Feeling you use my heart to get what you want kills me inside
The broken girl left behind
I wish I could die. In no dramatic sort of way. I wish I could slip away and no one notice. I wish it could be peaceful. The way you expect an old dog to pass, like everyone has been waiting for it for a while.
I'm sorry I pushed you aside, I'm sorry I put her before you, I'm sorry I brought her into our place and ruined our sanuaury, I'm sorry she took up my time from you, I'm sorry she's still here and invading still, I'm sorry I've hurt you, I'm sorry I've made you throw up from stress, I'm sorry I've made you stop eating your food, I'm sorry you don't want to play anymore, I'm sorry we don't shower together anymore, I'm sorry now when I call you you don't respond, To my cat ๐ whom was always there for me in my darkest and loneliest days, to whom I've hurt by bringing in another kitten and now he's staving himself and losing weight. ๐ I love you ๐
Fifty shades of fucked up ๐๐
It's so hard not to think about her ๐๐
Usually youโre what makes me feel alive but recently thinking of you has killed me inside