However Many Cold Winters And Hot Summers Go By, I'll Wait For You Patiently. However Many Tears I Cry,

You were right in front of me all along

How could I miss such a pretty face?

I'm sorry it took so long to look your way

Maybe you just weren't meant for me

I'm sorry my heart belongs to the moon

I'm waiting patiently for him

I'll pray till my knees are bruised

Till my eyes can no longer cry

Till my eyes are dry

Till my love comes to me

Till my heart is no longer in pain

Till my prayers are filled with love and joy

Till my fleeting mind can stay still and feel at home

Till my body no longer rocks me to sleep

Till my heart no longer cries me to sleep

When will you come to me?

I love you so much already it hurts

Please make the pain go away

I need you to come get me out right now

I need you to come wrap me up in your love now

I want to leave the feelings of reckless and abandoned

Tragic yet magic

My heart is a muscle but it’s not getting stronger

I want to wake up one day without my heart sinking to my feet

Instead with you in my arms

With your laugh tickling my brain

With each breath you take I steal a kiss

With each exhale in my lungs

Till I'm filled with every fibre of your being

I want you to devour me

I want to devour you

Subtle yet achingly obvious

My love for you is endless

Somehow, I still love you more.

I always come back to you

You're stuck in my head

and I can't get you out of it

I can never stray away

You know I always go back to you

I go back to you

I go back to you

You're stuck in my heart

And I can't get you out of it

I can never seem to catch a break

I'm yours to take

You know I always go back to you

I go back to you

I go back to you

I know it's forward but its true

I'll always go back to you

I'm just a fucked up girl who’s looking for my own peace of mind. Don't assign me yours.

I love you already more then my heart can bare. It’s heavy but I’ll carry the weight until it reaches you. You take mine and I’ll take yours. Then I’ll feel safe and warm. By your side. Be mine. My love. I love you like crazy. Always.

I go to sleep to the thought of you. One day we will meet, and I will love you forever. My one and only. My other half. My Muse. My love.

Call out to me

When you’re ready I'll be there

Waiting for you

Till we meet again, my love.

Dear Guardian Angel,

My gums are bleeding

I still haven't eaten

Do you pity me?

Please don't

I do this to myself

I self sabotage when things get better and act like it's the end of the world

I dug my own grave

Do you feel anything at all…

You were assigned to me

I'm sorry

My observer

For all the things you've seen

For all my thoughts you hear

For all the words I utter

And still I hope you can see that this is not truly me

I am is whatever I've seen on tv

I'm a chameleon

I put on a new mask and change it when it cracks

I'm lost

Who am I?

I’m gone

Or am I just done

Sitting with my thoughts alone

In this empty home

Father ignores and mothers on the other side of the world

I'm sure you already know

I mean you know me better than me

Stuck in my apocalypse

Hollow, dark, empty, incomplete, disguised, loveless

Distorted with the painful echo of my screams and cries.

Begging for an escape from my capturer

Me.

Every night just when i look up at the moon, i wonder if he’s looking at it too; and i don’t know what to do.