Flashme69 - 18 And Over Or Leave

I really want that part of my heart back.

The part that loves curling up with a book and reading for hours,

The part that listens to loud music,

The part that giggles at stupid jokes.

I need it back now.

So that everytime I do those things,

I don’t think of you….

-ICS

@sunandwhiskey

“I wonder how you’re supposed to know the exact moment when there’s no more hope.”

— Sara Zarr

“The past was always there, lived inside of you, and it helped to make you who you were. But it had to be placed in perspective. The past could not dominate the future.”

—

Barbara Taylor Bradford

“It wasn’t…it wasn’t this big, huge, dramatic event, you know? It was little things. Tiny moments that kept on happening over and over - until I just couldn’t take it anymore”

- breaking point (@prettynessisthekeytohappiness) //a.d.

Amazing

It's amazing how you go through your life meeting people loving some friends and acquaintances. For me it was always easy everyone liked me but love wise i suck. I always have just settled for who ever was available this ended up getting me married for 14 years to a straight up bitch but I stayed till she cheated then it was over. Then ended up with a woman with two kids which I feel in love with. It was great I know had a family off drugs and settled down. But she couldn't stay clean and two weeks after we separated she overdosed. I fell off the wagon again and decided just to stay single and do what ever I wanted and who. Then a girl showed up who had been over with a friend once before. She was amazing she would come hang out in my shop and talk about everything under the sun. Then it started I was falling for her and hard but one problem she was married. Then one night it happened I was actually scared of her I knew she would break me but I couldn't resist it felt so right. Then a few days later her husband kicked her out. God I was so happy to see her and I moved her right in. This was around 19 months ago. Which have been the greatest and happiest of my life. Then around 3 months ago it started to unravel because I was pushing for her to get divorced which didn't go as I thought it would. We split up I had never felt so much pain and hurt but luckily I got her back and her divorce is in the works. I don't know what will become of us I'm still madly in love with her but I'm not so sure she still fills the same I'm hoping it's just her bring nervous about leaving that life and starting a new chapter with me. I fill in my heart she's the one and has been we where just late meeting. The one thing im 100% about is she's the one I want to grow old with and I hope and pray that she fills the same way.

@sunandwhiskey

Purple Buddha Project Insta

“As time goes on, you’ll understand. What lasts, lasts; what doesn’t, doesn’t. Time solves most things. And what time can’t solve, you have to solve yourself.”

— Haruki Murakami

Damn you for making me love you so much and damn me for letting you do it all over again