AYO this had me blushing smiling kicking my feet rolling around my bed giggling-- I'm so happy. This is soso good
this idea just came to me rn: reader and tom have been writing secret notes to each other and leaving them around the castle for the other to find and reader finally gets the courage to confess/flirt in a message but for some reason the note never gets to him :( and its kinda angsty bc reader takes his lack of response as a rejection but ends with him finally finding it
A/N: I went feral when I read this so obviously I had to write it ASAP. I changed the premise only slightly, I hope you enjoy!!! And thanks for the super cute idea, I'm really feeling the soft fluff tonight š„ŗš
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Summary: āWe sit at the same desk,ā he calls after you. When you looked over your shoulder heās still standing there with a glint in his eyes that makes you suspect that heās already put two-and-two together. āThough you already knew that,ā Tom continues, head tilting back a little as he smiles. [GN reader ā no pronouns ā ambiguous house ā fluff ā mutual pining]Ā Wordcount: 3.1k Warnings: none
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The Potions dungeon is always cold, always a little damp, and only ever lit by sickly yellow lights hanging in grim iron cages from the hewn stone ceiling, but it has an ethereal, sinister sort of beauty to it. The Charms classroom is nearly the reverse, bright and wooden and polished, smelling faintly like fresh popcorn and lined with teetering stacks of bound parchment. The Greenhouses are beautiful too, burnt orange bricks lined with vibrant green weeds, gnarled tables bowing under the weight of strange, colourful plants, and vein-like vines spreading up across the grubby glass ceiling panes in a way that always casts the sunlight into dappled streams. Thereās something to love about every classroom the castle, but thereās one that you love most of all.
Transfiguration isnāt necessarily your best class, and Dumbledore isnāt necessarily your favourite teacher, and yet walking into his classroom fourth period on Tuesdays and first period on Fridays never fails to make you smile like nothing else can. Itās not so much the classroom itself that you love, but rather where in the classroom your desk sits. Itās in the back row, first on the left from the door.
Because that just so happens that, in second period on Wednesdays and fifth period on Mondays, Tom Riddle sits down at the very same desk.
Professor Dumbledore likes to ask questions with two correct answers so that even when you answer correctly, he can still be a little bit more correct than you, youād written absently one day on a scrap of parchment. Youād rolled the scrap between your fingers until it was a twig-thin scroll and discarded it into the inkwell of your desk when the bell rang, forgotting about it completely until the following Tuesday. Perhaps you would have missed it if you hadnāt remembered the note, leaning forward to check if it was still there. Youād not been expecting much but your brows had raised in surprise when youād caught sight of a little square of very yellowed parchment sitting in the bottom of the well, nondescript and folded along perfectly aligned edges.
Youād pulled it out quickly, replacing it with your ink pottle and sitting back without anyone noticing ā though you hadnāt had a chance to open the note until Dumbledore turned his back to write up a very long explanation of the dormant life potential of live creatures transformed into inanimate objects.
Youād pulled the square note from under your textbook and unfolded each razor-sharp margin to reveal a single sentence written in an alluring slanted script.
And in this practice, is it Dumbledoreās intention to challenge his students or to insist on retaining the intellectual high ground?
There had been a strange exhilaration to it. Someone had actually found your absent thought, someone had taken the time to indulge in writing out a reply. Your response, which youād left folded up, flat, and covert in the bottom of the inkwell just like the stranger, had read;
Conscious or subconscious?
It had been at the forefront of your thoughts walking to class that Friday, your heart skipping a beat when youād peeked into the ink well as youād sat down and found another yellowy square of parchment.
Your implication is not lost on me.
Your excitement had dwindled, your smile slowly fading. It wasnāt much to reply to. Fearing that the close-ended comment had been a subtle request to end the strange exchange, youād left the inkwell empty when the bell had rung, and an entire month had passed before youād scribbled out another note to the stranger in a fit of boredom.
This class is 30% people trying to impress Dumbledore, 5% Dumbledore actually being impressed, 15% him saying the phrase ānow Iām sure the problem here immediately presents itself,ā 20% an unhinged monologue, and 30% watching the guy next to me create monstrosities that defy imagination out of common household items
And there it was. A reply waiting for you three days later as if the month-long silence had never occurred.
Youāve left very little allowance for actually practicing Transfiguration in those calculations. Perhaps Dumbledore would be more impressed if his students spent less class time writing to strangers and more time paying attention to his unhinged monologues.
Which had made you retort with a sarcastic accusation that they, too, were spending class time writing to strangers, and then theyād replied with an equally sarcastic invitation to compare grades, and that had been that. A reply waiting for you in every single Transfiguration class, not a single one missed, each note growing a little longer until you started to wonder what would happen if one of the other students who sat at that desk took a peek into the inkwell by chance between your conversations.
You hadnāt had any idea exactly who youād been writing to until one fateful Wednesday when, after realising a little too late that youād left your textbook sitting beneath your desk the previous day, you dashed back to the Transfiguration classroom during break to retrieve it. The double doors were open, the previous class was still filing out, Dumbledore calling after them about the upcoming due date for the very same essay heād assigned you yesterday.
You wait for the crowd to clear a little, craning your head around the door to see if you can pre-emptively spot your book on the ground under your desk when you catch sight of the person still sitting there. At that moment heās placing a tidy stack of notes into a simple black folder and sliding it into his bag, head bowed to his task and leaving you to stare quite freely at his very striking profile. You watch frozen as Tom Riddle stands, slings his bag over his shoulder, leans forward, and in a fluid series of very nonchalant motions, picks up a capped pottle of ink and drops a small cleanly folded square of parchment into the empty inkwell in its stead. He turns and steps through the door into the corridor as he stows his ink in his bag, looking up curiously when he notices you standing there motionless.
You stare at him, coming to terms with the impossible realisation that apparently, youāre very good friends with Riddle, the jewel in Slughornās crown, most likely to be Minister for Magic before 40, and current record holder for number of Outstanding O.W.L.s in Hogwarts history. Plus thereās the whole thing about him being catastrophically gorgeous.
Tom has paused in front of you, expression polite but with a definite hint of amusement as he clicks his bag shut. āAre you quite alright?ā he asks, lips just barely quirking.
āYes,ā you say hastily, turning for the door and leaning down to seize your book off the ground where youād left it. āI forgot my book,ā you mutter as you pass him with averted eyes, hoping itās enough of an explanation to write off your slightly erratic behaviour as you try to flee the scene.
āWe sit at the same desk,ā he calls after you.
Itās your turn to hesitate. When you looked over your shoulder heās still standing there, lips still quirked, a glint in his eyes that makes you suspect that heās already put two-and-two together. Ā
āThough you already knew that,ā Tom continues, head tilting back a little as he smiles.
āI just found out,ā you say, waving a little sheepishly at the door.
He turns to you, striding closer with intimidating ease and his smile visibly growing as he watches your eyes widen ā but he moves straight past you with nothing more than a single quiet comment in your ear, lilted with humour. āI await your reply.ā
You donāt tell anyone. Not even your friends. Everyone is in love with Tom and you canāt help but suspect that things would quickly get out of hand if anyone found out that youāve been in close correspondence with him for the past four months, even if you hadnāt technically known it yourself. And things had already become hard enough now that you knew who was reading the notes you left, and whose hand was penning his replies.
You try very hard not to think about it too much, you try not to wonder if he smiles when you write something funny, if he looks forward to your answers to his questions, if he thinks about the notes outside of class like you do. Maybe heās just bored. Maybe heās just messing with you. Maybe it had been the anonymity heād liked about the interactions, and now heās just humouring you.
Itās useless. Youāve been wondering who was on the other end of the notes since the beginning, wondering exactly which of your peers is made up of this striking mix of shrewd humour, clear intelligence, and measured charisma, and itās very, very hard to continue as if things are normal once you know that itās him.
Itās not really that surprising that he evidently noticed your replies shortening, becoming steadily more stilted and less familiar as your nerves get the better of you ā though youād hardly expected him to be so blunt in pointing it out, and you definitely hadnāt anticipated how heād apparently been interpreting your distance.
Were you disappointed that it was me?
You reread Tomās note countless times. It lies open and looming at the head of your desk for half the lesson as you try very hard to focus on the class to no avail.
Is this seriously what heās been thinking? Is it a joke? Is it supposed to be so clearly ridiculous that youāre supposed to understand it as just his way of coaxing the real answer out of you?
You write out your reply, knowing itās the overly cautious way forward but unable to bear the thought of misinterpreting him.
What do you mean?
In the three days before you get his answer, you find yourself actively avoiding any situation in which you might see him ā you attend meals at peak hours to get lost in the crowd, you avoid the library like youāll disintegrate if you set a foot inside, and you donāt dare stray near the 6th floor on Saturday when you know for a fact that Slughorn is hosting some poncy get-together in his office.
When you finally sit down on Tuesday at your desk, you donāt even pretend to pay attention to Dumbledore starting the class at the front of the room. You seize the yellow parchment square from the inkwell and hastily flatten it on your desk.
Iāve noticed that youāve been somewhat different since we met. Iām sorry if you were disappointed to learn of my identity, if youād like to retire our correspondence I promise to let it go gracefully.
Your eyes widen. You pick up the tidy little square and hold it a little closer, barely believing what youāre seeing.
The parchment bears tiny little ink marks, the faded ghosts of letters adjacent to the pitch black carefully constructed script of his insane note. You could just barely make out some of the words ā reserved, one of them seems to say, apologies, says another, a couple more faint letters here and there but nothing else you can properly decipher.
Itās heart-wrenchingly obvious what the marks are.
Tom must have drafted the note at least once before leaving this final version for you, his ink bleeding through onto the parchment below.
Dumbledoreās open hand suddenly appeared in front of you and you jump out of your skin, looking up with burning cheeks and a thundering heart. āNote-passing is not tolerated in my classroom Iām afraid,ā Dumbledore says kindly, ānow please hand it over, and content yourself with note-taking for the remainder of our lesson.ā
You crumple up Tomās note into a ball over the snickers of the rest of the class, placing it in Dumbledoreās hand and ducking your head in embarrassment as people cast looks your way from all over the room. Dumbledore nodded and made his way back to the front of the classroom, and you try to ignore the way people were still giggling at you.
Tom had drafted the note. Heād drafted it.
Itās this more than anything heād actually written that makes you consider actually answering him honestly.
When everyoneās attention finally slides away from you and Dumbledore is helping a trio of boys at the front of the class with their Augor charms, you surreptitiously tear off a scrap of parchment. You carefully write out your reply, hoping that Tom doesnāt pay half as much attention to your handwriting as you do his. If he did, he might notice that your lettering is a little more shaky than usual.
I wasnāt disappointed at all, Tom, kind of the opposite. You just make me nervous.
You fold it very hastily just to get your own nearly-confession out of your sight before you second-guess yourself, slipping it underneath your ink pottle. Your heartās beating too fast considering nothingās actually happened yet.
It takes all of twenty minutes after class ends for you to regret being so honest. You have to force yourself not to go back and retrieve your note before Tomās lesson the following day, dreading someone seeing you and demanding an explanation. Instead, you throw yourself into a series of distractions that are almost successful in keeping your mind off your square of parchment sitting in that little wooden nook waiting for Tomās elegant fingers to lift it from its hiding place.
You donāt know what the hell to expect when you sit down on Friday, but nothing could have prepared you for what you found in your inkwell when you leaned forward.
Nothing.
Absolutely nothing.
You sit back, stomach sinking so hard your throat closes up like youāre about to be sick. Itās the first time in half a year heās not left you a reply.
It had been really stupid to read into those marks, heād probably just been writing notes for class overtop of the note. It had been really stupid to read into any of this, now that you think about it. You drop your ink pottle into the well, jaw tight, wishing you werenāt this disappointed.
Thereās nothing there the following Tuesday either, the nook sits empty and dusty and silent. When Friday comes and thereās still no note you start to accept with grim, hard-to-swallow shame that your confession hasnāt gone unanswered at all. The silence is his answer.
Maybe it had been a ruse after all. Maybe heād lost all interest in the game when heād found out youāre just like everyone else in the school, harbouring feelings for him. You have no trouble coming up with increasingly mortifying reasons for his silence over the week that follows, and Ā you very quickly come to the resolute decision that you need to put the entire ordeal out of your head ā clearly Tom already had.
Youāre winding your way back to your common room after a late night finishing Slughornās assignment on the ethics of using fairy blood when you hear the footsteps.
Someone was running somewhere nearby, echoing through the vaulted stone ceilings and airy corridors, and you pause at the corner looking around curiously as the footsteps seem to be getting much, much louder. You jump back a bit as Tom suddenly skids to a stop in front of you.
You blink at him, stunned. His normally pale face is flushed, the black waves of his hair slightly stuck to his forehead, his lips parted and heās breathing hard, his tie askew and his usually perfect robes hanging slightly off one shoulder. Heās leaning forward a little, squinting at you as he tries to catch his breath.
āTom,ā you say in utter astonishment.
āHe just gave it to me,ā Tom says through hard breaths, lifting a small scrap of paper in his hand that, with a feeling much like being impaled through the stomach with a large icicle, you instantly recognise as your note. āDumbledore.ā
āDumbledore just gave you my note?ā you ask dumbly, still very bewildered by his appearance.
Tom nods. āI went to ask him some questions, about some of the comments he left on my essay,ā he manages to say, his dark brows pulling together and his chest still rising and falling a little more than usual. āAnd afterwards, he asked if I recognised this.ā
You find yourself wishing violently Dumbledore had thrown the thing out. āHe caught me reading yours the other day,ā you mutter, holding your books a little tighter to your chest and looking away. āHe must have seen me hide it.ā
āHe just gave it to me,ā Tom repeats, holding it out a bit more.
āWell he may be a little unhinged but heās still pretty sharp,ā you quip, turning your shoulders away and hoping he takes the hint and lets you leave. āIām not surprised he knew it was for you, I suppose he recognised your handwriting in the first one āā
āYou donāt have to be nervous,ā Tom interrupts loudly.
You go very still, staring at him again. Tomās lips press together, and he finally lowers the note.
āI just wanted to tell you,ā he adds with a slight frown, and if this wasnāt Tom Riddle you would have sworn that there was something almost awkward in the way he averts his gaze from yours.
āDid you run here?ā you ask suddenly, even though the answer is very obviously yes.
Tomās uncomfortable look intensifies, and you watch him shift slightly on his feet with a mixture of deep gratification and a sudden bursting fondness so intense you feel a smile appear on your lips.
āHow did you know I was here?ā you add curiously, turning back to him.
āI saw you when I was in the library earlier,ā Tom says quickly, sliding the note into the pocket of his trousers like heās hoping you somehow wonāt notice. āI thought I might still catch you.ā
You nod slowly. Tomās eyes are now flicking between yours and the smile on your lips like heās trying to figure out exactly what this combination of emotions means and someoneās timing him to do so.
āWell,ā you say after a long second, taking a step back down the corridor and savouring the sight of him standing there with his ruined hair and dishevelled uniform before you have to turn away. āI await your reply.ā
He nods wordlessly, watching you retreat, and you bite back your smile as you force your eyes off him and hurry away.
Maybe youād been a little too harsh on Dumbledore after all.
A need ā”ā”
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Guess who woke up with an eye almost swollen shut for no discernable reason????
except you did date them but it was in middle school but they were literally one of the best friends you ever had and even after they clearly couldn't stick to dating one person alone and you had to break up with them you were still each others perfect complement and continue to be so but they're a bad person who cheats and lies and manipulates but they're soft with you but you know it isn't real but kind of wonder if it is because they haven't changed around you since middle school and you're forever a little flirty and in love with each other and every time you talk you're best friends again but because it was middle school nobody lets you count it as a real relationship because you're young adults now and you let it slide because you hate them but you also don't and can't and never will and they're so mean to you but really they aren't they just call you out on your bullshit and you do the same thing but they have a lot more bullshit than you and you just really, really deeply in your soul know that they will never ever be a good person for you and refuse to heal from what hurt them and also kind of enjoy being a bad person who takes from people but when you're with them they're eleven again. And so are you. And you're wearing unicorn leggings and they're complimenting said leggings and they think you're the funniest, prettiest, most enthralling and intelligent and talented person they've ever met and they make sure you always know that and you both secretly always believe you're soulmates but awkwardly dance around that concept just like you did when you were eleven and twelve and awkwardly dancing around like-liking each other and you know they would always come back to you and you'd like to let them but value yourself too much to let them and sometimes, actually most times, you wonder if being with them could possibly hurt as much as being without them. And you know it would and all of your friends would be so mad at you and you'd be so humiliated and the only one who would understand would be your mom who went through the same thing and the only thing that stopped the feeling for her is that he fucking died and they have birthdays two days apart and you wonder if the universe is throwing round two at you and goddammit you wish you were eleven again and sharing a phone with your brothers and frantically saying goodnight while your oldest brother stands in your doorway looking pissed off and you hold their hand in the bleachers the next morning but pretend you aren't into it but you're still holding their hand anyway when you decide you're better of as friends and you still held their hand freshman year in history class because the lecture was boring and they let you color their bracelet in highlighters and told your shitty mean friends about it but they didn't get it and asked why you'd want to date someone you talked so much shit about and you say that you don't but that they haven't changed a bit and you miss how you feel with them and how you understand each other and you still make sly eye contact in sophomore year biology even when you date their best friend that sucked so bad he made you think you only liked girls and you still chose to sit behind them in psychology junior year and talk every day and let them pick your brain and laughed with them at lunch and let them take pictures of you so they could post them on your birthday but they never did because they had another girlfriend that they were cheating on again and you also watched them every day in english that year and were so happy to be in groups with them and you still drew them in your free time and you still watched them in english again your senior year because they looked so beautiful and had grown so much and were so confident now and you still dedicated an entire painting to them in your art class that nobody actually knew the meaning of. But I guess you never dated for real.
Thinking about horrible sad beige houses and how much nicer they could be if people would accept NOVELTY
Oh?? My God????
I had Depressed Cowgirl Electropop Afternoon, whatever the fuck that means. It was just like, murder country and two Cascada songs
what the FUCK is this supposed to mean, Spotify ??????
New job is so slow on fridays that I always get so tired after lunch. I have to wait till my 2nd 15 to take a nap tho ššš
It's okay y'all I'm dating the Aquarius now and he's the person I thought the last one was in so many ways I'm pretty sure I just got sent a wink from the universe
"Don't assume that just because you'd like to be with me 24/7 and I'm not comfortable with that that you love me more than I love you"
That's quite literally exactly what that means???? Like obviously you mean more to me than I do to you??? Like you'll fuck me in your bed but then I'm not allowed to stay in said bed because you need your little wind down time (you are my wind down time) which, of course, doesn't involve me, since I'm just too much for you to relax around. Like what??? What the fuck do you think the point of relationships is. "I'd move in with you right now if I could" No you literally wouldn't????? Like obviously if you can't even handle this you'll never be able to settle down with someone! Except, no, you just won't be able to settle down with me. It's not that you don't like people in your space when you're having peaceful time, it's that you don't like me in your space. And the right girl will come along and you'll want to be with her 24/7 and god I hope she doesn't want anything to do with you. And if she does I hope I never hear anything about it. The physical intimacy is just fine, sure, but emotionally it's just too much. Your lifestyle just doesn't allow it. Don't you know what that means to me?? I TOLD him what he was getting into when I agreed to be physical. Like I told you that it would change how I felt about things and it was another level of closeness and if he didn't feel the same about that then he needed to just leave me the fuck alone but nooooo. This is so exhausting. I hope he finds someone that he actually wants to be around and I hope I never, ever have to see anything about it. I hope I don't make it past twenty if it isn't with him.
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