Latest Posts by surmayah - Page 5

Begging God to fix you!

(And other tales about religious trauma)

i would kill people to be conventionally attractive im sorry

Mother watching her girls dancing in the rains, she sees herself, and she sees something that she loves.

Dhaka, Bangladesh

Photo: Istiak Karim

brfantasme.

he was a

she was a

i am my father's daughter, of course i'm gonna suppress my rage and grief till it bursts and leaves everyone with my ashes

blue, through kaye donachie’s reminiscent paintings.

susan sontag’s writing on writing, from her journals

ludovic de saint sernin fw24

Patwo ki haveli (Jaisalmer)🪞✨

Behind the scenes Hannibal Mads smoking

Soooo I wrote a poem on Bulbbul

I'm the woman who burnt herself in her own rage's flames,

The one burning down love letters, only to burn her hand seeking them out from the fire back,

The one starved for touch yet

The one who stings if you're near.

I'm that woman whose love you snapped away,

The one whose blood is on your dagger,

The one whose skin's bruised because she fell down the stairs,

the one whom you drove mad.

I'm that woman with kohl eyes, and

Ruby red lips,

The tragedy they pity,

The one no one suspects,

The one, who killed.

“we don’t talk. i still dream about you.”

Helen of Troy (detail) c. 1867. by Frederick Sandys

"my child is fine" your child was a pleasure to have in class

something shifted in the universe when i turned 14 i swear

I don't want to be me anymore, lord, help me be better

1 Fydoror Dostoevsky "the insulted and humiliated" // 2 Rainer Maria Rilke Rilke's book of hours:love poems to God // 3 Ethel Cain strangers // 4 Jihyun Yun some are always hungry // 5 icon for hire happy hurts // 6 Alice Notley from in the pine: poems; "in the pines" // 7 Edward Hopper interior, model reading (1925) // 8 Julien Baker Guthrie // 9 Clementine Von Radics dream girl "sweet the sound" // 10 Bao Phi Thousand star hotel "vocabulary" // 11 unknown // 12 Phoebe Bridgers funeral // 13 Yves Olade belovéd // 14 unknown // 15 Julien Baker everybody does // 16 Anne Sexton a self-portrait in letters // 17 pat the bunny I'm not a good person // 18 unknown // 19 Julien Baker sour breath

once i get rid of the inherent shame and aloofness in me that prevents me from truly opening up and living life itself, it's over for you bitches.

you live in a house of god; praying on your knees; and wonder why he never saves you.

on being unloved by god

xiao wen ju for shushu/tong spring-summer 2021

Coming to terms with your mother's humanity

@death-born-aphrodite/@bitterl/Supernatural/8.46am on Instagram/Hailey Noecker/Fatima Aamer Bilal/Winterhats, literally from AO3/Mitski

René Lalique, Kiss, Pendant, 1900

you unstable ahh bitches, here's a hug 🫂💌 it scares yet comforts me that so many of you feel the same

they should invent a yearning for love that is tolerable btw

watched Jab We Met and started crying

ketzal_coatl

Jake Peralta, you absolute gem 🫶🏽💗

the only L i’ll take is Love

i don't know who needs to hear this, but guilt, self-hatred and shame are not sustainable sources of growth and healing. you can't hate yourself into feeling better, or being better. you can't repeatedly punish yourself for your flawed humanity and expect wholesome results.

appreciation post for @onlyswan <33

tysm for posting such masterpieces, ily 🫂