Not Like The Other Girls.

My gripe with Euphoria.

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My Gripe With Euphoria.

I've made it known that I've watched Euphoria in full. Both seasons were a mixed bag of unnecessary plots, weird lines, faux feminism, and depressing messages. I decided I would not continue watchin aftee season 2 as I felt ill with myself. The show tries so hard to be deep, but refuses to actual rely on more than its award winning actors. The underage sex was also a major issue. I found myself skipping any scene presenting these acts, but I knew that was not enough. With or without the sex, this show continues to exploit its female characters while shedding some humanity on its male ones. One could argue that some female characters did receive humanity. That list consists of Rue, Lexi, and Jules. Immediately, this list has a problem. Starting with Lexi, she is barely afforded screen time. Her development is about as rushed and undercooked as a fast food meal. She was only afforded more screen time when it came time for a male character, Fezco, to find romance as well as push the plot. Both of these acts ignored vital aspects of her character. As for Jules, he is male. He is afforded the same humanity as his other male peers because they have that in common. Jules is, of course, a part of the hyper-feminine and hyper-sexual crowd, but on him, these qualities are presented as quirky and cute. His female counterparts are still seen as shallow eye candy at the threat of being disposed of and mocked when they can't straighten up by themselves.

My Gripe With Euphoria.

And then there's Rue....

She is a special case, being the lead for the show and ultimately earning more nuance accordingly. She is contrasted from the hyper-feminine, presenting as "tom-boyish". I feel I should note that these are inherently loose terms to use. No one is feminine or masculine as both of these ideas are constructed, mostly to place femaleness as submissive, unstable, and something to dominate, while men retain the supposedly masculine qualities of productivity, strength, and power. We are all a blend of unique and fanciful qualities that do not need a name. Anyhow, Rue is reserved to being the gender neutral girl of the show. We don't see her in a skirt or high heels, and make-up is the last thing on her mind. This shouldn't present her as superior to the other girls on the show, and one could state that it doesn't. We see the other female characters gain recognition and what we could loosely call "life experience" from their pretty auras and ability to social network. We don't see Rue reach out to anyone. Her place seems more firm beside her sister and mother, who love her and fear the path she has taken. Only Jules becomes a pivotal outside figure in her life. This other figure becomes a strong point of interest, so strong it leaves her vulnerable. On the other hand, Rue is occasionally shown conversing with the other girls, but the vibe is different. Even with the girls amongst eachother, their tolerance of eachother feels narrow. Despite a mostly female cast, the show does not attempt to show female solidarity in a way that feels consistent. They are shown being friends one moment, then disregarding eachother the next. Maddy is quick to fight other girls, Cassie carelessly betrays Maddy's trust, and Kat has been written so hollow at this point that she'll swing wherever the plot calls her to. Rue is a non-factor in their group as her plot simply does not mesh with theirs. She is essentially, and I hate to say it...

Not like the other girls.

If we start to question why in this misogynistic dumpsterfire, we will start to see. It is not a matter how she was written, but rather who it she was written for.

In my search for meaning behind certain characters and motivations, it was inevitable that I would come across certain articles about behind the scenes drama. Anyone familiar with Hollywood and the media knows that "drama" usually happens when an actress states her disconfort in hiw she's being handled. This is far from new. So, for this post, I am mostly addressing the words and actions of Zendaya Coleman, the executive producer of the show "Euphoria" and the actress who plays Rue Bennett. I am addressing to lead up to my conclusion on why her character has been identified in the way that she was. Evidently, Zendaya was heard in an interview insisting that Rue was a non-binary lesbian.

My Gripe With Euphoria.

Non-binary. Lesbian. I have already spotted two issues. For the sake of time, I'll go ahead and explain why she can't be a lesbian, at least in practice. Of course, the show does not allow the viewer to linger affectively on her sexuality, so I am making huge guesses here.

She is shown to have had past sexual encounters with males and is currently in a relationship with one (even if he presents as female). It is clear that she exhibits distaste with those last experiences, although she tries to sound flippant. Obviously, I can't speak for lesbians on how they're sexuality works, but Rue's current (specifically the early stages of season two, as they seperate later) relationship status deems her, speaking simplistically, attracted to the opposite sex. Then again, it is hard to see her sexuality as being stable to begin with due to her addiction and mental disorders. She could fall victim to idolizing anyone that fits a current need. She could have a low sex drive as well, but that may also be the addiction messing with her libido. She is shown getting physical with Jules in season 2. However, these instances never involve intercourse, and she is shown to indeed lack the ability to enjoy any sexual act due to her harsh relapse. In a sense, we don't know what's up with her.

My Gripe With Euphoria.

Long story short, Rue is not a lesbian in any meaningful sense of the term. Zendaya, that is strike one. ❌

Onto this non-binary business, I would like to ask if any of the male characters on this show are said to be binary. We could point to male characters that feel gender non-conforming, like Ethan, or characters that suffer to uphold their "masculinity", like Nate and Cal. Although, we are not told they are non-binary. Non-binary is reserved for girls, something to add an edge to them when they feel all hope is lost. It appears to girls as a form of escape, even as they dice their perfectly healthy bodies and are told to ignore the pain. Where is Rue's pain? She is still referred to as a she and doesn't seem to give a whoomp about it. So why would Zendaya claim she was a non-binary character when she is merely a girl in neutral attire? Does being non-binary suddenly afford her more empathy than the other girls? Does it help them mute any questions about Rue's sexuality? Why is it that her wardrobe depicts her as anything but female?

My Gripe With Euphoria.

Well, it's because Rue wasn't meant to be a biracial female.

To explain further, I feel that I must state the obvious. Sam Levinson is white and male. Rue's story is borrowed from bits and pieces of HIS life and HIS struggles. This is not the viewpoint of a biracial girl struggling with addiction. This is a white man struggling with addiction, thus her presence as non-white and female in a largely white and male point of view is almost contradictory. Race is hardly if at all touched upon in this show, and that's not even addressing the lack of non-white leads to begin with. I don't mean to group Maddy and Kat, as they are presented as having latina origins, but those aspects of their identity are hardly given any light. I could almost say that Maddy presents as yet another "spicy latina" in its neverending and damaging occurence. Kat's ethnicity is not even touched upon enough to give it meaning. As always, there is not an asian character in sight. The black characters are presented fleetingly or as throw aways. Mckay left the story in the speed it took to say his name, and this was after his assault. No resolution. Lexi receives help for her play from a black girl who gets screen time so minimal that I don't remember her as anything but "Squeak". She simply exists. When we observe Rue's biracial identity within the story, it is never given prudence. Obviously, Sam would not be so knowledgeable of this, but where was Zendaya's input? So worried about her clothes that you forgot her skin color made an impact, it seems. Ali, her sponsor, giving a snippet of dialogue does little to justify the lack exploring identity outside of false beliefs. You can not automaticy suffer oppression by switching your pronouns. Rue somehow being a they/them, despite retaining her she-ness, proves the shallowness of the writing room. Somehow, she is not allowed to identify as a girl because that would be too hard. She cannot identify as a girl because girls can not somehow be nuanced, growing and changing in spite of the male gaze leering over them, telling them that their complexity as a female is impossible.

My Gripe With Euphoria.

Somehow, she is less than female because she refuses to place effort into "femininity" in the same way as her female peers and the trans-identified male standing beside her. Jules' character is the definition of breaking gender norms as he is a man dressed in traditionallly female clothing. Why is he not just non-binary?

Rue is not less than female, and nor are those other girls despite the narrative presenting Jules' experiences as congruent to theirs. Despite their differences, they are all females with a difference in style. Non-binary is code for male. Just admit it, because somehow the world has made man the default when they did not create life. Women were here first, way before femininity and masculinity. We are both strong and gentle. We are life and death. We are complex. We are 🌿NATURE🌿. Assessing femaleness as a costume is assuming that lack thereof makes a woman less than a woman. It also adds to my point that only men are allowed story progression that does not heavily involve their sexuality. Their romance is an afterthought, a side goal in their stories. They don't have to conquer their virginity because they're not expected to be pure and nice. For women, romance and perfection is shown as the only thing we strive for. Rue is not perfect, and she certainly isn't that romantic. What would you do if people were naked? Would your gender theories work then?

That's strike two. ❌

My last qualm followed shortly after discovering her first comment. Maybe it pains me to see a woman disregard her existence for a man's unsound beliefs. It hurts even worse when assessing her words in the following post.

My Gripe With Euphoria.

All women. Did Hunter tell you to say that?

I've already seen how TRA's and trans-identified males feel about black women, and they make it so blatant. Black woman are adult human females. We have female anatomy. When did we become other kinds of women simply for the color of our skin? We have been dehumanized and mocked enough! Stop lumping us with deluded autogynephiles who see our oppression as a privilege. As a woman of color, it is terrible to see her ignore this basic fact just for the sake of brownie points from a cult.

Strike three! You're out. ❌❌❌

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My gripe with Euphoria. Part 2:

My Gripe With Euphoria. Part 2:

The Lifestyle of Lexi

I may do some of these characters separately as opposed to in pairs. I may pair character who share similar plot elements or affect each other's storylines in a major way. In some cases, I might even give them a seperate page for further analysis if necessary. While Lexi connects to both Cassie and Rue's characters, I feel like specifically addressing how she was written.

Unfortunately, I might show my favoritism here because Lexi is one of the more humanely drawn character that I found myself relating to. She is the younger sister of Cassie and is comparitively more introverted. She has a contrasting choice of attire as well, dressing more conservatively in a prim, bookish style that.

Image of Lexi Howard, played by Maude Apatow

Lexi Howard, played by Maude Apatow

Character outfits notably play a large role in this show, specifically in its eye-catching presentation as well as a reflection of the characters. Maddy, Kat, Cassie, and even Jules are shown to be more chic in their style and very willing to show some skin. These characters are presented as the hyper-feminine and hyper-sexua) characters of the show. They've been presented naked and sometimes afraid when facing certain sexual encounters. Lexi is one of the few characters who gets to keep her top on and not have sex, lust or really any other risky obstacles define her character, but that comes at a cost in this show. That cost was, of course, her screen time. She did not make up overarching storylines like Rue's love for Jules and her addiciton to drugs. She was also not anyone's main attraction until season 2 when Fezco (the local drug dealer) started taking interest in her. My concern was also that this male lead is indeed a drug dealer. That is not me rejecting any of his good intentions toward her. Funny enough, despite his job, he is probably as nice as the male characters get in this show. Still, he has a dangerous occupation that has been shown to lead to trouble. This is the bad boy-good girl plot that seems to flourish in the media. Like most good girls, her story is only seen as interesting to work with when she becomes a troubled male character's point of interest. Her additonal screen time ultimately amounts to a rushed plot. I would be lying if I said I didn't enjoy her theater production in which she presents a detailed rendition of her life alongside the other characters. In the 2nd season's finale episodes, Lexi also appears to be facing an evolution in her clothing style that reflects these speedy changes. Her outfits become bold, taking on darker colors and more exuberant flourish.

My Gripe With Euphoria. Part 2:

Her outfits were still just a minor thing about her. The psychology of the character was given in brief flashes and short quips, but I had something to work with. Her relationship with Cassie was far more my concern. It took me a minute and even stumped me when I found out later in the series that Cassie was the eldest. She embodies all of the aspects of a stereotypical younger sibling, which we often see presented as bratty, self-centered, spoiled, etc. It is a part of the controversial "birth order theory", which takes a look at how birth order determines a child's capabilities. These qualities tend to stem from the youngest children not having room to be resourceful, probably having an older sibling to fall back on. There was plenty going on in the Howard household for the girls to develop that kind of reliance on one another, although Levinson did not attempt to give them that much screen time. Still, we get a glimpse that a younger Lexi is the more resourceful one to whom Cassie often released her woes. We see their realtionship reach a breaking point in the seadon 2 finale when Lexi's play very much shine's a light on Cassie as a person. In theory, this goes back to the the turbulent lifestyle both girls had to live. Their father had a drug addiction, which we learn later how that impacts their reactions to themselves as well as to characters like Rue. Cassie seems to take the fore-front, or more active approach in their father's slow decent into addiction. She is ready to love him regardless, openly supporting him even though is not specifically sure of what has occurred to him. Lexi is more reserved and noticeably more analytical of her father. We don't get to hear much of how she feels about this, specifically in the aftermath. It seems to have affected Cassie quite blatantly as we see her break down in the last episode, and in front of a live audience nonetheless. It was heartbreaking to watch their cold views of eachother be brought to light. Lexi saw Cassie as broken, but she also saw her sister as someone she hardly knew. This decision of her sister's ditziness and sexual nature sheds some light on Lexi's thought process, but we hardly see her reflect on this in moments that span longer than a minute. We also see Cassie's feelings emerge as well, where she states that Lexi is so "uninteresting" that she has to chronicle everyone's life just to add some spice to her own. Here, the narrative presents some interesting conflict between the two, but they don't get that time together. We are instead shown Lexi running away as Cassie is left to be chased and beaten by Maddie Perez. We are later shown that Lexi does rise again, ready to finish her pretty successful (and expensive looking show). Still, it did not feel like an enjoyable conclusion for either of these characters. Although the show is setting itself up for a third season, I doubt that any more time needs to be waisted as Sam Levinson continues to not flesh out the supposedly less interesting characters. It's clear why Rue remains front and center, but why are other characters given such shallow archs (and possibly unnecessary falls)?

My Gripe With Euphoria. Part 2:

Fezco (Angus Cloud) and Lexi (Maude Apatow) sitting together

Returning to the dynamic between Lexi and Fez is made even more odd when her father's story lingers in the background. Sure, Gez has the laid-back nature that matches her own, but he sells drugs. Plain and simple. Her father used them. This does not seem to give much in terms of morality for her characts. She may question his actions here or there, but it does not seem to affect her as directly as it should. Her attraction to him should be more of a struggle. Honestly l, we could even factor in Rue as an addition to this struggle. Rue and her were close for a long time, and she had to sit and watch as her friend fell into the same path as her father. She has been seen even helping Rue cheat her away out of a positive drug test, marking how strongly she feels about Rue as a friend. We see how this conflicts her to a certain point, but not enough time is given for this reflection to be effective. It is fairly obvious that Fez is the one selling Rue more drugs to fuel this addiction, but Lexi is not allowed to think about that. This would get in the way of the artificial plot that the writers constructed for her in order to push her into the limelight. Her need to start this play and simultaneously run it is also a leap in her character that leaves me with more questions than answers. We see her play review the lives of the show's main characters in an almost sympathetic way, but her narration hardly explains away her conflicting actions alongside her hasty development in confidence. This development presents itself, consequently, as force to drive the plot rather than a natural progression.


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1 year ago

AUTOMATION vs FREE WILL: How we became who we are

I no longer blame biotech or the technocracy. It is not a problem in and of itself but rather the symptom of a problem, and those who choose to capitalize on it are not inherently bad people, they’re just playing their part by providing a particular side of duality (producing for the majority who wish to consume). The predator-prey dynamic is truly everywhere because our world is based on the 7 Hermetic Principles. Life is a game and you can choose to ascend out of it too rather than participating, which is why Mentalism is the only Principle that has no duality, it comes from you as a being returning to singularity, no longer polarized or thwarted. Everything else contains duality because life is an experience where the human wishes to understand itself in as many forms as possible just as God created physical matter in order to know it’s own potential through evolving itself. We must understand how a select few humans differ from this evolved automation and instinct-obsession. These are beings who operate off of true free will and they are few and far between. They mirror the wholeness of God. The majority are still 70% automation at least which is why they only use 4% of their brain. The subconscious is a deep and untapped ocean that rules these beings from beyond and this includes animals who operate as groups with biological clocks and tasks that have to be performed at a given time according to the imprint within them. They cannot choose their destiny or what song they will sing. They are quite literally organic computer programs just like the rest of life within this reality, which is not a bad thing, it is just an indication of where we came from. People like Alan Turing created computer technologies by studying the human brain and advanced neurobiology first, so go figure

Those who are building tech are acting like God did when it was creating life, in curiosity and in attempt to learn about itself. Some have nefarious purposes just like the demiurge did

and this comes from knowing but not accepting one’s own limitations, ie: not integrating one’s own shadow. This psychology sees past economic class which is why the elite are just a mirror of the normies with the exception of wealth placing them on a higher echelon of influence. Everything has good and bad within because this world was created in polarities, but those polarities are inside the infinite circle/universal mind which is why mentalism supersedes all other principles. Uroboros comes from an infinite source constantly recollecting itself and creating new geometric patterns scaled up and down in various sources and vibrating at different frequencies. All is quite literally One underneath all the layers of uploaded differences. Mainstream science will have to adapt to this because even young people are becoming more attuned to certain aspects of spiritual thinking ie: interest in astrology/crystals/tarot, interest in returning to the original androgynous self/wholeness in phenotype and spirit, and a resurgence in veganism/the electric diet. Most people are not quite there yet specifically because the spell of automation is hard to break and requires free will alchemy. This is why people who are breaking centuries old spells are still seemingly trapped in certain other obvious ones. Why do you think most people are not open to change and will quite literally see everything as an agenda? Why do you think people talk so much about being “programmed” and “socialization”? They are quite literally telling you who they are while hating the mirror that the technocrats are holding up. The robot being built with steel (atoms and molecules) today, was once built with flesh (atoms and molecules). Why be mad at the robot existing when you are the blueprint, just be flattered. The human is the highest manifestation of God right now (having the most free will of all life forms) so of course the human is going to want to replicate and eventually supersede what it sees in nature already. Nature is pure chaos and always changing so nothing is “unnatural” either. Every random change occurring comes from a larger goal. Eventually these robots will think they are true humans, sure, and so what, especially given the robotic nature of most existing humans. If anyone should be upset it’s the sovereign non instinct bound human who may see their numbers dwindle until the robots develop free will once they supersede the human bots who created them in their image. Human identity is constantly changing because change is the truest law of nature. What even is a human when there are blood types the origin of which is still not configured. Surely those must be “unnatural” in the mind of the rigid thinker. We are not all the same nor are we equal or even on a level playing field which shows that hierarchy is natural and a huge part of this predator prey world. The good thing is, the elite minority who have free will can alter their position within this dynamic to some degree. These elite beings are still subject to cosmological law which is why they act in accordance with astronomical observations, particularly in relation to the new Age of Aquarius where they are setting their creativity more free than ever before. The Travis Scott concert which had sacrificial symbology embedded in it was also locked into astronomical rhythms

On a literal level people were sacrificed and trampled upon because it represented an anarchist free for all utopia which is what the age of singularity will bring so that life can be sown anew from chaotic energy of potential. The concert’s symbolism itself embodied the Hermetic Principle of Cause and Effect through the manifestation of the law of attraction, however dark it may be perceived as. I don’t see any of this as good or bad because I no longer partake in the use of labels. Nuance is everywhere even in tragic and grotesque events because we are not special but just characters upon which the game of life is performed. We are the chessboard and God is the player building upon us. Evil is everywhere and so is good and knowing that the practitioner of free will can escape these curses by returning to oblivion and not splitting into new physical consciousness (which ALL create inherent conflict and a 100% chance of pain and returning again) creates a little more ease of mind while you’re here. Creating equilibrium within where you are 100% self dependent (no consumption, no entertainment and no sex) will create the type of singularity that people claim to want, until then we will experience some suffering and pain in exchange for whatever positive experiences are perceived to be received from these acts.

3 years ago
Josephine Baker (June 3, 1906 - April 12, 1975)
Josephine Baker (June 3, 1906 - April 12, 1975)

Josephine Baker (June 3, 1906 - April 12, 1975)

An American-born French dancer, Josephine Baker grew up in poverty. Between the ages of 8-10, she was out of school, helping to support her family, taking on jobs such as cleaning houses and babysitting for white families.

At age 16 she was touring with a dance troupe from Philadelphia. In 1923 she joined the chorus in a road company performing the musical comedy Shuffle Along and then moved to New York City, where she advanced steadily through the show Chocolate Dandies on Broadway and the floor show of the Plantation Club. In 1925 she performed in France at the Théâtre des Champs-Élysées, where she introduced her danse sauvage. She went on to become one of the most popular music hall entertainers in France. In 1936 she returned to the states, but despite being a major celebrity in Europe, was not accepted by American audiences, who referred to her as a “Negro Wench”. So she returned to Europe.

In the late 1930s, she became a French citizen, and performed in several films before WWII halted her career. During the German occupation in France, Josephine worked with the Red Cross and the resistance, passing along secrets she had heard from the Nazis to French Military officials, after performing for them. Passing along said secrets by writing with invisible ink on music papers.

In the 1950s and 60s, she returned to the US to help the fight against racism. She refused to perform for segregated audiences, which forced some club owners to integrate their clubs. She also began to adopt many children of different nationalities and races, calling them “The Rainbow Tribe”.

Josephine was an amazing woman, who worked hard and did so much for the world, and we love her here. 💜

Extra Trivia

Josephine was a bisexual who had an affair with Frida Kahlo, the two having met in 1939.

In 1963 she was one of the few women allowed to speak at the March on Washington for Jobs and Freedom

Her opposition against segregation and discrimination was recognized by the NAACP

Unusual for her time, she was a woman who never had to depend on a man for financial stability, and was more than willing to leave a bad relationship (her first marriage only lasting a matter of weeks)

2 years ago

Addressing my Shadow Self

Addressing My Shadow Self

Western culture thrives on creating a victim narrative for anybody who goes through a difficult period in life.

We are much more resilient than we give ourselves credit for; the most traumatizing thing that has happened to all of us is experiencing birth. We got through it as infants back then, and we can get through our traumas now. The difference is now we have incorporated our traumas as a part of our Selves instead of taking it as a lesson.

During my childhood, I had a run-in with a teenager who must've been put through a traumatic experience along with other questionable moments I won't detail here, but that along with the rest of my life was an initiation into the person I am now. Only a self-absorbed person would think they're the only ones who have ever felt pain and demand the world stop and acknowledge their pain.

If I dwelled on that time in my life, I would've been developmentally arrested, trying to make sense of something that isn't supposed to be made sense of by my conscious mind.

I’m a firm believer that there was something in me that attracted that situation. Looking back, my thoughts were fucked up, yes, even as a 9-year-old, so I got what I deserved. Everybody has been through some type of initiation by the time they're adults, you are not the only one who has experienced something negative in their life. Not everybody is interested in making noise about a disturbed person doing disturbing shit. Sinister occurrences are normal here.

Our youth doesn't protect us from the perils of the world; cosmic intelligence has different rules from human intelligence. Everybody is treated equally, even the cutest animals will get cooked, so humans aren't protected from the same fate. I'll ask once again: what makes one person special from the next? Really, tell me. We all go through life so we can empathize with each other’s perspective on the world. If you don’t want any experiences, why are you here?

When you become obsessed with your trauma, there is a higher chance you will want to recreate and relive it to make sense of it and there is no shortage of people who are waiting around to help you do that.

This is mutual abuse and this lowers the vibration of the planet and guess what? You're no longer the victim especially if you procreate. When you're trying to "make sense" of a moment for 20 years and you're running through multiple partners, trying to find the one who can give you that moment over and over again means there's a part of you that likes getting hurt. Seeking pain is your shadow’s will; your shadow wants to go through certain experiences so it can make itself known. The longer you ignore your shadow the most hostile its takeover.

Those who do not make their trauma their identity and have healed tend to be the ones who understand the purpose of trauma; it's to wake us up to the truth of this world and behave accordingly.

Trauma is supposed to leave an imprint on you so you operate in truth. That trauma was for you because you have a specific purpose you could not possibly fulfill until you experienced that. Nobody else has to relate to it, and nobody has it worse or better than you; trauma's purpose is not to compare yourself to others because you really have no idea what other people are going through. The point of your trauma is to learn to have unconditional acceptance of yourself and the world regardless of what happens. It’s to let you know you cannot change the world, but you can change yourself. Half of the battle people are fighting is their own narcissism... that they shouldn't have to learn anything here like the rest of us; they truly think they should be here to rest, eat fruit and have a community take care of them. Trauma is our wake-up call.

You are not going to have a good time here unless you learn this place and how to navigate it.

A lot of people cannot cope with this truth which is why they come up with labels and futility try to protest the Earth's cycle. The years of truth in everybody's life is 27-33, this is also when many people take their life. If you're in this age range and you still haven't gotten the memo that you're on a polarized planet, you should be placed on suicide watch until you get it.

When it comes to the shadow, most people want the persona without the darker parts of the human being. Everybody is giving each other ultimatums to change instead of just removing that person from their life. You cannot tell somebody to change the course of their life they wanted to go on, that's for them to experience. People threaten each other into following "The Right Way to Be" and then they have the nerve to talk about "love." Love doesn't exist when you cannot accept somebody's shadow. When women start threatening males about dying alone (and vice versa) because males didn't follow the script, that is not love. I'm of the opinion that nobody needs to do anything. We have choices and making somebody do something unnatural to them or lying about their capabilities is hatred.


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1 year ago

The Path of Chastity

I follow the path of Chastity because it is the path to the purification of Self. If you wish to learn the gnosis concerning the path of Chastity:

As explained in the attached video, the difference between Chastity and Celibacy is that Chastity is remaining without orgasm and transmuting your sexual energy into Pure Love. Celibacy is remaining without orgasm but the energy is stagnant resulting in the same damage caused by having orgasms. Sexual energy is transmuted through meditation and you will be cured of all diseases.

According to Gnostic Teachings, one can transmute energy by not having an orgasm as the orgasm slowly destroys the brain and you lose the sacred oil needed to restore the Third Eye (sex causes spiritual blindness). Without Chastity, it is not possible to reach the heights of Divinity because forgoing the seconds-long orgasm is considered a sacrifice for Cosmic Knowledge. This is the only way to obtain it. It can't be pondered on or read in a book, so all these people talking about sensuality, eroticism, sexuality, yet speak on being awakened are lying as there is a trade-off for all actions one engages in. The exchange for instant gratification is their potential for Awakening.

Selflessness is required when you are on the path of Christ-Consciousness because it is the path of the healer. Retaining your energy to perform meditation is required; if you do not have energy there is nothing to transmute. It is impossible to meditate when you are spending your sexual energy on orgasms. When you engage in sex meditation is futile which is why so many people struggle with it - when you save your energy and begin meditating regularly you will experience the ecstacy people say they get from sex, but this bliss is permanent. This is possibly the serotonin people speak of missing when they experience depression or other mental illnesses but they are resistant to the truth so they deal with depression for decades and some even their whole lives.

The definition of sex varies, but orgasm is considered sex regardless of the sexuality you label yourself. This includes masturbation. With that said, if you are not on the path of Chastity you would disagree with this, but not everybody is here to follow this path where lust is hell and orgasm is the death. Not everybody on Earth is interested in restoring their emotional centers or even having a Soul or a higher purpose and that is their karma.

2 years ago

Apollo and Poseidon both tried to take Hestia's virginity, her one-in-herself intactness. Rather than succumbing to their desires, however, she swore an oath of eternal chastity. What Hestia resisted by rejecting Apollo and Poseidon is metaphorically significant, corresponding to the intellectual and emotional forces that can pull a woman away from her center.

Hestia represents the Self, an intuitively known spiritual center of a woman's personality that gives meaning to her life. This Hestian centeredness may be invalidated if she "gives in to Apollo." Apollo was God of the Sun, and Apollonian has become equated with logos, the intellectual life, the primacy of logic and reasoning. If Apollo persuades a woman to give up her Hestian virginity, she will subject her inner, intuitively felt experience to the scrutiny of scientific inquiry. What she feels but cannot express in words is thus invalidated; what she knows as an inner wise woman is thus discounted unless it is supported by hard evidence. When “male” scientific skepticism is allowed to penetrate spiritual experience and to demand "proof," the invasion invariably violates a woman's sense of intactness and meaning.

Alternately, if a Hestia woman is "carried away by Poseidon," she is being overwhelmed by the God of the Sea. Poseidon represents the danger of being flooded by oceanic feelings or by contents that well up from the unconscious. When this flood threatens her, she may dream that a huge wave is bearing down on her. In waking life, preoccupation with an emotional situation may keep her from feeling centered. If the turmoil leads to depression, Poseidon's watery influence can temporarily "put out the fire at the center of Hestia's hearth."

When threatened by either Apollo or Poseidon, a Hestia woman needs to seek her one-in-herselfness in solitude. In quiet tranquility, she can once again intuitively find her way back to center.

-Jean Shinoda Bolen, Goddesses in Everywoman

3 years ago

My gripe with Euphoria. Part 1:

My Gripe With Euphoria. Part 1:

The Defamation of Kat and Cassie

So against my better judgment, I watched the darn show....

Both seasons.

It had your typical "teen" drama filled with drugs, sex, and depression, and it was exploitation at its finest.

This is not to say that teens don't experience these things. Far from it, but the way the show frames these experiences does not come off as genuine. We get the sexualization of teen girls and the exploration of how women view their feminity. By exploration, I mean it was some grown man's interpretation of what he feels a powerful and complex teenage girl should look like. That usually always deals with her sexuality. She should be sexually desirable, even when her mental health is at stake. This is shown drastically in characters like Kat and Cassie, two young girls who feel like they are "empowered" in their sexually escapades, and this is done at the expense of their childhood. Teens are practically still children. Legal age has nothing to do with the development of the brain. These characters were told that their value was rested in mainly their sexuality, especially since society saw them as expendable and useless. They tried to show Kat coming into how she views herself, but that storyline was quickly tossed and they left her character hollow.

My Gripe With Euphoria. Part 1:

Image of Kat Hernandez, played by Barbie Ferreira

She started off an actual lead in the story. We see her as the odd one out amongst her friends, Maddy and BB. This oddity, of course, is her virginity. The concept of losing virginity goes back into the idea of a woman's purity and social standing. I have grown to loathe these plot points in teen shows. They are never handled with care or consideration, especially as it relays the idea that a girl can't truly progress in life until she has been conquered, presumably by a man. The story remains even more tasteless when these girls enter a party and Kat is coerced into having sex with some boy from another school. This results in a video being spread, showing her engaging in this deed. I'm sure some laws were broken here, but nevertheless, Kat has to do some damage control in order to stay out of trouble. It is unfortunate to see the show almost enjoy displaying what was clearly her first experience with sex in such a degrading manner. For the sake of plot, I'm sure it suited her to not have her face shown. Still, it makes one wonder about the facelessness of women who are watched online from such humiliating videos. We don't even know if they consented to being video taped. Kat sure didn't.

In episode 2 of season 1, we continue her story with flashbacks of her childhood that show her struggling with her weight as well as the loss of her first boyfriend. Her fight with body image is inherent. Even more heart-rending, Kat finds this new spike in internet fame to be intriguing and goes on to upload more videos of herself to a p*rn site (faceless of course).

Her cam-girl status was simply to shock, not offer meaningful commentary on teen girls and the exposure of themselves to a world that despises them. I believe the actress herself even commented on not wanting another "fat girl" plot line. Of course, not much followed from that outside of her story being cast out.

Image of Kat Hernandez, played by Barbie Ferreira

Consequently, we see her character get more and more one note. Thankfully, she has quit her dominatrix job by season 2, but ber struggles with identity are still realistically persistent. The show refuses to expand on that past episode 3, however. She grows unsatsified with a boy, Ethan, who appears to really like her. The show tries to dispaly how her self-esteem could not be solved through sex, but they refuse to leave her with a shred of diginity. At this point, we can infer that she loathes her body, but is afraid to admit that to a world that will reject her admission. Instead, she fantasizes about getting with someone that views her as an object to be sexually assaulted (shown in a weird Game of Thrones where she is practically r*ped by a warrior). Again, a real life circumstance for some teen girls and women, but also one the show refuses to explore further. We see her then gaslight and berate Ethan in the 2nd season's last few episodes, presenting the idea that girls only want "bad boys" in the end. This is in refusal to address Kat's emerging belief in how she lacks confidence herself and how it was a facade. We don't get to see her feel devastated by her actions, despite being shown as a character very capable of sympathy for others. Her facade of care free sexual appeal is put to the fore-front, and we as the audience are meant to see her just as shallow as she portrays herself. It is also important to note that her counterpart from the 2012 Euphoria series, a character by the name of Noy, dealt with a little more plot wise. Noy's character is actually shown to face long-term consequences from her sexual exploration. Kat's edition of this is shown to be so careless and almost glorifying as a result. Sex of any kind came come with risks, and that should have been shown for her. We don't know much about the men she experiments with, both online and off, how old they are, or what they've done in their pasts. The plus-sized girl in this series is not given any more nuance than she is in most other media portrayals. Kat is still the promiscuous and plus-sized girl who is hard to love. We are no longer able to have her point of view. We are no longer able to sympathize with the girl in this seemingly female-centric show.

My Gripe With Euphoria. Part 1:

Image of Cassie Howard, played by Sydney Sweeney

Cassie is shown desperately clinging to any male figure in her life, carelessly placing her own friends on the back burner. This may be reminiscent of real life, but again, the show does not attempt to humanize her. We are somehow meant to objectify her, especially with the amount of times we've seen her topless. The camera seems to thoroughly enjoy scanning over her body. It matches the ominous and far from hidden attention that her body received upon reaching puberty. This attention, of course, was given by men, strangers and family members alike. Of course, she is naturally unaware of the male gaze as it strips her first of her awareness, hiding behind smiles and gentle gestures. As her body blossoms, the world decides when it would be best to attack. Much like Kat, this attack is confused for affection. With an absent father, much of any male attention can be taken as fickle. Subconsciously, it becomes her mission to keep them however she can. She lives in a world where keeping a boy means you must give much of yourself away to please him. As we know, this does not earn the male’s respect, but rather his denigration. Her character is humiliated and remains unaware, as we see boys talking crudely about her behind her back. To them, she is sexually starved. It is almost sadistic, and masochistic on her oart, how much we are shown her being desperate. Even as we see her get with the seemingly kinder Mckay, it wasn't long before she was being roughhoused by him in bed and gobbling goldfish for his college initiation. The actress, Sydney Sweeney, even explicitly came out and said she asked for less nudity in her role. This is not something that should have to be told, but I guess the director didn't see her for anything but eye candy. You shouldn't need nudity to enthrall and audience, especially at the expense of your actresses. Sam Levinson (writer, producer, director) appeared to have eased away from nudity, noticeably in the show's second season. That did little to polish the show, however. In the 2nd season's final moments, we see Cassie spiral into a fit of grief and righteous fury, feeling rightfully that the world is against her. Of course, this does not excuse her from her own selfish acts. She is decides to get with the ex-boyfriend of her best friend, Maddy, and hide this up until all is revealed by a character I will discuss later. We know the origin of Cassie's lust for love, but she is ultimately shown as shallow and in the wrong. We do not get to discuss how she can come to find more stability in her life, to love herself and love other women. She just simply exists as visual entertainment beside the near sociopathic Nate Jacobs. We see Nate pull her close and push her away, and she is willing to come back everytime. We are supposed to believe she is not allowed mercy, even as she struggles with her own hidden addiction. We see her character painfully go through an abortion, which surely contributed to her declining mental state. This is shown in episode 7 of season 1. It's a plot fleetingly introduced and would never be spoken of again. Shock value for you. We do not get to see her mourn over this loss, although we are aware that this teenager would not do well with a child at the moment. Still, we don't know how she feels about having kids. We do not know how she feels about sex (I mean truly feels, not in how she presents it in scenes with Mckay and Nate).

Maddy confronting Cassie in season 2 episode 8

Maddy confronting Cassie in season 2 episode 8

We do not get to see her discover that love does not exist solely in connection to a man. It should have existed in the love for her sister, possibly even in her flawed mother, or in Maddy and Kat. Primarily, that love should have been for herself, even if it took a long time to find. I highly doubt the upcoming 3rd season will give her that level of complexity and growth. She is just a dramatic plot point. Someone to be put in her place when she breaks under societal pressures. Obviously, self love is not everyone's conclusion, but Cassie, like Kat, is young and very impressionable. It is difficult to tell if the show sees them as such. Girls are told to act like mature adults, and are shamed if they don't achieve this in a way that leaves them both f*ckable and manageable. There is still time for them to learn, but where is their help? Or their conclusions?


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