Sapnap would treat him for it after.

Sure, it’s said and shows that Karl still enjoyed it, but think about it realistically; If someone sexual assaults you, you dont enjoy it in the moment, they go to prison, but later, you change your mind and say you enjoyed it... do you think that your assaulter would just be let free? No. That’s why there’s still a very obvious problem here.

Aside from the rxpe... KARL IS NOT OKAY WITH NSFW. He has said himself that he doesn’t want ANY NSFW fanfics about him at all, because he is on the asexual spectrum. 

https://twitter.com/ccboundariies/status/1422746878760820738

It is stated TWICE in that thread that Karl is not okay with NSFW content of him. So whether you agree with the rxpe part of it, or not, it’s still not okay.

Thank you for coming to my ted talk.

ya'll think Mai and Ani [from Next Gen] like each other? or is it just me?

"dream calling his fans "gullible" is wrong..."

It literally isn't, some of this community is so gullible to believe some shit rumors with barely any genuine evidence. It happens all the time, and Dream has all the right to say we're gullible. Sure, it's a little rude, but if it's ignored, will it change? No, it won't. Welcome to the world, sometimes you have to be honest with people so they understand what they're doing wrong.

They continued on talking about Dream and his family apparently being doxxed and getting their address leaked? (again, no proof to that) But the thing is, is Dream should be able to fucking trust his community. He should be able to trust that we know the difference between lies and truth, he should be able to trust us when he opened up about his past.

And yet you still talk about it. (I know, I'm talking about it right now, but I'm currently trying to bring this shit to other people's attention) He's obviously uncomfortable with people talking about, and he was brave to come out and say it at all, and we shouldn't talk about it, BECAUSE it makes him uncomfortable! Yet you still talk about it. Throwing it all around like it's some joke. That's the whole reason he's never talked about it, because he's a guy, people think it's a fucking joke.

This community is disgusting and disappointing. (Not including those who know better and are mature)

Yeah, okay, I came off really rude, sorry for that, but this is such a serious topic and situation, and it's such a burden to see the way people treat CC's and the situation itself. I'm reasonably pissed off for this, because it's outrageous and it's disappointing to see people older than me being so immature. I don't understand that.

I'm also not exactly trying to attack anyone specific, hence why there is no name to the quote, but I know people will be pissed off anyway, but there are people who need to understand this stuff, and sometimes, you really got to drill it into their skulls for them to really understand.

Again, sorry for being rude and stuff, but please, we need to better educate this community, it's just ridiculous.

💀

aaand we’re back

another headcanon

Mamacita's name is Freya

(it reminds me of flower, which for some reason I have connected her too, and I came up with the name to call her instead of "mamacita" because i felt weird about calling her that)