Andrew Minyard - Blog Posts

they're in love guys trust

andrew, who is hopelessly devoted and desperately in love: i hope you get curbstomped. neil, stupid demisexual who could not have less of a clue and doesn't know what romance is: you just want me to stop asking you questions. too bad. i have to know you, because how else am i ever supposed to know myself? my soul was welded to yours with the heat of my heart the first time you set it on fire. let me in, andrew. that's all i can hope for. can we go play exy

unfortunately i cannot engage in andreil breakup and make up fics because i do not believe in andreil breaking up

I can just imagine the cold running down Andrew's spine as he heard Neil's cell phone ring, but no sign of Neil, just his bag and the phone there on the ground

He knew Neil would never willingly leave his things behind, even with all the chaos, he would never leave his bag there. As the realization Neil was probably taken settled in, Andrew stopped to listen to the lyrics of Neil's ringtone, right as it said

'Runaway train never coming back'

And at that moment Andrew knew his runaway train could really never come back. At this point he could be dead already. The thought almost made his heart stop. Neil was smart, he was a survivor, he could survive, he HAD to survive. Andrew cursed himself for the ringtone he had chosen as a way to spite Neil, but now just felt like another one of life's cruel ironies

'Wrong way on a one-way track'

Andrew tried to remember how to breath as he reminded himself thats how it was always supposed to end, he knew this would happen, it was indeed a one-way track, but...it was so early, so sudden. Why couldn't he have more time?? He thought, not knowing if it was about him, Neil or the both of them

Andrew's chest tightened, as a mist of anger and desperation builded up inside him. He felt like he would burst at any moment. It was like a giant hole had been carved on his chest. After so long feeling nothing, having so many feelings at once made him dizzy.

That was when another realization settled in: it had always been Neil all along. Somehow Andrew was dumb enough to fool himself into thinking he would be able to let go when the time came, that he was in control of the situation and Neil was nothing but a distraction, someone interesting to distract him from the fact his whole life felt like a bore. But it wasnt true anymore and it hadn't been for a long time, maybe it was never really true.

Andrew had indeed gone the wrong way a one way track. He knew how this was gonna end, and still he fell into Neil's gravity and allowed himself to be pushed closer and closer everyday. The phone finally stopped ringing, but the song kept playing on his head like a buzz

He looked around again, hoping to find those clueless stupid blue eyes looking at him, but there was nothing, no one. He felt like if he was falling as he stomach sank. It was right then and there he finally admitted something he already had known for a while: he didn't want to, in fact, he couldnt live without Neil. A world without him was just pure hell. Andrew needed Neil as much as he needed air or water

(This wasnt supposed to be almost a fic, but I got carried away while writing, lol. Forgive me for any mistakes, I typed it on my cellphone and english isnt my first language)

Do you ever think about how Andrew called Neil’s phone after he disappeared, but instead of Neil answering, it’s just ‘Runaway train never coming back’ playing on a loop… or are you normal?

I love the fact that Neil had his ribs broken, Andrew had his collar bone broken and none of them got out of the court crying and screaming

Meanwhile, the little bitch, also known as Riko, tried to commit murder, got his arm broken and had to be carried out of the court while ugly crying and screaming, like the little bitch we all know he is

In sickness and in health, hm?

Kevin at this moment: WHAT ARE YOU BOTH THINKING??? WHAT ABOUT YOUR CAREERS???

*proceeds in a half an hour long rant about how not only their Exy skills, but also their public image is important to make Court(and according to him both of their public images are already damaged enough)

*Neil tells him that if they are already damaged, then there is no problem in making it a little worse

*Andrew tells him to stfu

*Kevin shuts up, looking with discontet at the both of them

Kevin hates them (not really)

At first it was just an andreil sketch

Look, hear me out

What if Neil was the one responsible for Lane's, Winter's and Willian's death

The last time someone gave Jean trouble (Grayson), he simply wiped the guy out

It would be weird if, after doing this for Jean, he just accepted that Winter and Willians tried to kill Andrew and moved on with his life. And even though I dont think he would order a hit on Lane for attacking him, she stopped him from getting to Andrew, which is also unforgivable

The three of them were found dead literally on the same day and they were the only ones to die after the match took place.

The ERC announced that the Ravens were disqualified still on friday. If they were to kill themselfs over it, they would have done it on friday or saturday, but they did on monday

You can call me crazy, but I think our beloved Wesninski Junior attacked again, because I dont see him just accepting waht they did to Andrew, and he definitely would not waste time with proper legal action

the thing about neil and jean is that i very much feel like their relationship is mirrored in andrew & aaron's relationship. the 'misplaced forever partner' vs. 'the brother who was given away.'

the way neil was abused but he was KEPT, he had a mother who gave her life to fight for him vs. jean who was sold and forgotten and abandoned, stripped of his own name and his language, who had to survive riko and the master and the complicated dynamics of being perfect court but also property, who had to navigate the nest and all its horrors and hierarchy completely alone.

aaron who was abused, who was beaten and strung along and neglected, but who his mother came back for vs. andrew who was left behind, who never had a last name, who said 'please' so much at seven he can't stand the sound of the word at 21, who was willing to carve pieces from himself for the promise of a scrap of family.

andrew and aaron made a deal and hated each other for it. jean and neil were each others partners - your failure is my failure, your success is my success. andrew, who killed aaron's mother when he found out she was beating him, to hold up his end of the deal. jean, who held neil down to be carved, but who patched him up again after.

aaron, who killed his brother's rapist. and neil who did the same

I haven't seen anyone commenting on this, but did yall noticed Kevin and Andrew were sharing the SAME bag for their LA trip???

Like, they brought one single carry-on, with all of their things for the trip on it (probably with their cloths kind of mixed in there too)

Andrew Minyard, who is super protective of his space and things, is out here sharing a bag with Kevin Day

Nora, please, don't make me dream

I will collapse, Im not joking

God, I live off the crumbs that Nora gives and I still beg for more

Riko spent his free time obsessing over Kevin

Nora confirmed he watched the first time Kevin had sex(he chose the girl) and the first time he had sex with Thea (absolutely not weird at all)

The other way he spent his free time was torturing Jean and also obsessing with him, to the point he noticed Jean liked man just bc of the way he looked at Kevin (I mean, why are you looking so much at the both of them???)

When Neil was in Evermore, part of the torture included cuffing him shirtless to Kevin's old bed (dude, wtf????)

Riko got mad with the idea of having a queer on his Perfect Court, but somebody should have told this kid the call was coming from inside the house all along

“I will not have queers on my court”

The court in question:

Andrew - gay

Neil - has a gay boyfriend

Jean - bisexual disaster

Jeremy - very gay

Kevin - suppressed sexuality to the point of dissociation

Riko - insane internalized homophobia

One day, while Kevin and Neil are having a heated argument in French on the court one of the freshmen yells:

"Speak English!"

Annoyed by the intrusion, Kevin and Neil share a look and silently decide on malicious compliance.

Neil, though born in America, was raised by his British mother and would use a British accent whenever they spoke English in Europe to blend in.

Kevin is Irish. Born in Ireland, raised by his Irish mother until her untimely death.

They both switch to their 'mother tongues', speaking English but in thick British and Irish accents.

The team can barely understand them. Reprimands and insults are met with confusion. The freshmen are frantic, trying to figure out how to correct their technique when they can only understand every few words. The upperclassmen can't stop laughing, Matt and Allison are trying to repeat some of the words in mock British and Irish accents.

Andrew is in silent turmoil as he discovers a new turn on with an hour of practice still to go.

If that right here isnt a print from the chat between Kevin and Andrew, then Im crazy

This is 100% cannon, it is true, I was the cellphone

Forever a Kandreil shipper

But also, it is important to note that, independently of any romantic feelings they might have for each other, Neil and Andrew both care deeply for Kevin

Kevin has become a part of Andrew's considered family. For Andrew, Kevin is his ppl and will always be. If you mess with Kevin, you mess with Andrew. Even after the deals are over (his with Kevin and with Neil), Andrew still takes them to the Court at night, bc those are his ppl, his family.

Neil literally decided to stay on the Foxes because in his own words, between him and Kevin, one of them had to live. He wanted to make sure Kevin would be able to outlive it all, bc he was sure he wouldnt. In the Foxhole Court he says that if something happenned to Kevin, he wouldnt be able to handle receiving the news on the other side of the world, he needed to be there, with him.

Neil was basically the one who convinced Kevin to stop accepting being number 2 when everyone knew he was better then Riko. He cared about Kevin and wanted to see him in his rightful place as the best striker, he could literally not bare to see someone he cared about holding themselfs down.

Both of them in canon have a deep connection with Kevin. The inverse is also true for Kevin, that also deeply cares about them.

Thats why he gets so mad when he sees that Andrew doesnt take Exy seriously, or why he accepted to keep on helping Neil in the Court, even when he found out Neil was basically a living-dead, walking around on borrowed time. Thats also why he made sure Neil knew he would be there if Neil wanted to talk after arriving from Evermore(even though he is terrible at dealing with emotions), or why he didnt want Neil to go in the first place.

Denying how much they care about each other ir absolutely CRAZY. Even if you dont believe there is romantic or sexual attraction (which would mean you are wrong), denying there is at least platonic love between them is just kind of stupid

Very random but I just saw social media posts that were funny but also do not seem to understand how much Neil and Andrew love Kevin (though they are also all cunts to each other) and do not have that underlying care within them and I had to leave and Became Distraught. Back to the kandrew tag with me. When will everyone understand The Love There. That’s their best friend even if you don’t ship kandreil (I will never stop shipping kandreil and do literally like it more than just the two of them alone however. Which is just basic math because then there’s more things I like in there when you add those other dynamics)

kandreil is real till I die and 200 centuries after that!!! also you're right Andrew and Neil are deeply in love with Kevin even if they don't want to cross the line between their weird friendship and even more weird 'nothing'... they do respect Kevin's choice to remain straight... if he'd only made the first move... oh andrew would crash him between his fingers

it's sad ofc that sometimes people see kandreil as a weird thing from drafts or a sexy threesome but honestly we should bring our hopes up and make kandreil great again!! live laugh love kandreil 💋

"Just please let me go" was the most hearbreaking wording choice Nora could have done

It shows everything

First of all how done and tired he is ("just")

Also the "let me go" part: he is not asking only to be left alive, he is asking his father to let him go, let him live his life.

In book one he says that everytime he wakes up he has to remind himself everything is okay bc he always wakes up thinking his father found him and he has to take a few deep breaths and ground himself before starting his day

This has been this boy's life EVERY DAY for NINE YEARS, in other words, this has been his life for about 3.200 days.

This "let me go" isnt just a desperate plea for his life, but it is the plea of a kid who cant stand being afraid, scared and always on the run anymore. It has been NINE YEARS, and Nathan just cant let him go, for NINE YEARS Nathan didnt allow neither him or his mother to really go and he made their lifes a living hell. So what Neil is asking here is to be freed from the nightmare his whole life had always been, because of Nathan

He knows it is not gonna work, but he cant take it anymore. He had been strong for too much time and at that moment, all he wanted to was to live, but really live, not just be alive. And he couldnt do that unless his father letted him go

Another thing that always hurts me about this part is that he had accepted he was gonna die, literally until he saw his father

When it comes to kidnappings you should NEVER allow your kidnappers to take you to a second location. If you get kidnapped and you plan on trying to run, you gotta do it BEFORE you get to the second location. No matter how hard it seems to scape, it will be even harder once you are in the second location. Once you arrive where your kidnappers want you, then it is almost surely game over

Neil probably knew this very well. Like, even my mom taught me that, Mary definitely taught this to him

But even knowing that, when does he decides to try to scape???

Not only when he was already inside his father's house, at his basement (aka: second location), but also when his father arrived (aka: the worst possible time)

And this wasn't a rational decision

When Neil received Lola's call, he accepted he was gonna die that day. He didnt fight it, bc he had already accepted he was gonna be dead before may. Off course, it was earlier then what he wanted it to be, but it felt just like destiny knocking earlier at his door

But then he saw his father and reality hitted, HE WAS GONNA DIE

And at that moment he realized he wasnt fucking ready to go, not now, not this early. There was so much he wanted, most importantly there were the Foxes, he didnt want to leave them, he didnt want to leave Andrew, he wasnt ready. He tought he was, but he wasn't

And thats when he makes his desperate scape attempt and his desperate last plea "just please let me go", that wasnt a plea just for his life. He was asking his father to, after nine years, allow him to be happy, to be safe, to "go". It is the last plea of an abused kid to his abuser. "Just stop abusing me, Just stop obsessing with me. LET ME LIVE"

He knows it wont work, but at this point, after finally finding what to live for, he had to at least try it

If Nathan had found him at the beggining of his first season with the Foxes or while he was still in his HS team, he would have died without letting out a single scream or plea. Bc at that point he was living out of spite. He was living with the hopes he would eventually find what to live for. He had nothing but his pride, and he sure as hell wasnt gonna allow Nathan to take it from him.

But when Baltimore happens, he had found what to live for, his wildest hopes became true, he had what to live for. He realizes it when he finally sees his father after all this time. So at that point, fuck his pride, the Foxes were more important then that. So he begs. Knowing it will fall on death ears, but the life he had built for himself was way too important for him to not try. Nathaniel, the kid raised to endure all sorts of pain and scape from an entire mafia, would never beg shit to his father. But the Foxes had humanized him, so at that moment he does what any other human would do: he asks for his life. There, it was the first time In the whole series Neil does something remotely similar to what a 19 years old would (and even so, he still kept a certain composure). And that was when Neil Josten finally buried Nathaniel Wesninski. He did what Neil would do at that moment, not what Nathaniel would

Anyways, he was just a kid and I hate Nathan so much

I just hope this bastard is burning in hell and having to watch his son heal and live in spite of him

genuinely the most heartbreaking part in aftg like out of the whole series is at the end of the kings men when neil snaps and starts begging for his life

like his “please, just let me go, just let me go i’m not—” LIKE UGHHHH

to me it really emphasizes just how young he is…like he’s literally only 19 he’s a teenager!!! begging for his life!!!! (after trying so hard to save face in front of lola in the car it didn’t even matter in the end bc fuck i’m about to die)

and also just the parallel with andrew and his hatred in the word, that he also said please and it didn’t work

(and the fact that he probably also came to a point where he knew it wouldn’t work but he had to try and beg anyways bc there’s no way out he has no other options he has nothing to gain but nothing to lose either just please let me go—)

Aaron Minyard🤝Neil Josten🤝"dead man dont rape"

And I love them for it

It’s so funny that Aaron has killed a man. Bro really said “I haven’t taken the Hippocratic oath yet, motherfucker” and concaved a rapist’s skull.

Neil has a talent for making Andrew having to admit exactly what he is trying to avoid

"that doesn't mean i wouldn't blow you" is an iconic confession for a lot of reasons but i love that andrew obviously picked his wording so so carefully there to avoid admitting any feelings involved and then neil's demisexual ass just totally bypasses that and he responds saying "you like me." WHICH IS EXACTLY WHAT ANDREW WAS TRYING TO AVOID ADMITTING.

the biggest act of love Andrew has ever done for Neil I think it’s when Neil was too much hurt to shower and he helped him. When he covered his bandages to not get them wet and he helped him out of his clothes and took his time to clean him. When he says “you’re a mess” so fondly, so caring, without being mean or without making him feel bad about it. You know what they say when two people are getting married, “in sickness and in health”, Andrew is such a great lover. The way he was consistent with his care, when Neil was hurt and when Neil was okay. I hold this pages of the kings men so close to my heart. Cause Andrew did so well, even though he went insane at the notion of losing Neil, in his craziness, he was perfect at taking care of him, at grounding him, gifting him matching armbands, cause he understands and he knows how does it feel to have scars and to not want them to be shown to others, the stares, the quiet condescending, the questions, the judging, the fake compassion. He knows it all and he never wants Neil to feel it too. When he let him stay in the shower, when he first let Neil see him so vulnerable when all the other time he couldn’t and he always wanted Neil out of the room, when he scrubbed him dry and when he wore Neil’s clothes in front of everyone, without a care in the world, when he opened the snack for him cause he couldn’t, when he prepared drinks for him at their holiday and let him chill a little bit, when he put his hand under Neil’s pillow. How I love him. How I cherish their love.