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“I felt like I wasn’t enough for a very long time, and then somehow I just decided that I was. And I decided that I was enough for me and if I wasn’t enough for him at the time, it wasn’t my fault and it wasn’t his fault either. And it still is nobody’s fault when I don’t fit with another person. Love is beautiful and soft and achy and harsh and I think I’ve decided that not many people deserve to make me feel those things. I think I decided who I’m going to let destroy me and who I’m not. You and I, we deserve that much, don’t you think? I have weak moments constantly. I’m still drowning in love that may or may not return but has been absent for years. Absolutely drowning in it. But I am enough for me and you are enough for you. And whoever is coming or coming back, whoever is for us, we will be enough for them too”

— Emery Allen

is there a fic where lena luthor does this 70 questions by vogue kind of thing but instead of vogue, its catco?

lena's wearing this white flowy dress with a sun hat and theyre walking around this sprawling but warm mansion of a home. and the interview is as boring as it could get, questions like; 'whats ur go to noonan's coffee order?', 'best time to take a nap?' 'have u broken an erlenmeyer flask before?'

BUT BuT at the very end, lena leads the reporter out unto her backyard anD ThEN AND THEN!!!! we get a glimpse of this really ripped woman doing push-ups out on the grass.

and the reporter's like: "IM SORRY MS. LUTHOR, IS- IS THAT- IS THAT KARA DANVERS DOING PUSH-UPS IN UR GARDEN????"

and lena just goes: "why yes. that is kara."

and kara sees them, stands up, walks over with the brightest grin plastered on her face at the sight of lena. and the reporter goes, "MS. DANVERS! WOW. WHAT ARE U DOING HERE??!? I certainly did NOT expect my boss from catco to be here!"

and kara all sweaty and half-naked in a sports bra goes "Brad what're talkin about mister? What do u mean what am I doing here? IN MY HOME? WITH MY WIFE??"

and then kara kisses lena on the lips and u just know the reporter is having a stroke behind the camera.

Lena offers no explanation, already too distracted and thirsty for kara to focus on anything else. She just claps her hands together, says, "well i think we're done for the day, dont u think brad?" and she just dismisses him like nothing. Then all of a sudden lena's getting bridal carried back into the house, and u can hear them talking about dinner plans, "i didnt know ur interview was today. Want me to cook tonight?" unaware that the camera is STILL rolling.

"uh uhm so, that has been lena luthor in 70 questions with catco."

AND THAT, MY FRENS, IS HOW I WANT LENA LUTHOR TO REVEAL HER MARRIAGE TO NONE OTHER THAN CATCO MEDIA EXECUTIVE KARA DANVERS.

Waiting to see the Best Player in the Nation again

The depth and important messaging and often overlooked nuance in these subjects that Azie Tesfai brought to tonight’s Supergirl… bravo. Genuinely amazing.

By the way… the little girl. The Kelly/Alex convo. And the hair moment. Powerful.

The ep was beautifully written and executed. Alas it was also a frustrating reminder of what the show could and should have always been (and at one point was), if handled with more care by people who truly understood the characters and stories and messaging that they tried to touch on but instead so often misfired or took the silly, superficial, or even at times outright offensive route for.

Speaking of, that promo gave me whiplash. I went from tears in my eyes and feeling intense awe to making a wtf face and shaking my head, right back to my usual annoyance. Can’t believe I’m saying it but no promo would’ve been better than that promo, after that incredible episode.

Anyway, back to what matters most right now: Azie Tesfai, everybody. 👏

tiny supercorp going home from work

what do you do when you're lonely?

It depends. There are different kinds of lonely, aren’t there?

There’s the quiet kind. It’s almost light. It’s the soft realisation that nobody has understood you for quite a while - in fact, you’re not really sure when you last felt understood. It settles around you like a blanket and you let it. It’s a return to familiarity.

When I feel like this, I go for a walk, or write a poem, and think a lot. Usually, I realise that it is an impossible task to expect anybody to understand me completely but I am understandable in fragments to different people at different times and that is okay. The most important thing is that I understand myself.

There is the specific kind. When you feel isolated or left out or unloved by a particular person or group of people. When you don’t understand why. When you feel that there must be something wrong with you, something different or awkward that makes you difficult to love. It’s heavy and shameful.

When I feel like this, I think about my perceived differences and realise that I have people in my life who are grateful for them. I think about whether I am truly being excluded or whether I’ve just interpreted a situation in that way because of my defense mechanisms. And I talk to my loved ones because everybody needs a reminder that they’re loveable from time to time.

Finally, there is a violent kind of lonely. It is desperate. Chronic. Hopeless. For me, it accompanies a period of being continuously misunderstood. Being called selfish when you were trying to be selfless. Being called cruel when you thought you were acting out of kindness. Being called defensive when you were trying to communicate. Being told you didn’t care when you know you did. It isolates you from everyone, even you from yourself. This is when you begin to wonder whether people really mean it when they say they love you.

I think this kind of loneliness can only be solved by looking deep inside and trusting yourself to be who you think you are. To have conviction that you are kind, and compassionate, and imperfect, but good. And to know that you are loveable because of these things.

"homosexuality is unnatural! there's only two genders! it's a sin-"

I'm sorry, have you seen NATURE???

and there's so many more species than this that exhibit homosexuality, varying genders, etc. SO! MANY!

it's very much a natural thing. it always has been. unfortunately, while homosexuality is found in many species, homophobia is only found in one

ALSO THE ARTIST IS HUMON, FIND THEM AT HUMONCOMICS.COM!! was so sure I had included that but apparently I forgot, so sorry!

Pinoe: So, what’s it like dating Christen?

Tobin: One time, I asked her for water while she was pissed at me and she brought me a glass full of ice and told me to wait.

Tobin: I love her.

Our goalkeeper saved three (3) PKs today. Never forget.

I think people forget that tc are in a very different professional situation than other couples. They’re two of the biggest stars on a national team that gets a ton of media attention, and they play a lot of minutes together and at the same position. They have very different pressures on them than, say, Ali and Ashlyn did when they started being more public.

Right now, everyone knows that they’re together and they know that we know, but media can’t report on their relationship and that’s important. Rings and vacations and clearly-shared apartments aren’t enough for anyone to throw out a dumb question about whether playing time affects their relationship or ask about kids or whatever. Explicitly confirming their relationship would have a tangible impact on how they do their jobs. At some point they might decide it’s worth it, but it’s irritating when people expect it.

Yep.

People need to understand that even if America is over the homophobia stage that would loose them sponsorship deals (it's not), there is still the part where gay couples are simply treated differently.

They get asked different questions and they get asked more questions. It's a distraction from your work, not because they are not professional, but because 95% of the media is unprofessional.

Being out doesn't require any of us to answer the questions of a herd of unprofessional and incapable journalists. Until it does people need to stop complaining about them not officially speaking out.