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This was definitely the case during treatment. I always felt like I was comforting others more than they were comforting me.

Yeah I’m okay but like in a “if someone hugged me for too long I would start crying” kind of way

You got this buddy

“Trust yourself. You’ve survived a lot, and you’ll survive whatever is coming.”

— Unknown

August 20th i got a double knee surgery to fix osteo necrosis caused by chemo.

The fun never ends for your local cancer patient.

Reading one of my favorite authors books this quote was one of my favorite because i related to it so deeply. Especially through a cancer diagnosis and treatment.

"When we tell those stories to people in chronic pain, or those with incurable illness, we often end up minimizing their experience. We end up expressing our doubt in the face if their certainty, which only compounds the extent to which pain separates the person experiencing it from the wider social order. The challenge and responsibility of personhood, it seems to me, is to recognize personhood in others - to listen to others pain and take it seriously, even when you yourself cannot feel it. The capacity for listening, i think, really does separate human life from the quasi-life of an enterovirus."

-John Green

'The Anthropocene Reviewed

Well, almost 6 weeks have gone by since my surgery date and I'm in less pain. But after 6 weeks of not being allowed to bend my knees at all are put any pressure I fear that the worst is yet to come in relevance to pain.

Next week going for X-rays. So it's going to determine if the surgery helped or if it was all for naught. What physio will look like.

My goal is to be walking by Christmas. Fi gets very much crossed.

August 20th i got a double knee surgery to fix osteo necrosis caused by chemo.

The fun never ends for your local cancer patient.

What is your least favorite saying people say/said to you through your diagnosis or treatment?

Bro. All to true.

WHEN CANCER MUGGLES TRY TO SAY HOW YOURE ONE OF GODS BRAVEST SOLDIERS

Quick story about me.

I had Acute lymphoblastic leukemia.

I was diagnosed in March 2018. And was treated until July of 2020. It was a long road and with a lot of complications and ups and downs.

This page is dedicated to people who don't feel comfortable talking about their cancer journey, and that is okay.

But I'll be sharing memes, my own story, and things that I have found out along the way.

Things like cancer are funny, because people think you're some sort of hero. And that's what is the most scary. You are afraid to let everyone down. And it's horrible.

My family was toxic. Made me feel bad for the debt we went into because my treatments weren't where we lived so we had to travel.

My sister made me feel guilty for not talking to her much, because she couldn't be with me. And she blamed me. When all I could do all day was try not to throw up, go to I appointments and do my best to sleep because it was far and few between.

Family can be toxic. And a lot of the time, they don't understand just how hard it was for you. But stay strong. Or tell them off. Because you, are the one facing that monster that is chemo or radiation or transplant. Or in the bad cases, your own mortality.

They don't know how it is. They won't ever know until they go through it. Hopefully they never have to.