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I'm three pages into loveless AND ALICE
ALICE WHEN I CATCH YOU ALICE
Happy birthday Michael Holden
Reid Reading Solitaire by Alice Oseman
Possible spoilers below
I never thought I would identify with a character as strong as I do with Tori Spring. I've never thought I could be anyone who matters to someone, and I still don't now, even with the friends I've found after growing up learning how to be on my own, especially when second-guessing everything you feels like it's all you ever do. The backpack chapter reasonated with me, every time I get overwhelmed, I make a decision completely blown out of proportion to make something feel right about me, to stop the panic and racing thoughts.
Then there's overthinking what to say, around family and friends and strangers, what to feel, what your morals are and what separates you from your intrusive thoughts. Every thought you have in conversation is about what other people see in you and how you relate to the conversation in the slightest, making you aware you're such a bloody narcissist. Contradicting yourself often, which confuses everyone else and frustrates you the most. But while those people contradict themselves, you feel both the confusion and frustration, almost for the other person.
You try to keep it all down then, because while you know have everything, you feel like you need more. You can't believe it, you're already trying to earn what you have now, what else could you possibly want?
And then there is wondering, about the "why" when you want something. Why do you want it if the cost is too risky? What would you do to get it? Why would you work so hard if it might end badly for you?
The contradiction, when you need help, you don't want to be alone, but the company you have doesn't feel like what you need, you feel like a watcher of your own uninteresting life. Second guessing, (do I actually want this?) I don't know what I'm actually going to feel if I get what I think a moment of unexplored comfort would be. Maybe it will be suffocating. Maybe it isn't possible. Maybe I'd ruin it. That's when the wondering goes further.. What about your identity is truly yours? Which pieces have you handpicked from the people in your life, and what is actually inside you that makes you who you are? Maybe you don't want to ever know.
This all being said, the one thing I feel separated myself from Tori Spring's character- was that she doesn't like to read, my little dark heart sank from my body in dismay. I still love her though, enough to breathe through the book in one afternoon.
THE NEW UPDATE- NELLIE’S POV OMFG IM GONNA CRY😭😭💙💛
Thanks for tagging me. It's fun when people include me in these sorts of things. A lot of stuff has happened.
Last Song: Ain't Worried by One Republic (not by choice. It was on the radio. Though I ain't gonna lie it gave me inspiring summer vibes...in August).
Last Show: Rewatched Kuroko no Basket. Lots of thoughts have emerged now that I've glanced into this fandom again. Good for KnB. Bad for other fandoms. Kinda cried about it.
Currently watching: My friend got me watching the Witcher. I have to close my eyes during nude scenes, but for the most part I like it.
Currently Reading: Put everything on pause and am reading Radio Silence by Alice Oseman. I beg everyone, read their writing. If you give a shit about LGBT issues, I suggest you read some actual representation and pick up one of their books.
Tagging (I'm picking at random. Sorry in advance. Don't have to do it if don't want): @pasta-monster-of-death @ami-box @demytasse @fuck-terfs-w-pussy @hihi-jets @jill-makes-art @kufuutarou12 @luciferianslewfoot @crystallilly1991
9 people I want to get to know better !!
got tagged by @evilkaeya!! thank you ♥️♥️♥️
last song: i love it loud by kiss (but ratt’s round and round has been in my head all day)
last show: stranger things ( it has my heart 🥰)
currently watching: I’m rewatching stranger things and crazy ex gf but I’m watching only murders in the building as it releases 🥰
currently reading: little women, heartstopper, rw&rb, henna wars, and a ridiculous amount of fic (yes that’s a lot but yes I’m having fun)
tagging 9 mutuals (seriously 0 pressure only do it if you want to ♥️ you all): @primeguardian @karenwheelerlegendbehaviour @hawkinsp0st @w1llb7ers @bylrlvr @chartreuse-goose @deanismysavior @gaysdontcry @midnightmoon27 & any other mutuals/followers who wanna do it ♥️
I wish Universe City was a real podcast :(
“A smile that said ‘Can I get you a cup of tea?’ and eyes that said “I will burn everything you love.” - Frances describing Carol Last
It’s ironic because Carol burned everything Carys loved
Me: I am a perfectly normal mentally stable person
Mind: Aren’t you reading Marauders fanfictions at 1 am in a dark room with a huge stuft animal?
Me: Moving on!
ALL HEARTSTOPPER AND MARAUDERS FANS COME HERE
Regulars Black and Sirius are so Carys and Aled: Sirius left home because of an abusive parent and so did Carys, Aled was trying to get through to his siblings and so did Regulus, and last reason, when the ‘disappointing’ sibling leaves the parent(s) turn on them
Alice Oseman could step on me and I would say thank you
*Charlie walks into form*
Form teacher: Ahh I see, you Charlie are sitting next to Tao Xu
*Charlie walks past Nick to Tao’s place*
Directed by Alice Oseman
I’m 98% sure almost everyone on in app is LGBTQ
What keyboard faces discribe Heartstopper characters
Charlie= :\
Nick= ^^
Tao= :0
Elle= :p
Tara= :)
Darcy= :>
Sahar= :-)
Aled/Issac= :3
Imogen= :D
NOT MINE
there sooo cuteee oml
i love heartstopper.
Oh to have what Micheal and Tori have
Tori Spring HCs
Her first crush ever was for Michael, she never developed feelings for anyone before him
She started to use her Older Sister Magic (✨) when she was a Year 7
She never leaves anywhere without her things (her things being her laptop, her diet lemonade, and Michael)
She ALWAYS pulls Michael away with her whenever they're around large groups of people (like during Charlie's birthday party)
Though she never thinks much of her appearance, she actually considers herself kinda beautiful (like a ghost)
Her favorite Radiohead song is Creep, which reminds her of Michael
Her favorite movie is Return of the Jedi (1987).
Her favorite Star Wars character is R2-D2.
She only smiles in very rare circumstances, for example when Michael is being cute
She considers Michael her partner in crime
She gets very flustered when she sees Michael skating, she just loves how good he looks in his gear that she just want to snuggle him 🥺
She sometimes dyed her diet lemonade black
Michael sometimes pets Tori on the head and calls her a cute little black cat, to which she replies: "Why, thank you. My Golden Retriever."
Tori and Michael give off such Black Cat and Golden Retriever energy all the time. They're always following each other.
I know Tori canon Ace Aro-spec, and she's also heteroromantic, but I also see as being demiromantic, as it took a while for her feelings for Michael to develop in Solitaire
Me core
Could this be anymore TRUE?!!!!
If you want to take this quiz: https://uquiz.com/quiz/CLm4x5?p=3510675
YAYAY
Happy 10 years since solitaire came out holy shit, this book really changed my life
What are you more excited for Heartstopper season 3 or Heartstopper Volume 6?
so true
"i promise i'm fine!!"
Somebody please ask me stuff
RADIO SILENCE
what's a book you think everyone should read at least once?
oooh i have a few let’s see….
1. radio silence
2. radio silence
and uhhh
3. hmmm radio silence
i just really love radio silence ok. it’s a game changer it altered my brain chemistry
LOL SO REAL
Literally me this weekend as I consume the new clip, write fanfic, update my fanfic, and read fanfic. ALL HEARTSTOPPER ALL THE TIME!!!!! ✨
