If I Get Too Close, And I'm Not How You Hoped, Forgive My Northern Attitude, Oh I Was Raised Out In The

he did WHAT

kudos to Ncuti Gatwa to be the first doctor who to say Yas Queen, to an actual litteral queen

14th doctor headcannons: ANGST EDITION (because let's be real he's not the most mentally-stable of time-lords)

TW for panic attacks and just general angst - stay safe <3

he has the 'I could've done something to prevent it, therefore it's my fault' mentality for almost everything bad that has happened throughout their adventures

he's only now just starting to realise that he's not to blame for absolutely all of it (he's been told that it's not his fault countless times by practically every companion he has)

they despise feeling helpless or being told they can't do anything to help people

had a panic attack when UNIT was told by the UN not to 'interfere' with the construction of a British nuclear testing facility even though it was highly unstable

15 minutes later he went back in time and prevented its approval, of course

tends to go non-verbal during panic attacks (you can tell he's reached the tipping point when he stops trying to talk his way out of a situation)

Donna prompted him to start learning ASL to help them communicate when he has panic attacks

they start having little ASL conversations during boring UNIT meetings that she drags him to (they bicker like siblings)

he tries to avoid sleeping as much as possible since he has really vivid nightmares, usually about his past companions

on really bad nights he sneaks into the TARDIS and flies to a random nebula to watch the stars

sometimes they lose track of time staring at the sky for hours until Donna has to send the other doctor to find him

on those nights, the two doctors tend to sit together in silence for a while, heads resting against each other in quiet reassurance

he dissociates a lot more than his previous versions

sometimes multiple times in a conversation, especially if it's a conversation about things he'd rather forget

his friends have gotten real good at bringing him back (most of them have years of practice at this point) but River Song was always the best at it

which makes it hurt all the more when he finally feels someone tapping gently at his shoulder or calling his name and he looks around to see where his wife is

only to remember that she's not here

he doesn't cry very often - he's more likely to scream or kick something or go into problem solving mode then he is to cry

but occasionally, despite their best efforts to keep moving forward, keep running, they think about all the people that they've lost, all the lives they've ruined, all the companions they couldn't save and they can't stop the tears from flowing

...

he's so very old now

he's so very tired

GO for a picnic

As promised, here's the fic I wrote to celebrate the 35th anniversary of Good omens, for the GO for a picnic theme.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/65464063/chapters/168492133

Happy reading, and happy anniversary!

songs from my ineffable husbands playlist <3

From Eden (Hozier): Honey, you're familiar, like my mirror years ago; idealism sits in prison, chivalry fell on its sword; Innocence died screaming, honey ask me, I should know; I slithered here from Eden just to sit outside your door.

Northern Attitude (Hozier + Noah Kahan): if you get too close, and I'm not how you hoped, forgive my northern attitude, oh I was raised out in the cold...

Love of my life (Queen): Love of my life, you've hurt me...you've broken me down, and now you leave me...

Do I wanna know? (Hozier cover): Crawling back to you...every thought of calling when you've had a few? cause I always do...

Little talks (Of monsters and Men): So wait, wait, wait for me, please hang around, I'll see you when I fall asleep...

First Love/Last Spring (Mitski): And I don't wanna go home yet...let's walk to the top of the big night sky...so please hurry, leave me, I can't breathe, please don't say you love me...

Atlantis (Seafret): I can feel it coming down, and in my heart and in my head, tell me why this has to end...my Atlantis, I can't save us...

Daylight (David Kushner): Oh I love it and I hate it at the same time...you and I drink the poison from the same vine...hiding all of our sins from the daylight...

Good old fashioned lover boy (Queen): Does this one even need explanation?

making this made me realise just how angsty my good omens playlists are T_T

the American revolution: they were both convinced the British were going to win and now refuse to talk about it again.

Aziraphale and Crowley meet throughout the ages because of special occasions.

It's almost inevitable, given the events that they cross paths. So here's my question: on what other occasions have they potentially crossed paths?

omg this is adorable THANK YOU

Hi :D

kinda random ask but: your username is 'stoat on toast'...could you draw a stoat on toast? bonus points if it's cute and bonus bonus points if drawing it makes you happy :)

two sleepy boys

(it did :))

what if Anathema's aura seeing ability was also a really good gaydar

not anathema clocking them immediately omg😭😭

this is so precious what

when the thousand year old stone tablets write better fics than you T_T

just found fanfic written on clay tablets in cuneiform and then the pictures were uploaded to ao3 the good omens fandom is insane

shoutout to Ncuti Gatwa, gotta be one of my favourite genders

doctor who is a show about putting ncuti gatwa in outfits