I Was In Class Today (i Am A Highschler And I Work Alot As Well), And Since Everybody Was Talking Too

i’m actually fuming like so much right now

my family saw my gallery w how much I liked women and that im queer

and NOW they’re fucking outing me???

my sis is calling me a lesbian as a fucking insult and my WHOLE family is forcing me to come out

“oh you just came out of the closet” no i fucking didn’t?? i chose to stay closeted bc y’all wouldn’t stop labeling me and calling me horrible insults.

now i have to spend my WHOLE christmas going to cry because im being OUTED. AGAIN.

AGAIN??? and I even said I don’t own them shit and now they’re just outing me completely. telling all my family members about it, even my mom assumes i “ like ” pussy like wtf??

“you didn't even try yourself out w a man yet” I don’t need to knowing that im gay already?? how about you do it to know if youre gay too??

I just didn’t like men from a young age and I would force myself to. no matter how I would try to, I just fucking COULDNT get it.

now youre assuming im turning myself gay just because i chose to stay closeted??

“i saw your snaps and it mentioned that you like women so dont be scared”

tf you mean ”don’t be scared” bruh you out me every time to people putting me in danger.

now I have to fucking stand there, worrying im faking this and hoping to god NONE of my mates from the place I work at, TELLS them that i am QUEER.

oh my fucking god.

and whats worst is that i literally got outed yesterday and I can no longer hide from it cause it’s true and they know?$^%!^!)

i HATE people.

i shouldn't have fucking done any of this.

next time im never putting gay shit in my gallery AGAIN.

i feel so shit oh my god.

but merry fucking christmas guys.

i am literally. this close. THIS. close. to. fucking. cry. and shout.

my family has a serious obsession w me being gay and keeps forcing me to come out and out the closet. no matter how hard I say no, I REPEATEDLY hear “oh you came out? cant hide now can you?” like no bitch i was basically out years ago at a young age w all those subtle signs of queerness but brushed it off and went w being straight until my queerness became visible to me. i just wasnt so sure and i didnt know this community existed until i was like really old. back then you never knew I was GAY LMFAO.

and they keep saying “you owe me an explanation as to why you’re gay”, “if youre gay why watch kpop boy groups?” (she keeps calling them chinese and i wanna fucking smash a wall omfg), “you owe us a coming out story”, “youre not gay stop lying” etc then I said I don’t owe them shit and they REALLY said “oh but we’re your family? we should know” like.. there’s worser they said but dear god. that house is so lgbtq+ phobic, im suprised. the homophobia, lesbophobia, biphobia, transphobia, etc was REAL and showing in that HOUSE and the whole convo was just utterly disgusting.

i had my own PERSONAL experiences, lemme keep it confidential between me, myself and I.

then she says “oh but do you like 🐱 (down there) or a 🍌 (a guys below)” ? like dont fucking sexualise me??

they kept outing me multiple times,, and keep bringing up that i am a GAY PERSON.

LEAVE ME ALONE?? then my sis had the audacity to say im making up “excuses” like you’re straight? stfu you are not GAY. don’t speak for me. ever heard of unattainable men? oh ofc not cause youre so ignorant lmfao

I hate it here so much...

y’all mfs need to understand, not every person who likes women is a fucking lesbian. People can be bi and have a gf / attraction to girls. and just like how having attraction to men doesn’t mean you’re “being gay” or “straight”. you can be bi, pan, omni, etc even ace and like men. NOT EVERYONE WHO HAS SAME SEX ATTRACTION IS GAY AND/OR LESBIAN. bi, etc people EXIST.

I feel so annoyed and upset, and they SAW my vents in my phone about everything that happened to me. like don’t go through my fucking phone w/o permission??? and then my friend blocked me cause she got jealous AFTER ALL OF THAT.

and this is ALL on christmas. YESTERDAY.

ffs this christmas is fucked up bruh.

I’m never coming out.

and then the way I said people can change lgbtq labels of their sexuality, nothing bad and then my family goes “but you aren’t cake? how the fuck can you change labels lmfao stop lying”

Well done, thanks for forcing a fucking person to come out and out me numerous times.

the only way I’ll come out in when I leave this fucking dungeon. now I can’t even like women anymore now cause i feel so disgusting....

i really need help to feel comfortable in being queer. im really going through a hard time and I need some support please.

i feel so shit rn. remember the girl i had a crush on but i crushed on her man by accident but fell in love w her instead? there’s two other girls i met at lunch in december last year before christmas and she said she is bi and had an “ex girlfriend”. i told her i was attracted to girls since she asked and she went, “mmh, that’s really cute!! aww” and her and her little friend was acting so nice and sweet yesterday and then out of NOWHERE today, i literally ran to them to say hi and they ran away from me?? i waved hi and they gave me looks and walked away rudely. maybe they were in a bad mood but there’s way more. i went up to them and said “hey” and they got angry and left. i don’t know what i’ve done?? i never did anything to her and there’s this queer boy in my place who keeps being jealous and spreading rumours about me, apparently he heard i kissed a girl and literally nobody is talking to me?? no one wants to be my friend. everyone's making fun of me cause they’re assuming I am “disabled” but, then, they all kept gossiping and whispering to each other each time i walk past. i don’t know what that mf said but every time i walk past, it’s always something. I don’t know what he said yesterday but no one talks to me. like wtf??? he’s jealous extremely but... i’ve heard he’s making fun of me for having same sex attraction when he is GAY and have attraction to men aka SAME. SEX. like?? wtf bruh?? i am going to try talk to the girls on monday and if they keep ignoring me then im just gonna stfu with it.

whisper comeback is tomorrow y’all BE PREPARED TO SURVIVE

#WHISPERTHEBOYZ

technically im still jewish due to actual family and ancestor background and my dna proved that its both from my maternal (moms side) and her fathers fathers father's etc side (patrilineal) but my dad on the other hand doesnt have jews, its only my mom and her grandparents and great grandparents and greater that ARE 100% jewish

but that means.. i would need to convert to judaism since im considered a jew by maternal side to be considered FULLY

very excited though!! cant wait to learn more about judaism 🫶🏼 🫶🏼

life is so good right now

been dying to know the sides of my moms family but I know too much of my moms side and still want to know more, so we agreed to the 23andme kit and now we r waiting for the results which takes 5-6 weeks

but once of my uncles, are updating us about digging our family tree and right now, he is saying there is too many mixes in my dads family

bro said that. MY DADS side. has senegalese. swiss. italian. spanish. sweden.

thats the most recent we found and my dad sadly died so I couldnt get to ask him anything.

but being italian and spanish is shocking because he did make me visit his spanish side. my mom said EVERY time she is in that mfing house she IS ALWAYS seeing a flag that has red white and green. she didnt know what that was. but like. ITS THE WAY I WAS THINKING ABOUT VISITING SWITZERLAND AND WANTED TO LIVE THERE in the FUTURE and then boom, a gene has been found.

i love being mixed

itaewon tragedy was so messed up :(( i cried yesterday

absolutely satisfied

life is so good right now

been dying to know the sides of my moms family but I know too much of my moms side and still want to know more, so we agreed to the 23andme kit and now we r waiting for the results which takes 5-6 weeks

but once of my uncles, are updating us about digging our family tree and right now, he is saying there is too many mixes in my dads family

bro said that. MY DADS side. has senegalese. swiss. italian. spanish. sweden.

thats the most recent we found and my dad sadly died so I couldnt get to ask him anything.

but being italian and spanish is shocking because he did make me visit his spanish side. my mom said EVERY time she is in that mfing house she IS ALWAYS seeing a flag that has red white and green. she didnt know what that was. but like. ITS THE WAY I WAS THINKING ABOUT VISITING SWITZERLAND AND WANTED TO LIVE THERE in the FUTURE and then boom, a gene has been found.

i love being mixed

it is officially lesbian national day where it’s visibility of lesbians of every gender identity and some sexualities (NOT BI OR PAN ILL EXPLAIN IN A SECOND!!!) gets to celebrate!! transmasc lesbians, cisgender lesbians, nonbinary lesbians, lesbians who are aroace, lesbians who are asexual, lesbians who are aromantic, lesbians who are poly and want women for the rest of their life, audhd lesbians, autistic lesbians, dyslexic lesbians, lesbians with mental health/illness, lesbians who are transgender, he/him lesbians, he/they lesbians, she/her lesbians, lesbians who are demigirl, she/they lesbians, lesbians who use neopronouns, lesbians who are xenogenders, neurodivergent lesbians,lesbians who are bigender, and so MANY MORE. Happy lesbian day and please enjoy it well with your partners/girlfriends !!!

- from a fellow lesbian

I like the moon

Came to a sign that I could be asexual.

Now...