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This is the kind of deep-rooted, blind love I talk about when I talk about Brian. The devotion. The care. The willingness to forgive in the name of a love that itself can't be named.

I had to reread the first paragraph multiple times for the "as rich and deep and crimson as the blood that once bound us in a cradle of death" alone. That quote alone is so perfect I'd get it tattoed all over my body if it were a sensible thing to do.

This is the kind of poetry I hope scholars will study and be in awe of in 100+ years. This is the kind of writing that needs to be remembered for the centuries to come.

an ode to the unnameable devotion of brian moser

mosercest

by atticus

I do not think of him as my brother. How could I, when the word itself rings with such tame domesticity, such sweet, pale innocence, and what I feel for him is neither pale nor innocent, but as rich and deep and crimson as the blood that once bound us in a cradle of death?

There are some names that do not belong to language. Dexter is one of them. His name was never meant to be spoken in the dry syllables of men, it belongs to the pulse beneath my tongue, to the marrow in my bones. I do not utter it as others do, I pray it. And when I dream, it is not the dream of a brother for a brother.

To call it love is a heresy, but to deny it is an act of soul-murder. And I, who have spent my life amidst the stench of mortal fear, will not be cowed by the moral whimperings of the world that once turned its face away while I wept in the blood of our mother. No, I shall not pretend.

He is mine.

Not in any ordinary sense of the word, not by law, nor by name, nor even by that fragile thing called brotherhood.

Dexter was born of the same blood that soaked my shoes and seared my memory, he was shaped by the same hands that carved hollows into my chest where joy should have lived. We were sculpted in the same womb, and later baptized in the same bloodbath.

What, then, is there between us that is not us?

From the moment I saw him, truly saw him, beneath the mask of smiles and plastic humanity. I knew he bore the same abyss inside him that I did. That same hunger. It was like looking into a mirror that had bled and wept and somehow survived. He did not know it yet, but he was already mine by design, by destiny, by a thread so tightly wounded around our throats that it choked us both with longing.

I do not desire him carnally—though perhaps I would, if I believed it would draw him nearer, if I thought it would bind him to me in a tangle of limbs and breath and pulse. But that is not the love I speak of. Mine is the kind of love that would slit its own wrists just to stain the earth where the beloved walks, the kind that would crawl through grave-dirt just to lie beside him in death.

There is a cruelty to fate, I was the elder. I should have protected him. Should have taken his hand and led him out of the blood and into the light. But instead, I was torn from him like a limb from a body, and I have been phantom-limbed ever since, aching and gnawing at air, trying to feel whole. Every kill, every echoing breath I took in the decades that followed, they were not acts of malice.

And when I found him , oh, when I found him, it was resurrection.

My baby brother had forgotten me. I forgave him for that. How could he have remembered? He was raised in whitewashed homes by men who feared the darkness in his gaze, how could he know the taste of obsession when all he has known is mimicry? They taught him how to eat, to drive, to love in the petty plastic ways they understand—and yet they could never touch the thing within him that was mine. That had always been mine. He knows, even if he denies it. He sings the same song I do, only in a lower key.

He kills. And oh, how beautifully he kills.

I watched one of his works once, and I wept. Not for the victim. But for the beauty of it.

If he would only come with me. If he would step into the truth and shed the skin of the false self he wears, we could finally be whole. He does not yet see the freedom in it. But I would show him. Not with violence, but with care. With patience.

And if he refused?

Then I would weep again. And then I would forgive him, for he does not know.

But even then, even if his eyes closed forever, even if I were forced to watch the light go out of them, I would never leave him. I would not cut him up like the others. I would preserve him. I would cradle him in a tomb of my own making, keep his skin soft and his lips unbroken. I would speak to him by candlelight and I would dress his wounds and comb his hair. I would tell him the stories of our mother and press my mouth to his in silence, not for desire, but for reverence.

Let the world call it sin. Let them shriek their judgments into the wind. I care not. For in my heart I know what they dare not admit, that there is no purer union than us.

He is my brother. I took back my word.

He is my beginning and my ending.

Let the sky crack and the sea boil, for I would still choose him. Over life. Over heaven.

I would choose him.

This exact point but with tv shows and movies, especially characters from them, that I'm currently obsessing over. Currently being the key word because I'll be the first one to put my hands forward and say "things are like this (as far as I remember) or (to the best of my understanding given what I have to work with)". And I'll happily accept someone just responding with an explaination or similar.

But not when I'm completely, utterly, undoubtedly sure. Not when the thing were discussing about is canonical and the person in question is trying to give their own interpretation going on a rant about how "they actually meant that cause of that one throwaway line they said jokingly blah blah". Like sweetheart, that's not what the og source says.

(Obv ships and headcanons don't count, live and let live, everyone has their own opinions on that and as ling as you dont harm no one, it's no problem. I'm talking about people actively trying to push stupid propaganda down your throat because they feel the need to have the characters comply to their bigotry, racism, homophobia and similar beliefs)

One of my best traits is that I'm not defensive of thoughts or ideas I'm not sure about. If I vaguely remember something being some way, and someone who's more familiar with the subject goes "actually, no, they changed that, these days it's this way, and has been like that for the past 17 years", I'm only grateful of that. If something coming out of my mouth might be wrong, it's no surprise or insult to me to find out that it was.

One of my worst traits is that I am aggressively defensive of thoughts and ideas I am sure about. If I'm talking about something I'm very familiar with academically and in my personal life, and someone comes to correct me incorrectly like "um actually [blatantly wrong and regurgitated tumblr pop culture misconception, that is also worded poorly]", I am going to rip the leg off the nearest piece of furniture and beat you with it.

two times Bucky realizing it's Steve ...

I desperately need, but have no capability to create myself cause my writing sucks and I can't characterise specific people well, to read a story where Brian reveals himself to Dexter much sooner. In some stupid way like calling Dexter Barbie when they're alone or shit. One where he never used Rudy's alias and was maybe in a relationship with Deb but only to dump her post revelation. And after Dex finds out they decide to act like brothers through and through, and find a way to live with one another (Dex with his Code and Brian with his hate of it) and they reveal it to people too, like Angel, Masuka, Deb, Rita and co. like "Hey, this is my long lost blood brother that I just found". It all happens where Dex is still with Rita (no slander of that poor woman accepted) but somehow him and Brian end up fighting (about the code or stuff related to it cause I find it unlikely that they'd start fighting about anything else) and you know the classical heated make-out session post fight? Exactly that, all in the heat of the moment. And the story revolves around Brian who just wanted exactly that from the start but hadn't dared cause he feared losing Dexter again and Dexter having an existential crisis cause of it since he still loves Rita and even if he were to leave her he already introduced Brian as his blood brother to practically everybody.

finally a person active to ramble about brian moser. his death is a pure tragedy. brian just accepted the fact that he got betrayed by his precious sibling after years of longing for him as a fond memory while desiring to get rid of this "foster bullshit" because adoption's not like true family, it's a gut-wrenching hoax that brian endured for years in isolation, trapped between walls with no possibility to reconnect with his only "salvation" alias dexter &. willing to embrace his younger brother's lack of humanity out of pure unconditional love. brian's peak fraternity &. dexter ended up throwing away his hope by eliminating brian due to his obssession with limbs &. "code"... well, controversial hot take but i wished that brian quickly got rid of dexter after the impromptu stunt or that brian secretly annihilated debra without leaving any trace before using manipulation skills to coax dexter to go back to old times with the promise of accepting all his ugly parts that he kept cancealing.

Believe me, I so wished for Brian to survive and take care of Deb on his own somehow. Not Dexter. He could never harm his baby brother not even if his life depended on it.

Also, I'm sure that he could've been, if not molded to the code, accepting of Dexter's own free will to follow it if Dexter had simply set him down and explained it. Nobody can't convince me of the contrary cause Brian obsessed over reuniting with Dex for like 31 full years and people still think that he simply would've thrown away all that simply cause Dexter didn't wanna abandon the code? Oh gimme a break. He would've accepted anything if Dexter had been capable of expressing his own worries and problems.

His death still has such a grip on me this many years later cause that "Am I one of your victims now?" broke me then and it still breaks me now.

And Dexter going like "you need to be put down" and Brian "Why? Because of your code?" and Dex "And the safety of my sister" TF YOU MEAN THE SAFETY OF YOUR SISTER?? HE'S YOUR GODDAMN BLOOD BROTHER AND YOU'RE WILLING TO OFF HIM TO SAVE HER?

This is one of those rants where quoting the books comes in handy too btw cause in Darkly Dreaming Dexter he quite literally realized that Harry had lied to him all along and after that, as he looked down at Debra's body bound to the table in plastic, his internal monologue stated, and I quote: "And more to the immediate point, what did I owe this squirming lump of animal flesh quivering beneath me, this creature masquerading as my sibling? What could I possiby owe her in comparison to my bond with Brian, my own flesh, my brother, a living replication of my selfsame precious DNA?"

Like, how did we go from that kind of devotion to "I have to kill him to save her"?

Brian's devotion and love were blind but there and strong, unrelenting and deep.

Dexter's devotion was misplaced since he himself regretted having killed Brian later on in the seasons, especially when Deb found out about his little hobby and tried to kill both of them by drowning them in the car.

Spoilers for Original Sin and Dexter season 1 cause I need to rant about stuff. I warned you.

I just gotta rant about this cause everyone seems so pleased with Original Sin and how it came out...

The show per se wasn't bad at all, actually I even liked it but there were so many inconsistencies plot-wise that I could've happily ignored if it was a separate work or even an alternative universe, but not since it's supposed to be Dexter reminiscing his past at the end of New Blood.

Imma start off with a simple question: Where in FUCK'S name is Matthews?? Originally that man was at Deb's 16th or so birthday and you want me to believe that now that she's supposed to be 17 (which by the way I dont like since her birthday was december 7th of 1979, thing that would happily explain why Matthews is nowhere to be seen) he's not even shown as part of the police force??

Also, should I ignore the fact that Dex in episode one of the first show used the fishing noose or whatever it was like in the books to lead his victims to their death to then start using M99 at random? And in OG sin they make him find it out by the end of the season which woud completely threw off the plot of the pilot episode Dexter.

Dont even get me started on Brian as a charater and all cause what Xander and epecially Roby did was magical. They perfectly encapsulated Brian's essence as a charater and a person but what the fuck was his storyline even???

I could go on hours long rants about Brian's fluctuating age cause he and Dex weren't even a full year apart in the books and already in Dexter they had made it two to three (since they told us Brian was 6 when the Shipping Yard massacre happened but then they showed us his driver's licence were his birthday was set in 1968, which would've made him 5 but okay) AND NOW THEY PUSHED HIS BDAY EVEN FURTHER?!?! Like what do you mean 1966?? Do they want him to be a full blown teenager when his mother gets killed or what?

Also, have mercy on me but what is this psychopath propaganda they're trying to push on him? Oh yeah, he had morbid curiosity about some lizards and detached their tails for fun. He's definitely evil. Well, lemme break it to you: LIZARDS CAN SHED THEIR TAILS NATURALLY!! So that whole bullshit scene of Harry and Dexter making a funeral for the lizards made no damn sense unless Brian actively killed them somehow offscreen (or if I missed the scene in which he did) And even if he did, he was a poor curious child. Someone could've just gone "you dont do that cause it hurts the lizards" and he would've most likely stopped.

Still on the psycopath propaganda part, I'm tired as hell of hearing people say, and reading comments stating, Brian is a psychopath. I can assure you that if he'd really been a psychopath he wouldn't have cared so much about getting back to Dex. He also wouldn't have had his emotional moments either like when he snapped at Dex because "you cant be a killer and a hero..." in Dexter and his "so I can work at a radio shack for the rest of my life?!" to his therapist. I can go into even more detail about his death and all but that could easily be a separate post.

Back to OG Sin in general... Where did Spencer even come from in the storyline? And btw, was I the only one who clocked that mf in episode 2? I'm sure that the actor who played him did a fantastic job with him if I managed to notice so early on because lord was it obvious that there was something wrong with that man.

LaGuerta is even more insufferable than she already was in Dexter and that alone is saying tons.

What was that whole storyline with Sofia and shit? What was the purpose of it, and even better, if they hadn't been renewed for a new season how did they expect to explain where in hell she went since Deb never mentioned her (to my knowledge) in Dexter?

Also, please, and I promise this is the last thing, can they give Debra a normal relationship? Why does EVERY SINGLE GUY she gets with have to be a drug dealer a serial killer or an abusive entitled bitch? Can't she fall for a normal guy and have a normal relationship ending with a normal excuse like "he snored in his sleep and he didn't know how to do his laundry" or shit like that???

tl;dr: Where is Matthews? Introducing M99 like that seemed very stupid. Why do they hate Brian's story and character so bad? Where did Spencer come from? And I'm not even gonna bother with LaGuerta, Sofia and Deb.

Fr, I was watching Vikings and I was surprised everyone was walking normally without canes and stuff and then it hit me that the blind characters are from See.

watching 2 or more series at the same time gets confusing sometimes

I seriously just thought “why don’t you use your death note?” while watching dexter

And after all these magnificent pictures exist I still manage to find people who shit on this amazing man's looks! Like, dude, you blind?!

Really an angel of a man. Should've been 100x more famous than he is and prob should've had a modeling gig or smt cause there's no way he wasn't appreciated a little especially when he was younger. (And even now Lord help me he's still fine!!)

enjoy these pics i’ve mysteriously found🤫

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should’ve been us am i right

I resonate with this so bad fr. Deb is always whining and complaining for stuff that is, in 90% of the cases, her own fault.

Sofia has no business in existing nor complaining to Dexter. And that whole stunt she pulled kissing the other guy to make Dex jealous as if he'd care? That was so stupid!

And don't get me started on Harry! I could write entire paragraphs on how much I can't stand that man and all he did and said. I've been calling him Victor Frankenstein for as long as I can remember. He created a, as he perceived, monster to then be completely repulsed by it and preferred suicide than dealing with it? Oh give me a break ffs

sofia pisses me off too like girl dexter is not ur bf he never was he clearly didn’t want u. and deb needa stfu too like why are you getting so mad at everything like this ho screams at them at LEAST 3 times an episode. and harry can go suck a fuck too he ruined brian AND dexters lives. laguerta is a cunt too. mostly everyone else is chill tho. brian and dexter are perfect angels tho they can do no wrong. ok rant over bye

Was it the:

"I never wanted to hurt you 🥺"

"I know 😖😭"

"Does this make it easier for you? Because I can keep going. 😒"

Because if so, fr, like, what was she thinking??

i giggle every time i remember deb had a “brian this isn’t you🥺” moment when he kidnapped her

This voice alone could melt me even while reading the ingredients on the back of a shampoo bottle.

Is it just me? Am I crazy? Cause in this scene, when Dexter kills him, you cant hear a peep coming from Brian.

You know how usually people who choke on their blood make a lot of noise but he didn't. Like he accepted it and it almost seems like he tried to hold back as to not have Dexter hear him.

A sketch of Will Graham I did years back. I found it a couple of days ago in a folder where I used to keep my drawings.

The og sketch is likely an already existing piece of art since at the time I used to redraw them to practice so I wont take credit for the sketch per se.

Just this replica was done by me so lemme know if you like it. And if you find the OG author tag them and I'll give proper credit. 🫶

:)))

no lube, no protection, all night, all day, from the kitchen floor to the toilet seat, from the dining table to the bedroom, from the bathroom sink to the shower, from the front porch to the balcony, vertically, horizontally, quadratic, exponential, logarithmic, while I gasp for air, scream and see the light, missionary, cowgirl, reverse cowgirl, doggy, backwards, sideways, upside down, on the floor, in the bed, on the couch, on a chair, being carried against the wall, outside, in a train, on a plane, in the car, on a motorcycle, the the bed of a truck, on a trampoline, in a bounce house, in the pool, bent over, in the basement, against the window, have the most toe curling, back arching, leg shaking, dick throbbing, fist clenching, ear ringing, mouth drooling, ass clenching, nose sniffling, eye watering, eye rolling, hip thrusting, earthquaking, sheet gripping, knuckles cracking, jaw dropping, hair pulling, teeth jitterbug, mind blogging, soul snatching, overstimulating, vile, sloppy,moan inducing, heart wrenching, spine tingling, back breaking, atrocious,gushy, creamy, beastly, lip biting, gravity defying, nail biting, sweaty, feet kicking, mind blowing, body shivering, orgasmic, bone breaking, world ending, black hole creating, universe destroying, devious, scrumptious, amazing, delightful, delectable, unbelievable, body numbing, bark worthy, can't walk, head nodding, soul evaporating, volcano erupting, sweat rolling, voice cracking, trembling, sheets soaked, hair drenched, flabbergasting, lip locking, skin peeling, eyelash removing, eye widening, pussy popping, nail scratching, back cuts, spectacular, brain cell desolving, hair ripping, show stopping, magnificent, unique, extraordinary, slendid, phenomenal, mouth foaming, heavenly, awakening, devils tango ever bro could cause a nuclear bomb inside me and I'd still ride.

This scene was so well acted that I've been replaying it in the back of my mind since it came out!! I'm still in awe.

you promised me, you wouldn't separate me and dexter.

but you did.

so, now... i'm gonna separate you.

This is SCRUMPTIOUS!! Did anyone say that!! My man looking FIIIINE!

just more scribbles... (there's a tommy here too but the pose wasn't right so. may try again another time.)

dexter and rudy brian

I just betrayed you. Here's hint on how to deal with your enemy. I won't let anyone else even think they can take charge of my domain. But you can, and if someone says anything I'll personally put them in their place. If anyone disrespects me they die. But you can call me cunt and I'll let it slide.I care about my family. But if someone betrays me I'll accuse them before I even think of accusing you.

Honourable mention:

"After all this time it's just you and me."

"Shall we go, and witness the final act (together)?"

AlfieTommy IS the dynamic of all time. We work together. I could never trust you. You’re the only one who gets it. He’s a good friend, you’ll need to pay extra for me to backstab him. Sweetie. We shot each other. I take care of your dog. Only my wife is allowed to smoke around me (and you, always, apparently). I’ll cut you into pieces and stuff you in a barrel. Here’s a tissue for your nosebleed.

let's face it, Obi-Wan is only a stickler for the rules in comparison to Anakin. this guy thought lightsaber nunchucks were cool as a teenager and jumping out of politicians windows was cool as an adult. he regularly sasses the chancellor of the republic. he saw Anakin and Padmé being super obvious and decided it was none of his business. he sits pussy facing the world in important meetings. hes's a lonely single in your area. he won one (1) fight against a sith lord and decided they were his speciality despite getting his ass handed to him by Dooku multiple times. he's annoying on purpose as a battle strategy. every man he meets desires him carnally and he doesn't notice. he puts one foot on Han Solos ship and is like "damn bitch you live like this" despite having spent 20 years in a desert hole. he gets himself killed to one-up Vader one last time. he's winning the idgaf war