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9. does your tc drink or smoke?
He drinks :) there’s a pub down the road from my school and on some Friday nights (before lockdown) he would go with his friends to the pub and drink. Others have seen him there a couple of times as well haha
9. Has your tc ever told you about their personal life?
Yup bits and bobs.
Well do you?? 🥺
i hope i frustrate you and you think about me a lot
My tc told me off today in the middle of a corridor (not in lesson :/ ) and now I feel like shit. He was accusing me of skipping a lesson basically because he saw me walking around. He kept being like ‘Did you go?’ And I kept saying that I did and he was like then why did I see you walking around with E and I was repeatedly like ‘I still went though, I’m not lying’. I was literally about to cry like I think he could tell I was getting upset because he was like ‘you’ve got such a good thing going on here don’t let yourself down’ and then he left me alone. I felt like shit, if it was any other teacher I literally wouldn’t have cared but it’s because it was him. Tbh I hate being told off and the fact he was the one telling me off just made it worse, I couldn’t even laugh it off because I care about what he thinks. I kept saying I wanted to get in trouble with him I take it baaack, it’s horrible. Apparently his week’s been quite stressful though so maybe that’s what it was?? Because when I went to see him later to collect some work he was quite cold then as well siiigh, idk if I can do this whole having a tc thing. 🥺
I went to give in my essay today so we talk for a bit about it and then he goes ‘I wish everyone could be as proactive as you but don’t tell everyone about doing this because then it’d be too much for me to get through, if it’s just you it’s fine’ I was buzzing tbh. Later on I go ‘I just want to apologise as well because I probably should have given it in before the half term so you’d have the time to mark it, but that’s due to my own being unorganised’ he replies with ‘don’t ever apologise for giving in extra work, I’ll find the time’ he’s honestly so sweeeet like the way he said it makes me feel like I should never apologise for anything ever again to him, it was lowkey overwhelming. I then asked ‘Am I distracting??’ and he seemed to be thinking really hard about this and struggling to come up with an answer so I expanded and said ‘like in lesson would you say I’m disruptive, I just wanna know so I can be more self-aware’ he said that it wasn’t necessarily me but the girls on my table (E + J haha I mentioned them before) saying how he was going to implement a seating plan, obviously I don’t want to move because they’re my friends so I literally go ‘noooo pleaseeee don’t Sir’ begging like a fucking child, it worked though. He says he was going to give it one more week, now this wasn’t enough for me and I say ‘how about we make an agreement (he was very amused at this point) if we’re good next week we can stay in the same places’, ‘okay fine, fine’ he says and I’m just smiling uncontrollably because everything was in harmony again. We joked a bit more before I left but I realised that I’d gone without wishing him a good weekend so I quickly popped my head past the door and said ‘happy weekend!’ The confrontation was great tbh, if anything maybe this is a platonic infatuation I have for him, is that a thing?? (if not, I’m making it a thing now lmao) I can acknowledge he’s attractive but honestly I just want to be close to him (like close friends). Also I forgot to ask for his birthday, also also, it was easier to talk to him because he normally shares his office with other teachers but when I went to see him he was the only one there so that was a plus.
One day he was handing out sheets and I’m like ‘thank you’ and he whispers ‘that’s alright’ so so sweetly. He continued round (I sit right at the front) and I made sure to listen out as other people said thank you but he didn’t say anything back to them. Aaaah, this is literally fucking with my heart, because I’m probably, most likely overthinking it haha.