I Was Very Sick And Had To Be Admitted To The ER Tuesday Night. I Had A Really High Heart Rate And Fever

I've been thinking about the mums I most likely killed in my garden. I hope they come back in the spring.

3 of my classes are fully asynchronous. I love it. I think the discussions are just dumb and superficial, which I miss having good conversations about the material, but I need all the flexibility I can get right now. However, my comp class has zoom meetings once a week and I hate it. Our discussions are dumb and are literally the questions in the book.

I hope online learning starts to look up for you! The internet connection sucks bruh. It happens at the most inconvenient times too

I’m really grateful about how our university only holds video conferences once a week because our internet connection at home is not that stable. However, it does make me sad how our discussions on lessons have to be fast-pace. It is understandable but I wish we had more time to engage on the topics because all of my subjects for this semester are highly interesting. 😕 Would love to hear how are the online classes in your school 🙏🏻

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Studying with the boys (my trees Monty and Ray and my doggo Teddy and my succulents and cacti). I'm really not in the mood to study, but it needs to happen.

Yesterday was a very tough day. I cried a bunch. My grandma gave up and they're moving her from the rehab portion of the facility to long term. My family is talking about hospice. I had to help my aunt and great aunt find a wedding certificate because they need it to help my grandma claim my grandpa's retirement benefits (he died a little over a month ago but we still cant find it). It was a very hard day. I did a window visit with her (covid) and I called her so we could talk but she dropped the phone and couldn't pick it up. She had to sign some papers for another life insurance claim and it was very hard to watch. She struggled to lift her arms and was crying the whole time but it had to be done by that day. She was so weak she couldn't turn her head to see us. It's hard watching her go because she was like a mother to me. My own mother is just unstable and horrible at parenting. Up until my grandma got cancer, she filled in the holes for my own mother's pathetic excuse for parenting. I lived at her house for a decade and lived nextdoor to her house for nearly another decade. It's hard to let go.

I have this disgusting habit of making weekly to do lists that stress me out and have entirely too much on them and then remaking that list about 2848573 different times. I also do it right before I go to bed to stress myself out. It's hard to stay organized this semester because all my classes are online + post at different times + have different length modules + I have to do things like read a textbook, but obviously there aren't due dates for that specifically.

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Today was productive for being MLK Day.

○ wrote an initial discussion board post (4 solid paragraphs because the questions I had to thoroughly answer required that and my peers also thought so)

○ made 2 replies to that discussion board

○ walked one of my dogs

○ picked up a little coffee treat while socially distancing

○ completed a pre-quiz (I'm not worried so much how I did but more so how it'll be graded and whether I followed her strange uploading and answering directions)

○ cleaned up a laptop a little bit (I'm trying to rehab a dinosaur laptop so I don't have to be as limited by my chromebook)

○ read part of a book of Martin Luther King Junior's essays/speeches I have

Dark, light, grey, and science

Lmao I'm a mess 😂

academia types ✨✨

dark academia: you have 3 copies of to Kill a Mockingbird, you won't shut up your current obsession, you were too shy to answer questions in class even though you knew every answer. despite being super capable, you still wing a lot of tasks. also self-care but make it ~ edgy ~.

light academia: you're the teachers pet, but like in a good way? you probably tried to learn an instrument like the flute in school but haven't played it since, always holding iced coffee, works way better in an Organised Study Group with like minded pals.

pastel academia: all the coloured highlighters imaginable, and the neatest handwriting? studying anywhere BUT their room (cute café yes please), if you're nice to them they will fall in love with you, you probably haven't seen their natural hair colour.

grey academia: takes lots of notes but can they read them?, cried listening to Greta Thunberg in 1975's song, "gender is a social construct", surprisingly good at time management, probably short and angry, constantly trying to tell their parents how to be "woke."

classic academia: your cat is your best friend, always dreamt about having a bookstore café when you were older, definitely participating in goodreads reading challenge, you shock friends on your ability to always sleep on time, quiet until people get to know you (and discover you're ~quirky~)

science academia: you are not capable of liking things casually: it's all or nothing, constantly complaining about how difficult your subjects are but knowing this is exactly what you want to do, well practiced at pulling all-nighters, probably got some sort of nerdy/edgy tattoo.

Forcing your college age students to watch your own personally developed videos on group work is not effective. Plz reblog cuz I'm literally so puzzled by what she thought this was going to solve. We've already done 2 discussions on how to approach group work. We're watching videos on group roles and expectations and consequences and such. I agree it needs to be touched on, but I don't think this much is age appropriate. I'm truly irked by this blatant waste of my time. I know how to do group work. I'm going into teaching and I literally know how to facilitate group work with even the most... childish... of people.

This money tree looks so much better than mine! Mine is slowly bouncing back after I didn't keep up on watering it for a while.

The Pachira Aquatica “Guiana Chestnut” (sometimes sold as a “Money Tree/Money plant”) is Native to Central and South America and usually grows in swamps. It’s no coincidence that mine is doing so well in a small low light north facing window.

These houseplants are commonly sold smaller with braided trunks but in the wild this tree can grow up to 50 ft tall (this probably won’t happen in my home, but one can dream). I got this specific plant at a Costco for $28 in autumn.

Transgender Day of Visibility.

By an absolute miracle my gold capella schefflera bounced back from a fungal infection that it had at a grocery store. I had told my sister I wanted a yucca plant/tree whatever for my graduation/birthday gift. She panicked and grabbed my tree, which I named Ray. He's now been in my care for a little over 2.5 years 💚

Yike

Don't buy grocery store plants

never underestimate the power of:

• cleaning off your laptop/computer

• changing your sheets

• straightening up your room

• changing out your toothbrush

• drinking water

• changing the lock/homescreens on your phone

• changing your phone case

• changing your pajamas

• putting on chapstick

• washing your face and putting on moisturizer

• putting lotion on your body