Come See Me Be A Horny Clown

Dear stranger who was just wandering around the internet and arrived here. My name is Tania and I absolutely love reading books. I made this blog to repost content I find, but occasionally I will also post something original (it would be easier if I knew how to write, draw or edit properly). I am a good listener (or let's say reader) so if you have anything on your mind, feel free to message me! I think that's all for now. To be honest, I don't know how I am supposed to start a tumblr page, but I think I did it well. Have a nice day xoxo

oh well... this did not go as planned...

unfortunately, I started the year by getting sick + I had my university exams really piled up (some I had to take twice, because I failed the first time due to the previously mentioned sickness...). I don't really see point in finishing Dykecember, as not just December, but even the whole January has passed by now. maybe I will "recycle" the wips for something else, idk, but for now I'm going on with the second point

I hope the year started better for you guys, and I can actually be more active here from now on!

happy new year! ✨

2024 is over, but not my (hopefully not temporary) motivation for writing! my plans for the beginning of the year:

finish Dykecember. even though December ended, I really liked this challenge and I have an idea for most of the prompts, so I want to finish it, no matter how much time it takes. as it's a different month now, I don't think I'll care about the numbering of the days that much - I'll go with what I like, and eventually all 31 will be done

complete the old requests. I have some "leftover" requests from before my break (yes, from years ago.... I'm ashamed of myself). I wanted to do Dykecember as a way of practice to get back into writing, so that the requested pieces won't be half-assed, but these will be next

go on with my original ideas. believe or not, but I actually still have ideas for original fics as well, and I plan on developing these too!

+ if I get any requests in the meantime, I will write that too of course (though I don't really expect that to happen considering that I completely lost my old audience - which is not a surprise since I disappeared for more than 2 years)

I also started developing my own interactive fiction game.... it's just a lil' passion project for now, but maybe when it's a 100% finished and I feel confident enough with it, I'll share it too :)

“Alone with your thoughts” (Candy x Castiel)

Word count: 620

Candy’s P. O. V.

I was suffocating. The noise made my heart beat to the music’s rhythm and chased all coherent thoughts out of my mind. The crowd, all those unknown bodies pressed to mine, made me feel trapped inside with no way out.

The stage lights and the pyrotechnics made it hard for me to see, but I knew very well who I was looking for. He wasn’t be among the crowd, no, with so little time left before his concert he wouldn’t risk getting held up by fans, but I also knew for a fact that he wasn’t in the resting-area with his bandmates. And I was right. I found him in a little corridor, leaning against the wall for support while browsing on his phone. He didn't notice me right away as the loud music made the clash of my heels unhearable.

"Oh my gosh! Can I get an autograph?" I screamed in a fake, high-pitched voice. His head immediately shot up, with a look of terror on his face. When he recognized me he let out a hearty laugh.

"I guess I deserve this, huh?" He grabbed me by the waist to pull me closer to him and planted a kiss on my nose.

"Nah, just helping you practice. This is all you're going to hear when you're gone." I tried to sound cheerful, but he sensed how nervous I was. There was no point in hiding my feelings from him when he knew me so well.

He kissed me on my lips now. "Don't worry love. You're all I think about even on the other side of the world."

Now, he's gone. I was extremely proud of him for being able to go on a tour, but I was also bitter because I couldn't go with him. When both of us had time we talked about our days, but mine were usually empty without him. Actually, I was spoiled; re-organising the band took a lot of time so they didn't have any big parties until now. I was used to him being home, with me, telling me all those sweet little nothings. When I told him about this he said he's sorry we're apart at the moment, but I knew what I was getting myself into. I didn't have the heart to tell him no, I didn't know his work would come with being far from each other like this. I could bear with the physical distance, but this was killing me.

The day I waited for so much came of course, with me standing on my tiptoes at the airport to find him. It strangely reminded me of the last concert he had in town, when his hair was the only thing I could recognize him about from afar. I saw some people who I'd run into at the studio many times, but he was nowhere to be found. Fear started to capture my heart, poisoning my mind with worse and worse theories about where he might be. And then the other memories came back from that night.

The noise. Instead of the loud, upbeat music human noise filled the airport. Children laughing, lost people asking for directions, the speaker announcing something every once in a while. The crowd. Everywhere I looked travelers, families, businesspeople were strolling confidently, knowing where they are headed. My exact opposite. I looked around frantically again, then slumped down on a nearby bench, placing my head in my hands. Just as I got seated I felt an arm snake around me, soon joined by its pair while someone pressed their forehead to mine.

"I'm right here" I heard him say. "I'm sorry for being gone and leaving you alone, alone with your thoughts."

reposting here, because it also concerns this blog

I see now that I still have requests in my askbox... from years ago. wow! I'll finish them, and then I'll see what the future brings

btw yeah. I guess I'm back?

I slowly (re?)introduced myself to mcl when the halloween event dropped and realised that I deeply miss the original one (and technically, I've also never finished it LMFAO thank you ap system). I'm playing new gen, and although I have some prejudices about it, I like it for now

I have no idea if I have anyone left on my writing blog who would read if I wrote again and I also have no idea what I would write again about! I don't know the characters of the newgen well enough for that yet, I don't play (and don't even plan on playing) other games, and as for old mcl.... yeah

but in any case, if for nothing else but just for myself, I'll probably accompany my journey of mcl here again, and if / when creativity strikes, I'll also write it out here :)

random addition that I just remembered:

the best thing in MCL was that little demo game with Chinomimi, Nath and that elephant sculpture. I played it like. 20000 times a day, I loved it. I was ashamed that a game with such a title got my attention, I didn't dare to sign up at that time, but I went back every day to play that little demo

removing it was worse than removing the three LIs from HSL, change my mind

favorite memory from prime mcl time?

I... don’t really know what you mean as “prime MCL time”? but I guess HSL, since I know many people enjoyed that season the most

sadly, I wasn’t here around that time. I started playing in 2016 (I think? I don’t remember anymore), then stopped when UL aired (I got mad at losing Kentin, okay???? 😭). I only came back around a year ago and that’s when I really joined the fandom as well

I don’t know if this counts as “favourite memory”, but the expos and goodies (including the mangas) are something I really miss, even if I haven’t personally experienced them, they sound truly amazing! also, not an exact memory as well, but I 100% support the change of the art style (illustrations and sprites); they look much better this way

as much as I quit because of UL, I’m a bit sad that I wasn’t part of the fandom then, since I can still see so many posts from that time. amazing fanarts, fanfictions, the fans interacting with each other... it might be because there are less things from the HSL era on Tumblr, but for me it seems like the golden time of the fandom was during UL

so yeah, I don’t have many memories and I’m also not sure I understood and answered your question correctly 😂 if not, I’m sorry, my brain is completely drained

ANON ASK TIME

🍎: favorite food

🌦: favorite weather/season

🌎: dream travel destination

🐻: favorite animal

🐶🐱: dog or cat person

☀️🌙: morning or night person

🌠: zodiac sign

👤: MBTI personality type

🔮: Hogwarts house

👁: what do you look like

🎶: top 5 songs you listen to at the moment

✝️: religious or not

💿: top 5 favorite movies and/or movie genres

👻: do you believe in ghosts

👽: do you believe in aliens

👕: what’s your style

⏰: top 3 favorite pastimes

👅: top 5 kinks/turn ons

🍀: do you have good luck, bad luck, no luck at all, or do you make your own

🛍: favorite store(s) [online//physical]

🧸: your main/favorite toy growing up, why

🚬: bad habit you want to break

🎮: the greatest time you had playing a video game

👹: 6 things someone would put in a pentagram to summon you

😱: biggest fears

😡: top 5 pet peeves in a romantic partner

😍: top 5 virtues in a romantic partner

🤓: a subject/topic you could completely, 200%, without hesitation, nerd out about

⏳: would you travel forward or backwards in time and why

📖: 1 fictional character you’d love to bring to life

💤: weirdest dream you’ve ever had

🔁: favorite tradition

🏆: things you collect, why

🎧: song that describes your best friend(s)

🏖: favorite vacation destination

🛸: if aliens abducted you, what would you tell them about Earth

🍼: one of your favorite childhood memories

🎄: favorite holiday, why

🤖: how do you feel about walking, talking, critically thinking A.I.s ?

😴: describe your favorite sleeping position

🤢: the sickest😎 you’ve ever been

🤡: an embarrassing childhood memory

⚰️: scariest way to die

😢: a book or movie that made you cry the most

🤐: a secret you want to know the most about anything in the universe

👊🏻: a celebrity/famous person you want to punch the most

🤝: celebrity/famous person you want to meet and spend a day with the most

🍻: which person in history would you want to have a drink with

💪🏻: superpower you want the most

🗺: where you want to be right now

🔗: reason you joined tumblr

🗣: what accent do you have

🕵🏻: are you a good judge of character

🌅: favorite memory of nature being so damn beautiful

🔍: first thing you see physically on a person

💬: a quote you connect with (favorite or random)

⛵️: a fictional relationship/friendship/pairing you enjoy

🎓: best class and/or teacher you ever had

🌈: RANDOM: whatever you want to ask or say to me ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜💖

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hmm, it's been long since I've written anything, huh? more than a month wtf

school has been really weighing on me, but luckily it will end soon ^^ my absolute last exam was today, so technically I'm already free \o/

I'll share a prompt list, and I encourage everyone to go and request something if they like one or more of the prompts! I'll write everything you need to know in the post itself, just thought I'd let you guys know to prepare yourselves ahahaha

Christmas with Castiel

This the first part of my participation on the Winter Holiday event that the Otome Haven is organizing. I’ll do one of those for each LL crush.

Candy took another sip of the steamy liquid, letting the heat relax her muscles as it made its way through her insides. She hummed and snuggled against his chest. With her eyes closed, she paid attention to his calm breathing as they listened to a random Spotify playlist filled with Christmas songs. He found it excessively cliché, but she wanted to do it, so he resigned.

Castiel loved those intimate and simple moments between them, they showed how not everything was about big gestures. They didn’t need a fancy dinner or expensive presents to reassure their love. Spending their Christmas night on each other’s arms, drinking hot chocolate and enjoying the chill night was just enough for him.

“I love you.” She muttered and looked up at him. His lips quickly found hers and he could taste the sweetness of her drink through them. The low noise that their mouths made when breaking apart added to the intimacy of that moment. 

“Merry Christmas, little reindeer.” Castiel grabbed her cheeks with one hand and squeezed them, making her lips pop out. She smiled, making her face look even cuter. His eyes drifted to the accessory in her head, then again to her mouth. He brought her face to him without releasing her cheeks, making the kiss a bit awkward.

She chuckled and hugged him. Her head found the crook of his neck and sniffed the citrus cologne, his favorite. “Mmm… I should be checking if the cookies didn’t burn.” Candy reluctantly left his embrace and got up. A few seconds later, he followed suit.

“I’ll go with you.” 

Turns out they were already cooked, so they took the tray out of the oven and let it on the counter to cool down. Of course, Castiel took the opportunity to steal some more kisses. In the end, when the caresses stopped, the cookies were cold. 

“Oopsie” He said without a single regret. It wasn’t like she was mad also. They savored the sweet and found it delicious anyway. This was a very good Christmas.

Ah, but it’s much funnier to imagine random scenes that show their other personality traits, and these gotta be connected somehow

i have to remind myself that i don't need to write a whole book for every character i make. sometimes characters can exist simply for the sake of being sexy