I Have Many Thoughts On Lee Gilyoung And Kim Dokja But I Fear I May Explode If I Try To Articulate Them

i have many thoughts on lee gilyoung and kim dokja but i fear i may explode if i try to articulate them fully

there is something to be said in the way kdj and orv as a whole really tends to sidestep lgy. like kdj cares about lgy of course. and orv obviously wants us to care about lgy or else they would have killed him off for shock value or fridged him way earlier than they did or something. and yet he remains in the main story but still on the sidelines

i think there is something very sad to be said about how kdj very openly tends to love on/lavish attention onto sys and like consciously acknowledge that she is, in many ways, his daughter, yet doesnt really do the same for lgy. there is something very sad to be said about the way kdj tends to refer to sys individually, but only to lgy in the collective "kids." there is something very sad in the way kdj saw himself in lgy the first time he saw him on the subway and saw him both as a boy to be saved and a tool to be used and i dont think their relationship ever really recovered from this.

like he cares about them because he doesnt want to be a shitty father-figure but hes a shitty father-figure because he cares. and while sys is saved from the brunt of this to a degree because shes a character so he can just mimic how yjh treats her in worldlines where she's saved and get by on that, lgy doesnt have that kind of support. lgy is not a fictional wunderkid or pitiable, fragile little girl (however true or false that assessment of sys is). hes a snot nosed foul mouthed violent boy obsessed with bugs and death and kdj, i think, knows he ought to care for him but he doesnt know how and doesnt bother to learn and that, i believe, the not-bothering that is, is what truly incriminates him as a shitbag father. hes afraid so he doesnt try and lgy spends 90% of orv being terrified kdj secretly hates him and the worst part is hes almost right

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2 months ago

Discord has added generative AI features to servers.

Here are THREE THINGS you need to do today.

1️⃣ YOUR SERVER

Go into server settings -> roles -> Default permissions

Search for "external apps" and disable it

A screenshot from Discord showing "use external apps" disabled in role settings.

2️⃣ YOUR FEEDBACK

Access Discord support -> https://support.discord.com/hc/en-us/requests/new

Go into Help & Support > Feedback/New Feature Request

Denounce generative AI and request the feature be removed. Bring up privacy concerns for yourself, your data, and for minors.

You will get an automatic reply to this request- PLEASE REPLY TO THE EMAIL TO PUSH IT TO THE TEAM or else it will get discarded.

3️⃣ ON MOBILE

Access your app store

Leave a 1 star review and publicly denounce generative AI and Discord's use of it

Reblog this to spread the word, I'm tired of the enshittification of the things I use in my day to day life.

2 months ago
The Conversations These People Have Are SO Deranged. In The Span Of A Single Page

The conversations these people have are SO deranged. In the span of a single page

1.Han Sooyoung says she will seduce Yoo Joonghyuk, being delusionally overconfidant considering he has killed her once already but go off girlboss, live your #femalemanipulator #femmefatale fantasy

2. Kim Dokja looks her up and down and tells her she is 'so flat and so short being attracted to you is pedophilia & I know for a fact Yoo Joonghyuk is not a pedophile" which is SHADE that could only come from a gay man

3. They both recall the last time they met Yoo Joonghyuk. Kim Dokja casually says 'you know I beat him up last time I saw him so he probably wants to kill me lol' and Han Sooyoung strokes her neck and wistfully reminisces about her own beheading (??)

What I'm saying is that there's something very wrong with all three of them that is SO compelling. This is how you write character interactions

3 months ago
A digital black and white fan comics for Omniscient reader's viewpoint.
A shot of a room in a dilapidated building. Next to a wall, behind falling ceiling beams, wires and boxes is an intricate tall mirror. Two shadows stretch across the floor, their dialog fit into the mirror.
-Do you ever wonder if you could save him, Joonghyuk-ssi?
-I was... unconcious.
-Fair.
The talking people are now visible, it's Yoo Sangah and Yoo Joonghyuk.
Yoo Sangah's face us cut off, her eyes consistently hidden, and while she is smiling, it's unclear if the smile reaches her eyes. Behind her Yoo Joonghyuk looks tense. 
Yoo Sangah: I just... wish i was stronger.
Yoo Sangah, now getting closer to the mirror: But it seems that stregth... comes with a price.
Mirror's surface is distorted, as if something is trying to crawl out of it.
A shot of Yoo Sangah from behind, frames' borders cutting through her, separating the beats of her monologue.
Yoo Sangah: I mistakenly thought... That whatever he paid would not put him into such a debt.
Yoo Joonghyuk reaching out to her, but his hands are bound by the belts of Yoo Sangah's suit, stopping him from helping.
A shot from the side, Yoo Sangah is leaning towards the mirror, allowing the emerging hands grab onto her, close her eyes. All those hands wear white coat's sleeves, show same scars as Kim Dokja's hands. Yoo Joonghyuk behind Yoo Sangah is panicked, trying to stop her from drowning in the mirror.
Yoo Sangah: Turns out i was delusional.
Yoo Sangah is now slowly absorbed by the mirror, half of her body hidden in the black surface. Around her there are many ripples and hands emerging, moving towards her. All of them have same scars. Yoo Sangah looks tired, devastated even.
Yoo Sangah:  He paid the price and became...
A shot of hands. Yoo Sangah's hands accepting a clean blade on the left, and Kim Dokja's giving a bloodied one on the right.
Yoo Sangah: ...a constellation. Should i... be scared of him now?
Yoo Joonghyuk is cradling Yoo Sangah's hand gently, comforting her. She is still half way in the mirror.
Yoo Sangah: But i still miss him.
From above there's a huge figure descending, with only white eyes and white coat visible, it's black hand howering behind Yoo Sangah's head, it's black star - behind Yoo Joonghyuk's head. It's Demon King of Salvation.
His hand cradles Yoo Sangah's head gently, carefully, and Yoo Sangah is touching it in the same manner, looking up at the constellation out of frame lovingly. 
Yoo Sangah: I miss the humanity he lost. I miss the inhumanity he found.
Yoo Joonghyuk's face is cut off by the border, his expression unclear: But what if he is no longer himself.
A hand cradling Yoo Sangah's head is missing, yet she is still holding the same pose, her hair folding in the air supported by the missing hand. She looks unsettling, smiling with wide open eyes, quiet.
She then turns away, nuzzling into the invisible hand, tears in her eyes, her gentle fingers tracing invisible ones.
Yoo Sangah: I suppose it would mean "Love whatever is left".
Yoo Joonghyuk is left in front of the mirror. There're ripples on its surface along with Yoo Sangah's words.
"He deserves".
Yoo Joonghyuk's head hangs low.
"At least".
Yoo Joonghyuk steps into the mirror, following Yoo Sangah's steps.
"This much".
No one is left in front of the mirror.

Drew a silly little comics for hallorvween on twitter ^^

2 months ago

Pi - π!

Pi day pi day pi day pi day!!! I know ~45? Not one hundred percent sure but here they are in gradually increasing digit span:

3.1

3.14

3.141

3.1415

3.14159

3.141592

3.1415926

3.14159265

3.141592653

3.1415926535

3.14159265358

3.141592653589

3.1415926535897

3.14159265358979

3.141592653589793

3.1415926535897932

3.14159265358979323

3.141592653589793238

3.1415926535897932384

3.14159265358979323846

3.141592653589793238462

3.1415926535897932384626

3.14159265358979323846264

3.141592653589793238462643

3.1415926535897932384626433

3.14159265358979323846264338

3.141592653589793238462643383

3.1415926535897932384626433832

3.14159265358979323846264338327

3.141592653589793238462643383279

3.1415926535897932384626433832795

3.14159265358979323846264338327950

3.141592653589793238462643383279502

3.1415926535897932384626433832795028

3.14159265358979323846264338327950288

3.141592653589793238462643383279502884

3.1415926535897932384626433832795028841

3.14159265358979323846264338327950288416

And that’s it! If you want them chunked by how I remember them then:

3.141592 6535 8979 323 846264 3383 279 50 288 416

Not even groupings, but that’s just how it stuck :)

Learnt majority of them last year so please tell me if I got one wrong :)


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A hand reaching towards a building. Through the window, you can see a figure with their face scribbled out, who has a star above their head.

The stars were so pretty as he fell. It was like time slowed, and all he could do was stare. He would be one of them, according to some people. A star in the bright sky.

Despite it being only the afternoon, there were so many stars visible, their colours bleeding through the sunny blue to form myriads of colours, greens and purples and pinks. It was so beautiful, the sight almost made what he had done worth it.

He just wanted to be free. Free of the taunts, the interviews, the memories. Kim Dokja could only take so much, and this was where the curtain would close.

He hadn’t intended for this to be his course of action. He had gone to the window to get some air in the brief lapse between classes and his bullies, but his eyes had caught on that sky. That ethereal, enrapturing sky. He wanted to be part of it. He so desperately did.

Before he knew it, the window was open, and he was half out of it. His legs swung, to and fro, to and fro, all his attention still on the great above.

A gust of window brushed past him, he could feel someone staring at him from behind, but could not bring himself to look away. Perhaps he wouldn’t feel it if he did.

The sky called out to him, and he reached out for it. He reached to the point where his balance could not compensate, and he fell. He kept reaching.

He looked up at that sky, and as the wind rushed through the air, he couldn’t look away.

The brightest star of all, leaking through the canvas like a stain, came from right where he had just sat, where a person now stood, a person who looked just like him.

His attention had left the sky. The pain swiftly came, with a sickening crack as his head hit a branch, taking his consciousness, and with another to his chest, his pulse.


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3 months ago

[AU Way of Survival MMORPG] 🐟 0th YJH 🦑 KDJ is still KDJ

[AU Way Of Survival MMORPG] 🐟 0th YJH 🦑 KDJ Is Still KDJ
[AU Way Of Survival MMORPG] 🐟 0th YJH 🦑 KDJ Is Still KDJ

I feel that there’s something about the fact that so many orv fanfictions start with that same subway scenario, it playing near verbatim to the original story, ending with no blood being put upon Kim Dokja’s hands.

Everything always comes back to the subway, be it Yoo Joonghyuk’s regressions, the Most Ancient Dream, Surya. And so many fan works start there. So many significant things happen there.

It is the beginning and the end of so many, an ouroboros in its masterpiece.


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2 months ago
I Finally Finished My Concept Of Their Lion Looks, And I’m Really Happy With How They Turned Out! It
I Finally Finished My Concept Of Their Lion Looks, And I’m Really Happy With How They Turned Out! It
I Finally Finished My Concept Of Their Lion Looks, And I’m Really Happy With How They Turned Out! It

I finally finished my concept of their lion looks, and I’m really happy with how they turned out! It seems like I'm better at drawing animals than people Maybe this is the kind of fanart I can really focus on xD /who is interested in this besides me/ I have some more ideas for art with them


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4 weeks ago
uk petition to not restrict healthcare to transgender folks.

Petition: Do not stop transgender people from receiving care in mainstream hospital wards
Petitions - UK Government and Parliament
The previous government proposed changes to the NHS constitution which would mean transgender hospital patients in England may not be treate

Well fucks? Get to it!

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