Ate Yesterday. Kind Of Binging. But When I Think Back, Things Have Changed. I Ate Much Less. I Was Satisfied
Ate yesterday. Kind of binging. But when I think back, things have changed. I ate much less. I was satisfied much earlier. Today I have 800g more, that will disappear again BC I eat one meal every second day. So no bad feelings. 56.7, BMI 21.08 today.
Crossed 55 kg and bmi 21 in the right direction after 84 hours fasting. But have a sore throat. No fever. How are your experiences with fasting when having a cold. I want to continue, basically
Essentially I want to be less. Diminished. 20 kg of me are not needed. I want to be less visible. Paradoxically I find a friend(s) here who sees me. This makes me happy. So I want to disappear while being happy to be seen.
Everybody wants something from me. The world is fucking up. I want only run away. I can't. But I can decline this fucking world by declining eating. This really helps. It's not 3d. It's liberation.