I've Been Unable To Stop Thinking About This Since Yesterday, And By Doing Some Research I Could Gather

I've been unable to stop thinking about this since yesterday, and by doing some research I could gather some valuable info and understand some things i was mistaken about.

TL;DR: Intuitive tarot and claircognizance

Generally, the mechanics and method the game portraits is Intuitive Reading rather than fortune telling, where the reader uses intuition mostly instead of logical meanings, letting the energy do the story telling. This explains why sometimes the answers the game provides some answers that I don't think resonates with the card draw entirely, or it goes beyond what I'd think it means

Having a name to research about is so great because this is what i want to test with my craft, when i used to read, i heavily looked into meanings in books rather than just go with the flow, afraid to get it wrong, my intuition only came into play to connect the logical dots, decide on the structure or explore the cards i already knew best. It's a flaw of mine, the fear of making mistakes, so i tend to stick with the instructions more than necessary, rationalizing things too much.

It worked, I can't deny that, but it prevents me from developing whats most important: my senses. Talking of senses, i researched into clairvoyance briefly and can say the one that i feel wothin is claircognizance (man does it feel good to have a name for something i could only try to describe before).

Claircognizance, in my case, often manifests as little things that i know will happen before they actually do, and i have extensive memories of different occasions when i felt this happen: once in middle school, when a music instructor asked for a volunteer, and i raised my hand knowing I'd be the chosen one (i was); feeling my valorant match was doomed even when we had a large advantage (i was so pissed); knowing the word someone I'm listening to will use before they say it; my gut feelings were always rarely wrong, when i just started studying witchcaft and in our first trip to nature i actively searched and found the twig for my magic wand; knowing some people are not trustworthy/not liking someone for apparently no reason and they happen to be a jerk; choosing the right answer without a clue, just because it feels right, or knowing I'm picking wrong because it just feels odd, very different from a blind guess;

Having a feeling that i should deep dive a random subject, no matter if i never heard of it before, because it feels like it has the answers to the storm on my head.

Thing is, i never thought this weird phenomenon and tarot could be tied together, to let this little sentient voice in my head overthrow the basic words on the tarot book guides, i thought differentiating one known meaning from the other was enough, relating them to other knowledges were enough. Just passing the message ahead without much disturbance. But i feel it's not anymore

This is absolutely not an excuse to drop tarot study and just go around spitting feelings, no, it's an opportunity to boost my knowledge so i feel confident enough not to open a book and make sure it's right, trusting the feeling is enough.

Not only that, claircognizance sure played a huge part in my abilities to pick up the cues Hekate has given me up to this point, to read and understand Her signs, to know if She's pleased.

The more i look into it the more i believe this won't be just a mere test with tarot, but maybe a step up on my slow going studies, a way to make tarot less "square" for me and effectively introducing it to my routine (as i should, a long time ago)

If everything goes right, my blog will undergo big changes, i usually like to rebuilt accordingly ;)

Recently i came across a beautiful game that had me questioning a few things. When learning tarot i always stuck heavily with books' and instructions' help, a considerable amount instead of pure intuition (but of course there were some, or else it wouldn't be tarot). Other than that, i also kept constantly in mind that tarot was purely therapeutical and guidance rather than fortune telling, as many wiser Witches taught me.

This game however, showed me a completely different vision on how to read the cards, with very simple yet effective spreads and much more confident interpretations. I also have strong reasons to believe this is Hekate's idea.

TL;DR: I wanna try fortune telling instead of therapeutic tarot

Confidence, i think it's the keyword. When i started this blog, even if i wanted to stick with the guidance tips tarot i was taught, many people came to me asking things about their future and not much insights about themselves, and that made me so nervous because, obviously, i didn't want to make a wild, ambicious prediction and it be wrong, to disappoint the requester, nor did i want to bring the bad news. So to avoid it, i was the first one to bland it out and make it not a big deal. The grain of salt.

It is wise from a point of view, one's future is theirs to make their own, but constantly telling myself "I can't go too far" might have limited my own intuition power.

Of course a game is but a game, it is scripted and has the limitless of fiction, however i do firmly believe there are talented, gifted people out there that can predict the future through divination magic with precision unmatched (oh, the stories i heard), but it's something wlse entirely, much harder to believe i could be one of those.

Even if i am unfortunately not very constant with my tarot craft, because it doesn't pay my bills and all that, i do feel a strong connection with my decks and the things i learn through the little sessions and readings every now and then, therefore trying out a new thing could be doable

When im not in tune during a session, my cards kinda "refuse to work" until we fix the vibes, the question, etc, and when everything is aligned it flows with incredible accuracy and meaning. I never "predicted the future" per see, however many, dare i say most, of my readings sooner than later came to be true, the ones i had been close to watch it unroll, so it might be possible to channel that energy into something similar, bolder.

The more i think about it, the stronger is my feeling to dive into this possibility, because i know if that's something my decks are not okay with, they will give me the proper queues, leaving my on read, so back to insightful readings it is.

Just like i do with my hair, a little bit of experimentation will not hurt anybody

My idea is to go deeply into bold fortune telling, let my intuition go wild, align it with my current knowledge (and future, because that's never too much) and allow myself some creativity freedom, read the cards with my third eye and present the consultant with very different outcomes one might never have considered an option.

About Hekate's insight, this month i admit to have failed my duties more than other months, it got me a little sad, because it's partly due to work and rest routine that I'm terrible at organizing. But during one of my hunting sessions for games to relax, I came to find that game by paths i usually don't trail (navigation wise) and played the demo that instantly made me purchase the whole thing.

I have reasons to believe Hekate lead me to it, silently with a few odd clicks, just the way She initially lead me to tarot years back, with a simple instagram ad (an opportunity to take the first step, after many days of me pondering about it). The game, The Cosmic Wheel Sisterhood, has a beautifully written script, nice game mechanics, pretty art and designs and wild interpretations of Witchcraft, a great piece of fictional entertainment watered with valuable pieces of basic information Witches should know about.

This totally wakened my senses, as i said, sadly not constant with tarot, i felt intrigued with the mechanics and possibilies, and after lots of research on the matter, my conclusion is yes, fortune telling could be possible for me, if im brave enough the flourish it.

Like the game protagonist, I'm a bit scared of what may come out of this, seen like i had a very turbulent past that made me insanely afraid of what the future holds (cough cough ptsd cough subject for another day), this can be a healthy way of helping deal with it.

I shall make a briefer post later, but my idea is to reopen tarot requests, making it explicit that this is a beta testing fortune telling kind of deal.

Although i feel strongly Hekate is the one once again showing me the way, i feel like gathering some additional sources to aid this possible journey, and read more into Apollo's devotes and their experience with clairvoyance is on my list, maybe i might be blessed with His dodgeball gift of prophecy red ball in the face, so if any of Apollo's fortune tellers, messengers or followers have any tips regarding prophetic matters I'd love to hear about it!

Hopefully I'll be back soon with news, thank you so much if you read until here, have a blessed week ✨