Ive Had An Almost But Not Quite Bad Day. Jazz Band Was Good And I Woke Up Okay, If Not Tired. I Left

I like when I intend to do something then don't. I was going to play games and then I figured out the words for something ive been trying to explain for awhile, didn't want to bother my friendnso I decided to bother tumblr instead(not like anyone pays attention to my random bs anyways). Made one post, got distracted by fish bones, and forgot what the fucking words were.

Maybe I'm the over dramatic problem.

I cannot fucking believe how much I'm losing my mind right now over soy sauce history. I'll tell all of you about it after I finish this essay because I need to un-distract myself enough to finish it but what the fuck? What the fuck is going on? I'm losing my fucking mind.

I just realized I could probably make friends with all the different flavours of weird kids.

Furries? furries are gay. I am also gay. We are gay, nice. Furries are generally cool ppl and so long as they know boundaries (both physical and not) I'm cool with furries

Emos? I'm also a nihilist :D also your outfit is cool I like it.

Punks? I know a fair amount of punk culture and would love to engage in anarchy with you.

Library kids? Another library kid! Let's talk books, I promise on The Agreement I will not hurt you. It's okay.

Aesthetic kids? I'm also very into aesthetics! mine is choatic academia, yours is so cool too <3

Quiet kids? I'll shut up or talk more depending on what you feel don't worry it's safe here and I'll protect you you precious being.

Geeks? Whether or not I know what you're talking about or referencing I will listen to your entire two and a half hour rant so long as I have something to do with my hands. You're so genuine when talking about this that you enjoy I love this!

Oh shit oh shit Im too fucking tired for this shit omfg kids: wanna listen to some music with me? I know a bunch of fun little spots around here we can go there, and you can vent or just vibe. Future you is so proud of you and I am too you're doing great ily.

Even if you're a "normal" kid, I'm nice but can be a little prickly when I'm tired/overstimulated, but I'll listen to you and offer any help I can when you ask for it. if you need a distraction I'll help. I will offer you the patience others have offered me and hope you do the same for the next person. I know the world is fucked up, it's scary, it's makes me want to give up sometimes. But I've promised some people that I would stay here for them, I hope you can promise someone the same. If no one comes to mind, could you promise me?

I work at a library now

my old pen (left) versus the pen my friend just gave me (right)

Chaotic Academia Spotify Playlists: The Complete Collection

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3q0JPpoeoSfYB4njmfRj7K?si=B0heqlLUSqelVpfkl2oo0Q&utm_source=copy-link

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/6EWrhl3niUYQOIkPdc5zJ1?si=ddfoegERTeeZxVn923KImw&utm_source=copy-link

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/6MsyW5iZV5ldq8UW4mULFQ?si=m7ULmehUSuefTIOVOEPcsA&utm_source=copy-link

Some choatic academia playlist for your aching souls.

(from top to bottom)

Wake up sleepy head! - upbeat morning playlist

Hoodies over dress shirts - a collaborative all around playlist

Oversized t-shirt and a book - calm evening playlist

Hope you enjoy!

I'm feeling kinda terrible, like I'm going to pass out constantly. So I'll be terminating my day soon, but I finished the pattern for an embroidery project I'm working on. I don't like this shirt very much, so if I fuck it all up, no hard feelings. It's inspired by Dutch pottery (you know the ones) and Im really excited to work on this because it helps me connect to my culture. Something I know most, if not all, white Canadians and Americans can relate to. Good morning, good afternoon, good evening and good night <3

Why is everyone more cool than me. this is so mean guys stop being cool. stop it's mean.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHSSHSHSHAHS I just had a need dream about murder and in awake again

I had a nightmare a few weeks ago about some murders, and usually that freaks me out for a while and I can't sleep. So naturally I turned him into a character and made him kiss other boys. It's to the point I was making pintrest boards for him and his boyfriend, but it's late, and now murder is scary again and I can't sleep.