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One of the best things about college to me is just showing up early to get a good seat away from people and pick where I sit. I love being able to sit away from the flickering bright white lights that loom over the students, yet being able to sit away from windows and distractions that might interfere with my studies. With all these great things soon comes misery though...the seat I pick always ends up having someone trying to sit near me so I have to set my backpack on the chair next to me and sit in the corner if possible. I fear people might think I'm rude, but the noises of others clicking away on computers, talking to their neighbors, smells, and any small noises or motions they make just tend to bother my sensory issues. I have severe sensory issues due to my autism and sensory processing disorder so I go into a meltdown almost every time I show up to class. I love school and learning as it's my special interest and always has been. The ability for me to expand my knowledge in any way possible makes me happy and want to flap my hands around. I just wish people were more considerate and I didn't have to wear headphones just to exist in normal environments. School is great, yet extremely hard and I always miss classes sometimes. I tried online school, but it's hard for me to focus and stay attentive in class. I'd rather sleep through it instead which is a huge issue. I don't know, I just feel as if I need to let out some of my issues and get them off my chest in order to sit through this next class. Sorry if I come off as rude, I don't mean to. I just am struggling so much lately to just exist. I want to curl up in a ball and hide away from society until people acknowledge that those with disabilities can and will be in professional settings too so we need to make things to accommodate them.
You know you're overstimulated when you're about to start crying over your pillows being at the wrong angle to sleep.
At summer camp:
- schedule
- three meals every day
- know in advance what I’m gonna do and what I’m gonna eat
Getting home from summer camp
- too much unstructured time
- keep track of time level impossible
- decide what to eat, get ingredients, make food, each food (I sound entitled but it’s genuinely difficult when I look in the cabinets and instead of seeing potentially meals my brain just sees random stuff in boxes)
- wtf do I do all day
Hey, so. Genuine question. Is it Tumblr etiquette to just... message somebody? Like private messaging? Is that allowed? Who can you do it for? Is it people you've already interacted with? People you think are cool?? How I talk to them? Do I just say "Hey, I like your blog"???
The autistic burnout is hitting us hard, how do other autistic people deal with college? bc we are not doing well and need help.
I think it needs to become common knowledge that "inability to read social cues" can show up as overcompensating.
You don't know how much misbehaviour is allowed, so you become the perfect child who never tests rules.
You don't know if someone is irritated with you, so you'll be extra generous and self-effacing.
You don't know how much is expected of you at work so you'll kill yourself in a minimum-wage job and not notice that nobody else is working like this.
"Hardworking and quiet" should be as much of an autism red flag as "ignores rules and doesn't know when to stop talking". Or why don't we just start using words to communicate so i can stop tracking everybody's eyebrow twitches, that would be great.