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Guys, i think it stills in his mind..

Nah killer you good?

considering the last ask was....... crazy....

Nah killer you good?

considering the last ask was....... crazy....

Killer jiggling his balls like Xmas tree balls decorations

Hey yall, I wanted to say sorry about some stuff :(

Most specifically on me leaving stories unended with comics and finding new projects.

I know its probably frustrating, I'm certainly frustrated with myself.

I didn't start Gloomverse thinking I'd stop it partway. You don't draw over 800 pages of a story expecting not to finish it, you know? Same with the Winter King comic. Same with every other story. I didn't spend hours and hours brainstorming a story just to put it on pause. I only start posting stories on here now when I'm sure I'll finish them. And- I didn't end up finishing them. I know I don't finish many of my stories, and I was trying to rectify that.

I think I finally gotta admit to myself, that I no longer enjoy making comics, and not recognizing that, was a huge part of the problem. I love, LOVE creating stories, but comics take so much time to do that it becomes an insane and impossible task. When I was working on the Winter King story for example, I was spending 12 hours a day on drawing- and it still would have taken years to finish. It was exhausting, I was hitting burn out, and doing it alone is an insane task that- yeah, I probably shouldn't have put on myself.

It just isn't sustainable, and it doesn't make me happy anymore :(

I do genuinely feel so bad about it, too. That's why I don't talk about it, because I feel really ashamed. I got a message from someone asking how Gloomverse ends and it broke my heart that I didn't have the capability to truly see my baby to the end. Part of why I haven't written out and posted the entire story of GV, was because somewhere inside I really hoped I'd find the love for the story again. I didn't want to spoil the ending if I was still going to draw it, you know?

Unfortunately, I haven't gotten that passion back. And I don't think I will.

I was always curious about writing novels though, and I'll say I love this SO much more than comic making. The story goes quickly, the twists and turns even surprise me sometimes, and something that would have taken years in comic form take weeks instead. Not only that, I get to truly sit inside the mind of the characters, and express it more directly which- I can't explain exactly how much I ADORE doing.

And on top of that, everyone living in the United States right now knows how much... things have changed recently.

I'm angry. I'm furious.

And I needed a story as an outlet for that. That's actually where the basic concepts of my Vulture story came from... a lot of anger at those who seek to manipulate and control people, and those who glorify hatred and violence.

Finances have been extremely difficult and I've gone from living comfortably enough, to worrying about losing my home. My family has been split down the middle, and two of my family members I'm almost certain I'll never speak to again. There's so much anger and sadness in me right now I'm struggling to find ways to not have it devour me.

My stories have always been my escape, and my therapy. My art in general, has always been like that. And I needed a new story to exemplify that fury. I needed to get my anger out. Which is why... I have to be honest, the Vulture story is the darkest story I've written in a very long time.

I've also been intentionally silent on the Vulture story for the most part. I only wanted to start posting chapters once the entire first book was finished, so I could be sure the first section of the story was officially done- and that I wouldn't dissappoint anyone.

I also tend to be very hard on myself, which you can probably see, so I pulled myself off the internet for the most part to detox my brain.

Anyway. I just wanted to say again that I was sorry. I know I rambled a bit there, but I think I wanted to put out where my headspace has been. I suppose I always had this issue as a comic creator, but when I was a kid I didn't have an audience, so it was never a serious issue for me then.

Anyway. As an apology you can read the first two chapters of the story if you like. The story is a fantasy horror novel, but the real crazy stuff doesn't start until a bit after the preview, so I feel comfortable sharing it publicly here. Once it's done and I start posting it proper, I'll do all the trigger warnings and everything, and I'll make sure to ask yall what would make you the most comfortable when it comes to the extreme things that happen in the story. The most graphic chapters probably won't be posted specifically on tumblr, and will probably be linked to instead. It'll be rated 17+ because of the violence, there won't be any sexual content or anything like that, just quite a bit of gore.

Anyway, please feel free to comment and stuff! I'll be responding to any questions if you have any.

why do people only care about my art if it's undertale related cough

i put so much effort into my other artworks, and as a human being, i have interests other than JUST undertale. and yet, when i show works for other fandoms or personal art on my socials, it flops. a big part of it is the algorithm, i know that. it is genuinely so discouraging and mentally draining. it feels like im forced into this little box of "you better keep shoveling out undertale art like a machine or you'll be forgotten !!" and causes me to distance myself further from enjoying myself when drawing UTAU art. it isn't fun anymore—it feels like a chore. do i really have to choose between my own happiness or my art getting the same attention it used to? is this what it's come down to?

i love undertale and the aus, and i don't plan on stopping creating fanworks for it any time soon. and i'm grateful that my art gets any recognition at all. it's just exhausting to keep up with.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY INK SANS UNDERTALEEEEEE

Handsome models

Cross belong to @jakei95

Nightmare belongs to @jokublog

Killer belongs to @rahafwabas

Horror belongs to @sourapplestudios

Dust belongs to @ask-dusttale

I LOVE them so much ;P

Free time :P

Straw is such a cutie patootie🥰

What would the bad sanses cosplay???

I didn't know what to do so I asked a friend for their cosplay..🙏

Just a rough sketch...

Hampy birday🤯🤯🤯

Congrats on making it out of your mom's vagina😎

Thank you so much!!!

(Sorry for answering later🙏)

Damn guys today's it's the birthday of the twins!

Nightmare belongs to @jokublog

Dream belongs to @jokublog

TODAY'S MY BIRTHDAY! >:D))

Goodbye Fell..

A drawing based on a role play that I'm doing with a friend😋 @b4ssf1n go check their account!

Cross can be transgender.

I just wanted to come on here and talk about the whole trans Cross thing going on.

I've seen an uncomfortable amount of people saying that you can't headcanon Cross to be trans. This, is stupid.

You can headcanon him trans. Because that's YOUR right.

As an adult trans man that's been in fandoms the majority of my life, don't let some assholes tell you what you can or cannot headcanon.

If you see yourself in a character that's great! It doesn't take away from the character, or invalidate the character's story, or even offend the character.

Because that's all they are. A character.

They're not real, but YOU are. So live your life and experiences, relate them to some goofball skeleton on the internet, doodle dumb little images of a skeleton in a binder even if it doesn't make sense, fucking have fun.

And if you're someone being a dick to people for relating to a characters struggle with their identity, go touch some fucking grass. Nobody asked for your shitty opinion.

Killer and..Cross

Just a normal comic😋

HAAAAA!!! This Is beatiful!

The gang..?

What a beatiful day for a trip! :D

The gang..?

HAAA GUYS IM FINALLY BACK!

Here's some MTT

🥲

HAPPY 9th ANNIVERSARY UNDERTALE

I'm feelling old..

HAPPY 9th ANNIVERSARY UNDERTALE