I've Been Thinking About The Mums I Most Likely Killed In My Garden. I Hope They Come Back In The Spring.

Hey I've been like incredibly swamped lately so sorry for being absent.

I actually have been working a lot, but this week I only worked on Monday (I was so incredibly off that day for no reason and I made some really bad mistakes such as saying shit in front of sheltered middle schoolers when I got locked outside of the building when the door became unpropped and I let them out to break up the weird hybrid schedule and also kinda losing 4 kids but they just twisted my directions to go for a walk around the school... those incidents shouldn't have happened). I normally have Tuesdays off because of my inconveniently timed composition class. I took Wednesday off to get ahead for school (would have gotten more done if I didn't get blown out cuz CANVAS glitched the literal second I submitted my high stakes midterm). Tomorrow, Thursday I get my second dose in the morning. I had a kinda bad reaction to the first shot (actually was like the second dose with swollen lymph nodes, low grade fever, exhausted, headache, dizzy, just overall feeling bad) for 48 hours and then still a little out of it for another 48 hours. Fingers crossed this dose goes much smoother. Just in case it doesn't, I have everything done that is due before Sunday at midnight. I also got my mom to drive me to my appointment tomorrow cuz I damn near passed out at the place and driving home (i dont do well with shots if you can tell but they're so important and I wouldn't risk not getting it).

I've been doing in person subbing, which is a big jump for me. It's a lot more stressful because I'm constantly reminding middle schoolers to pull their masks up and to give each other a little more space. Their behavior also got a lot worse because they haven't been in person for nearly a year. However, they really needed this. It just sucks that they're being put in this position. Getting the first dose made me feel a little better, although I walk in with a thing of wipes, two masks, hand sanitizer, a pack of back up masks, and no lunch (they've been shoving kids into classrooms to eat because the lunch rooms are tiny). Wish me luck!

One of my great great aunts or something like that used to have a lemon tree in her kitchen (old greek lady) and I want to do the same when I finally get my own place 🍋🍋🍋🍋🍋

Mom’s potato staring at me across the room

Today I am trying to get ahead with my classes. My classes started this past Wednesday and it is now Saturday. I feel very disorganized because my asynchronous classes have me completing modules, but not all of the due dates are posted. It's really hard to find a schedule, but I'm going to set that up today. Today I'm working on:

1) reading curriculum guidelines on online experiences

2) making my initial discussion post about it

3) finding an old algebra or geometry textbook in my basement to help me brainstorm ideas for the 5+ hours of related internet instruction I'll be creating for a class

4) setting up an outline of my first lesson plan

5) reading 2 short chapters for another class

6) watching a presentation

7) looking at a long term assignment

8) making another initial discussion post

*I'd work at my desk but my father currently has Netflix blaring and is snoring. I can still hear literally everything but this is the quietest room in the house. If I go near him I'm probably going to end up screaming at him about how impossible it is to work in this house. My state is currently in full shut down (no indoor dining, no libraries for studying, I'm not allowed on school campus, etc). I guess my room is as good as it gets.

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MATLAB has an Onramp kind of crash course. I'm gonna be honest... I don't think many people know how to use MATLAB well. It has potential, but it just isn't used a lot (in my opinion). Congrats on the internship tho! It sounds like you'll learn a lot and it will be a cool experience!

03.02.2021

I finally got an internship, I start in a month! I'm going to improve/adapt a code used to analyse exoplanets data. I'm a bit scared as it will be "translating" MATLAB to Julia, and I never used either language, so if anyone has any resources, I'm taking it!

On other news, we are doing an intensive English week with my class, and it's... Not that bad. But I made it even better with homemade waffles!

most people: *organize their bookshelf by authors, alphabetical order, ect*

me: i’m going to organize my bookshelf purely by vibes and contrasting colours

There's so many new cases in my state. K-12 got a week long spring break. It ends Monday, and I'm honestly so worried about returning to in person instruction. A lot of families travelled and didn't take proper precautions. There's going to be rapid testing for most K-12 before spring break ends, but I'm worried because it's only so accurate and it's voluntary. I'm fully vaccinated, but some of these kids are high risk because of asthma and diabetes and other health conditions. I'll survive if I'm jobless or my substitute teaching hours are cut again, but these kids struggle so much with online learning. My suffering in fully online college is only a glimpse into what they go through. My heart goes out to them. I think we're going to have another shutdown soon. It's completely necessary, but still hard.

This semester needs to end 😫😢😓

The most beautiful giant fern ✨

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