zhylik

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(tiktoker voice) disco elysium is a cozy game about a detective finding his way in a new society. you can read cozy book, have warm drinks, and even visit historical sites. and most importantly, remember your lost love. this game is a 9/10 for me, the atmosphere is adorable and i love how you can customize your character. have fun, cozy gamers ! <3

please just let me go

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tears and saints, e.m. cioran

Tracey Emin, My Dead Body - A Trace Of Life, 2024, London

Love, On Its Way Out.

Two Week Notice, Leanna Firestone | Tonight I Can Write The Saddest Lines, Pablo Neruda | Conversations Over Sanguinaccio Dolce, I.B. Vyache | Seaside Improvisation, Richard Siken | Stick Season, Noah Kahan | I never went to that movie at 12:45, Dolly Lemk | In a Dream You Saw a Way To Survive, Clementine von Radics | Quote by Kate McGahan | Pillow Thoughts, Courtney Peppernell | Bluets, Maggie Nelson

(This isn't prompted by my real life so much as it is my love for that first song and also. blorbos.)

i do love listmaking…

New York City ballet production of Midsummer Nights Dream

when you first moved in with me, you got a new vase. i’ll buy you flowers and we’ll put them there, – you said. for two years it remained empty on the windowsill, covered with a coat of dust.

when you moved out, you left some things behind. the empty vase, a little toy your late mother bought for you when you were a kid, a mug i gifted you for your birthday. things of no importance.

i can see everything a little bit clearer now. you never cared for little things – not really.

i think i’m going to buy some flowers for myself.

what am i supposed to do if i have this gift of understanding people and empathizing with them but also a curse of never forgiving and/or forgetting anything ever

posts that make me want to rip my heart out part 5

the longing is killing me

lucille clifton the book of light: “climbing” \ pia brambley

buy me a turmeric latte

the years by alex dimitrov

failed to be more

emily skaja “elegy with sympathy” / bon iver “holocene” / michael carson “untitled” / kaveh akbar “i won’t lie this plague of gratitude” / franny choi “look” / aj hamilton “don’t shoot the messenger”

going through the old childhood photos and making these was kinda therapeutic in a way that if i can’t possibly blame my younger self for all the trauma, why am i blaming myself now?

you're allowed to be messy, you're allowed to fuck up, you can be emotional and stupid and frantic and confusing and weird and any other embarrassing thing. anyone who makes you feel otherwise, or who makes you feel like you're walking on egg shells, like you're doomed if you slip up, they shouldn't be such a big part of your life.

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ ៹ ⁺ 🗡 . ۫ ◌

i've had a dream where i was dating homelander and he was his usual self killing people and stuff but around me he was like a little meow meow or what do people call that guy from succession kendall jenner or smth anyways why did my brain decide to be like that it's fucking diabolical

sullen girl, fiona apple/a pearl, mitski

old vent art inspired by my favorite songs

my favorite love language is trying, actually

asleep by the smiths // fireworks by mitski // last words of a shooting star by mitski // carry me out by mitski // guilt tripping by frnkiero andthe cellabration // funeral by phoebe bridgers // unfucktheworld by angel olsen // cigar by tamino // fourth of july by sufjan stevens

there’s a wound running through you and you keep clawing at it

“ask polly: help! i’m the loneliest person in the world!” heather havrilesky // daughter // juansen dizon // valzhyna mort “a song for a raised voice and a screwdriver” // sue zhao @blossomfully // @malewifegirlboss on tiktok // margaret atwood // also amparán “glossary for what you left unsaid” // georges bataille “ecstasy” // sophocles

Hey! I was wondering if you knew more poems about fathers (in relation to having a difficult relationship with one?)

Let Your Father Die Energy Drink by Daniel Lavery and Cecelia Corrigan

Do You Consider Writing to be Therapeutic? by Andrew Grace

Real Estate by Richard Siken

This Be the Verse by Philip Larkin

Backwards by Warsan Shire

My Father's Hands by Dave Harris

Boy and the Belt / Poem to Take the Belt Out of My Dad's Hands by José Olivarez

My Father Writes From Prison by Ocean Vuong

andrew garfield saying, “i hope this grief stays with me because it’s all the unexpressed love that i didn’t get to tell her” about his mothers passing is so gut wrenchingly beautiful because we rarely talk about the love we want to express but can’t, not because you’re not brave enough to say it out loud but because they’re not here to listen to it anymore. calling grief the love you never had the chance to share makes it less of a burden and more of something you want to keep and not something terrible you want to move on from. i love love how everything about grief always comes down to “what is grief if not love persevering?”

not all of it is bad i think….…. we are going to be okay i think.

did its people want too much, too? did its people want too much?

George Sand (Amantine Lucile Aurore Dupin) in her letter to Gustave Flaubert dated 27 June 1870, featured in The George Sand-Gustave Flaubert letters

When I was alive, I aimed to be a student not of longing but of light. ― Maggie Nelson

1. Vincent van Gogh / 2. Alexander Harding / 3. Egon Schiele / 4. open house 1998 / 5. Ocean Vuong / 6. open house 1998 / 7. Leonard Cohen / 8. Alexander Harding / 9. Ocean Vuong / 10. Richard Siken / 11. Alexander Harding / 12. Richard Siken / 13. Jungho Lee / 14. Bram Stoker / 15. Alexander Harding / 16. Richard Siken / 17. Alexander Harding / 18. Don DeLillo