i am no longer able to picture myself in a romantic relationship. all my life i've avoided human connection and running away from it is all i know to do. i see others' relationships falling apart, repeated realisation that in the end of the day people care primarily for themselves and even the best intentions don't protect you from hurting yourself and others, making care for anyone else feel foolish. not getting involved seems like the perfect solution to avoid hurting, but the problem is that i already do.
fan poster? idk. anyway here's wonderw-
got sick right on Halloween, fuck yeah...
no, no, i did not want to have a good time, it's fucking fine