I have read this myltiple times and its one of my fav stories to reaf
Ahhhhhhhhh.. its too goooddddd
Thank you author
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There have been recent sightings of a new savior in Linkon City named Soiree. Xavier was pretty much ignorant of the news until he encountered the said heroine.
Pair: Xavier x MC
A/N: A birthday gift for the Xavier girlies! Advance Happy Birthday Xavier! I really like that scene of Xavier getting jealous lmao
Word count: 3,350
Tags: Disguises, Lumiere hello, minor injuries and violence, MC being stubborn, being jealous
“There have been recent sightings of a new savior in Linkon City! Blending in darkness to fight for justice!” says the man on the radio. While preparing dinner and Xavier is doing the dishes, you two are listening to the city news as background noise and as awareness of what is happening.
“A new Lumiere on the loose?” You said, smiling a bit. Xavier gave you a look before the radio continued.
“This mysterious savior this time is a lady who blends in the shadows after skillfully defeating wanderers and evildoers roaming around, especially at night,” he said. “The other savior that graced us was Lumiere, who defeated powerful wanderers last sighted many years ago,”
“And there he is,” You chuckled, showing your appreciation for your hero. Xavier puffed his face in response.
“Her name is Soiree, a complement to the savior in the dark to the savior in the light,” The voice said on the radio.
“It has been a while since Lumiere was last seen,” You pondered. “I miss my knight so much,”
“Well, maybe he doesn’t need to show up,” Xavier said with a puffed face as he finished the dishes and turned off the radio to play music. “Maybe he has more important priorities at the moment,”
“Like what?”
“I don’t know… Maybe being with his beloved,”
You blushed.
You remembered the trick you did for Xavier to admit many years ago. You appreciate that he saved you twice in that identity, but you are more grateful he saved you so many times as the love of your life, Xavier, your favorite dummy who gets jealous and sulks whenever you talk about Lumiere.
“I wonder why this Soiree is showing up lately…” Xavier pondered. “Maybe because of the recent crime rates and wanderers rising in the city,” You suggested. The past months were no better, there’s just been much work lately in the Association.
“It’s going to be fine, she doesn’t have to do that,” Xavier said. “Anyway, time for your medication,” he ordered. You groaned as a complaint. Because of the recent events, your heart has been under a lot of stress lately. Hence, you currently have less workload in the meantime and are under the watchful eyes of Xavier.
“Same to you in changing your bandage,” You retorted back. “I will after you take your medicine,” he said in return. You’ve been worried about him the past weeks, he was often gone to do his duties as a Hunter. He goes home bruised and needs first aid. You feel bad for not helping him that much. Sometimes you miss him because he had to go away for days for missions.
“You’re doing that face again,” Xavier said. “You do not have to worry about me. You should focus on recovering more…” He placed a pill on your palm, which is your heart medicine, and then offered you a glass of water.
“I want to help you, your body has taken much damage lately,” You swallowed the pill before drinking the water.
“Focusing on your health more is already a help for me, the sooner you get better, the sooner we can be partners again,” He smiled. You sighed and smiled back. “Okay, okay,” He patted your head.
Suddenly, several warning beeps are heard in your watch and his. Your eyes widened.
“High leveled wanderers!” You exclaimed. “But Alpha hunters are currently fighting on the other side-” Xavier quickly gets ready to fight. “Xavier?” You stand up and realize. “You’re taking all of them?!”
“I can handle it, I don’t have a partner but I’ll manage,” he said. Then he stopped. “And no, you can’t, end of discussion,”
You know Xavier is strong but not in his state and in that many. You followed him but he only stopped you, and kissed you before leaving. You wanted to follow him but he wouldn’t want that.
Xavier dodged the attack as several wanderers were going in his direction. He summoned multiple light-fused swords and charged at them. He panted as he still had bruises and recovering from the last battle. He barely dodged an incoming attack and he flew to the ground. Despite the pain and his sight went blurry, he still gets up and kneels. He has to fight, someone is waiting for him back home.
He breathes, summoning more light to his sword. The wanderers rush towards him and anticipate the blow of their attacks.
Dark swords rush through from a distance as a black-clad figure gets down. Xavier gets up and runs to the wanderers, slicing through them. The swords are different and seem customized as he observed. In landing back to the ground, the wanderers are extinguished. Xavier looked at the figure, a woman wearing a black coat, covering her body. He stared at her eyes looking at the finished wanderers before she looked back at him. Her eyes widened.
“Soiree?” he said. The figure jumps and runs, he quickly turns into specks of light but as he appears near her, she quickly goes to the alley and vanishes in the dark.
After seeing she was completely gone, Xavier took deep breaths, taking internal information about what happened. He looked at his watch as he finished the mission, he saw your location, you were back in his room, waiting for him. He smiled as he returned.
“There have been reports that the mysterious individual that did the recent clearings of wanderers can be Soiree…” as the voice heard on the radio. You noticed Xavier tilted his head as if he was interested. You were tending to his wounds by putting on fresh bandages. The last mission was successful, but he was battered badly.
“I guess we got a new Lumiere,” You hummed. Xavier seemed to be deep in thought. “I saw her,”
“Huh?”
“I saw Soiree in the last mission,” he said. You gasped in response. “Oh! What does she look like? What did she do?”
“She… She helped me,” he replied. You raised your eyebrow, he seemed to be deep in thought. “I did warn you about the last mission…” You sighed. “But I’m just glad you are alright,” He is still deep in thought but smiles after. “How was she? Was she as good as the news said?” You asked further.
“She is a good swordswoman, that I can say,” he replied.
Footsteps are heard in the dark alley as Soiree finishes another slaying of the wanderers. She is panting as she sheathes her sword. She can hear her heart pounding hard as she runs to the other street to fight another set of wanderers. At the end of the alley, she saw a familiar figure running towards them. She runs faster and presses a button in her sleeve causing her to teleport.
Xavier can feel the toll on his body as he keeps on fighting wanderers nonstop this week. He sleeps all the time and longer whenever he manages to go home, to keep you from getting worried. But this is for your own good, he prefers dealing with it all than seeing you hurt in battle. In his peripheral vision, he saw swords going towards the wanderers. He turns to see Soiree, who has been around the past weeks, getting rid of the wanderers. He tries to get in contact with her, but she vanishes before he can do so.
He slashes using his sword and sees Soiree fighting as a wanderer gets closer to her. Xavier transforms into balls of light and speeds towards her, grabbing her body away from the wanderer’s smash. They tumbled down from a distance, Xavier quickly summoned a barrage of light swords, ending the wanderer. He shielded Soiree before looking at her again, she also looked exhausted even if all he could see were her eyes.
“Are you alright?” he asked. Soiree quickly got up and seated away from him. She only managed to nod in response. Soiree stood up and ran. “Wait!” Xavier called but she was already gone, blending in the darkness of the alley. He could’ve teleported to her, but she looked really tired. He understood that. He looked at his watch, checking on how you’ve been, the dot on the screen representing you is in his kitchen. He smiled.
Xavier went home and smiled as you greeted him. “Welcome home!” you said as you hugged him. “I’m back… I also got some takeout for dinner,” he said, hugging you back and offering a bag of food. Your eyes lightened up. “Yay! I’m starving!” You grabbed the bag and started to set the table. After a few minutes, Xavier returns, wearing fresh, comfortable clothes. “You look tired. You should rest for a bit,” you said as you got a spoon to scoop some rice. “Same as you,” he replied. “Are you okay? You look sleepy,”
“Huh?” You blinked. “It’s probably the heart medicine, a side effect,” you replied and took a spoonful. He chuckled, as you looked adorable. The radio is turned on and hearing reports about Soiree saving the city today. You looked at him, he seemed engrossed in the news now.
“Someone is interested in the city heroine now,” you teased. Xavier looked at you, confused but his eyes showed something else you couldn’t pinpoint.
“No, I’m not… She is fighting a lot lately,” he said. “I don’t see her purpose on why she is doing this,”
You hummed. “I mean, what was your purpose when you were Lumiere?” Xavier stopped eating at the question and looked down. “Lumiere just wants to protect someone he cares about,”
You’re touched at his response, cheeks slightly went pink. “I think it would be the same for Soiree,” you said. “Maybe she just wants to protect someone… The people she loves,”
Xavier chuckled. “Hmm… Honestly, you reminded me of Soiree,”
You blinked, a bit stunned. Then you returned to eating a piece of dumpling. “How so?”
“Well, she is good with the sword,” he commented. “She is a reserved person, though,” You pouted while he smiled. You know that they come across multiple times, you can’t help but miss the action… And miss battling alongside him. The way he talks about Soiree, it is a compliment but you can’t help but to feel things.
After that wonderful dinner, you two cuddled on the bed. Xavier slept so fast that he was really tired. You stared at him, basking in his features. You were worried about him, you felt he was also fighting on your behalf, as you are currently out on medical leave.
You watched him sleeping soundly, missing his presence. You just wanted him to be beside you, and you beside him. He had a knack for leaving, with or without notice, in the past. So many coincidences of your wishes and hopes being granted, often in your worries about wanderers getting frequent and the next day, it was all normal. He did everything that he could for you, it made you feel you wanted to do the same for him.
Your watch suddenly beeped a warning, a wanderer was sighting in a nearby town. You panicked and looked at Xavier, he was still sleeping soundly.
You run to the darkest alleys to get to the town. You saw the vast electrified cloud in the distance, spawning out wanderers. A voice was heard in your earpiece. “You can’t keep doing this, you’re not well enough for this type of wanderer!”
“Not now, Jeremiah! I can do this!” You yelled and summoned your sword. You start summoning more swords spinning around you as you get closer.
“Get back! The only Hunter that defeated this kind of wanderer was Lumiere!” He reported.
“Well, Lumiere isn’t coming back! I won’t allow it,” You started to slash as the swords around you went straight at the wanderer. You dodged the incoming attack but the wanderer was fast and pounded its fists on the ground, creating shockwaves as you were swept away. You got slammed on the wall, sight being dizzy and heart pounding. You stand up and barely dodge the attack. You ran and hid behind the alley wall, noticing you couldn’t lift your arm without causing so much pain. You use your other arm to hold your sword, using your Evol to enhance the sword, summoning multiple swords all at once to stab. You keep your distance as you continue to summon, and your heart starts to beat harder causing pain and making you dizzy. You stumbled as the wanderer gathered his fists again to create a shockwave towards you.
A tiny light appeared above and increased brighter, speeding to the wanderer and a huge illusion of a sword shoots down on it. It screamed in pain as it stumbled back. The figure gets down on the ground and flicks his sword.
You are stunned as he moves his head slightly, showing his mask. ‘Xavier… Lumiere?’ He didn’t speak, he returned his focus to the hostile wanderer. You saw him dance around the enemy and slash with accuracy. Your sight gets blurrier as you see him rush towards the enemy, you hear a roar before a complete silence, only the noises of the rubble. The bright figure dispels his sword as you try to stand and move. You only see sparkles of light that become warm arms before your sight turns dark.
You stirred and opened your eyes, your eyelids felt heavy but you had enough energy to function. You felt sore, in moderate pain and you still can’t move your arm. As you get up, you realize you are on the side of a building, watching the people below doing a clean-up and investigating the matter. You felt the mask fabric around your face, hence you convinced yourself that your face was not exposed.
“How are you feeling, Miss Soiree?” You snapped and looked, seeing Xavier- Lumiere beside you, as his face was covered by his mask and wearing the Lumiere outfit. You took a peek to his eyes, the cerulean orbs staring at yours intently, a lot more icier than usual. He is mad, mad.
“I’m okay,” you spoke softly, praying that he won’t notice anything, or even think anything beyond Soiree.
“I will accompany you for a medical assessment afterward and make sure you are well. What you are doing is dangerous,” He said sternly. You did remember Xavier saying that Lumiere is like a knight, handsome and gentle, while he is harsh and cruel. Well, he is wrong, as this Lumiere can be the other way around now.
“I can handle it… I’ve been worse,” You replied, still hesitant. Your answer ticked something to Lumiere.
“Miss Soiree, you almost died… People who love you would be devastated to hear that, especially… The one who wants to protect you,” he replied. Despite his mask obscuring his face, his tone and eyes feel like they would stab an enemy. You looked away, concluding to somewhat come clean by responding to his statement.
“He does, always,” You hugged your knees, unaware you said ‘him’, which surprised Lumiere. “I did this because I want to protect him. He… He has been away so much lately,”
Lumiere looked away as if he was feeling guilty.
“I felt I’m not helping him enough, in a direct manner,” you continued. “I thought, maybe if I can finish without constraints, maybe he would be around more,” There was silence afterward, while the moonlight shone on them.
“Maybe you can just ask him,” Lumiere said. “Seeing you being unresponsive earlier, it scared me… What more of him? You almost left him,”
“I’m scared he might leave me too,” you responded as your deep anxiety opened. You can see his eyes widen in a split second before looking away.
“I just… I just want him to-”
Before you can react, he pulls down your mask as he leans close to kiss you. You were stunned, but you closed your eyes, basking in the warmth of the kiss as you placed your hands on his chest. You two parted, panting to such an intense kiss, as it has been a while.
You stared at his eyes, you saw there were so many emotions all at once. Your hand went to his cheek, then gently to his mask, his brow knitted, wanting to pull back, but when he didn’t look like he was opposing, you removed it. You can see his handsome face, Xavier’s, in full view. He was deeply worried as he pulled you closer to him for an embrace. His breathing is jagged, desperate to feel you again.
“I am still upset,” he whispered. “But I’m glad you’re okay,”
You leaned closer to feel Xavier’s chest. You can feel his breathing flowing near your ear. “I’m sorry… I’m really sorry,”
Xavier laid his head on your shoulder for rest and comfort, especially in hearing your heartbeat being steady. The awful memory of you being hit in the attack when he arrived, he lost his control.
He did release you after a few minutes, as he remembered that you were still injured. “Let’s go… I’ll bring you to the hospital,” You opened your mouth. “No buts,” he said, pouting. You quickly surrendered, you’re still not in the clear after all.
You were under the monitor now after being confined for a couple of days at the hospital. Xavier seemed to not be entertaining any conversation other than your well-being. He didn’t leave and tendered to your healing process. So much that…
“Ugh, healing porridge again,” You said in disgust.
“You need to recover and this is doctor’s order… I’m just simply imposing it,” Xavier said as he crossed his arms. He then sat beside you. “This wouldn’t happen if Miss Soiree just behaved herself,” his face is neutral but calm.
So he is opening it now, as you thought. “How…” you trailed off. “When did you know?”
He looked confused at first. “The moment you saved me,” He said. You were shocked. “Huh?!” That early! He went closer to you.
“I know those pretty eyes,” Xavier replied as you stared at him. “I know how you fight too,” You blushed in response as you looked away. “I was just trying to…” You stuttered.
“I understand… I’m sorry I keep going away,” he then looked away, rubbing his nape.
“It’s alright, sorry that I did… This,” you apologized. “You were really working yourself to the limit,”
“I’d rather do that than see you struggling and hurt. You were ordered to rest and now it was extended because of what happened. Your doctor even scolded you,” Xavier said and smiled a bit. “Still, I acknowledge my lapses. Just… Please don’t do this again. You can be Soiree again if you want… Just let me know,”
You can see his deep concern, he just thinks about your well-being as the top priority. You simply nodded and moved your head onto his shoulder.
“I know Jeremiah helped you,” he spoke.
“Uhh… Yeah,” You sheepishly responded. “Please don’t be too hard on him, I asked him-”
“Too late,” he hummed. You sighed, you have to make it up to him as well as you can just imagine what Xavier did to the poor florist.
“You modified your tracker synced in mine so you’ll be always at the house, despite you were actually outside,” he continued. “Soiree is clever, Lumiere would be impressed,”
You pouted. Xavier noticed your expression. He suddenly carried you to his lap. “Xavier!” you squeaked.
“What? Is someone jealous because I was giving compliments to the ‘savior in the darkness’, Soiree?” he smirked, feeling vindicated to what he felt about Lumiere.
You crossed your arms. “You were complimenting her a lot,” Xavier chuckled.
“Who do you like more - Me or Soiree?”
Xavier was a bit surprised at the question, then chuckled again. He touched your face and leaned closer for a kiss. Your foreheads are close together afterward, feeling the warmth of each other.
“My favorite… The dummy who was so stubborn that I had to call Lumiere to save her,”
God someone put me down please. I need to go touch some grass. Please don’t even perceive me. This is my first time writing smut, so hopefully it’s okay
This is pure smut, no plot in sight. Pure filth. Be warned. Minors DNI! Concept: Sexy times with Xavier Tags: Smut, Plot? What plot?, Oral (F! Receiving), riding, biting, fingering, creampie (wrap it before you tap it), rough sex, praise, fem! Reader Word Count: 1605 Masterlist
His lips lapped at your core like a man starved, like you were his favourite liquor, his last meal. Moans and whimpers escape your lips, your fingers tightening in his already tousled hair as his fingers dig into the flesh of your thighs, keeping you spread open on his mouth. You feel a groan rumble from his chest at the feeling, resonating against your clit, adding and adding to the pleasure coursing through you. The tight coil in your abdomen wound tighter and tighter, his name leaving your lips like a prayer. His long fingers slid in and out, in and out of you, stretching and caressing as far as they could reach, your juices spilling out with every move, adding to the puddle that has formed under you. Not a single thought echoed through your mind apart from his name, the lustful haze clouding everything else.
Xavier’s dark gaze caught yours, his pupils blown wide, as if he was drunk off of you, his own eyes distorted with pure want. You could feel yourself clench around him, another wanton moan escaping you. The desire built within you with every skillful swipe of his tongue, with every suck and every thrust of his fingers. His arms pulled you even closer, until he reached the spot that made your eyes roll back and your toes curl.
The heat built, built, built, his unforgiving pace not giving you a chance to catch your breath. It was unbearable, unimaginable to be able to feel this much all at once, and yet here you were, wanting to escape but never wanting this to end at the same time.
Tears welled up in the corners of your eyes as your thighs trembled, trying to close but restrained by his strong grip, a grip that promised to leave bruises.
He kept up the pace, his fingers curling into that spot within you, his tongue licking up all the juices spilled, until your pleasure peaked, that coil snapping with a cry. Your muscles seize up as you throw your head back, bucking your hips against him.
He didn’t let up, letting your orgasm ride out wave after wave after wave. The obscene sounds from where he was connected to you filled your ears as the overstimulation took hold, and all of a sudden it was too much. Tears trailed across your cheeks, as you fell slack against the bed, the aftershocks making you whimper as he pulled himself away, just far enough to leave a trail of soft kisses against your inner thigh.
“Good girl. You did so good for me.” Soft praises left his mouth, as he slowly crawled up above you, leaving small kisses wherever he could reach, until his lips met yours, in a slow sensual kiss. His calloused hand cradled your cheek, wiping away the stray tears with his thumb.
“You okay sweetheart?” Xavier’s voice is soothing, bringing you slowly back to your senses, as you lock eyes with him.
“Yeah, more than okay.” You breathe, a small smile appearing on your face as he gives you another soft kiss. His eyes are still blown out, still dark with a hunger that’s yet to be satisfied. Against your hip, you can still feel his erection, hard and hot, precum dripping and spreading against your skin.
You keep your eyes locked with his, a mischievous glint echoing through your gaze, as you reach down, your hand grasping where he needs you most. He gives a sharp hiss, eyes closing at the sensation, before grasping your wrist, stopping your ministrations.
“F-fuck. You sure you want to continue?” The darkness swimming across his eyes should make you nervous, should make you shy away, but instead it pulls you in, makes you want to bring this man to ruin.
You pull your hand up gently, before pushing him over, switching your positions until he is beneath you. His eyes widen at the sudden movement, his hands landing on your waist, holding you steady as you straddle his lap.
“It’s my turn to take care of you.” You whisper into his ear, punctuating your statement with a bite to his earlobe. Your fingers run from his cheek, to his neck, to his chest. Lower and lower, the trail of your touch followed with your lips, nips and kisses decorating his pale skin. He’s so sensitive. He’s squirming beneath your touch, fighting the urge to roll you over and take the control back. His breathing quickens, his chest heaving as you switch to small bites across his neck, decorating it with red marks, a reminder of tonight just for him. Your hands trail lower, teasing touches on his thighs, tracing his abs and v-line. So close yet so far.
“Darling, stop with the teasing. Please.” His voice is rough, punched out, teeth gritted together as he tries to maintain even an ounce of composure.
“Shhh, you’re doing so well. I’ll give you what you want soon enough baby.” You bite your lip to hide your grin. God you loved the effect you had on him, the calm attitude crumbling beneath your fingers, red staining his cheeks. The grip on your waist is firm, nearly painfully so, as his eyes scrunch closed.
Finally, you decided to have some mercy on him, your touch trailing down to his dick. You thumb at the head, precum already coating your hand and the sound that comes out of him is something you’d like to hear for the rest of your life. You need to hear that sound again. You move your hand, twisting and pumping just like you know he likes it, but much slower than he wants. Your thighs protest as you reposition yourself, still trembling, so pleasantly sore. You guide his cock to rub against you as you grind down, covering him with the wetness dripping from your hole, a moan escaping both of you as his head catches your clit. His hands guide you down to grind on him again and again and again. You steady yourself with a hand on his chest, calling his name until his eyes open and land on you. His pupils are blown wide, his silver hair disheveled and redness spread further across his face. He looks divine. What a sight he is, underneath you, looking so fucked out already.
You bite your lip as you guide him against you, maintaining eye contact as you sink down on his cock. Bit by bit, you take him slowly, a strangled whine leaving both of you.
“Feels so good- so tight.” He sounds breathless as he grinds his hips up into you, bottoming out.
You have to take a second to breathe, adjusting to his size. You feel so full it’s almost overwhelming. You can feel every vein pulsing deep inside you, the stretch around him adding the sweetest ache to the many sensations coursing through your body.
A moment passes before you’re rising up until just the tip remains inside you, before grinding back down, setting a brutal pace. His breathing is shallow and rough as his hips snap up, keeping up with the tempo you set, hitting deeper and deeper and deeper inside of you. Hitting that sweet spot that has you faltering your movements for just a second. His grip around your hips guides you along, his eyes falling to your chest as you move one of his hands to your breast. He kneads it desperately as you lean down to spread an array of kisses and bites across his neck. Sweat drips down both of you, adding a deliciously salty taste to your kisses.
You swipe along his neck, swirling your tongue around his Adam's apple before biting down on it. His hips stagger in response to the sting and you soothe the ache with a soft kiss. The pressure builds within you, your nerve endings feel like they’re on fire with every thrust, with every touch.
“Gods Xavier, s-so good for me.” The words leave your mouth with a desperate tone as static fills your mind. The sounds leaving him are music to your ears as you swivel your hips, feeling him twitch inside you, delirious kisses being left across your shoulder.
“‘m close, so close.” His words spur you as you slam your hips down, going even faster.
“Fill me up Xavier.” You bite his ear as the pressure in your core unravels once more, your muscles spasming as you squeeze around him.
“Fuck I-” He doesn’t finish his sentence as the rhythm between you falters. You feel warmth fill you, painting your insides, dripping beneath you. You ride out your orgasms together, panting, desperately trying to catch your breaths. You lean up, your lips meeting his as you come down from your high together. You pull away just far enough to meet his eyes, gently brushing the hair from his forehead. A gentle smile braces his lips, his hands massaging your aching thighs.
“God, you drive me insane.” His voice is breathless, exhaustion evident on his features.
“Good, I’m doing my job well then.” You give him a soft, teasing grin.
“I love you sweetheart.”
“I love you too baby. Let’s get cleaned up, yeah?” You exchange a few slow, lazy kisses before you lift yourself off of him with a soft groan. You feel the wetness drip down your thigh as you attempt to stand, but your legs betray you with their shakiness and you have to brace yourself on the bed. You hear a tired chuckle before Xavier stands up beside you, lifting you into his arms before carrying you to the bathroom.
Tag: Xavier x f!reader, Zayne x f!reader Warning: reader is not MC, angst, no comfort (yet), parallel universe(isekai), third-person
"You're in love with someone who is not me." "How can you be so sure?" "Cause I'm nothing like her" "It's not the looks or personality that I'm in love with. It's the soul"
You know them, but they don't know you. Still, no barrier you erect can conceal the truth of their discovery.
Part 2! [Rafayel, Sylus] x reader
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You truly love the game, you really do. The atmosphere, the intricate details, the beautiful lighting that sets the perfect mood, and the voice lines that bring each character to life. It all comes together so beautifully.
The protagonist of the game is strong, smart, and undeniably beautiful, exactly like what you would expect in a game like this. And she’s nothing like you. Or rather, you're nothing like her. There are moments when you can’t help but feel a twinge of envy, but other times, you just push it aside and enjoy the ride.
But now, as you look at her across the street with your own eyes now, you're sure that you are definitely not her. You let out a quiet sigh, turning away and heading back to your temporary resting spot in this world. The weight of the different life is heavy in your thoughts. You need to find a way to get back.
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"No matter how many times it takes, no matter where you are… I will find you."
The street is as busy as ever, people moving past in a blur. He can't wait to get home after his mission and take a nap. Somehow, he catches a glimpse of someone and instinctively reaches out.
The sharp honking of a car pulls him out of his thoughts, and his gaze snaps back to her, the stranger he had grabbed. For a brief moment, he's taken aback, confusion crossing his face as he processes the fact that she isn't the person he had mistaken her for.
Xavier exhales sharply, trying to steady himself. "Apologies." He says, his voice rough and edged with frustration. "I thought you were someone else."
"…It's okay…" The girl says softly.
Xavier nods silently, still feeling a deep sense of guilt and regret. He can't help but still notice the similarities. He looks at her for a moment longer before breaking the silence.
"It's just..." He pauses, choosing his words carefully. "You really do look like...this person I know."
She looked at him warily, as if caught off guard, her tone flat but with a slight edge. "How so?"
Xavier scratches the back of his head, his eyes roaming her face once again, as if trying to pinpoint the similarities. He catches himself, realizing how that might sound. "You're just…similar."
"…Whoever you’re looking for." She says, her voice flat, as she steps closer to him. "I'm afraid I'm not them. You must have mistaken." She adds, her words clear, as if she is offering him a quiet but undeniable truth.
Noticing that he didn’t respond, she huffed, a mix of frustration and resignation settling in, feeling like the conversation had reached its end. With no more words to say, she turned and started to walk away.
In a moment, panic sweeps over Xavier, a feeling that he's about to lose something important. His body reacts before his mind can catch up. His hand shoots out, grabbing her wrist gently but firmly, pulling her back.
"Wait." His voice is a little hoarse, a mix of urgency and uncertainty. His grip is firm, but not forceful.
Xavier watches her intently, his gaze never leaving her face as he studies her features. There's a comforting presence that he responds to in her demeanor.
"I...I was just wondering..." He starts, his voice faltering for a moment. "What food do you like?"
"Pardon?"
Xavier's cheeks redden slightly, realizing how odd the question must sound. He rubs the back of his head, trying to play off his curiosity.
"I just... I was just curious." He says, his voice a mixture of embarrassment and honesty.
"…Why? You're going to take me out for dinner or something?" She let out a small laugh, but it quickly fades when she notices he doesn’t laugh back.
Xavier's heart skips a beat at her laugh, a genuine smile almost forming on his lips. He'd be lying if he said the idea didn't sound appealing.
"I just thought it would be nice to know more about you." He finally manages to say it, his voice betraying a hint of vulnerability.
"... You do realize we just met, right?" She asked, tilting her head slightly as she studied him.
Xavier nods, unable to tear his gaze away from her. His heart rate is still quickened, the mixture of shame, curiosity, and newfound attraction swirling within him.
"Yes." He says, his voice soft and genuine. "That's why I want to know more about you..." He cleared his throat, attempting to regain his usual cool demeanor.
She couldn't help but notice the way his eyes softened, almost pleading, as if silently hoping she would say yes. The vulnerability in his gaze was impossible to ignore. She wasn’t sure if it was his sincerity or the weight of the moment.
"I'm sorry... It's just that I'm a bit busy at the moment." She said, her voice soft but firm.
Xavier's heart sinks, a mix of disappointment and understanding washing over him. He had been caught up in the moment, the closeness, the connection he felt.
He nods slightly, a small sigh escaping his lips. "Right. Of course."
He steps back, putting a little more distance between them, and averts his gaze
She nods, offering a soft, half-hearted smile. "I hope you find the person you're… looking for… Have a nice day."
The words hang in the air for a moment, a gentle attempt at parting that feels heavier than intended.
Xavier's gaze lifts, his eyes meeting hers for a final moment. The disappointment is still there, but he manages to force a smile onto his face, even if it doesn't reach his eyes.
"Yeah." He replies, his voice a little hoarse. "You too."
He watches she walks away, the space between you two stretching further with each step. Each footfall feels like a silent reminder of what’s slipping out of reach.
"I will find you." "I don't want to be founded."
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"When you and the world wake up, I hope we do not met again"
Zayne was beyond exhausted. The hospital was packed with patients. He had been on his feet all day, working tirelessly to treat and care for everyone who came through the doors.
So he changed his course after work, heading for a nearby coffee shop. He noticed he was the only customer left, likely due to the late hour or approaching closing time.
The sound of ringing fills the air as the door opens. A person steps in behind him, moving to the counter to place an order.
"Hi, can I get a…?"
The person's soft, clear voice pierced Zayne's ears as he heard them place her drink order. He blurted out the name of the drink before he could stop himself.
The person tensed, quickly turning to face him, her eyes widening in surprise as if she recognized him.
Zayne quickly averted his gaze, pretending to be completely engrossed in looking at the decorations.
She stared at him briefly before returning to her order, speaking quickly. "Yeah and I would like a dessert with it too... "
"It seems we're out of dessert for tonight, he’s already taken the last one." The attendant said with a regretful tone.
"Oh." Her voice tinged with disappointment
With a hint of hesitation, he spoke up. "If you’d like, I can give it to you."
"That …won’t be necessary. You come first, after all." She stammered, offered a polite smile
Zayne shook his head slowly. "No, it's really alright." He said, his voice calm and reassuring. "I can go without it for tonight." He paused, his eyes meeting hers for a brief moment.
Zayne was caught off guard by his own actions. Why on earth was he offering his dessert to a complete stranger? Was it just an impulsive gesture, or was there something else driving him?
After a brief pause, he discreetly looked her up and down, his expression thoughtful. "Have we met before?"
She widened her eyes in surprise, then offered a sad smile. "I don't believe we did."
Odd… Zayne thought, his suspicion not quite quelled. He couldn't quite put his finger on what was so familiar about her. She didn't look like anyone he knew, and yet he was convinced he had seen her somewhere before. Regardless of it, he strangely feels a sense of contentment when he sees her.
She glanced at him briefly, uneasy under his gaze. "You... just got off work?" She asked, hoping to shift the focus.
"Yeah, the hospital nearby." Zayne replied casually, his gaze still fixed on her.
His suspicions were not eased, no matter how hard he tried to suppress them. There was just something so oddly familiar about her, as if he had seen her before somewhere, in some other place in time. He couldn't quite place it, and it was driving him crazy.
She nodded slightly, her gaze flickering briefly. "You work quite... late."
"It's a part of the job." Zayne replied with a shrug, his expression remained neutral.
She smiled nervously, each question she asked only deepening the awkwardness. Feeling the tension grow, she fell silent, unsure of what to say next, hoping the quiet would ease things.
Zayne found himself wondering if she visited the coffee shop frequently. The location was slightly out of the way and secluded, which made him question if she came here often.
"Do you come here often?" He asked suddenly, breaking the silence between them. "There aren't many places open this late."
"Not... really." She replied, a slight shrug lifting her shoulders. "I just discovered it a few days ago…"
Zayne nodded slowly, his eyes narrowing slightly. He couldn't shake off the feeling of worry growing inside him. Here she was, a lone girl in a quiet area so late at night.
"You know, you really shouldn't be walking around alone... especially at this hour." Zayne found himself saying without thinking, his concern finally getting the better of him.
She narrowed her eyes slightly, a defensive edge creeping into her tone. "I can handle myself." She said, her words sharp but quiet.
The waiter approached and handed Zayne his drink first, breaking the conversation for a moment. He gave a small nod of thanks.
Zayne glanced at his watch, realizing just how late it had gotten. He took one sip of his drink, holding up the cup before turning back to her.
"I better get going. Got an early day tomorrow."
The words slipped out almost instinctively, as if he felt the need to let her know, even though there was no real reason to. His gaze lingered for a moment, unsure if he should say anything more.
She didn’t answer or glance at him, keeping her gaze fixed ahead. A sense of disappointment washed over him, he must have offended her. Without a word, he turned and walked out, silently hoping their paths would cross again.
"I hope we do not meet again." "So do i."
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I know it sound deludelu but i just need some angst in my life a bit. I'll post the rest later. Also no hate to the MC. Her character is well-built, and i love her personality.
Pairing: Xavier x Fem!Reader Prompt: “No, you can't stay here.” Words: ~1.1k Genre: Angst, No Comfort Notice: Some spoiler of Xavier's Myth, Shooting Stars, although not entirely aligned
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He staggered back, clearly surprised by how your muttered words reverberated loudly in the otherwise dimly lit room. Cerulean orbs searched for yours skilfully, eyes bright as they were when tracking Wanderers in the darkest of nights.
“What did you say?” A hint of disbelief was palpable in Xavier's voice.
You stepped away from the shadow, hands trembling as you struggled to steady them. Despite anticipating this moment, when confronted with reality, you found yourself questioning whether you could truly accept your sacrifice without harboring any regrets.
“I said, no, you can't stay here.”
Revelation dawned on him. Despite Xavier’s frequent drowsiness, he remained inherently sharp. It was one of the attributes that had made him a highly respected hunter.
“How long have you known?”
“Enough time to understand the over-complicated truth.”
Irritation briefly flickered in his eyes. He looked at the thinning veil behind him, clearly cursing the other party that stepped through it earlier. “Jeremiah told you.”
“I was the one who convinced Jeremiah to tell me everything. You shouldn’t kick his ass when you see him again.”
Xavier couldn’t help but chuckle bitterly at that. Jeremiah, though physically not imposing, could defeat anyone on mind games. That’s why he brought him along on the mission as he needed a logical partner.
He couldn’t comprehend why Jeremiah had agreed to divulge the secrets they swore to keep between themselves—especially to the one person he had hoped would never uncover the truth.
“Besides, you’re not as secretive as you thought, Xav.” You gave him a small, sad smile. “I guess that's what makes us human, right? Despite not being a normal one, having an aether core-fused heart, or having lived for a hundred years, we still can’t stop ourselves from showing our deepest desires during moments of vulnerability. I used to believe that she was your unforgettable first love or perhaps an ex who taught you a crucial life lesson. However, that’s just me shying away from the undeniable.”
As much as you had steeled yourself for this moment, your vision began to blur, and Xavier was fast to engulf you in his hug. You couldn’t help but wrap your arms around his lithe but muscular figure, feeling his warmth and further breaking your heart.
He buried his face in your hair, taking a deep breath to blanket himself in your scent like he always did.
“That’s not true,” his voice came out shakier than he intended.
“But it is, Xavier. You don’t know how many times you called out to her in your sleep. Or sometimes when you look at me, I can tell that you don't truly see me for who I am in this current existence. You can’t deny this, because in doing so, you’re also hurting her…me.”
You had to force your head up to fully face your light. Xavier wouldn’t let you step away from him.
Gently cupping his cheeks, you urged him to focus on your next words. “Face it, Xav. Your queen and I… our resemblances are solely physical. We’re two entirely different persons, made up of distinct personalities. If she was the reason why you were in this timeline in the first place, you cling to the hope of going back to her one day, don’t you? You wouldn’t abandon her eternity, right?”
His hug tightened. “I’m sorry,” he said after some time, head bowed in shame. “I’m sorry, Y/N. Truly, deeply sorry for making you feel less than your worth.”
Despite his painful acknowledgment, you found yourself relaxing, accepting your fate. Xavier's thumbs gently wiped away the tears that had escaped from your eyes.
“But you’re going to be here all alone,” his voice cracked, almond eyes cloudy. “I can’t go back and live peacefully knowing that.”
“If what Jeremiah told me is the truth, I have left you more than once. It’s your time to experience having someone be there when you’re back. This is the time to redeem myself, even when the timeline has gone haywire.”
Xavier shook his head furiously. “We won’t know if the alternative aether core would work. If I go back and learn that I will lose you again and Philos, I would rather stay here with you in the past.”
“You know it will work, that’s why you were so insistent on sending Jeremiah back alone with it, and selfishly waiting at the other end just to make sure it disappears, an indicator that Philos has accepted the aether-core. You know how much Jeremiah wants to go back there, and for everything he has done for you, you believed it was your turn to help him. I can’t take you away from her; it’s not right. It’s not my time to have you.”
“What difference does it make when I’m also willingly leaving you here? You understand that once I step through that veil, we’ll never meet each other again in this timeline.”
As if aware of its existence, the veil dimmed. You eyed it wearily, realizing that the swirling vortex of electric blue and silver had turned almost transparent.
“Xavier,” you sighed when he cupped your hand, reveling at the contact, “we both know that my time in this realm will end, I can’t be immortal here. I would rather face the certainty of our eternal bond in another dimension than linger in the fleeting confines of this world.”
You placed your fingers against his lips, silencing his upcoming argument. “You do realize that if you abandoned me in the future, I would despise you, don't you?" you made a playful comment to lighten the mood, but he was miserable. Filled with guilt and disappointment that he couldn’t control the situation.
You guided his head down to meet your lips halfway. As both of your lips touched in a bittersweet embrace, a silent farewell woven into each tender touch. The palm pressed against his heart felt its rapid beats.
“Goodbye, my light. Be happy,” you whispered those words to his lips.
Xavier should have known that whenever you were around, his caution melted away. That was his greatest weakness. He registered the force that caught him entirely off guard a second too late.
Xavier reached out his hand, losing momentum. “Y/N! Wait—!” he called out, voice tinged with urgency.
As his body was hurled into the closing veil, it snapped shut, swallowing his unfinished words. Sobs wracked your body, each wave of emotion sent your body crashing to the wooden floor.
Moonlight peeking through the windows cast its glow upon the intricate gold of the gigantic frame before you.
Where the veil had shimmered moments before, there was now only emptiness, revealing a cold cement wall that stood as a cruel reminder of the end of a chapter you could never revisit.
While seemingly nearly empty every night, a profound silence enveloped Philo Flower Store differently. Vibrant blooms began to wilt, their once lively hues fading into desolation, while the lush vines that once cascaded down nearby buildings now curled and browned.
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bored prince
he's such a bully sometimes lol
via: Love and Deepspace IG
inspired by mine own Greatest Breakdown of the Century that took place last Wednesday
pairings: Xavier, Zayne, Rafayel, Sylus, Caleb x F!Reader(separate)
content: corny puns(i’m sorry), tiny bit suggestive, mostly fluff, mentions of meals being skipped in caleb’s
a/n: caleb’s and sylus’s a teensy bit longer bc i got carried away at end oopsies
You and Xavier usually ate lunch together, be it after a mission or after training. Perks of being partners at work.
Today, however, was different.
Xavier had to join the analytics department for a debrief after a special solo mission.
He originally planned on flaking and leaving with you as soon as you had wrapped up your work.
But once you had persuaded him a bit with promises of spending the whole day together tomorrow and a long cuddle session tonight, he caved.
You patted his head as he was pouting at you and pressed a small box to his chest, before turning around and waving goodbye.
He barely registered the tupperware he was holding, as he longingly stared at your retrieving back.
Once you were out of sight, he looked at what exactly you had given him.
Taking in the silver box, he smiled to himself.
The corners of his lips turned upwards and he went to sit down on the nearest chair.
You expected him to eat it during a short break during the meeting, but he couldn’t wait that long, knowing you prepared something for him.
He was contemplating taking out his phone and telling you to come back and join him right now, eat the food you had made for him, together.
He stopped that train of thought, thinking to himself that he didn’t want to drag you back here.
With a slight shake of his head and sigh escaping his lips, he went to open the box.
The first thing he noticed was the amazing smell of whatever you had packed him, the second wasn’t the food but a little yellow note stuck to the roof of the lid.
“Hang in there, Xavie.
I’ll make it worth your while tonight ;)”
The tips of his ears turned red, he stared at the note before breathing out a chuckle.
You really knew how to motivate him, didn’t you?
Before he could linger on the note for too long, he heard a chipper voice behind him.
“Oh, hey Xavier! Mind if we join you?”
He saw Tara and Simone put their bags on the table he was sitting at.
He gave them a small nod of acknowledgement, immediately tuning them back out again after.
He hid the note in his pocket, thinking about how to repay you later.
Zayne was used to you preparing his lunch for him, he considered you bringing him his lunch during his breaks as part of his work routine.
He loved getting to see you amid his packed schedule, finding a way to sneak in some extra time for you two to spend together.
Unfortunately, today you couldn’t drop by and bring it to him in person, since you had to go on a mission outside of town.
Instead, you had handed him his lunchbox this morning, kissing him on the cheek before heading out.
He usually looked forward to his break because he knew he’d be able to see you.
Today, that perk fell away, so once his break time rolled around, he kept on working on some reports.
Until he heard the notification sound he put specifically for you,
“Don’t forget to eat, Dr. Zayne!”
“I miss uuuu, can’t wait to see u later”
A small smile graced his lips, an expression you easily brought out of him.
“Take care of yourself. I’ll be alright, as long as you’ll return in one piece later.”
Once he saw you were offline again, he put his phone away, finally taking out the lunchbox you had prepared for him this morning.
He placed it on his desk, taking the lid off.
He immediately noticed the small sticky note you had left.
“I’m “nuts” about you ;D enjoy your break, my love.”
Zayne silently quirked a brow as he read the message you wrote for him.
He shook his head as a quiet laugh escaped him.
His face went back to its usual deadpan expression.
If anyone were to walk in, he’d appear the same as he usually did. You’re the only one who would’ve been able to make out his hidden amusement.
Before he went to eating, he quickly pressed the sticky note to the frame of the picture he had of you two on his desk.
He was looking forward to welcoming you home tonight.
Rafayel had been whining all morning.
He was being forced to meet up with some art brokers outside of Linkon.
He had come up with 10 different excuses and 7 different plans on how to get out of this, yet all of his attempts were shut down. By you.
Talk about betrayal.
You had spent the entire morning talking him into going, saying how it would benefit him and how he should just make Thomas’s job easier for once.
Why couldn’t you understand that he just wanted to spend as much time with you as he could!!!
The next best idea in his mind was coaxing you into coming along.
Too bad for him, you already had plans for the day.
“Just get going already, you big baby.”
You had said to him.
“The sooner you get there, the sooner you can come back. Probably.”
You paid no mind to his heart clenching pout(self proclaimed) and just pinched his cheeks.
Before he could attempt anything else, like tripping over a brush and pretending to have broken his back, or blowing up his car(who knew what lengths he was willing go to, just to get out of work? You certainly didn’t want to find out.) you pressed a chaste but sweet kiss to his lips.
“Have a good day, Rafayel. And be nice to Thomas!”
And before he knew it, you were out of the door.
A groan left his lips, as he rolled his eyes in annoyance.
He was willing to go along with anything you had planned today, he just wanted to be with you a bit more.
Finally, wrapping up his sulking once he realised you weren’t coming back and he really did have to get going.
He grabbed his bag and left out the door you had disappeared out of, minutes before.
Fast forward a few hours later, he’d been sitting in some stuffy office, barely paying attention to what Thomas and the man sitting across from him were saying.
“Alright, let’s take five.”
At that, Rafayel perked up.
Immediately getting out of his chair and walking towards the door.
“Always nice doing business.”
Thomas gave him a pointed look,
“Rafayel, we aren’t done here yet. You better not take too long.”
The purple haired man hummed without looking back and left the building as quickly as he could.
While he knew Thomas was probably gonna think he left, as soon as he couldn’t find him inside, he didn’t care.
He got in his car and rested his head against the steering wheel.
He stretched and went to reach into his bag to grab his phone to text you, when he suddenly saw something he hadn’t noticed before.
There was a silver box sitting in his bag.
You sweet, cunning little thing.
He immediately pulled the lunchbox out, a look of intrigue in his eyes.
Of course, you wouldn’t just cruelly send him into hours of boring work, without rewarding him!
He took the lid off, being met with another sweet, sweet surprise.
Your handwriting immediately caught his attention.
“You’re doing amazing, baby!”
A chibi you doing a thumbs up next to the message,
and on the bottom you drew two stick figures holding hands, surrounded by hearts.
He chuckled quietly and if anyone told you about the lovesick look on his face as he stared at the tiny note, he would’ve sworn they were lying.
He reached back into his bag to grab his phone, snapping a picture of the note,
“seems like ur down bad for me lol”
You didn’t have to know about the goofy grin on his face as he ate whatever you had prepared.
Whenever he could, Sylus would make sure you and him shared at least one meal together.
He knew, that due to your conflicting schedules, that wasn’t always possible.
By the time you’d wake up, Sylus’s day was slowly drawing to a close,
by the time you’d have lunch, Sylus would be fast asleep,
and by the time he’d wake up, you were finishing up the last of your work.
Yet he’d make an effort regardless.
Whether it be having breakfast, while you were eating your last meal of the day or keeping you company while he brought you breakfast, simultaneously getting ready to wind down after a night of work.
Obviously, that didn’t always work.
Sometimes you two would barely be able to see each other, missing one another due to your complicated relay race of a sleep schedule.
Today was one of those days.
Yesterday was your day off, but you had to get up early today to get to the Hunters Association on time, so you decided to catch up on some sleep and hit the hay early last night.
As Sylus had to get ready to leave, you had finished up your dinner.
Just as you got into the bedroom to call it a day, Sylus was heading out to tie up some loose ends.
With murmured declarations of love, you bid each other farewell. A quick kiss on the cheek, a soft peck on the lips and out the door he was and you were settling into bed.
Morning came rolling around, Sylus was taking longer than usual.
Before you knew it, you had to head out of the door, taking one of Sylus’s many cars to drive back to Linkon City,
not before sending him a quick text, though;
“I’ll get going now. Rest well, Sy!”
By the time he had gotten back to the base, you had long been gone.
He rubbed his eyes as he read your text.
Feeling groggy, he decided to skip his last meal and texted you back a good night message.
Once he had woken back up, he was half expecting you to be back, laying next to him but to his disappointment, you were no where in sight.
He headed to the kitchen as he checked the time.
5 pm. Surely you’d be coming back soon.
Sylus found Luke and Kieran lounging around the fridge and he quirked an eyebrow at them,
“You two usually don’t show your faces here, unless it’s time to eat.”
The twins looked at him, Luke scratching his neck and Kieran going back to looking around the kitchen,
“Well, boss…”
“Your bad luck struck again.”
“Very unfortunate, indeed.”
“Mhm, mhm!”
Sylus looked at them unimpressed, waiting for them to elaborate.
Luke and Kieran looked each other, silently trying to get the other to break the news to him.
“You see,”
“You might’ve just missed…”
“Miss hunter, boss-man.”
“Mhm, you totally missed her, boss.”
“She just left actually.”
Sylus could feel a headache forming, squinting his eyes at his henchmen.
“She was here? Why would she leave so soon, then?”
The twins shrugged in unison. Mumbling something about how unpredictable hunters were.
“She actually got here a few hours ago,”
“Said she didn’t wanna wake you.”
“Something about you needing the sleep.”
He heard one of them snicker, he couldn’t care enough to glare at the one who did.
Sylus ran a hand through his hair and a pointed look was enough to send the twins scurrying off.
He made a mental note to subtly complain to you about this later.
His mood souring after finding out he just missed you by a hair, he decided to have someone bring his breakfast up to his office, as he turned on his heel.
He spent the day in his office, working through a pile of reports and modifying Mephisto.
He sent you a few texts in between but gathered that you were busy, considering the lack of responses.
He was starting to think he shouldn’t have worked on Mephisto today, curious to see what you were up to, that was so much more important than answering his texts.
At around midnight, a knock resounded on his door.
“Come in.”
His hopes that it might just be you crushed, as he saw one of the twins walk in.
“Yo, boss-man, we were told to make sure you take a break. Instructions from the boss of all bosses.”
He placed a lunchbox on Sylus’s desk and disappeared as quickly as he had shown up.
Mephisto started cawing, reminiscing a laugh.
Sylus shut him up with a flicker of his gaze.
He reached for the black box and opened it.
His lips curled upwards into a half smirk as his eyes landed on the post-it note.
“The anticipation of seeing you later is driving me crazy.
Now, eat up!”
He could read you like an open book, even when you weren’t with him, yet having you be so open about your feelings made something inside of his chest bloom.
Even when you were busy, you still made sure to leave your mark on his day one way or another.
The soft look in his eyes was only ever reserved for you and he couldn’t wait to show it to you.
Don’t think he’ll forget about how you didn’t answer his texts, though.
Growing up, Caleb always packed your school lunch.
He would cook for you whenever you were home.
And even when he wasn’t home, he’d make sure you were fed one way or another.
That habit never stopped as you two got older.
He loved cooking for you, it’s the reason he learned how to make all of your favourite dishes.
You always wanted to return the favour but a good moment never presented itself.
From starting college and becoming a pilot to becoming the Colonel of the Farspace Fleet, his discipline only increased and so did his love for you.
Just when on earth could you find the time to make food for a man who got up at the ass crack of dawn to work out and make you a nutritious breakfast.
Well, once you found out that this same disciplined man skipped his own meals in favour of getting his work done, you decided to step your game up.
You had it all planned out, you’d take a few days off without telling him, meal prepping for him and getting to his apartment in Skyhaven without telling him.
As you arrived at his place and unlocked the door, stepping inside, your phone vibrated.
“Whatcha up to, pips? ;)”
You squinted around the room trying to see if he had any cameras inside.
Arriving at the conclusion that he probably(hopefully) just got a notification from his door being unlocked, you texted him back.
“Got the day off, gonna wait here until you come back.”
You felt your phone vibrate a few more times after you tucked it back into your pocket, you made your way to his fridge.
Wishing he could see your face of absolute disbelief at the sight of his pathetic fridge.
Empty. Entirely empty, aside from a few apples.
Who lives like this?
Does this man live off of apples?!
You placed all the tupperware you had prepared ingredients in, in his fridge.
Some rice, boiled veggies and proteins.
You’d have to give him a good talking to about this later.
A weird feeling settled in your chest, realising he only really takes good care of himself when you’re around, which is also just a by-product of him taking care of you.
With a sigh you closed his fridge, one more lunchbox remaining at the bottom of your bag.
Still ignoring the messages he had sent you, you left his apartment again.
Caleb was lounging in his office, he still had some time before he had to attend another meeting with the other Colonels and their subordinates.
He was wondering why you weren’t answering him, he was about to check the cameras around his apartment, when a knock resounded in his office.
He put his phone away, knowing he was about to get busy again.
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His authoritative steps echoing through the emptying hallway.
The nurses and soldiers hurrying off after seeing his annoyed expression.
He paid them no mind, as he unlocked the door to his office.
As soon as he stepped inside, he took his hat off, running a hand through his hair.
Caleb couldn’t care less what the other people working there thought of him.
He gets his work done and he gets it done well.
Nothing else mattered, yet he couldn’t help but feel annoyed at these stuck up old men who dared to doubt his capabilities, be it out of sheer jealous or fear.
They got another thing coming, if they think they could mess with him.
He doesn’t take lightly to his duties, and he doesn’t take lightly to protecting you.
You. That’s who all this was about.
He would put up with about anything, as long as it meant you’d be safe.
Because you were everything to him, his sweet pipsq-
He lost his train of thought as he spotted the silly lunchbox sitting on his desk.
A pattern of red and green apples on it, decorated with stickers that had started to wear off.
It’s your old lunchbox.
He looked around his office, a grin finding its way onto his lips.
You’ve always been a sly one.
He sat down in his chair, inspecting the childish box.
As he took a look inside he was hit by the smell of braised chicken wings.
But he immediately lost interest in the food as soon as he saw the note you had snuck inside of the box.
“Learned from the best.
Eat well and rest well, Caleb.
Or you’ll have to face my fury >:(“
He chuckled to himself, you managed to get into his office undetected, just to drop off some lunch for him?
Caleb loved taking care of you.
It’s what he lived for, but he couldn’t lie.
He liked the feeling of you looking out for him as well.
You always manage to make all his doubts and worries disappear.
He’ll have to get creative with thanking you later.
I turn to Ares.
Thanks to Tyler Miles Lockett who allowed me to draw inspiration from his ARES piece for page 2! Look at his etsy page it's SICK
⚔️ If you want to read some queer retelling of arturian legends have a look at my webtoon
fiction | xavier
synopsis : What happens when your fiancé turns out to be a guy who walked right out of one of the fanfictions you read? Tall, handsome, and surprisingly, not emotionally constipated. Time to find out.
content : arranged marriage!au, fluff, mentions of OC, comedy
writer’s note : soooo, sylus has an arranged marriage au (ahem two), so does rafayel, zayne? Not yet. It’s xavier’s turn first :D
“Wow,” Xavier whispered, almost like he hadn’t meant to say it out loud.
You blinked, caught off guard. He was staring—no, gazing—like you were something out of a dream.
Or maybe a particularly poetic hallucination.
You instinctively took a small step back, your fingers twitching at your sides as a shy warmth bloomed across your cheeks.
“Is there something on my face?” you asked, voice quieter than usual.
Of course, that snapped him right out of it.
He coughed, his expression smoothing into that carefully polite, vaguely princely calm you assumed was his default setting.
Stoic. Controlled. Maybe a little embarrassed.
You were currently seated across from him at a long, ridiculously ornate dinner table that looked like it belonged in a museum rather than someone’s actual home.
Your parents had brought you here for the grand unveiling—your fiancé. Surprise.
It was an arranged marriage, one you hadn’t really protested.
Mostly because the alternative involved crawling back to school, where existential dread roamed the halls like a vengeful spirit.
So, marriage. Sure. Why not.
You hadn’t seen a picture. Not a single hint of who this man might be. Just your mother’s breezy, “He’s charming, calm, and mature,” like she was describing a limited-edition tea set.
But as you sat there now, staring at the man who would somehow become your husband, you realized charming didn’t quite cover it.
Because Xavier—silver-haired, blue-eyed, and carrying that whole otherworldly melancholy like a tailored suit—looked like he’d stepped off the cover of a novel where people fall in love and die tragically.
Great. Now you had to marry that.
His mother, seated gracefully beside him, clasped her hands together with the kind of delight only aristocratic women and overzealous matchmakers could muster.
“Oh, what a lovely girl your daughter is,” she beamed at your parents, as if you weren’t sitting right there, very much alive and blinking.
You offered a polite smile, the kind you reserved for distant relatives and overpriced waiters, while Xavier glanced your way again—this time with something almost like amusement flickering behind those calm blue eyes.
Apparently, being praised like livestock was the beginning of romance now.
Dinner dragged on, the distinct hum of polite chatter between your future in-laws and your parents filling the air like a background track you hadn’t asked for.
Voices rose and fell in curated excitement over wedding venues, family values, and the excellent weather—as if any of that would help you survive this evening.
You tried to focus on the plate in front of you.
Tried being the keyword.
But cutting through steak while sitting across from your unnervingly beautiful, maddeningly composed fiancé wasn’t exactly conducive to concentration.
Especially not when you could still feel his occasional glances—curious, measured, and far too calm for someone who’d said “wow” like he’d seen a shooting star five minutes ago.
You stabbed at a green bean with a little more force than necessary.
Romance was off to a fantastic start.
—•
After dinner, you were gently—read, forcibly—escorted onto the terrace by none other than your future husband. The orchestration, of course, courtesy of four overly enthusiastic parents and their favorite phrase of the night.
“Go spend some time together, dear. It’s important to foster relationships.”
You could practically hear the wedding bells in their eyes.
Xavier walked beside you in silence, his steps unhurried, posture perfectly straight like he’d been trained for these situations.
He didn’t seem flustered at all.
Meanwhile, you were trying to remember how breathing worked.
The air outside was cooler, quieter.
The terrace opened out to a garden bathed in moonlight, which would’ve been romantic if it didn’t feel so much like the set-up to an arranged marriage-themed reality show.
You stopped near the railing, resting your hands lightly on the cold stone.
“So,” you started, “should we awkwardly pretend this isn’t weird, or lean into it?”
Xavier looked at you, a slow flicker of amusement tugging at the corners of his lips. “I vote for leaning in.”
You felt the heat creep up your neck, crawling right into your cheeks like it owned the place.
You looked away quickly, pretending to be incredibly invested in the night sky, only to nearly choke on your own spit.
Smooth.
Then, as if the moment hadn’t already thrown you off balance, Xavier spoke again—calmly, casually, like he wasn’t currently dismantling your ability to function.
“You’re nothing like I imagined.”
That time, you actually choked.
You coughed, spluttered, and did your best to recover whatever shred of dignity you had left, eyes wide as you turned toward him. “I—what?”
He tilted his head slightly, watching you with that unreadable expression of his. “In a good way,” he added, the faintest hint of a smile tugging at his lips. “You’re… unexpected.”
You weren’t sure if that was a compliment or a polite warning.
Either way, your heart decided to skip a beat just to be dramatic.
“Unexpected… how?” you asked, narrowing your eyes just slightly, curiosity now outweighing your embarrassment.
Xavier didn’t answer right away.
He turned his gaze toward the garden below, thoughtful, like he was sorting through a mental checklist he hadn’t realized he’d made.
“I thought you’d be quiet,” he said finally, “shy, maybe. The kind of person who keeps their head down and says yes to everything.”
You raised a brow at that. “Wow. Romantic and flattering.”
He glanced at you, lips twitching. “I meant that as a compliment.”
“Oh, sure. Everyone dreams of being described as ‘meek and agreeable.’”
That earned you a proper smile—small, rare, and slow to form, like he wasn’t used to sharing it. “But you’re not,” he said. “You’re… sharp. Funny. A little defensive.”
You blinked. “Again, not really selling it.”
“And honest,” he added, eyes lingering on you now, softer somehow. “Very honest.”
The way he said it made something flutter in your chest—annoyingly poetic and completely inconvenient.
You smiled—just a little—as you turned your gaze to the moonlit garden below. The flowers were in bloom, the air carried that faint, earthy scent of late spring, and for a moment, the world felt quieter than it had been all night.
“What did you think of this arrangement?” you asked gently, not quite looking at him.
There was a pause.
Long enough that you began to wonder if he’d heard you, or if he was calculating the safest answer.
“I didn’t think much of it at first,” he admitted finally, voice low and steady. “Just another political tie. Something expected of me.”
You nodded. Fair. You’d thought the same.
“But…” he continued, and you glanced at him from the corner of your eye, “then you walked in. And suddenly, it didn’t feel so transactional anymore.”
Your heart gave a traitorous little lurch. You told it to calm down. It didn’t listen.
“…Right,” you said, managing a soft laugh. “Well, thank you for not calling me a tax write-off. That’s reassuring.”
Xavier’s lips quirked again, eyes warm despite his usual calm. “I’ll do my best to exceed expectations.”
You both fell into a comfortable silence, the kind that didn’t need to be filled. The soft rustle of leaves in the breeze, the distant chirp of crickets—it all felt oddly soothing.
For the first time that evening, the weight of obligation on your shoulders began to ease, replaced by something quieter, lighter.
Maybe… this arrangement wasn’t so bad after all.
Xavier shifted slightly beside you, and out of the corner of your eye, you saw him glance your way again.
There was something hesitant in his posture—not nervous, exactly, but deliberate. Like someone unused to starting conversations that didn’t involve diplomacy or battle strategy.
“So…” he began, carefully, “what do you like to do when you’re not being ambushed by marriage proposals?”
You turned to look at him, amused. “Oh, you know. The usual. Read. Nap. Avoid emotionally loaded dinners.”
He gave a soft chuckle at that, clearly trying to mask it with a cough. “Sounds like a full-time job.”
“It’s exhausting,” you said with a mock sigh. “But someone’s got to do it.”
He smiled—genuine and easy this time—and leaned his elbow on the railing. “Any books you’d recommend?”
That caught you off guard. “You read?”
“I’m not just a pretty face,” he said dryly.
“Wow. Multitalented and humble.”
He shook his head, but his eyes were fixed on you now, open and interested. “I’d like to know what you like. What makes you laugh. What makes you… you.”
The words weren’t romantic, not in the obvious way. But the sincerity in his voice, the way he said them without trying too hard—it stayed with you.
Just like the quiet warmth growing in your chest.
“I hope things go well then,” you said with a small smile, the kind that lingered even after you looked away.
Xavier was quiet for a beat, watching you like he was memorizing the curve of that expression—soft, a little unsure, but hopeful all the same.
“They will,” he said, not with bravado, but quiet certainty. “I’ll make sure of it.”
It wasn’t a promise wrapped in poetry, but it settled deep in your chest, heavier than you expected.
And for once, you didn’t feel like running from it.
—•
Back at home, the moment the front door clicked shut behind you, all the calm dignity you’d maintained on that terrace evaporated like mist.
You spun toward your mother with wide eyes and a completely undignified squeal. “Oh my god, Mom—”
She barely turned from where she was removing her earrings, already smirking like she’d won some secret bet with the universe. “Let me guess. You like him.”
“Like him?” you repeated, pacing in chaotic little circles.
“He’s—he’s calm and composed and smart and he actually smiled at one of my jokes, and he said I was unexpected in a good way, and—”
“I knew you’d like him,” she interrupted with maddening satisfaction, crossing her arms and raising an eyebrow like a smug matchmaking oracle.
You stopped mid-spiral. “You set me up.”
Her smirk only widened. “Technically, you agreed.”
You groaned, burying your face in your hands as your mother chuckled softly in the background, utterly pleased with herself.
And okay, maybe you did like him. Just a little. Maybe.
You settled into your room with all the grace of someone experiencing a slow, romantic meltdown.
Your mother’s chuckles echoed down the hallway like the smug laughter of a triumphant mommy duck who’d successfully nudged her chick into the pond of marriage.
You groaned and faceplanted into your bed, limbs sprawled dramatically as you tried to suffocate the feelings spiraling inside you.
Unfortunately, your brain had other plans.
It conjured him again—Xavier, standing on that terrace like he’d been carved from moonlight and good intentions.
You remembered the way his absurdly long lashes cast faint shadows on his cheeks, so delicate it was almost unfair. His blond-silver hair had swayed in the breeze like it had been choreographed.
And those pale blue eyes… gods, they were unreal. Like someone had trapped the entire sea inside them just to make your life harder.
You let out a strangled sound and shoved your pillow over your face.
You were engaged. To that.
And worse—you liked it.
—•
The first date was… heartwarming.
Not in the overly romantic, violins-playing kind of way, but in the unexpectedly gentle kind of way—the kind that crept up on you and made your chest ache a little without warning.
Xavier sat across from you at a table set for two in the center of an otherwise empty, dimly lit restaurant. A chandelier hung above, its golden light casting a soft, intimate glow over the polished silverware and the quiet space between you.
It was like stepping into a scene from a movie—one you hadn’t realized you’d auditioned for.
You glanced around, taking in the surreal quiet, the absence of clinking plates or murmured conversations. “Is… is this entire place just for us?”
Xavier rubbed the back of his neck, a hint of color rising to his cheeks.
“My parents insisted I rent out the entire evening,” he admitted with a sheepish smile, looking both apologetic and awkwardly charming.
You raised a brow. “Of course they did.”
“I told them we’d be fine at a café.”
“But why settle for awkward silences over coffee when you can have awkward silences under a chandelier?”
That made him laugh—soft, but real. “Exactly,” he said, and for a second, that serious, guarded façade of his cracked wide open.
And just like that, the nerves in your chest loosened.
“So, what do you do? Like work and the likes,” you asked, casually between bites of steak, trying not to sound too curious or too invested—even if you absolutely were.
Xavier looked up from his plate, pausing for a second like he was deciding how much of the truth to hand over.
“I’m with UNICORNS,” he said simply.
You blinked. “UNICORNS?”
“United Nations Intelligence and Covert Operations Reconnaissance Network Squad,” he recited, completely straight-faced.
You stared at him, fork frozen halfway to your mouth. “…That spells UNICORNS?”
He gave the faintest shrug, as if he wasn’t aware how ridiculous that sounded. “Acronyms aren’t really my department.”
You snorted. “Right. So basically, you’re a space prince turned secret agent.”
He blinked. “That’s… technically accurate.”
You nearly choked on your steak.
“You’re joking.”
“I’m not.”
You stared at him for a long moment.
Silver hair. Calm voice. The whole mysterious aura thing.
Of course he was a secret agent. Of course.
“Okay,” you muttered, setting your fork down. “And here I was thinking I’d have to make small talk on this date.”
Xavier smiled into his glass, and you caught the flicker of amusement in his eyes. “You still can. I’m excellent at pretending to be normal.”
“If you’re a secret agent,” you said, narrowing your eyes at him as you leaned forward slightly, “then how is it okay that you reveal yourself to me?”
Xavier lifted his gaze, the corners of his mouth twitching like he was holding back a grin. “Classified,” he replied smoothly, taking a sip of his wine.
You raised an eyebrow. “That’s not an answer.”
He set the glass down with infuriating grace. “Let’s just say… my clearance allows for certain disclosures under specific circumstances.”
You crossed your arms, pretending to be skeptical even as your curiosity prickled. “And this—” you gestured between the two of you, “—is one of those circumstances?”
He nodded once, almost solemn. “You’re my fiancée. It’s only fair you know who you’re marrying.”
You stared at him. “So if I were, say, a barista you had a crush on instead, you wouldn’t be allowed to tell me?”
He hesitated for a split second, then said with mock seriousness, “I’d have to fake my death.”
You burst out laughing, nearly knocking over your water glass.
“Well,” you said once you caught your breath, grinning now, “I’m honored to be cleared for top-secret fiancé-level intel.”
Xavier smiled softly, and this time it wasn’t sheepish or polite—it was warm. “You’re worth the risk.”
You blushed at that—violently, of course—quickly masking it with a cough and an exaggeratedly casual bite of steak, like that would somehow neutralize the weight of his words.
You’re worth the risk.
Nope. Still devastating.
The evening flowed gently after that, the tension between you easing into something quieter, more natural.
You found yourself laughing more than you’d expected—soft bursts of amusement over his dry remarks, while he watched you with that calm, almost amused smile, like he was cataloging every expression you made.
He didn’t talk much, but when he did, it was thoughtful.
Measured.
Like he was actually listening. Really listening.
You told him about your hobbies. How you loved reading, writing, getting lost in stories and then furiously threatening to strangle fictional men for breaking your heart.
“They’re not even real,” you said dramatically, waving your fork in the air, “and yet they ruin my week. My mental stability. My skin.”
Xavier tilted his head, eyes crinkling just slightly. “Sounds like a dangerous habit.”
“It is,” you agreed solemnly. “But I’m too far gone.”
He nodded. “Noted. I’ll try not to become the inspiration for your next emotional breakdown.”
You paused mid-chew. “Wow. That might be the most romantic thing anyone’s ever said to me.”
And just like that, he smiled again—slow, rare, and entirely disarming.
Xavier dropped you off at your estate, the sleek car rolling to a gentle stop in front of the stone steps.
The lights from the veranda cast a soft glow across the driveway, and there she was—your mother—waiting with the patience of someone who definitely hadn’t been peeking through the curtains for the past ten minutes.
As you stepped out of the car, she descended the steps with a far-too-innocent smile.
“Oh, please join us for a while!” she called out brightly, clasping her hands together with the enthusiasm of a socialite and the subtlety of a sledgehammer.
You nearly tripped on the gravel. “Mom.”
Xavier blinked, caught slightly off guard. “Oh, I wouldn’t want to intrude—”
“Nonsense,” she beamed. “We have tea. And leftovers. And years of awkward silence to fill.”
You gave Xavier an apologetic look. “She’s not usually this—”
“Yes, I am,” your mother interrupted, already turning on her heel. “Come along, dear!”
Xavier glanced at you, a flicker of amusement dancing in his eyes. “Should I be worried?”
“Terrified,” you muttered under your breath.
But when he followed you up the steps without hesitation, you felt that warm little flutter return—just slightly out of rhythm with your heart.
Once inside, your mom wasted no time nudging the both of you toward the couch with all the subtlety of a seasoned matchmaker on a mission.
“Sit, sit!” she chirped, practically shoving you into place before plopping herself down across from you with a cup of tea and that glint in her eyes—the one that said she was thoroughly enjoying herself.
You landed on the plush cushion with a small huff, Xavier sliding in beside you like this was perfectly normal, like he hadn’t just spent the last two hours slowly dismantling your emotional walls with his quiet charm and devastating smiles.
You gave your mom a weak protest. “This is… not necessary.”
“Nonsense,” she waved off with a grin. “I’m just enjoying the company of my future son-in-law. That’s not illegal.”
You side-eyed her, but honestly, it wasn’t a big deal. You had just had a wonderful dinner. He was polite, thoughtful, and—surprisingly—not emotionally constipated.
Still.
He was sitting very close.
Not touching you, technically.
But the cushion dipped slightly where his thigh rested against yours, and suddenly you were acutely aware of everything—how warm he was, how tall he sat, how his cologne smelled like cedar and rain and danger to your composure.
You folded your hands in your lap, trying to focus on your mom rambling about wedding colors and seating charts, but Xavier’s presence beside you was magnetic.
Steady. Quiet. Very hard to ignore.
You might’ve leaned slightly away from him.
And then just as quickly, leaned back.
No use pretending now. You were officially doomed.
“Mom, the wedding is four weeks away,” you groaned, slumping back into the couch like it could absorb your embarrassment. “You don’t have to talk about it every day.”
Your mother only sipped her tea, entirely unbothered. “And miss the joy of watching you squirm every time I say the word bouquet?”
Xavier chuckled beside you, low and warm, and you immediately regretted everything. Because that sound? That sound was now imprinted on your soul.
You shot him a look. “Don’t encourage her.”
“I’m not,” he said, clearly encouraging her. “But it’s… entertaining.”
You narrowed your eyes at him. “You’re supposed to be on my side.”
“I thought I was.”
Your mother clapped her hands lightly. “Look at you two. Bantering already. Like an old married couple.”
You sighed into your hands. Xavier smiled again—calm, amused, and entirely too comfortable. And even as you groaned, somewhere deep inside, a tiny part of you liked how it all felt just a little too natural.
—•
“He just smiled, Shaiya. Smiled!” you exclaimed, dramatically flopping onto your bed like you were in a period drama and the world was ending via attractive fiancé.
Shaiya raised an unimpressed brow from where she sat cross-legged on your rug, holding her phone in one hand and wearing the most amused smirk you’d ever seen on her.
“So you’ve got a crush on the guy you’re marrying. Tragic.”
You threw a pillow at her.
She dodged it effortlessly, grinning. “No, seriously. This is the dream. Arranged marriage and you’re catching feelings? You’re living in a slow-burn fanfic.”
You groaned into your blanket. “No, no, this is a problem. A very pretty, well-dressed, emotionally devastating problem. He said I was unexpected. He smiled. He rented an entire restaurant. Who does that?”
“Apparently, your absurdly attractive secret agent fiancé.”
You peeked at her through your fingers. “Shaiya.”
“Yes?”
“I think I’m doomed.”
She tossed the pillow back at you. “No, babe. You’re in love.”
You let out a muffled scream into your blanket.
She just laughed. “I’m giving it two weeks before you start writing ‘Mrs. Xavier’ in the margins of your notebook.”
You groaned, dragging a pillow over your face. “I’m used to writing fanfiction about fictional men, not marrying a guy who seems to have walked out of one.”
Shaiya cackled, absolutely zero sympathy in her voice. “Plot twist—you’ve been isekai’d into your own arranged marriage AU.”
You peeked out from under the pillow with a glare. “This isn’t funny.”
“It’s hilarious. You’re the main character. Brooding husband with mysterious past? Check. Hidden softness? Check. Devastating smile that causes existential crises? Check.”
You groaned again. “He smells like a metaphor and talks like a deleted scene from a historical drama. I was not built for this level of emotional turbulence.”
Shaiya nodded sagely. “No one is. That’s how you know it’s real.”
You flopped back onto the bed with a dramatic sigh. “If I end up writing love poems in the margins of my planner, please stage an intervention.”
“Oh, I won’t stop you,” she said, already pulling out her phone. “I’ll just record it for the wedding slideshow.”
“You’re officially disinvited from my wedding,” you deadpan, sitting up just enough to squint at her with all the fake seriousness you could muster.
Shaiya gasped, clutching her heart like you’d just stabbed her. “How dare you. After I emotionally supported your descent into fiancé-induced madness?”
“You mocked me.”
“I documented history,” she shot back, already typing something suspiciously fast on her phone. “Your children will thank me one day.”
You narrowed your eyes. “Shaiya.”
“Yes, Mrs. Secret Agent?”
You threw the pillow again. She didn’t even try to dodge it this time, just laughed as it hit her square in the face.
“Fine,” you muttered, collapsing dramatically again. “You can come to the wedding.”
“I knew you’d cave.”
“But only if you swear not to make a toast about fanfiction.”
Shaiya looked up from her phone, absolutely glowing with mischief. “No promises.”
You were so in trouble.
Soon after, Shaiya gathered her things, still grinning like she’d won a lifetime’s worth of blackmail material.
As she headed down the hallway, she called over her shoulder, sing-song and far too loud, “Can’t wait to see adorable mini-yous and secret agents running around!”
You groaned from your doorway. “Shaiya, go home.”
She just laughed, turning to wink at you before disappearing down the stairs. “Give my regards to Mr. Tall, Calm, and Tragic!”
You slammed your door shut with a huff, leaning against it as silence settled back into the house.
Mini-yous and secret agents.
You stared blankly at the wall, then promptly screamed into your hands.
This was getting out of hand.
—•
A week before the wedding, Xavier surprised you with a calm, “I’d like to take you to pick out your dress,” like he was asking if you wanted tea—not subtly offering to participate in one of the most emotionally overwhelming rites of passage in existence.
So naturally, you said yes. And then spent the entire morning internally spiraling.
It was awkward at first.
Mostly because you were trying very hard not to be a complete nervous wreck. The boutique was gorgeous—warm lighting, soft music, rows of delicate lace and silk that whispered life-changing decision with every swish.
And there Xavier was, sitting far too calmly in one of the velvet chairs, flipping through a bridal catalog like he did this every Thursday.
Meanwhile, you were trying not to combust.
You peeked at him between gowns. He didn’t look bored or out of place. In fact, he looked… focused. Thoughtful.
Like this mattered to him.
When you stepped out in the first dress, hands fidgeting at your sides, you half-expected a polite nod or something neutral.
Instead, his gaze lifted—and he just looked at you.
Not like you were trying on fabric. Like you were becoming something real.
“You look…” he started, then paused. A rare moment where words seemed to fail him. “…beautiful.”
Your brain short-circuited. Your stylist cooed.
And you?
You forgot how to breathe for about seven seconds.
This wedding might just kill you.
You bit the inside of your cheek, willing your pulse to calm down as you smoothed your hands over the fabric, trying to act like you weren’t melting under his gaze.
“Do you like it?” you asked, your voice more steady than you expected—only slightly breathless.
Xavier tilted his head, his eyes not leaving you. “I do,” he said, softly but certain. “But the question is—do you?”
You blinked, thrown for a moment.
“I mean…” You turned toward the mirror, taking yourself in again. The dress hugged you gently, not flashy, not overly grand—just enough detail to feel like you belonged in a dream. “I think I do.”
Xavier stood, walking over with unhurried steps. He stopped just behind you, enough distance to be respectful but close enough that you could feel the quiet weight of his presence.
His reflection met yours in the mirror, eyes still warm. “Then that’s the one.”
Your heart betrayed you again with an uneven thump.
“O—On second thought, I’ll try a few more,” you blurted, the words tripping over each other as your blush bloomed faster than your dignity could recover.
Xavier blinked, clearly amused, but—mercifully—didn’t say a word.
You turned so quickly you nearly tripped on the hem of the dress, fumbling your way back into the dressing room with all the grace of a flustered Victorian heroine trying not to swoon.
Once inside, you let out a breath you didn’t realize you were holding, pressing a hand to your burning cheek.
Pull yourself together, you told your reflection. It’s just a compliment. From your devastatingly attractive, quietly intense, secret-agent fiancé who might actually be perfect husband material… oh no.
Outside, you could hear Xavier flipping pages in the catalog again, his calm voice murmuring something to the stylist.
No teasing. No smug follow-up.
Just… waiting. Patiently. Like he’d wait all day if you needed.
You stared at yourself in the mirror, then let out a very quiet, very overwhelmed laugh.
Yep. You were so doomed.
You stepped out in the second dress, holding your breath without meaning to. This one—this one felt different.
It wasn’t over-the-top, but it shimmered just enough under the soft boutique lights, with delicate embroidery trailing down the bodice and a skirt that moved like you were floating.
Like a fairytale—but not the soft, gentle kind. More like Cinderella on crack, if she ditched the glass slipper for a knife in her garter and a comeback locked and loaded.
You felt powerful. Gorgeous. Slightly dangerous.
Xavier looked up the moment you stepped out, and for a moment, he didn’t say anything at all.
Which, frankly, was worse than a compliment. Because he stared.
You shifted on your feet. “Too much?”
He stood slowly, eyes never leaving you. “No,” he said, quietly. “It’s perfect.”
You felt your breath catch again—because somehow, he didn’t say it like he was talking about the dress.
And suddenly, you weren’t sure if you were ready to marry him… or fall headfirst in love with him.
Either way, you were spiraling.
Elegantly, of course. Like a fairytale heroine in heels.
Afterward, with the kind of effortless grace that should not be legal, Xavier handled everything—his posture composed, voice low as he spoke with the staff, arranging every last detail with calm precision.
You stood behind him, half-hidden near a rack of veils, watching the scene like you were in a slow-motion movie montage you hadn’t signed up for.
He moved like someone born to command attention but never demanded it—unassuming, composed, elegant in the way only someone dangerous could be when they weren’t trying.
And there he was, calmly signing forms and coordinating where to send your wedding dress, like it was the most natural thing in the world.
Your wedding dress.
You, meanwhile, were standing there with your heart doing somersaults in your chest like it had zero survival instincts.
It wasn’t just the way he looked doing it. It was the way he didn’t look at you while doing it—as if this wasn’t some grand gesture, but simply what he did.
Quietly take care of things. Gently, but without asking.
You pressed your hand over your chest as it fluttered again—annoyingly dramatic.
Yep.
This man was going to ruin you in the most inconveniently romantic way possible.
—•
The night before the wedding, the world felt hushed. The air was thick with anticipation, the kind that settled in your lungs and refused to leave.
Everyone else had retreated—family fluttering with last-minute details, planners running over final checklists.
But you found yourself out on the balcony of the estate, the moon casting silver across the garden, soft and endless.
And Xavier—of course—found you there.
He didn’t say anything at first. Just walked up quietly and stood beside you, his presence grounding in that calm, ever-steady way.
For a while, the silence felt enough. The good kind.
The kind that didn’t need to be filled with nervous laughter or pointless words.
And then, you exhaled. “You nervous?”
He glanced at you, then shook his head. “Not really.”
You smiled, eyes drifting down to your hands resting on the stone railing. “I thought I’d be. But I’m not.”
He tilted his head. “Why not?”
You paused, biting your lip, unsure how to say it without sounding like a complete idiot.
“I think…” You hesitated, then braved a glance at him. “I think I might actually like you. Like… really.”
Xavier looked at you, his expression unreadable at first—but then something shifted in his eyes. Softened.
He didn’t speak right away, and for a split second, your heart lodged somewhere in your throat.
But then—quietly, gently—he said, “Good.”
You blinked. “Good? That’s it?”
He turned fully toward you, his voice lower now.
“Because I think I’ve been liking you for a while now. I just didn’t know how to say it without making it sound… heavier than it is.”
You stared at him, a warmth blooming deep in your chest.
“It is kind of heavy,” you whispered.
“I know.” He reached out, brushing a loose strand of hair from your face with a tenderness that made you still. “But I don’t mind carrying it.”
And under the silver night, with barely inches between you, that almost-confession settled between your hearts like a promise—unspoken, quiet, but real.
The day of the wedding arrived with a kind of dreamlike haze—everything moving just a little too fast, yet not fast enough.
People buzzed around with clipped voices and half-screamed checklists, but all you could hear was the thud of your heartbeat as you stood behind the grand double doors, clutching your bouquet like it was the only thing tethering you to the earth.
Your dad stood beside you, his hand steady on your arm. “You okay?”
You gave a weak nod. “Yep. Totally fine. Just, you know… about to get married to a gorgeous secret agent I’m pretty sure I’m falling for. No big deal.”
He chuckled softly. “You’ve got this.”
You didn’t answer—not because you didn’t believe him, but because you were too busy trying not to throw up out of sheer romantic terror.
On the other side of the doors, Xavier stood at the altar.
Poised. Steady.
He wore a pale suit tailored within an inch of its life, silver hair catching the soft light from the stained glass above. And yet, despite the opulence around him, he looked only forward—toward the doors.
Toward you.
He wasn’t smiling—not quite.
But his expression held that familiar softness, that calm warmth that only you seemed to bring out in him.
Like the world could be on fire and he’d still be there, waiting.
The music began.
Your hands tightened on the bouquet.
You met your father’s eyes, took a deep breath—
And the doors slowly opened.
Warm golden light spilled into the chapel, catching on the soft fabric of your dress, the shimmer of the veil, the slight tremble in your hands.
Every pair of eyes turned toward you—but you only looked at one.
Xavier.
The moment your gaze met his, the world seemed to still. The music faded to a low hum.
The pressure in your chest eased, just slightly.
He didn’t look shocked or overwhelmed, didn’t do anything dramatic.
He just breathed, like seeing you walk toward him was the most natural thing in the world.
But his eyes—his eyes said everything.
There was awe there, yes, but also something gentler.
A quiet certainty.
Like he’d been waiting for you not just today, not just these past weeks, but his whole life—and only now realized it.
Your feet carried you forward, one step at a time, your father guiding you down the aisle, grounding you in each heartbeat.
You were aware of the petals scattered along the path, the subtle scent of white lilies in the air, the soft rustle of guests shifting in their seats—but none of it compared to the weight of Xavier’s gaze.
You finally reached him, hands trembling slightly as your father placed yours into Xavier’s.
Xavier’s fingers closed around yours—warm, steady, reverent.
“You look…” he whispered, leaning just slightly toward you, enough for only you to hear, “like you stepped right out of one of your stories.”
You smiled, despite the tears pricking the corners of your eyes.
“And you,” you whispered back, voice shaking, “look like the ending I didn’t dare write.”
He didn’t smile—he softened. Completely.
And as the ceremony began, as vows waited on the other side of breath and silence, you realized something profound.
You weren’t nervous anymore.
You were exactly where you were meant to be.
loyal to my man ~Xavier .... Life is delulu at this point and other fixations
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